Parings – 1+2, 2x1
Warnings – Yaoi, angst
Notes – Hey all! Well I've been thinking about writing this for a long while and I finally got some of it down! I hope you like it! Feedback would be appreciated! This is written from Heero's POV, I've tried to keep him as in character as possible!
Enjoy!
Wine is fine
But whiskeys quicker
Suicide is slow with liquor
I don't know a lot of things. I don't know why guilt is so persistent. I don't know why the insomnia started. I don't know why when I did actually manage to sleep I always woke up screaming. I don't know a lot of things.
I know how this started though. Like most of the bittersweet things in my life it started with Duo. Duo and his hyperactivity, his contagious energy, his cunning way of wrapping everyone around his little finger. Of course I objected when he first asked me to visit a nightclub with him. We have a little game Duo and I; he asks, I say no and then he eventually changes my mind. I think he likes the challenge.
A nightclub of all places. I didn't know what I had agreed to really. I was fresh out of a war and so cynically naïve it was sickening. Duo bought me appropriate clothes and told me what time to be ready for. As always in those first few months I looked at the evening as a mission. I set myself prep time; which involved showering and sliding myself into tight leather trousers and a fitted black shirt; and was ready to go on schedule.
Duo dragged me out to a non-descript taxi by my wrist and I took the time to appreciate his get up for the evening. Clinging black jeans, ripped in choice places to tease with the vision of supple flesh beneath, black leather jacket hiding whatever lay beneath. What my eyes were drawn to the most was his hair, braided only half-way down its length as the rest danced in the air, wild and free.
The journey is somewhat hazy. I remember arriving at the chosen club and seeing a long queue tailing away down the side of a building. Grip still tight on my wrist, Duo walked straight up to the door ignoring angry shouts and wolf-whistles alike. He talked and flirted with the guards in that same easy way he did with everyone and we were admitted almost immediately. As I walked through the doorway, out of the dark and into darkness, a large red sign caught my eyes.
No admittance to under 21's.
Duo's charm could always be counted on to get him exactly were he wanted to be.
The noise hit me straight away. A pounding heavy beat that I could feel in my very bones. I was dragged to a hatch in the wall where I stood and watched as Duo spoke to a sullen red-headed woman. He peeled off the leather jacket and handed it to her with a quick flash of a grin. A long-sleeved black mesh top covered his upper body. Perfectly comfortably with the amount of skin exposed he turned and beamed at me excitedly.
"Ready for the plunge Heero?"
Without waiting for my answer he pulled me through a set of double doors and took me from the darkness, into mayhem. My senses were on fire. The sound level quadrupled. I felt my body shudder as the noise physically passed through me. Lights flashed and twisted in time with the pounding music, revealing hundreds of people, smiling, dancing, drinking.
Duo led me to one of the many bars and found to stools for us to perch on while we waited to be served. I know my eyes were wide with shock as I tried to take everything in. I know Duo's eyes danced with laughter as he revelled in my astonishment. I had spent the war amazing him and the other pilots. He would spend the rest of his life amazing me.
"One double JD and a -" He looked at me questioningly. I cast a glance behind the bar. The only alcohol I had ever tried was wine or champagne and this wasn't the type of place to serve either.
"The same?" What I had meant to be a statement came out as a question. Duo burst into laughter at my response. I couldn't help feeling a stab of hurt.
"And a bottle of Stella for the gentleman!" Duo turned to me with a teasing smile as the barman went to retrieve the order. "Maybe next time Hee-chan! You ain't ready for the big boys drink yet!" I scowled at him as he paid for the drinks and took mine grudgingly.
The slight Duo had delivered earlier made me feel exceptionally stubborn as I downed my third bottle and ignored Duo's repeated implorations for me to get up and dance with him. He was several drinks ahead of me and gave up on the game much sooner than I anticipated. When a beautiful young woman approached him and asked him to dance he took up her offer in a heart beat. As he disappeared into the crowd he looked back only to order me to "Stay there and behave!"
Resent swept over me as I sat on my barstool, alone in the crowd. I placed my empty bottle on the bar and looked up to catch the eye of one of the men behind the bar.
"What'll it be?" My eyes scanned the upside down bottles once more but it helped me no more than it had the last time. I looked back at the impatient man and decided to follow the adage, "it never hurts to ask".
"What's the strongest you've got?" The question was a rather bold one on my part but Duo's earlier comment still had me riled and the urge to fit in was overwhelming. With a smirk the bartender strolled over to the wide collection of alcohol and returned swiftly. I handed over my money and received a small glass of green liquid in return.
"Slam! Slam! Slam! Slam!" Female voices raised high above the music next to me and I turned to observe a group of young looking women surrounding one of their friends. The woman at the centre of their attention had a line of the small glasses spread out on the bar in front of her, each filled with a different coloured liquid. I watched as she lifted the first to her mouth and drank it swiftly, banging the glass down on the counter as she finished. She continued the process until all the glasses were drained; her friends cheering with excitement. I looked back down at my own solitary glass, bought it to my lips and drank the liquid in one fluid motion. I slammed my glass down on the bar, mimicking the girls actions, as the liquid burned its way down my throat and nearly caused me to heave.
After a second the most incredible warmth spread through my veins. I was one of the most amazing feelings I have ever experienced. I closed my eyes for a moment to steady myself as the alcohol rushed to my head. Smirking, I ordered the same again, determined to show one Duo Maxwell exactly what Heero Yuy could handle.
To be Continued . . .
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