True Love Is Sacrifice-Chapter2

It's been three days since I found Sydney and broke the heart of the only person I ever loved more that life itself. Three days of the past two years of my life, or should I say death, because that's what I've been ever since Sydney disappeared. Dead. I have tasted the farthest depths of hell in these past two years. It's been hell to wake up every morning and not see the embodiment of perfection lying next to me. It's been hell opening my eyes everyday and not being able to bask in her brilliant angelic smile. It's been hell to smell the rest of the world without being able to smell her sweet, distinctive presence. It's been hell to reach out to touch her beautiful face and grasp nothing but air. It's been hell without being able to taste the sweet nectar of her lips. It's been hell to live.

Even after a year, I only seemed to sink deeper into the abyss. The CIA sent me for therapy and friends and family began introducing me to every girl around. Soon enough, I was married. Not because I gave up on her but because I gave up on life, on hope. I married because I needed to do something besides kill myself. Yes, I'm married. I am married but when I open my eyes in the morning, it is not my wife I want to see, but her. I am married but the first person I think of when I wake up and the last before I go to sleep is Sydney. Yes, I'm married but every time I dream, I dream of Sydney.

Where do I go from here? What am I supposed to do? I am promised to someone else but my very breathe and life was promised to Sydney a long time ago. But how can I break one women's heart for another? Then again, how can I betray my heart for a lie? I am sitting here not knowing where you are or whether you're safe. I haven't seen you in three days. You just completely shut me out. Do you think I gave up on you? Do you think I never loved you? Oh god, I hope that you don't think that. I never told you so much. I still do and always will.

It suddenly occurs to me that I have to tell you something. I have to tell you the truth. I rush out and begin my search for you. Two hours later, I still haven't found you. No one has seen you or has any idea where you've gone. I start becoming distraught and despondent with worry. I searched the train station and the observatory as well as the rest of town. Then suddenly it occurred to me. Of course! The pier. Thunder and lightning soon began invading the brackish skies.

I reach the pier and begin frantically scouring the area. Heavy drops of rain already start pouring down from the iron skies above. My tears do not hold any longer and they flow, mixing with the drops of rain already on my face. I search to no avail but just before I'm about to give up, I feel your presence. Just as I always did. I whirl around towards the end of the pier where she and I once stood and see you. Despite being drenched from head to toe and looking like a wreck, you are the most beautiful creature on earth. Our eyes meet and when I gazed into your tear streaked face, I saw something. Love. There was so much love in your hazel eyes as you looked at me.

Just as I was about to take you into my arms and never let you go, you start running from me, toward your car. I call out to you praying that you would stop and come back to me, but you don't. Once in your car, you look at me once more with so much hurt in your eyes and then speed off. Neither my heart nor my mind can endure the pain any longer and I crumble to the ground in tears. The last time I cried this hard was when I thought she was dead. It is considered "inappropriate" for a man to cry, but I love her so much, id die for her and she doesn't know this. Wife or no wife, my heart belongs to her and hers it will remain even if fate were to exile me from this earth.

p.s- so this was the 2nd chapter as requested….hope its ok…would love feedback…should I continue?