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ch004 - Naked
It was a dark, dreary night and Shigure, Yuki, Kyo and Tohru were all sitting around the table peacefully eating dinner. That's when a loud crack of thunder interrupted the peace and quiet of the house. The thunder made Tohru quiver inside and glance outside. The rainstorm was really hitting Tokyo hard today. The door suddenly slid open quickly, making a slamming noise. Tohru dropped her bowl of rice on the table, causing the bowl to crack a little. The rest of them looked at the door in alarm when they saw Hatori, drenched, and breathing heavily at the entrance of the house.
"S-Shigure... Everyone, I have news..."
They all got up and went over to him in concern,
"Hatori-san..."
said Tohru in a worried tone. Hatori looked at all them with a scary look and gasped out the words,
"Akito's dead."
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Tohru, Kyo, Yuki, Shigure, and Hatori all silently went to Akito's place and found the rest of the gang there as well. Once Momiji saw Hatori he buried his face in his shirt, crying. Everyone else looked like they were frozen in ice as they stared at the unmoving body that hung from the gallows. Tohru gulped and her knees were shaking as she peered at the hanging body. She hated death; it brought back painful memories for her. She took a deep breath and looked at his white face and she felt her knees tremble even more. She gulped again and felt tears sting the back of her eyelids, so she looked away from the body and caught sight on a cage and broken chains in the corner of the room.
*What is that for....?*
She took a deep breath and looked away from that as well.
After a while of mourning, they had a proper burial and funeral that night. They all stood in the rain with their eyes closed, sending off their prayers for Akito. Shigure then stepped up and placed a pot of fresh flowers in front of the grave. Tohru still couldn't believe that this was all happening, it was all so surreal.
When they all got home no one spoke a word to anyone and they all immediately went into their own separate rooms. Tohru shut herself in her room and lay down on her bed, rewinding the events of the past few days.
*Why does death have to happen?*
she thought to herself and closed her eyes. A soft knock on her bedroom door was suddenly heard throughout her room, causing her to sit up. She wondered who it could be. When she slid open the door she saw Kyo standing there with a sullen look on his face.
"Can I come in?"
he asked in a choked voice. She nodded and let him in before shutting the door again. The minute he got in he started to babble out whatever was on his mind,
"T-Tohru...I-I have to tell you the truth, because I just need to tell someone because… because...I just want to let my feelings out. A-And right now I just can't deal with all these emotions all at once anymore. I just can't, I just can't!"
Kyo sat down on the bed and put his hands over his face with frustration while Tohru sat down next to him.
"Kyo-kun, calm down, what is it?"
Kyo lifted his hands off of his face and whipped his face towards her and said with anguish,
"I was never on vacation... I was lying to you, and I'm terrible for lying to you. Dammit... I'm so sorry. I wish I was more honest."
Kyo put his hands back over his face and continued his confession while angrily rocking back and forth on the bed,
"I... I was at Akito's for the past few months, he locked me up after graduation to seal me from the rest of the world... and… and I just never wanted to tell you, but I wanted to so badly, you don't know how badly. But I was too much of a damn wuss..."
His eyes were watering and Tohru was in shock. She uttered out the question,
"W… What did he do to you?"
Kyo looked down at his lap with his fists clenched and said through gritted teeth,
"Terrible things, he would whip me, torture me... it was hell. But one night he just let me go... and I still don't even know why...Ughh!"
Tohru blinked back tears of her own and grabbed his hand and held on tight while tears started to flow down his cheeks. He shook his head angrily as more tears slid down his cheeks,
"And.. worst part is, I'm happy. I'm happy about his death! What kind of person is selfish enough to be happy about that kind of crap?! Dammit! I deserve to die... I ... I...I'm a disgusting person, he was right about me all along."
He couldn't speak anymore because he was all choked up and his eyes were a blur. Tohru grabbed his shoulders and shook him a little, making him look up at her. She said to him in a sincere voice,
"You are not a horrible person... and you don't deserve to die. No one does! Remember the time when you told me that it was okay to be selfish once in a while? Well I believed that, and I still do. So, I think that it's okay for you to be selfish right now. It's okay...It's okay."
Tohru wiped the tears from his face with a warm thumb and gave him an encouraging smile; he stared back at her and returned a shaky smile.
"I'm here for you, so don't say or think horrible things like that. I'll always be here for you Kyo-kun, no matter what."
He laid his head down on her shoulder and took deep breaths as more drops of tears fell from his closed eyes.
*Thank you for being here for me...thank you so much...*
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I wake up in the morning
Put on my face
The one that's gonna get me
Through another day
Doesn't really matter
How I feel inside
'Cause life is like a game sometimes
But then you came around me
The walls just disappeared
Nothing to surround me
And keep me from my fears
I'm unprotected
See how I've opened up
Oh, you've made me trust
Because I've never felt like this before
I'm naked
Around you
Does it show?
You see right through me
And I can't hide
I'm naked
Around you
And it feels so right
I'm trying to remember
Why I was afraid
To be myself and let the
Covers fall away
I guess I never had someone like you
To help me, to help me fit
In my spirit
I'm so naked around you
And I can't hide
You're gonna see right through.
Avril Lavigne -Naked
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