DISCLAIMER: I do not own Beyblade or any characters or plot lines
associated with it.
Thanks to all of my reviewers: TechnoRanma, CrazyJen, Vicki, Vialana, Rumi- Chan, TyKa 4Ever!!!!!, Mugs, I luv Kai, I Luv Vege, Kiina
Dedication: To Ranma, who said that she loved this fic. You inflate my ego way to much^^;;;
~*~
NOTHING
I lay awake for most of the night, unable to sleep, unable to dream. I was covered in night arms but sleep did not come to claim me. My room was full; full of silence and it was deafening but I didn't utter one sound to break it. I feared that I would wake him. I turned my head ever so slightly and in the silver glow of the moon I could just make out Kai's sleeping form.
I watched as the sun's rays seared through the curtains and slowly but surely crept across my floor, flooding it with light. I heard the alarm ring in the room next to mine and not long after I heard the chattering of two peers and the eventual click on the front door closing behind them. Then I was met again with silence. I hauled myself out of my bed, quickly changed my clothes and stumbled down hall. The kitchen was whispering to me and I could no longer resist its calls.
Upon entering the kitchen I headed to the fridge, and pulled out the milk. After setting it down on the counter I went to the cupboard and grabbed a bowl and a spoon from the drawer. I placed then on the table and then made my way to the pantry and grabbed the box of Weetbix from the array of cereals displayed there. Then I moved to the dining table and took a seat. I ate my breakfast in silence and I waited.
And I waited.
And I waited, but he never came. I finished my breakfast and washed, wiped and put away dishes and then made my way back down the corridor. As I pasted our shared bedroom door I hesitated. I wanted so badly to go in and see if he was still there. And I prayed to all Gods that he hadn't skipped out on me, I mean us. But then as I touched my hand to the knob I received a revelation of huge proportions.
Kai. He didn't want me. He would be super angry if I barged in on him and he was changing or something. So I decided to wait it out. I headed out to the patio and pulled Dragoon out of my pocket. I was going to launch him and practice a little but in the end all I could do was to sit on the little bench and cry.
Finally I heard sounds from inside the house that registered in my brain as people sounds. I got up, stuffed Dragoon back in my pocket and hurriedly dried my eyes. I slowly opened the sliding door and crept inside. Kai was just crossing the threshold into the kitchen as I stepped inside, so I thusly caught the dropping of the jaw.
"Max and Rei have gone," I whispered, so as not to startle him. Kenny had gone back to his house. He hardly ever stays overnight here. I heard him complaining to Rei that he didn't like the noise or the mess that came as an automatic part of living with me. I wasn't too offended I don't think that I could stand living with him either. Don't get me wrong, I love him and all and he is a great friend but he acts too much like a stiff shirt most of the time.
He spun at the sound of my voice, "Huh?"
"Max is spending the day with his parents and Rei is with Lee and Mariah; he's gone back to his village for the next two weeks," I further explained.
"Huh?" he repeated.
"Geez Kai, they told us last night, don't you remember.
"I saw that at the mention of last night his cheeks were flooded with a lovely rose tint.
"No of course you don't remember that, you were to busy planning on how to ditch us."
He looked away.
"What bothers me the most, though, is that you weren't even going to say good-bye to us. You weren't going to say good bye to me."
I took one last look at him and then I walked away. I made my way to the front door and stepped outside. I didn't go far just around the block. I tried to calm down but I was just so mad. As I neared my house again I felt like crying again. I stepped up and slid my key into the lock. After taking a deep breath I turned the key and stepped inside. And yet I was met with nothing but silence. There was no whisper of a breath; no creaking boards underfoot, no nothing. Just silence.
"Kai," I called out tentatively.
No answer came.
I walked past the answering machine and it's little light was blinking. I clicked the button and Max's voice boomed from the box, "Hi guys, I'm just ringing to say that I'm staying at my Dad's tonight. I'll see you tomorrow. Bye."
I made my way around the house but it soon came clear that Kai was not home. I sat on the couch and I cried for the second time that day. I tried to stop but the salty tears just made their own way down over my cheeks. The sun began reel in its bright rays and that's when I heard a slight scratching sound.
I raced to the front door and yanked it open and a bewildered Kai stumbled forward.
"Where the hell have you been?" I demanded, trying desperately to regain control of myself and not crush him to me in relief.
"Out," he muttered.
"Out! Out! That's all you have to say!" I yelled at me. I grabbed hold of his wrist and dragged him inside and then slammed the door shut behind us.
"What are you all so worked up about?" he asked of me.
"I come home, you're not here, there was no note, no nothing. I thought you had really gone. I was worried sick!"
I saw his eyes widened slightly.
And I lost the last wisp of control I had. I rushed him then, fists drawn. "How could you do that?" I pounded against my chest, "You selfish, arrogant......" in the end I trailed off and collapsed against him and we fell to the ground. He wrapped his arms around me and held me tight in his embrace and all I could do was sob.
