chapter 4:Nobody's fault

"well it started when we were sitting together in a grassy feild.Then it....just got...all dark and scary and morbid...and...and we were falling and falling and there seemed to be no end in sight!Then they...they grabbed you and then I suddenly hit the ground!And I was in chains bound to the ground.These people were looking down on me with hatred in their eyes!I cried I screamed and then you yelled...I HATE you and I could'nt believe it!Oh Inuyasha I am so sorry!It's all my fault!I left you all alone and...and Sheshoumaru took control and I wasn't there to explain things and help to keep you safe!I am the worst creature on the earth!You must hate me!I deserved to stay dead!And....and," Inuyasha stopped her."RENA!Calm down!Besides it's o.k!Dreams don't mean anything except that you have all these false thoughts!Besides if I hate you so much then why did I miss you every single day!?I was miserable!I tried to hide it....I tried making friends like Kikyo when we became more than just friends but I guess she was not the best friend if she did'nt even trust me.You always did though.....you always came through....you never hurt me or let me down...and when something was too out of league then you were there to help,and there was'nt a fight for what was right that you could'nt win.It was like you were perfect.And most siblings would be jealous of that but I never was...you always made me feel satisfied with my own acomplishments....you may have been Queen of the black heart,the oldest,a good fighter,and a good hunter but you always told me...........we are all born a certain way for a reason,maybe it won't show up to us soon in our lives,but it will appear to us...Sheshoumaru was born to be a jerk,the twins were born to be goofs (wich apparently passed through generations),and Tiba was meant to be a silent mysterious creepazoid.You know that even if you were the one hurting me and torturing me I could never say that I hate you.You know I care about you and......................love you...and I was wondering and worrying about this strange behavior of yours!" Kagome had been secretly listening.She was shocked!She peeked through the crack of the door to make sure it was Inuyasha who was speaking.She had an entirely different image of Inuyasha.Now she did not picture a crude looking half dog boy.But a lonely child with eyes full of concern,worry,and love.She had known Inuyasha for a long time but never like this.She decided to see the results of this little talk so went back to bed.Rena was appaled and had a mix of emotions........she felt love,embarresment at herself,worry for what the future would bring,and her heart shuddered but her face was drying of it's tears.She smiled a large smile and sat in the little light of the lamp and hugged her brother so close to her heart that he practiccly was in her heart.Rena said with no tears or shame "You're absolutely right Inuyasha.I am such a fool to have not realized it before....do you remember that poem mother would recite to us when all 5 of us little rambunxious kids were at each other's throats?" She sighed deeply.

When hurt describes reality

When pain describes humanity

family is there

When your caught the rain pouring down

and in a hatred town

family is there

Family is there

and there are people for whom they care

And those people need to know

just how much their family loves them so

Inuyasha remembered back........

Flashback

The kiddie twins (Kiko & Kikoru) were running through the house screaming with Sheshoumaru trailing behind.He had discovered his new ability of poisen claws and was getting revenge for those embarrasing stories they happened to tell his friend.(Some shrimpy,rat resembling demon kid from the neghboring wolf pack.)Inuyasha was being carried by Kikoru and Rena awoke from her nap and her eyes snapped open when she saw what was happening.She growled deeply and lunged at Sheshoumaru.She started to slap him upside his head and sank her fangs into his left leg,and dodged his claws.Then Kikoru threw Inuyasha onto the chair of furs and flew onto the two kid fury of Sheshoumaru and Rena.Kiko reeled around and started to claw at Sheshoumaru and accidently hit her brother (Kikoru) slightly.Kikoru took it on purpose and bit Kiko on the ear.Rena yelled at Kikoru "Hey stop that!Don't maul Kiko!" And slashed Kikoru in the back.Kikoru reeled around from kiko and hit his sister across the cheek!Inuyasha suddenly got mad and jumped onto Kikoru's head and bit and slashed at his hair and forehead.Kiko jumped up and was about to smack Inuyasha off kikoru's head when Sheshoumaru could finally move,took the oppourtunity to grab Kiko's leg as she jumped up and dragged her down so she would hit her head on the floor and then Inuyasha kicked Sheshoumaru in the side and slipped and fell on his butt.The Kikoru kicked Sheshoumaru upside the head and kiko got ahold of his [Sheshoumaru] ear.Sheshoumaru shook them off and when he turned around Rena tripped him by sliding her foot into his ankles.It seemed the battle would have no end in sight as the 5 kids reeled and ran and bit and clawed and Sheshoumaru forgot about his poisen claws too.Their mother ran in hearing all the growling and biting and snapping.(oh by the way this is when these guys were REALLY young so thats why the twins are around).She had to scream over them to stop and recited the poem and then said."And you're all not going to have any family to turn to when youre all to busy ripping each other apart!"

End flashback

The next morning rena walked in with Inuyasha eating breakfast.Rena sat down and said "I think I've got something you might like....."hold out your hands and don't peek!" He did and heard a little jingle and then looked at what was in his hands......4 peices of the shiko no tama!Before he could say anything there was a small pecking at the window.

8:59 PM 11/24/2003