DISCLAIMER: I don't own the Buffy or LOTR characters, their respectable authors do!

RATING: R- rape, sexual situations, language, violence

SUMMARY: Set after series 7 Buffy, during Fellowship- Buffy and Giles are sent to Middle Earth when the vampires and demons find a portal from Sunnydale. Buffy offers her services to Lady Galadriel, and soon starts to feel something for Haldir, but when the Fellowship arrive in Lothlórien, Boromir finds something he wants as much as the Ring.

CHAPTER EIGHT: ANGELUS THE ANGEL

Buffy sighed staring into her hands, telling the people who admired her she was not what they thought her to be was going to be tough. not only on her, but me.

"Buffy, you don't have to tell them anything," Giles said coming over with the Lady and Lord.

"They have the right to know," she said, staring up at him, tears rolling down her face.

"Buffy, you know what it will do to them if they find out."

"Giles, they think I'm someone else. no one deserves that."

Giles hid his pained face.

"You don't have to tell us," Pippin said looking up at her.

Look at those innocent eyes, his innocent face. He deserves to know.

"I had this boyfriend called Angel, except he was not your run-of-the-mill kinda guy. He was a vampire and I loved him with every inch of my heart, soul and body; but it was not meant to be."

"You loved one of whom you hunt?" Aragorn asked.

"He was not like other vampires, he had a soul," Buffy said. "We were in love, and we took the next step."

"Next step?" Legolas asked, not sure if she was thinking what he thought she was thinking.

"We slept together."

There was an unhealthy pause, pain flowing through Buffy's heart, the tears appearing again.

"And he lost his soul," she said again, "and I had to kill him."

The Fellowship stared at her. Pippin and Merry moved away from her.

"No, it was not in cold blood," she said, her voice wavering in pain. "He had opened a thing that would destroy the earth, and only his blood could close it. My friend Willow, used a spell to restore his soul, but she was too late. the portal thing was open and I had to kill him."

Giles was stopped by Haldir as he went to take the weeping slayer into his arms.

Haldir knelt before her, taking her hands into his and said, "Lle naa belegohtar ."

"I am no might warrior, I am a coward."

"No, never tell yourself that. You have had a heavy load bestowed upon you. If you do not do this for yourself, think of the young hobbit you looks to you for guidance."

Buffy looked to Frodo who had moved to her side.

"My lady Buffy," Frodo said taking her hand in his, "you sacrificed something true and dear to you to save your world. You are truly my hero."

Buffy pulled the young hobbit into a strong hug and wept harder.

"Frodo, if I could," she said kneeling before him, "I would go to the edge of this world and help you throw the ring into the fire thing."

"I know."

"It is you who is truly my hero."

"Would you train me?"

"It would be my honour."

"Forgive us," Pippin cried running over and hugged the slayer, Merry and Sam running over after him. "Train us to."

"Lady Buffy," Aragorn said approaching her with Legolas by his side, "we are truly sorry."

"It's okay," she said standing up, "I've received worst reactions than that." She smiled at the group, wiping her face with a hanky Pippin handed her. "Come on, let's go dance the night away."

She watched the Fellowship walk back into the hall, leaving her alone with Celeborn.

"Lady Buffy," he said approaching her, "you are a true warrior. Would you assist Haldir here in my woods?"

"I would be honoured," she said.

"He has taken quite a liking to you."

"I realised," she said and the two walked back into the hall.