A/N: Sorry I haven't updated in awhile. I haven't had much time on the main computer, so I uploaded the last chapters of all my stories onto a floppy so now I'm writing them on my computer in my room. No 'net though. And also it's weird, the whole desktop moves, it's an old computer. Okay, So here we go.

Disclaimer: I own nothing, just the plot.

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Chapter 5

Longest Time

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"In the old potions book," Remus said and Severus stared at him open mouthed. "Have.Have you ever seen it before?" Severus asked, stuttering. "No, I just opened it. First time I ever seen it in my life," Remus said looking down at the letter. Of course Remus didn't see it before. Severus put the letter into the book on the last day of classes in their seventh year. They didn't work out of their book that day, which made Severus both upset and happy. Having double feelings about Remus finding the note. He was hoping he wouldn't be there when he did too, but it seemed like the planets were against him. "Do you know who wrote it?" Severus asked rereading the letter and handing it back to Remus. "No, I suppose Sirius but that isn't his hand-writing," Remus said then stopped and looked up at Severus. "Remus, I wrote that. It was just a silly boyhood crush. It meant nothing," Severus said and was surprised to hear his voice rise another octave on the last note. "Just a silly boyhood crush?" Remus asked and his heart started to ache. He couldn't go through this again. "Rem, it meant nothing. But it means something now," Severus said and was shocked that that came out of his mouth. He didn't mean for it to. "What? Severus, you.you," Remus started. "Love you. I said it! Now will you get off of my back about it?" Severus said in his usual tone. Remus smiled and couldn't stop. It felt, right hearing it from Severus. How Remus wanted to run down the hall and scream at the top of his lungs, but he just touched Severus' face. "Why didn't you tell me before?" "Sirius was always around. And I was afraid you wouldn't feel the same." "Sev, look back over the years. Why do you think I saved your life and tell people you saved me? Sirius was around; he was always number one. Severus if you would have told me before, we could have worked something out. You were always number two," Remus said almost crying. "Remus, please don't cry," Severus said and cupped Remus' chin in his hand and raised it so they were face to face.

"Severus," Remus whispered in a seductive tone, he couldn't help it. "Black is your color." Severus grinned and starred into Remus' eyes. Never was there any color in his eyes. But tonight there was color, and a spark. Something new. Remus looked into Severus' eyes and took a step forward and kissed him. Severus almost broke away from the kiss but he always wanted to feel the other boy against his lips. Severus wrapped his arms around Remus and pulled him closer, deepening the kiss, pushing forward. Remus gasped and pushed away. He looked at the other boy, wrapped in a black silk robe, and shook his head. "Sorry," Severus said weakly. "No, it's.it was great. It's just my fault, I need," Remus started then leaned back to kiss Severus. Remus put his arms around Severus neck and ran his fingers through his hair. It wasn't oily in fact it was clean. Severus wrapped his arms back around Remus' waist holding him close. Remus liked feeling Severus against him, and started pulling him closer, wanting to feel the heat and passion he felt with Sirius. This time Severus pulled away. He looked into Remus' eyes that were now full of confusion. "Remus, I know what you're doing. I'm not Sirius," Severus said taking a step backwards, putting space between him and the wolf. "It's not that," Remus said but Severus shook his head and headed out the door, still in the robe and walked out. Remus stood there, and fell on the bed; once again tears fell from his eyes and hit the torn comforter which bared so much hope for his feelings of love and friendship. ~~~~~*~~~~~ Severus quickly walked out of the room and into the closest room that he came to and he locked the door. He wanted to be alone. He conjured up some clothes and changed into them, shoving the robe into the darkest corner of the room but stopped and held it in his hand. He moved it over in his hand and noticed the initials on the left lapel. RL, Remus Lupin. Severus stood there in the closet for a moment, fingering the initials. He remembered the room he was in earlier. No where in there did he see anything to do with Sirius. Everything in that room was Remus. Was Remus really over Sirius? Was it a play that he was putting on? Or were there no things belonging to Sirius in the first place? Severus knew Remus, and thought the first one was more accurate. Severus walked out of the closet and down the halls, before he reached the foyer, he shoved the robe into his cloak pocket so no one could see it. He walked into the first room and saw Molly, Mrs. Weasley. "Molly? Can I ask you something?" He asked as he sat down in the chair adjacent to the couch, which was occupied by Molly. "You can ask me anything," Molly said putting down the knitting she was doing. Well her magic was anyway. "Why isn't there anything in this house that belonged to Sirius?" Severus asked and Molly laughed.

"Severus, everything belongs to Sirius. Don't you mean why isn't there anything that personally belonged to Sirius? Like robes, clothes, pictures?" Molly asked. "Yes. I've been into all the rooms and I have yet to see any pictures of him here," Severus said. "Well, after the tragic incident at the Ministry, Remus went through the whole house throwing everything of that sort into a bag and did away with it. Poor dear, he misses Sirius so much," Molly said. "Now if you will excuse me I have to go find Fred and George before they blow up something again." "Thank you Molly," Severus said as she walked out of the room. Why would Remus throw everything that belonged to Sirius if he misses him? Severus wondered and jumped when a voice answered his question behind him. "I didn't throw everything away, just some of the stuff. The other stuff is in the attic, besides one book he left for me. Why did I throw them away? Because it would be what Sirius wanted. He wouldn't want me to hang my life up just because he's gone," Remus said and Severus turned around to stare at him. "And I wouldn't want to either." "Remus, I'm sorry," Severus said but Remus shook his head. "It's fine Severus. I understand, although that did hurt. You know nothing of my life, never did and never will," Remus said and walked out of the room. It took two seconds before Severus was on his feet and running after him. By the time he caught up to Remus they were up on the second floor. "I want to know about your life, Remus. Let me learn about your life," Severus said looking at Remus. "To late Severus. It doesn't take a genius to know that once one person breaks your heart, that's what they will keep doing." "Remus! Do it for Sirius," Severus sneered. Remus stopped and looked at him. "Sirius wouldn't want you to live your life by yourself, now would he?" "You don't know what Sirius would want," Remus said glaring at him. "He would, and you know he would want you to get on with your life. What more do you need? A sign on me saying "Remus J. Lupin, I'm sorry, I love you, Forgive me?" Severus said looking at Remus, daring him to say something. Remus took a step backwards and looked at Severus, "You.you." "Me what? Git? Bastard? What?" "You said 'I love you'. Do you mean it?" Remus asked. "Yes, and I do mean it Remus, would I do this if I didn't?" Severus asked grabbing a rough hold of Remus' arms and bringing him into a deep hard kiss. Severus let go of Remus and stared at him. "Severus, I, I lo.." Remus started but turned around and ran into his room.

Severus wasn't about to go after him. He turned around and walked down the stairs. As he reached the foyer he turned back and looked up at Remus' door. He wiped a tear from his eye and whispered "I haven't been in love. That hasn't happened to me, for the longest time. When you put your arms around me, I haven't been there for the longest time." With that Severus turned and walked out of the house.

END! A/N: Angst, I know. I always right that. The last part is a song, For the Longest Time I believe. I don't know. This is where the PG-13 rating comes in. I might have to change it if I write what I'm thinking of writing. Nothing too soon, I hope. So what do you think? Review please! And to answer some of your questions, it will keep going. Is Remus comforted yet? Don't think so. Or I can change my mind and have him do suicide and kill himself to be with Sirius. But nah.

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