'....Clear!...'
'...loss of blood...'
'...heart stopped...'
'...Kagome!....'
'...almost lost her...'
'...have to abort...'
Kagome stared out the window to the city below in the dimly lit hospital room, her slender hands resting on her stomach as recent events played out in her mind. The blinding lights that moved swiftly over head, the random yelling of doctors, and with one voice that stood out from them all. Inuyasha's. She had tried to shout out his name, tried to reach for him, but she had felt too weak as the doctors brought her to an emergency room, where darkness took over.
She curled her fingers against her stomach. The doctor had already talked to her about what happened. She closed her eyes. She didn't even know until it was too late. How was she going to explain this to Inuyasha? She continued to stare out the window. He wouldn't understand why they had to do it. He would be angry... would he even want her after this? She gripped the fabric of hospital gown gently. How could she mourn something that she didn't even know was there? She didn't even get a chance to get attached to it. No, not it, him, or her. A sudden new feeling washed over her. Guilt.
Inuyasha slowly opened the door to Kagome's room. He flinched as a strong scent of medicines assaulted his nose. He stepped inside slowly and shut the door behind him. His chest tightened as he saw her. He didn't understand why all the tubes that were on her for, nor the annoying beeping noise coming from the boxes, all he knew was that it frightened him.
"Kagome..?"
She didn't move. He stepped forward and sat down in a chair next to her bed. He took her hand and growled softly noticing how cold they were. Kagome stayed silent, keeping her eyes locked on the window, almost as if she was refusing to look at him. He squeezed her hand. "Are you alright?" Nothing. "Kagome, look at me."
She shook her head gently, and fisted her hand against her stomach. Inuyasha growled and felt a growing frustration in his chest. He sighed and reached out and took her chin in his hand and brought her face towards his. "Do you know what happened, Kagome?"
She gave him a small, obviously fake, smile and moved his hand away from her chin. "The stress of everything that's happened just caught up with me, that's all."
"You were bleeding..." he said bluntly.
Kagome sighed, her smile quickly disappearing while she turned over onto her side. "Can we talk about this later? I'm tired." She pulled the covers up to her shoulders and curled up into a ball.
Inuyasha growled softly again in frustration and sat on the bed below her curled up legs. He placed a hand on her shoulder and turned her onto her back. "No. We're talking about this now. Please, tell me what happened."
Kagome gave an aspirated sigh pulled the covers over her head. "Inuyasha, please, just leave me alone."
Inuyasha blinked and sat back, a defeated look on his face. She rejected him. Why didn't she trust him enough to tell him what was wrong? Why didn't she want him by her side? He shoved his arms into his sleeves. He lowered his head and whispered. "Kagome, you have no idea how scared I was today. I thought I was going to loose you."
Kagome's breath caught in her throat. She slowly peeked out from under the blankets and saw his pitiful stature before her. She blinked a few tears from her eyes as she buried her head deeper into the pillow. "I really want to sleep now Inuyasha..." she closed her eyes and cursed herself for being so cruel to him. She knew he was trying to help and she wanted him to stay with her, to comfort her, but something in the back of her mind just told her that she needed to be alone, to sort out all the events that recently happened. Inuyasha wouldn't understand.
'Of course he would understand, it was his child.' A part of her mind told her.
'No, he wouldn't. He wouldn't understand why it had to be stopped.'
'You're not being fair to him.'
'And he's not being fair to me!'
'Explain how that works?'
Kagome growled to herself, refusing to answer her own question, and tucked into a tighter ball. "Go back to the feudal era, Inuyasha." She muttered into the pillow.
Inuyasha narrowed his eyes and stood up. He muttered a soft "Keh" and walked over to the window.
Kagome gripped the blanket around her and peeked an eye out to look at her mate's back. "I don't want everybody to worry... that's all..."
Inuyasha just nodded and slid the window aside, jumping out of the window and into the night.
Kagome let out a small whimper. "I'm so sorry..."
~*~
Sango sighed and ran both her hands through her hair and turned her gaze to the hanyou as they sat underneath the large infamous tree. She rested her head against its trunk as she thought back to only moments ago. She was surprised to see him so distraught when he walked into the hut. His posture was slumped, his hair hiding his face from showing any real emotion, his knuckles torn up as if he'd been beating on trees and rocks all day. He didn't even give them room to ask what was going on before he asked Sango to walk with him to the God Tree.
