Once the voice is gone so are the images. Without the images the pain in Shalimar's head dies down. When Shalimar wakes up this time she remembers her dream. Shal quickly scans which room she's in. She is thankful it is her own. She walks out of bed and carefully makes her way to the living room. The aura of the room is vastly different than Shalimar remembers it being. Instead of fun and loving, it seemed somehow hostile. Brennan and Jesse were provoking each other in subtle ways. Adam soon loses patients with both of them and tells them to find separate activities. All three of them are so absorbed in themselves they don't realize Shalimar is sitting on the couch. Shalimar doesn't care. She doesn't even feel like coughing to get their attentions. Brennan is the first to notice after about five minutes.

"Well, look who finally decided to join us," he says.

Jesse looks up from what he is doing and smiles. Both boys sit on each side of her. Brennan gives her a one armed hug and Jesse pats her knee. Shalimar smiles, but her attention seems to be elsewhere.

"What's wrong?" Jesse asks.

"I just had a weird dream," is Shalimar's response.

            Jesse runs his fingers through Shalimar's hair just as Adam comes in.

"Hey," Adam says, "you look a lot better."

"I feel so drowsy," Shalimar says.

"It's the pain killers for your wrist," Adam says, looking down and Shalimar's splinted wrist. "You're going to feel drowsy for about the next week." Adam looks at Shal; she looks so out of it. "So it shouldn't surprise you when I tell you that you're going to have to take it easy the next few days."

Shalimar lets out a groan, which Adam suspected. Adam gives her a reassuring smile.

"You'll live," he tells her, "are you hungry?"

            Shalimar smiles and nods. Two of the boys leave for cooking and the other gets back to work. Shalimar gets up and starts wondering aimlessly. When she goes through the hallway she stops at a door. Shalimar has a vague recollection of going into this room after having a nightmare. The ache in her head begins again, but it quickly goes down. Shalimar reaches for the door, but when she turns the knob, it is locked. Jesse is walking down the hall; he notices what she is doing.

"What is you're sudden interest with storage closets?" he asks her.

"I forgot what it was," she tells him, "have you ever been in there?" she asks curiously.

"A few times, but there's a lot of bugs and spiders."

            Shalimar smiles a fake smile and continues on with her destinationless journey. When she turns from Jesse, an angered look crosses her face. She doesn't believe what Jesse said about it being a storage closest. She has a real safe and loving feeling when she is by that room and Adam works hard to make sure there are no rodents in Sanctuary. Shalimar goes back to the dinning room, where everyone soon eats.

            After her meal Shalimar's wrist begins to act up. Adam takes her into the lab and injects her with the medicine. Shalimar instantly becomes groggy and Adam escorts her to her bedroom. Shal falls asleep before she hears Adam shut the door.

"How do you feel?" the voice asks her.

"Not like having another headache," Shalimar replies, "it's starting to happen in my waking world too."

"Where were you?" the voice persists.

"At a storage closest," she says.

"Was this storage closet the first door in the hallway on your right?"

Shalimar isn't sure whether to be scared of the voice or annoyed by it. "Yes," she answers more meekly than she intended to.

"What did you feel when you were by this door," the voice asks.

"Love," Shalimar answers. Then comes the ache. "I don't know what you are doing to me, but you have to stop this. I don't want to do it. It hurts too much."

Shalimar tries desperately to think of something else. She feels the voice place two hands on her neck. It is holding her chin still with its thumbs. She can't see anything, but she can feel its breath and sense its closeness.

"Shalimar listen to me," it says, "I am not putting these images in your head I am pulling them out of your sub-conscious. When you were under the anesthesia you could do it yourself, but now you need help. I admit it does hurt, but I promise I wont do more than you can handle. Do you understand?"

"Yes," Shalimar answers, sounding defeated.

            "Why did you love this girl so much?" the voice begins.

Shalimar remembers when a man named Henry trapped her in a dreamscape. Henry was torturing her with her fear of fire, but the young woman calmed her down and told her she would be okay. Shalimar kept wondering why she was picturing her with brown hair instead of red. She also remembers shopping with this girl. Laughing, crying and playing with this girl. Comforting her, helping her. She even jumped through fire to save her life. The ache in her head is immense. Shalimar begins to cry, but it is not because of the pain.

"I can't, I can't," she sobs

"Shal you need to stop," the voice tells her.

"No, no," she cries, moving her elbows from the voice's grip, "it's not the pain."

"Then what is it?"

"I can't," is her only response.

"You can't what?" the voice demands.

"I can't answer your question. I don't know WHY I loved her. I just know I DID."

            Adam hears Shalimar cry in her sleep. He goes in to check on her. He hears her say 'I just know I did'. He feels the need to inquire. "You did what Shal?" Adam asks as he shakes her out of her restless slumber.

"I know I loved her," she answers.

"Loved who?" he questions, stroking her hair.

"Emilia," Shalimar cries.

"We didn't know Emilia."

"Yes we did," Shalimar, insists, "she was one of our team members."

            Adam stares down at Shalimar in stunned silence. He doesn't understand what she is rambling about. Adam knows it is impossible to forget the existence of one individual person. Adam smoothes Shalimar's hair and watches her as she drifts back to sleep. Shalimar suddenly gasps at the realization of something, but continues falling asleep.

            "Hey voice?" Shalimar calls when she enters a lucid dream.

"Voice?" it chuckles in mock confusion.

"Yeah," Shalimar says like it's supposed to know what its name is. "I had a full memory of her," she says with excitement. "It's no longer just images anymore."

"That's wonderful Shalimar. I think you'll be able to pull the memories from your own mind now. I will leave you alone for a day. If any of the memories get too painful, think of something else."

Shalimar feels a sudden wave of fear.

"What's wrong?" the voice asks after sensing Shalimar's fear.

"How will I get Adam to believe me?" she asks.

"You can't tell any of your team members what you are doing. I don't want them to pull a 51-50 on you...just yet."

"Just yet? What do you mean just yet?" Shal asks angrily.

"Listen to me," the voice says, "I want you to go into that room you felt safe by when you think your ready." The voice is beginning to fade. "And Shalimar?" it says, "don't always believe your eyes."

            Shal heard him, but she's still angry. Why would the voice WANT the team to think that she is crazy?