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ch005 - Unspoken Words

     It had been a week or two after the death and things had seemed to go back to "normal" back at the Sohma household. The whole gang was eating dinner around the table. Suddenly Shigure faced Kyo and asked,

"Hey! Kyo-kun, are you planning on going to college with Tohru-kun?"

Kyo stopped chewing for a good few seconds and stared down at the table for a while. Yuki gave a death glare to Shigure and angrily ate his rice in silence, putting a mental note in his head to kick Shigure's ass later.

"I don't know."

Kyo muttered and he glanced at Tohru for a second, who flashed him a smile and said in a cheerful voice,

"It would be great if you went to the same college as me and Sohma-kun! It'd be so much fun if you were with us!"

Kyo blushed and stuffed more food in his mouth, before stating his reply,

"I'll ... think about it."

He stuffed the last bite in his mouth and rushed upstairs to his room. Shigure laughed and watched as the red faced Kyo fled up to his room, it was so typical of Kyo to run from decisions. He also knew that he secretly really wanted to go to the college but he just didn't want to admit it in front of everyone, he smiled to himself again and happily finished his delicious dinner with Yuki and Tohru. After dinner Tohru washed the dishes and then went to Kyo's room to see if he was thinking about actually going to college with her and Yuki. She knocked on his door two times and heard him mutter something unaudible and open the door. She gave him a little wave and his face changed from grumpy to normal in an instant.

"Can I come in?"

she asked him tentatively. Kyo stood there for a moment and then moved out of the way, letting her step into his room.

"Arigatou,"

she said and reluctantly sat down on his bed with her fingers laced together. He leaned on a nearby wall and asked her,

"So what is it that you wanted to talk to me about?"

"I just wanted you to know that I'd be really happy if you went to Tokyo University with me and Sohma-kun. It's really a nice place! Umm...so are you going to go?"

Tohru asked curiously and he just shrugged with a tired look on his face and said in a low voice,

"Hey I think I'm going to go get some sleep now... so I'll talk to you later."

Tohru looked at the clock in his room and then stood up with a yawn,

"Oh, yes you're right... I'm sorry to have bothered you. Good nigh Kyo-kun."

Kyo watched as she left the room and went into her own. Once she left he flopped down on his bed with a sigh, he wanted to go with her to college, but on the other hand there was the damn rat...

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The next morning Tohru woke up and went downstairs to make breakfast. When she went walked to her door she found a scrap of paper stuck to her door. She looked at it with a questionable expression and scanned the note. It read,

I'm out to take the entrance exam

and fill out all that other paper crap

for Tokyo University...

I won't be back until later,

so don't worry about me.

-Kyo

Tohru smiled as she finished reading the little note and proceeded to go downstairs and make breakfast for everyone else.

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After a few days or so the mail finally came and so did the acceptance letter. Kyo's heart thumped as he shakily ripped open the letter with anticipation in every cell of his body. He took out the note with Tohru and Shigure looking over his shoulder, and Yuki standing a few feet away. They all scanned the letter quickly and their eyes all grew wide with shock, he had gotten accepted! Shigure pumped his fists in the air and did a little dance, that couldn't be explained in words. 

"Congratulations Kyo-kun!"

said Tohru happily, Kyo smirked at Yuki's direction and Yuki glared viciously back at Kyo. Yuki was obviously glowing with envy and anger as he stalked upstairs, clearly pissed. Shigure picked up the phone and said in a sing a song voice,

"I think that we should have a party with everyone to celebrate this joyous moment!"

Tohru laughed and Kyo just grunted under his breath,

"He just wanted a reason to have a party."

Later that night Kagura, Hatori, Momiji, and Haru were all at the Sohma house and showering an irritated Kyo with congratulations and hugs, especially Kagura. From the top of the staircase, Yuki spotted Tohru putting some food out on the table and walked over to her. She looked up at him and asked with a smile on her face,

"Sohma-kun! Are you hungry?"

Yuki put his hand up up and shook his head with a smile,

"No, but thank you for asking. I just came over to ask if you could come outside for a moment... to talk."

Tohru set down the last plate of riceballs and looked up at Yuki with surprise in her eyes,

"Sure,"

she replied as she followed him outside into the backyard. Through the crowd of annoying people surrounding Kyo he could still see Yuki leading Tohru outside to the backyard. Kyo clenched his fists to his sides thought to himself angrily,

*What the hell is that stupid ass rat doing?*

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Yuki cleared his throat and took her hands in his, making Tohru blush madly, and he said in a sincere voice,

"I wanted to tell you something that's been on my mind for quite a while."