So here they sat, in silence, Sango with her back against the tree and Inuyasha in front of her by a couple of feet picking at the grass. She brought her head forward and rested her arms on her lap. "How's Kagome?" she asked, finally breaking the silence as a gentle summer breeze played in their hair.
Inuyasha made a quick sniff of the air and tilted his head further down and mumbled.
Sango leaned forward. "Nani?"
He growled softly and pulled out a couple blades of grass. "Something's wrong." He muttered. Sango raised an eyebrow and leaned forward again. Fear started to inch it's way up her spine as she tried to make out what Inuyasha was trying to say.
She slid forward towards Inuyasha and stopped about a foot away. "What's wrong with Kagome?" She saw him shake his head.
"She's doing alright... it's..." he stopped and began picking on the grass again.
"'It's' what, Inuyasha? Is Kagome going to be fine or not?" She tried to keep her voice under control, but found it to be a loosing battle.
"It's.....us..." he growled to himself at having to reveal so much information.
Sango's eyes widened as realization finally clicked. She took a deep breath and ventured further. "Us? As in you and Kagome?"
Inuyasha nodded. "I...asked her to be my mate...and now I think she's regretting it." He ran his hand through his hair and scratched one of his ears lazily. "She basically shunned me when I saw her at their healing place...she wouldn't tell me what was wrong..." He closed his eyes, surprised he was letting this much information out. But he didn't care, he trusted Sango. Trusted her to give him the right advice so he can fix whatever it is he did wrong.
"Are you regretting it?" Sango asked.
Inuyasha snapped his head up and glared at the girl. Maybe they did rush into things and she was just not capable of handling the responsibility. Was he even able to deal with it? He shook his head. No. He loved Kagome. There has to be something more than just regret of that night to be causing a rift this big. But the more he thought about it, the more he found himself confused by his own emotions. "I..... don't know.." He looked up and locked eyes with Sango. He took a deep breath and knew he what he was going to say next would seem out of character for him, but right now, he didn't care. "Honestly, I'm scared. I don't want to loose her. There has to be something more to this then just regret of um...." A tinge of red came across his face "...that." He saw Sango nod and patted the ground next to her.
He moved over and sat next to her, placing his back against the tree as she did the same. She brought her legs to her chest and casually rested her arms on her knees. "Inuyasha." she said softly, getting the hanyou's attention. "Have you considered the fact that she could be with child?"
Inuyasha's ears perked up and twitched nervously. 'With child...' he thought to himself. His eyes widened. He did notice a slight change of scent in her, he just thought nothing of it because of the marking, but the more he thought about it, there was a lingering scent of death...; his thoughts drifted off and he stood up quickly. "I have to go." And with that, he ran towards the well, leaving a stunned Sango behind.
~*~
The air licked at his hair with each leap into the sky with the sun setting at his back as he jumped from building to building towards the hospital. With every step he took, the growing knot of dread grew larger and tighter in his gut. He finally stopped in one of the trees at his final destination and sniffed the air. His eyes widened when he was met with Kagome's scent. He quickly followed it and found Kagome being escorted to her car in one of those moving chair things by her mom and a woman dressed in white. Was she going home already? He sniffed the air again and noticed the slight scent of salt. He rubbed his forehead with the heel of his palm and sighed. Why was she hiding something like this from him? Didn't she trust him enough? It's his child too, or is she to ashamed to be carrying a baby with demon blood? Maybe it was a mistake. A low growl started in his chest as he watched Kagome and her mom get into the car and start to drive of. He sighed and turned to head back towards the house.
Her fingers idly played with the edge of her shirt as she watched the trees outside her window go by in silence. The sun was already setting, leaving behind a golden sky. 'Gold...same color as Inuyasha's eyes...' She rested her head against the glass window and sighed. Words couldn't even start to explain the feeling that was flowing through her veins. Numb? She blinked as a flock of birds flew into her vision. She closed her eyes and brought her hand up to grip the seatbelts shoulder strap. A small smile tugged at the corner of her lip with a memory of Inuyasha's first experience with a seatbelt. He managed to get it on okay, of course with the combination of her and Souta's help, and a string of cursing and questions from the boy of why he had to wear it in the first place. Yet when it came to taking it off, well that proved to be harder than fighting a demon. The seatbelt had to be replaced after that. She sighed as her thoughts were brought back to reality when the car finally stopped at the shrine. Her mother stepped out of the car with out a word and walked over to help Kagome out.