"Tyson," he started, "I didn't mean to frighten you. I just needed to think, to try and clear my head."
I nodded against his chest and I felt his arms loosen from their place around him. I slowly stood up and offered him my hand. We walked to the room we both shared and I followed him in and sat down on my bed.
"So you're not going to leave?" I sniffled.
"No. I'm staying."
"Well good," I stated, "I mean cause I......- I mean we need you."
"Nice to know that I'm wanted."
I looked over at him then from my perch on my own bed, "Of course you are wanted Kai. Did I not show you how much I want you, last night?"
"I....I....-" he stuttered.
"But that's right - you didn't want me."
"It's not like that."
"No, of course not. You aren't like me," I mocked him, echoing his words from the night before, "You're not a gay," I eventually bit out.
I almost smirked at the unconscious flinch that passed over his features at my words.
"So Kai, what are you so afraid of?" I repeated my previous question, and with ever word I said I took a step closer, until I was standing right in front of him.
"Um -"
I knelt then, resting my hands lightly on his knees. I looked into his eyes.
"Tell me?"
"I'm afraid...." I nodded in encouragement, "If I don't submit to this then I can still tell myself that I am just like everyone else."
"Oh," I breathed. "So what is this?"
He shrugged.
"Not sure?"
Kai nodded.
"So, is this alright?"
I heard him take the telltale sharp intake in breath as I lightly slid my hands up his thighs.
"Is this alright?" I asked as I manoeuvred myself so I was now situated between his legs. My hands precariously close to his groin. I smirked as I heard his moan. Kai gasped as my fingertips brushed against, the now very obvious bulge in his pants.
I smiled up at him wickedly and pulled away, reminiscent of what I did yesterday. I stood up then and tugged him up with me. I pulled his shirt over his head and tossed it over my right shoulder. I then traced the mark that I gave to me with a cool fingertip. I felt him shiver and I lowered my lips to it. My heart was skipping every second beat I swear and I could feel his jump under my touch. I gently suckled on the already tender skin and revelled in the shiver on pleasure that he granted me.
I traced a feather light path down his torso, finding that my fingers have a taken on a life of their own. But then I came in contact with Kai's belt buckle and I hesitated.
To my surprise, Kai reached down and with his own hand guided me through undoing the buckle, buttons and finally the zip. I looked up at him, to find that his scarlet eyes were hazy and clouded with lust. I asked a silent question and received my answer within a kiss. I smiled against his lips and tugged his pants and underwear down. I pushed him back and he fell upon my bed. I looked down at him and when our eyes made contact I could see not only his lust and obvious desire for me but his hunger too. I saw the change in his disposition and I knew he had seen the answering hunger in my own eyes. It made him smile. I ripped off my own pyjama shirt and slid my boxers down over my hips and stepped out of them; leaving them in a pool on the floor.
I saw him looking at me. I watched as his eyes travelled down my frame and heard the subsequent gasp. I smiled at his innocence but I could not wait any longer so I lowered myself down so that I was hovering just above him. I reached down and cupped his length in my hand. I smiled in pleasure at the weight of it in my grasp and his subsequent hiss at the contact of skin to skin.
"For me?" I asked teasingly.
"Of course," he muttered.
I kissed him then, lowering my body so it was pressed flush against his own. Another hiss escaped his lips but was soon swallowed by my urgent kisses.
~
As the suns rays peek through my curtains and caressed my skin I slowly opened my eyes. I couldn't believe that just two nights ago I had wanted to leave this place. I had actually considered leaving and never once returning. I have been wrong about so many things in my life. I can admit that to myself, to someone else – now that is a totally different thing all together. But I know now that all of the things that I made myself embrace as a child, the things that I carried through up until this very day – all of it was wrong.
There are more things in this world other than power. More important things; like friendship, trust, self respect. I can now forget all of my hard learned lessons. I was taught to believe that I was nothing. I was to feel nothing, express nothing and yet know everything and be impartial to it.
I have grown since the time that I first met Tyson and the other Blade breakers. Then I wanted them to respect me, to obey me and to acknowledge my superiority but I don't want that anymore. I have learned to respect myself and I have a wonderful teacher. A boy, who is almost a man, he has taught me about life's greatest assets and now I have his love.
It is the greatest treasure I could have ever hoped to have. When he holds me I know that I am something and I am precious to him and I can feel my heart swell with pride and warmth.
It is he who I now embrace.
Shall always embrace.