Tohru nodded and awkwardly slipped her hands out of his and looked at him with wide brown eyes. Yuki put a hand through his soft hair nervously and said,

"I just wanted to tell you that... that I'm in love with you,"

Tohru's eyes widened with pure awe and she didn't know what to say for a moment. This was all so sudden and she had no idea of how to answer this confession. Yuki watched as she stared at him with an expression of shock. Yuki looked down, embarrassed and rambled on about his love for her,

"I've loved you for such a long time and its killing me just watching you not knowing my feelings towards you. So Honda-san... would you go out with me?"

Tohru froze and she thought to herself in a panic,

*I can't tell him that I don't like him in that way! We have such a great friendship and I don't want to break that... what do I do?! If I reject him he will hate me forever! He will never speak to me again, so what do I do?! Should I just say yes? Oh no... Mother what do I do?*

The guilt inside of her took control for a split second making her stutter out the words,

"I-I umm…yes?"

Once Yuki heard the word 'yes' come out of her mouth he was completely elated and he kissed her on the cheek with a happy smile on his face. Her heart twisted and she felt like the worst person in the universe. She had just lied to Yuki... what was she going to do? She just returned a nervous smile and looked away from his happy eyes. A few feet away Kyo was standing near the doorway and he had just heard the whole thing, it was all very nauseating. Kyo rushed to the roof before Tohru or Yuki could catch him listening to their little "love session." He was feeling so angry and mad at Yuki, but he was angrier towards himself for not being able to tell Tohru how he felt first. He sighed and lay down on the cool tiles of the roof. He could still hear the voices downstairs and Shigure's loud laughter. After a few minutes he heard the sound of footsteps closing in on him. He turned his head to see Tohru standing there on the roof with this look on her face that he couldn't seem to describe.

"Can I sit down?"

She asked while looking at the spot next to him. Kyo just nodded and then looked at the star filled sky.

"What are you doing up here? Shouldn't you be off with your boyfriend?"

He asked, stressing out the word boyfriend. Tohru sat down and looked down at her hands on her lap and felt this strange sense of guilt fill her heart,

"You heard?"

Kyo didn't answer and let the silence fill the air. Tohru broke the silence and confessed,

"I don't even know why I said yes... I guess I didn't want to hurt his feelings, so I found myself saying yes. This is so terrible."

Kyo sat up straighter and asked with disbelief,

"Wait... so you don't like him?"

Tohru shook her head sadly and replied,

"Not in that way... I don't know what got into me at that moment."

"Tch, it's cuz you're too damn nice. Being honest and being nice is different sometimes. You gotta tell that damn rat that you don't like him soon, because you're just going to end up hurting him and yourself. I mean I don't mind him getting hurt, but... I don't want to see you get hurt."

Kyo seemed to say his last few words more quietly than the others. He looked at her from the corner of his eye and saw her lips turn up a little bit.

"Thank you for the advice. I wish I was more like you, you're so honest about everything and so straightforward. I like that about you.

Kyo blushed and scoffed,

"Trust me, you wouldn't wanna be like me."

Tohru laughed a little. Kyo watched as the soft night breeze played with her chestnut hair and made her look so angelic. He faced her and asked her a question that was really random,

"Tohru, who do you love the most?"

Tohru's eyebrows drew together and she said,

"Eh? I love everyone the same amount; I wouldn't single anyone out like that."

Kyo shook his head a little and fixed his sentence,

"No, I meant in a...romantic manner.

Tohru's eyebrows raised in surprise at the question, it was all so sudden.

"I... I don't know,"

she finally said, after a long pause. Kyo was clearly flustered and wished that he had just shut his mouth,

"Oh... never mind what I just said, I was just being curious,"

"It's okay. Oh! Shouldn't you be getting back to your celebration party?"

Kyo chuckled and looked back at the sky, feeling the breeze cool his face.

"Nah... I'd rather stay here. With you."

Tohru felt the blood rush to her head and she began to feel a little lightheaded from his last words. She blushed and looked at him, thinking,

*I wish I knew why I hadn't told you what I was really thinking. Like when you asked me that question about who I loved the most? I lied. I really did know the answer to that question, but I told you that I didn't know. But I wasn't lying because I was feeling guilty, this time I was lying because I was afraid to tell you the truth. Why can't I just speak what my heart just truly wants me to say? ...I guess for now, my feelings will have to remain unspoken.*

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