"I can make it on my own mama..." she said softly as she stepped out of the car, using the car door for support. Mrs. Higurashi stepped back and nodded. The two have already talked about what has happened. Even though she said she wasn't angry with what she and Inuyasha had done, Kagome knew that deep down she was disappointed. She couldn't blame her anyway. She shut the car door and walked with her mother back into the house.
Mrs. Higurashi slipped her shoes off in the hall and set her keys on the hook. "Why don't you go upstairs and rest and I'll see you morning."
Kagome nodded as she made her way to the stairs. She stopped when her mother called her name. She turned to look over her shoulder and raised an eyebrow. "Yes mama?"
"Do you know if Inuyasha will be coming tonight?"
Kagome turned her head away from her mother and shrugged lightly. "I don't know mama...I really need to go rest now." And with that she left her mother at the bottom stairs. As she reached the top of the stairs she looked around bringing her eyebrows together. "Mama?" she called to the bottom of the stairs. She heard her mom acknowledge. "Where's Souta and Grandpa?" Kagome rested her hand on the banister as she waited for her mother's answer.
"Souta is staying the night at a friends house and Grandpa is out visiting friends, He'll be back later tonight."
Kagome nodded and said "okay" as she walked to her room. She rested her hand on the door handle and closed her eyes silently praying Inuyasha wasn't there. Yet, a part of her argued with that and prayed he would be there. She took a breath and held it as she opened her door to her room. She was only greeted with darkness. She let out her breath and shut the door behind her. Nope, no sign of Inuyasha. He was probably still mad at her. Wouldn't surprise her really. She ran her hands through her hair and scanned the moonlit room as she walked to her dresser. She quickly changed into a thin white spaghetti strap nightgown and brushed her hair. She stole a glance to her window and bit her lip slightly, pondering whether or not to turn off her a/c and open her window. She opted for the second and gently pushed the window aside.
She was quickly met with the gentle sounds of the city, and a cool summer breeze that kissed her cheeks. She leaned against the windowsill with her forearms as her eyes scanned the grounds of the shrine. Her eyes fell upon the well house and a pang of sadness tugged at her heart. She quickly rubbed her eyes, willing the tears to stay at bay. She brought her hand to her neck and rubbed the muscles, tempting them to calm down as she made her way to the bed and slipping in between the covers.
She didn't know how long she'd been asleep before she felt weight being added at the end of her bed. She opened her eyes and turn onto her back to see who it was and was met with two large golden eyes. She sunk back into her pillow and returned to her position of facing the wall. "Did you tell them that I was okay?" she mumbled into the pillow.
"Why didn't you tell me?" Inuyasha whispered.
Kagome blinked. She could probably make a pretty good guess as to what he was talking about, but instead she chose to ignore the question, and pulled the covers further over her shoulders. "I'm really tired, Inuyasha. Can we talk about this tomorrow please?" She bit her lip gently, waiting for her mate to answer.
"No, we're talking about this now, and don't avoid the question, Kagome." He crossed his arms against his chest and stared at the girl that was curled up to his right. He heard her make a frustrated sigh.
"I don't know what you're talking about." She muttered into the pillow.
Inuyasha sighed, suppressing a growl. Why wasn't she answering him? He quickly slipped under the covers and spooned up behind her. "You know what I'm talking about, Kagome." His hand slid down to her stomach. His fingers curled against the fabric of her nightgown. He buried his face in the back of her neck and whispered. "Is the pup okay...?" his fingers began to gently run along her stomach.
Kagome froze. How did he know? Did her mom tell him?
Inuyasha brought her closer to his chest and he repeated, practically whimpering, his question, "Kagome... is the pup okay or not..?" Kagome's heart practically melted when she heard the pain in his voice. She slowly shook her head and closed her eyes.
His grip on her tightened again. "What happened?" he was practically begging now and it tore at her soul.
Kagome bit her lip and tilted her head towards her chest as she felt his hot breath against her neck. She stayed silent, gripping the blanket. Inuyasha narrowed his brow and slowly slipped out of the bed. Kagome pulled herself into a ball. Why was she acting like this? She wanted to tell him, wanted so badly for him to hold her in his arms and comfort her.
