Title: Forbidden Love
Rating: R ^___^
Disclaimer: I do not own NightWalker.
Warning: Yaoi (CainxShido), Child Abuse.

Thank To The Reviewers
Lady-Silverkiss:
  lol I think everyone likes Cain better in this.  And as for Shido, when you don't grow up in a good living environment where you trust the people you live with, you kinda don't trust anyone.  *shrugs* I've done my research.
Darkmaster2:  Glad you like it!
HappyKitsuna99:  Thanks! I'll remember that for any other fic I write. _ I knew that if heard it I'd know it.  I like the name I gave him better anyway.   ^___^
Duchess of Darkness:  Please don't cry.  I don't like when people cry.  I'm glad you like it though.
Cat Youkai: There is no way you're my girlfriend.... my girlfriend at least has a LITTLE sanity.
Junai:  lol I will write more.  I just have so many fics to work on though, that I'm kinda slow with them.

Chapter Five
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Cain opened the front door to his two story house and ushered Shido inside.  Shido stepped inside, duffle bag hanging off his shoulder.  Both of his arms were wrapped passively around his waist.  Shido looked around the room, taking in the new surroundings.  The room had white walls and carpet.   The black leather couch and love seat sat feet away from the entertainment center, complete with TV, stereo, DVD player, and various kick-knacks.

Turning toward the kitchen, Shido saw the average kitchen.  Oven, sink, refrigerator.  The only difference was that the counters were spotlessly clean, and everything was in its own place, completely organized.  Shido didn't move as Cain walked past him. 

"Your room is this way," Cain said, walking up the stairs.  Shido followed him, taking small steps, and looking around.  "This is your room," Cain said, opening the second door on the right.

Shido stepped up to Cain and looked into the room.  It was completely white.  "It seems kinda...boring," Shido commented.

"Well, I haven't really had time to decorate," Cain said.  Shido nodded.  He walked past Cain and put the bag on the bed.  "I'll let you get settled in," Cain said, leaving the room, shutting the door behind him.

After Cain left, Shido went over to the window and opened the curtain, allowing sunlight into the room.  He leaned on his arm, looking out the window.  Cain lived twenty miles outside of the city, so he had an actually house instead of an apartment.  Sighing, Shido pushed off the window and went over to the bed, and pulled the bag off the bed and placed it into the floor. He gently and slowly laid down on the bed, wincing at the shot of pain in his side.

After a while, Shido got off the bed, and left the room.  He went downstairs, where Cain was reading on the couch.  Shido sat down on the couch, and stared ahead.  "Is there something you find interesting?" Cain asked. 

Shido looked at him and shook his head.  "I'm just thinking."

"About what?" Cain asked, placing his book on the table in front of them.

"How I allowed my life to get so screwed up." Shido said, running his fingers through his hair.

"Why haven't you every done anything before?"  Cain inquired.

Shido shrugged.  "There wasn't really anything I could do before my step dad lost his job.  That's when he became a drunk.   My mother stopped caring about everything except herself, and my little sister became a spoiled brat just because my mother gave her anything she wanted just to get her to shut up.  I was hated for the simple fact that I wasn't like them.  I want to do something with my life, whereas they just sat on their asses and did nothing."  He explained.

Cain sat there and listened to Shido's explanation.  He noticed that as Shido went further into his explanation, the more hatred that filled his eyes.  When Shido went silent, Cain sat there, thinking about what he had just heard.  Many questions still plagued him.  Why would a mother treat his son with such neglect? Why would he put up with it?  Cain's brows came together in thought.

"What is it?" Shido asked, breaking Cain's concentration.

"I'm just wondering why a mother would treat her son with such neglect." Cain answered.

Shido shrugged. "I guess...she lost the care she had for herself, therefore lost the care she had for everyone and everything."  Shido tried to explain it the best way he could.

"How long ago did the abuse start?" Cain asked.

Shido thought about it.  "I'm not quiet sure.  At first, I guess it started as verbal abuse, then went into physical abuse.  After the first year, I guess I pushed the pain aside.  I didn't want to deal with it." 

Cain nodded his understanding.   "I couldn't imagine coming from a home life like that.  My parents were always there when I needed them, and offered support.  The things parents are supposed to do, and act how they should act towards their children."

"Well, not everyone can have great parents." Shido commented.   "And she wasn't neglectful.  It started happening after my step-dad lost his job and started drinking.  He hated me before that though."

"Why does he hate you?"

"I'm not his by blood." Shido said.  "My biological father died in a car accident when was ten.  My mother had a hard time with it.  She married my step-father two years later.  She wanted him to sign adoption papers, and he would have, but I wouldn't have.  That next year my mother gave birth to my half-sister.  She's a spoiled brat."

Shido sighed before continuing, "My step-father lost his job when I was fourteen.  I guess that's when the abuse started.  But then it was just small stuff.  I'd get smacked for talking back, you know, trivial stuff.  Now though, I'd get the shit beat out of me when I didn't do something he wanted."

Shido glanced at Cain with saddened eyes before continuing.  "Things never really got better.  He'd get new jobs, only to lose them because of his drinking problem.  On those days he'd come home and take it out on me.  I had to teach myself no to cry, or he wouldn't stop, saying that boys don't cry.  But once I taught myself not to cry, he beat me, and still didn't stop."  Shido stopped, letting out a slow breath.  "I haven't cried since I was fourteen."

Cain listened as Shido explained, noticing more and more hatred entered the deeps of his eyes.  He noticed the small tear in the corner of Shido's eyes.  After a few minutes, Shido's eyes softened.  He reached up, swiping the tear from his eye, and ran a hand through his hair.  Shido looked away from Cain, not wanting to see the pity in his eyes.   

Cain thought about what Shido had said.  They had come form such completely different family lives.  Cain had come from a loving, caring home environment.  Shido however had come from a dysfunctional family.  No one had helped him, and the only people he told weren't saying anything because they promised they wouldn't. 

Cain sighed, and decided to change the subject.  "You won't be going to school tomorrow.  I'm going by the school later to pick up your homework."

"Why won't I be going to school?" Shido asked.

"The school feels that you need more time to recuperate." Cain answered.

"I don't need more time." Shido said.

"You say that, but the doctors say that you need to rest, and the school agrees." Cain stated.

"Why is everyone making my decisions for me?!" Shido questioned.  "I am perfectly capably of making my own decisions!" 

"I believe you, but the doctors feel that this might be too much emotional distress for you to handle, and therefore you wouldn't be able to make rational decisions." Cain explained.

"I am perfectly capably of making my own decisions, no matter what my emotion state." Shido said. 

"I know, but the extra day of rest would be good for you.  You can barely move now without being in pain." Cain observed. 

Shido stared at him for a moment, hen nodded reluctantly.  "Fine, I'll won't go to school." He muttered. 

Cain nodded.  "You didn't have much of a choice in the matter."

"I didn't think so."

"Don't worry.  You'll be going back to school on Monday." Cain said.

"I better be.  I hate being cooped up." Shido said.

"Well, you could always work on your homework." Cain suggested.

"Yeah, I guess." Shido got up from the couch and headed to the room he was staying in.