"Why aren't you trusting me enough to tell me what's going on?" Inuyasha lowered his head and gripped his fists, facing the window. "Or is it you're just ashamed you mated with a half breed and is carrying his pup.." his voice trailed off and Kagome felt tears leak from her eyes.
"You're wrong...." She whispered.
"Wrong about what?" he bit back. "Kagome-"
She gripped the blanket tighter, cutting into his sentence. "Wrong about me not trusting you, wrong about me being ashamed of being with you, and wrong about the pup." She closed her eyes and prayed to any god that would listen to give her strength for what she had to say next. "The baby was aborted..." she whispered softly.
Inuyasha spun around to face Kagome and blinked, trying to comprehend what Kagome has just said. "Wait....aborted? What the hell does that mean!?"
Kagome flinched at the harshness of his voice. 'Oh please kami let me get through this...' the young girl took a deep breath. "Because of complications that the demon most likely caused...they said if they hadn't stop the pregnancy... that..." her body shuddered. Inuyasha knelt down next to the bed and placed a hand on her shoulder, turning her to face him. He took her chin in his one of his large hands and made her look into his eyes.
She blinked quickly, tears slowly leaking down her cheek. She could see the anger and fear mixed in his large golden eyes. And she was scared.
"Does that mean..." He didn't have to finish his sentence. He already knew the truth. He saw the look her eyes. His pup didn't survive. That damn demon and those damn doctors took his pup away from him. He couldn't even tell what he was feeling. Anger and sorrow mixed together deep down in his soul, tearing apart his heart. He quickly stood up and went to the window, but before he was able to leap out he felt a tug on his shirt.
"Don't go... please.." Kagome begged. Her large brown eyes pleading with him, boring into his very soul and shaking him to the core.
He looked down, his bangs covering his eyes. He didn't know what to say to her. The pain of being around her at that moment was unbearable. He leaned down and kissed her forehead softly whispering a small apology and with that he leapt out of the window and into the warm summer night.
~*~
It was sometime after midnight. The moon was high in the sky as it's light reflected on the silent water of the hot spring. The clearing was absent of any being besides one. His form was hunched over on a single rock. His shoulders trembling as he slammed his fist into the offending object.
"DAMNIT!" He swore over and over again while slamming his fist against the rock repeatedly. Damn the demons that hurt Kagome. Damn the "healers" that couldn't save their pup and taking him or her away from them. He turned his head towards the sky and screamed, pouring out his frustration, anger and sorrow. "Why?!" He glared at the full moon, cursing it as if it was it was all it's fault, and in exactly two weeks, he'll be human. He growled, fisting his hands against the rock. That damn new moon. He cursed it. He cursed his human form. He hated being weak on that night. He was human when the demon attacked and he couldn't protect her, couldn't protect their pup. He blinked his eyes, refusing to cry. Kagome probably hated him now.
'Don't be stupid, she loves you.' A part of his mind said.
'I was the reason the pup died..'
'No, it was the demons fault.'
'But I wasn't able to protect her!'
He brought his hands to his head and ran his clawed fingers through his silver mane.
"Inuyasha?"
Inuyasha spun around to the voice that broke through the darkness and came face to face with Sango. She stepped forward and stood at the edge of the hot spring. He looked down and noticed she was holding bathing supplies.
"Sorry.." he muttered as he quickly stood and leapt into the air, landing softly next to Sango. "I'll leave you alone." But before he was able to go any further he felt a hand gently grab his arm. He turned his head slightly, trying to avoid her gaze, but failed. He lowered his head and whispered, his voice coming out hoarse. "You were right." He brought his hand to his eyes and quickly rubbed them with the back of his hand.
Sango tightened her grip and gently turned him to face her. "And?"
Inuyasha shook his head. The images of everything that just transpired between him and Kagome rushing through his head. "The pup didn't survive." He managed to say. He gently took his arm away from her grasp and made his way back to the village.
How was he going to be able to face Kagome after this?
~*~
A/N: Yes, I know, I'm evil for leaving it at that. Sorry it took so long to get this chapter up. School and vacation and such. Ya know the deal. Anywho, Chapter 9 should probably be up in about 2-3 weeks, pending what happens.
And special thanks to my good friend Spag-chan who acted as my beta and helped me knock down the silly writers brick wall.
'...loss of blood...'
'...heart stopped...'
'...Kagome!....'
'...almost lost her...'
'...have to abort...'
Kagome stared out the window to the city below in the dimly lit hospital room, her slender hands resting on her stomach as recent events played out in her mind. The blinding lights that moved swiftly over head, the random yelling of doctors, and with one voice that stood out from them all. Inuyasha's. She had tried to shout out his name, tried to reach for him, but she had felt too weak as the doctors brought her to an emergency room, where darkness took over.
She curled her fingers against her stomach. The doctor had already talked to her about what happened. She closed her eyes. She didn't even know until it was too late. How was she going to explain this to Inuyasha? She continued to stare out the window. He wouldn't understand why they had to do it. He would be angry... would he even want her after this? She gripped the fabric of hospital gown gently. How could she mourn something that she didn't even know was there? She didn't even get a chance to get attached to it. No, not it, him, or her. A sudden new feeling washed over her. Guilt.
Inuyasha slowly opened the door to Kagome's room. He flinched as a strong scent of medicines assaulted his nose. He stepped inside slowly and shut the door behind him. His chest tightened as he saw her. He didn't understand why all the tubes that were on her for, nor the annoying beeping noise coming from the boxes, all he knew was that it frightened him.
"Kagome..?"
She didn't move. He stepped forward and sat down in a chair next to her bed. He took her hand and growled softly noticing how cold they were. Kagome stayed silent, keeping her eyes locked on the window, almost as if she was refusing to look at him. He squeezed her hand. "Are you alright?" Nothing. "Kagome, look at me."
She shook her head gently, and fisted her hand against her stomach. Inuyasha growled and felt a growing frustration in his chest. He sighed and reached out and took her chin in his hand and brought her face towards his. "Do you know what happened, Kagome?"
She gave him a small, obviously fake, smile and moved his hand away from her chin. "The stress of everything that's happened just caught up with me, that's all."
"You were bleeding..." he said bluntly.
Kagome sighed, her smile quickly disappearing while she turned over onto her side. "Can we talk about this later? I'm tired." She pulled the covers up to her shoulders and curled up into a ball.
Inuyasha growled softly again in frustration and sat on the bed below her curled up legs. He placed a hand on her shoulder and turned her onto her back. "No. We're talking about this now. Please, tell me what happened."
Kagome gave an aspirated sigh pulled the covers over her head. "Inuyasha, please, just leave me alone."
Inuyasha blinked and sat back, a defeated look on his face. She rejected him. Why didn't she trust him enough to tell him what was wrong? Why didn't she want him by her side? He shoved his arms into his sleeves. He lowered his head and whispered. "Kagome, you have no idea how scared I was today. I thought I was going to loose you."
Kagome's breath caught in her throat. She slowly peeked out from under the blankets and saw his pitiful stature before her. She blinked a few tears from her eyes as she buried her head deeper into the pillow. "I really want to sleep now Inuyasha..." she closed her eyes and cursed herself for being so cruel to him. She knew he was trying to help and she wanted him to stay with her, to comfort her, but something in the back of her mind just told her that she needed to be alone, to sort out all the events that recently happened. Inuyasha wouldn't understand.
'Of course he would understand, it was his child.' A part of her mind told her.
'No, he wouldn't. He wouldn't understand why it had to be stopped.'
'You're not being fair to him.'
'And he's not being fair to me!'
'Explain how that works?'
Kagome growled to herself, refusing to answer her own question, and tucked into a tighter ball. "Go back to the feudal era, Inuyasha." She muttered into the pillow.
Inuyasha narrowed his eyes and stood up. He muttered a soft "Keh" and walked over to the window.
Kagome gripped the blanket around her and peeked an eye out to look at her mate's back. "I don't want everybody to worry... that's all..."
Inuyasha just nodded and slid the window aside, jumping out of the window and into the night.
Kagome let out a small whimper. "I'm so sorry..."
~*~
Sango sighed and ran both her hands through her hair and turned her gaze to the hanyou as they sat underneath the large infamous tree. She rested her head against its trunk as she thought back to only moments ago. She was surprised to see him so distraught when he walked into the hut. His posture was slumped, his hair hiding his face from showing any real emotion, his knuckles torn up as if he'd been beating on trees and rocks all day. He didn't even give them room to ask what was going on before he asked Sango to walk with him to the God Tree.
So here they sat, in silence, Sango with her back against the tree and Inuyasha in front of her by a couple of feet picking at the grass. She brought her head forward and rested her arms on her lap. "How's Kagome?" she asked, finally breaking the silence as a gentle summer breeze played in their hair.
Inuyasha made a quick sniff of the air and tilted his head further down and mumbled.
Sango leaned forward. "Nani?"
He growled softly and pulled out a couple blades of grass. "Something's wrong." He muttered. Sango raised an eyebrow and leaned forward again. Fear started to inch it's way up her spine as she tried to make out what Inuyasha was trying to say.
She slid forward towards Inuyasha and stopped about a foot away. "What's wrong with Kagome?" She saw him shake his head.
"She's doing alright... it's..." he stopped and began picking on the grass again.
"'It's' what, Inuyasha? Is Kagome going to be fine or not?" She tried to keep her voice under control, but found it to be a loosing battle.
"It's.....us..." he growled to himself at having to reveal so much information.
Sango's eyes widened as realization finally clicked. She took a deep breath and ventured further. "Us? As in you and Kagome?"
Inuyasha nodded. "I...asked her to be my mate...and now I think she's regretting it." He ran his hand through his hair and scratched one of his ears lazily. "She basically shunned me when I saw her at their healing place...she wouldn't tell me what was wrong..." He closed his eyes, surprised he was letting this much information out. But he didn't care, he trusted Sango. Trusted her to give him the right advice so he can fix whatever it is he did wrong.
"Are you regretting it?" Sango asked.
Inuyasha snapped his head up and glared at the girl. Maybe they did rush into things and she was just not capable of handling the responsibility. Was he even able to deal with it? He shook his head. No. He loved Kagome. There has to be something more than just regret of that night to be causing a rift this big. But the more he thought about it, the more he found himself confused by his own emotions. "I..... don't know.." He looked up and locked eyes with Sango. He took a deep breath and knew he what he was going to say next would seem out of character for him, but right now, he didn't care. "Honestly, I'm scared. I don't want to loose her. There has to be something more to this then just regret of um...." A tinge of red came across his face "...that." He saw Sango nod and patted the ground next to her.
He moved over and sat next to her, placing his back against the tree as she did the same. She brought her legs to her chest and casually rested her arms on her knees. "Inuyasha." she said softly, getting the hanyou's attention. "Have you considered the fact that she could be with child?"
Inuyasha's ears perked up and twitched nervously. 'With child...' he thought to himself. His eyes widened. He did notice a slight change of scent in her, he just thought nothing of it because of the marking, but the more he thought about it, there was a lingering scent of death...; his thoughts drifted off and he stood up quickly. "I have to go." And with that, he ran towards the well, leaving a stunned Sango behind.
~*~
The air licked at his hair with each leap into the sky with the sun setting at his back as he jumped from building to building towards the hospital. With every step he took, the growing knot of dread grew larger and tighter in his gut. He finally stopped in one of the trees at his final destination and sniffed the air. His eyes widened when he was met with Kagome's scent. He quickly followed it and found Kagome being escorted to her car in one of those moving chair things by her mom and a woman dressed in white. Was she going home already? He sniffed the air again and noticed the slight scent of salt. He rubbed his forehead with the heel of his palm and sighed. Why was she hiding something like this from him? Didn't she trust him enough? It's his child too, or is she to ashamed to be carrying a baby with demon blood? Maybe it was a mistake. A low growl started in his chest as he watched Kagome and her mom get into the car and start to drive of. He sighed and turned to head back towards the house.
Her fingers idly played with the edge of her shirt as she watched the trees outside her window go by in silence. The sun was already setting, leaving behind a golden sky. 'Gold...same color as Inuyasha's eyes...' She rested her head against the glass window and sighed. Words couldn't even start to explain the feeling that was flowing through her veins. Numb? She blinked as a flock of birds flew into her vision. She closed her eyes and brought her hand up to grip the seatbelts shoulder strap. A small smile tugged at the corner of her lip with a memory of Inuyasha's first experience with a seatbelt. He managed to get it on okay, of course with the combination of her and Souta's help, and a string of cursing and questions from the boy of why he had to wear it in the first place. Yet when it came to taking it off, well that proved to be harder than fighting a demon. The seatbelt had to be replaced after that. She sighed as her thoughts were brought back to reality when the car finally stopped at the shrine. Her mother stepped out of the car with out a word and walked over to help Kagome out.
"I can make it on my own mama..." she said softly as she stepped out of the car, using the car door for support. Mrs. Higurashi stepped back and nodded. The two have already talked about what has happened. Even though she said she wasn't angry with what she and Inuyasha had done, Kagome knew that deep down she was disappointed. She couldn't blame her anyway. She shut the car door and walked with her mother back into the house.
Mrs. Higurashi slipped her shoes off in the hall and set her keys on the hook. "Why don't you go upstairs and rest and I'll see you morning."
Kagome nodded as she made her way to the stairs. She stopped when her mother called her name. She turned to look over her shoulder and raised an eyebrow. "Yes mama?"
"Do you know if Inuyasha will be coming tonight?"
Kagome turned her head away from her mother and shrugged lightly. "I don't know mama...I really need to go rest now." And with that she left her mother at the bottom stairs. As she reached the top of the stairs she looked around bringing her eyebrows together. "Mama?" she called to the bottom of the stairs. She heard her mom acknowledge. "Where's Souta and Grandpa?" Kagome rested her hand on the banister as she waited for her mother's answer.
"Souta is staying the night at a friends house and Grandpa is out visiting friends, He'll be back later tonight."
Kagome nodded and said "okay" as she walked to her room. She rested her hand on the door handle and closed her eyes silently praying Inuyasha wasn't there. Yet, a part of her argued with that and prayed he would be there. She took a breath and held it as she opened her door to her room. She was only greeted with darkness. She let out her breath and shut the door behind her. Nope, no sign of Inuyasha. He was probably still mad at her. Wouldn't surprise her really. She ran her hands through her hair and scanned the moonlit room as she walked to her dresser. She quickly changed into a thin white spaghetti strap nightgown and brushed her hair. She stole a glance to her window and bit her lip slightly, pondering whether or not to turn off her a/c and open her window. She opted for the second and gently pushed the window aside.
She was quickly met with the gentle sounds of the city, and a cool summer breeze that kissed her cheeks. She leaned against the windowsill with her forearms as her eyes scanned the grounds of the shrine. Her eyes fell upon the well house and a pang of sadness tugged at her heart. She quickly rubbed her eyes, willing the tears to stay at bay. She brought her hand to her neck and rubbed the muscles, tempting them to calm down as she made her way to the bed and slipping in between the covers.
She didn't know how long she'd been asleep before she felt weight being added at the end of her bed. She opened her eyes and turn onto her back to see who it was and was met with two large golden eyes. She sunk back into her pillow and returned to her position of facing the wall. "Did you tell them that I was okay?" she mumbled into the pillow.
"Why didn't you tell me?" Inuyasha whispered.
Kagome blinked. She could probably make a pretty good guess as to what he was talking about, but instead she chose to ignore the question, and pulled the covers further over her shoulders. "I'm really tired, Inuyasha. Can we talk about this tomorrow please?" She bit her lip gently, waiting for her mate to answer.
"No, we're talking about this now, and don't avoid the question, Kagome." He crossed his arms against his chest and stared at the girl that was curled up to his right. He heard her make a frustrated sigh.
"I don't know what you're talking about." She muttered into the pillow.
Inuyasha sighed, suppressing a growl. Why wasn't she answering him? He quickly slipped under the covers and spooned up behind her. "You know what I'm talking about, Kagome." His hand slid down to her stomach. His fingers curled against the fabric of her nightgown. He buried his face in the back of her neck and whispered. "Is the pup okay...?" his fingers began to gently run along her stomach.
Kagome froze. How did he know? Did her mom tell him?
Inuyasha brought her closer to his chest and he repeated, practically whimpering, his question, "Kagome... is the pup okay or not..?" Kagome's heart practically melted when she heard the pain in his voice. She slowly shook her head and closed her eyes.
His grip on her tightened again. "What happened?" he was practically begging now and it tore at her soul.
Kagome bit her lip and tilted her head towards her chest as she felt his hot breath against her neck. She stayed silent, gripping the blanket. Inuyasha narrowed his brow and slowly slipped out of the bed. Kagome pulled herself into a ball. Why was she acting like this? She wanted to tell him, wanted so badly for him to hold her in his arms and comfort her.
"Why aren't you trusting me enough to tell me what's going on?" Inuyasha lowered his head and gripped his fists, facing the window. "Or is it you're just ashamed you mated with a half breed and is carrying his pup.." his voice trailed off and Kagome felt tears leak from her eyes.
"You're wrong...." She whispered.
"Wrong about what?" he bit back. "Kagome-"
She gripped the blanket tighter, cutting into his sentence. "Wrong about me not trusting you, wrong about me being ashamed of being with you, and wrong about the pup." She closed her eyes and prayed to any god that would listen to give her strength for what she had to say next. "The baby was aborted..." she whispered softly.
Inuyasha spun around to face Kagome and blinked, trying to comprehend what Kagome has just said. "Wait....aborted? What the hell does that mean!?"
Kagome flinched at the harshness of his voice. 'Oh please kami let me get through this...' the young girl took a deep breath. "Because of complications that the demon most likely caused...they said if they hadn't stop the pregnancy... that..." her body shuddered. Inuyasha knelt down next to the bed and placed a hand on her shoulder, turning her to face him. He took her chin in his one of his large hands and made her look into his eyes.
She blinked quickly, tears slowly leaking down her cheek. She could see the anger and fear mixed in his large golden eyes. And she was scared.
"Does that mean..." He didn't have to finish his sentence. He already knew the truth. He saw the look her eyes. His pup didn't survive. That damn demon and those damn doctors took his pup away from him. He couldn't even tell what he was feeling. Anger and sorrow mixed together deep down in his soul, tearing apart his heart. He quickly stood up and went to the window, but before he was able to leap out he felt a tug on his shirt.
"Don't go... please.." Kagome begged. Her large brown eyes pleading with him, boring into his very soul and shaking him to the core.
He looked down, his bangs covering his eyes. He didn't know what to say to her. The pain of being around her at that moment was unbearable. He leaned down and kissed her forehead softly whispering a small apology and with that he leapt out of the window and into the warm summer night.
~*~
It was sometime after midnight. The moon was high in the sky as it's light reflected on the silent water of the hot spring. The clearing was absent of any being besides one. His form was hunched over on a single rock. His shoulders trembling as he slammed his fist into the offending object.
"DAMNIT!" He swore over and over again while slamming his fist against the rock repeatedly. Damn the demons that hurt Kagome. Damn the "healers" that couldn't save their pup and taking him or her away from them. He turned his head towards the sky and screamed, pouring out his frustration, anger and sorrow. "Why?!" He glared at the full moon, cursing it as if it was it was all it's fault, and in exactly two weeks, he'll be human. He growled, fisting his hands against the rock. That damn new moon. He cursed it. He cursed his human form. He hated being weak on that night. He was human when the demon attacked and he couldn't protect her, couldn't protect their pup. He blinked his eyes, refusing to cry. Kagome probably hated him now.
'Don't be stupid, she loves you.' A part of his mind said.
'I was the reason the pup died..'
'No, it was the demons fault.'
'But I wasn't able to protect her!'
He brought his hands to his head and ran his clawed fingers through his silver mane.
"Inuyasha?"
Inuyasha spun around to the voice that broke through the darkness and came face to face with Sango. She stepped forward and stood at the edge of the hot spring. He looked down and noticed she was holding bathing supplies.
"Sorry.." he muttered as he quickly stood and leapt into the air, landing softly next to Sango. "I'll leave you alone." But before he was able to go any further he felt a hand gently grab his arm. He turned his head slightly, trying to avoid her gaze, but failed. He lowered his head and whispered, his voice coming out hoarse. "You were right." He brought his hand to his eyes and quickly rubbed them with the back of his hand.
Sango tightened her grip and gently turned him to face her. "And?"
Inuyasha shook his head. The images of everything that just transpired between him and Kagome rushing through his head. "The pup didn't survive." He managed to say. He gently took his arm away from her grasp and made his way back to the village.
How was he going to be able to face Kagome after this?
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A/N: Yes, I know, I'm evil for leaving it at that. Sorry it took so long to get this chapter up. School and vacation and such. Ya know the deal. Anywho, Chapter 9 should probably be up in about 2-3 weeks, pending what happens.
And special thanks to my good friend Spag-chan who acted as my beta and helped me knock down the silly writers brick wall.