~*~
I finally finished it! Yah^^
I hope that you like the concluding chapter to my first ever attempt at a lemon^^ It wasn't too graphic I know but it was something to help me. Just a bit to dabble in.^^ Hopefully I'll get better – must keep up the practice, right? ^^
A/N: I just realised that in chapter one I made it sound like Kenny lived with the other four but I didn't mean it to be like that. He lives with his parents but stays over sometimes. I hope that that is not to confusing^^;;
Be safe
-BG
Thanks to all of my reviewers: TechnoRanma, CrazyJen, Vicki, Vialana, Rumi- Chan, TyKa 4Ever!!!!!, Mugs, I luv Kai, I Luv Vege, Kiina
Dedication: To Ranma, who said that she loved this fic. You inflate my ego way to much^^;;;
~*~
NOTHING
I lay awake for most of the night, unable to sleep, unable to dream. I was covered in night arms but sleep did not come to claim me. My room was full; full of silence and it was deafening but I didn't utter one sound to break it. I feared that I would wake him. I turned my head ever so slightly and in the silver glow of the moon I could just make out Kai's sleeping form.
I watched as the sun's rays seared through the curtains and slowly but surely crept across my floor, flooding it with light. I heard the alarm ring in the room next to mine and not long after I heard the chattering of two peers and the eventual click on the front door closing behind them. Then I was met again with silence. I hauled myself out of my bed, quickly changed my clothes and stumbled down hall. The kitchen was whispering to me and I could no longer resist its calls.
Upon entering the kitchen I headed to the fridge, and pulled out the milk. After setting it down on the counter I went to the cupboard and grabbed a bowl and a spoon from the drawer. I placed then on the table and then made my way to the pantry and grabbed the box of Weetbix from the array of cereals displayed there. Then I moved to the dining table and took a seat. I ate my breakfast in silence and I waited.
And I waited.
And I waited, but he never came. I finished my breakfast and washed, wiped and put away dishes and then made my way back down the corridor. As I pasted our shared bedroom door I hesitated. I wanted so badly to go in and see if he was still there. And I prayed to all Gods that he hadn't skipped out on me, I mean us. But then as I touched my hand to the knob I received a revelation of huge proportions.
Kai. He didn't want me. He would be super angry if I barged in on him and he was changing or something. So I decided to wait it out. I headed out to the patio and pulled Dragoon out of my pocket. I was going to launch him and practice a little but in the end all I could do was to sit on the little bench and cry.
Finally I heard sounds from inside the house that registered in my brain as people sounds. I got up, stuffed Dragoon back in my pocket and hurriedly dried my eyes. I slowly opened the sliding door and crept inside. Kai was just crossing the threshold into the kitchen as I stepped inside, so I thusly caught the dropping of the jaw.
"Max and Rei have gone," I whispered, so as not to startle him. Kenny had gone back to his house. He hardly ever stays overnight here. I heard him complaining to Rei that he didn't like the noise or the mess that came as an automatic part of living with me. I wasn't too offended I don't think that I could stand living with him either. Don't get me wrong, I love him and all and he is a great friend but he acts too much like a stiff shirt most of the time.
He spun at the sound of my voice, "Huh?"
"Max is spending the day with his parents and Rei is with Lee and Mariah; he's gone back to his village for the next two weeks," I further explained.
"Huh?" he repeated.
"Geez Kai, they told us last night, don't you remember.
"I saw that at the mention of last night his cheeks were flooded with a lovely rose tint.
"No of course you don't remember that, you were to busy planning on how to ditch us."
He looked away.
"What bothers me the most, though, is that you weren't even going to say good-bye to us. You weren't going to say good bye to me."
I took one last look at him and then I walked away. I made my way to the front door and stepped outside. I didn't go far just around the block. I tried to calm down but I was just so mad. As I neared my house again I felt like crying again. I stepped up and slid my key into the lock. After taking a deep breath I turned the key and stepped inside. And yet I was met with nothing but silence. There was no whisper of a breath; no creaking boards underfoot, no nothing. Just silence.
"Kai," I called out tentatively.
No answer came.
I walked past the answering machine and it's little light was blinking. I clicked the button and Max's voice boomed from the box, "Hi guys, I'm just ringing to say that I'm staying at my Dad's tonight. I'll see you tomorrow. Bye."
I made my way around the house but it soon came clear that Kai was not home. I sat on the couch and I cried for the second time that day. I tried to stop but the salty tears just made their own way down over my cheeks. The sun began reel in its bright rays and that's when I heard a slight scratching sound.
I raced to the front door and yanked it open and a bewildered Kai stumbled forward.
"Where the hell have you been?" I demanded, trying desperately to regain control of myself and not crush him to me in relief.
"Out," he muttered.
"Out! Out! That's all you have to say!" I yelled at me. I grabbed hold of his wrist and dragged him inside and then slammed the door shut behind us.
"What are you all so worked up about?" he asked of me.
"I come home, you're not here, there was no note, no nothing. I thought you had really gone. I was worried sick!"
I saw his eyes widened slightly.
And I lost the last wisp of control I had. I rushed him then, fists drawn. "How could you do that?" I pounded against my chest, "You selfish, arrogant......" in the end I trailed off and collapsed against him and we fell to the ground. He wrapped his arms around me and held me tight in his embrace and all I could do was sob.
"Tyson," he started, "I didn't mean to frighten you. I just needed to think, to try and clear my head."
I nodded against his chest and I felt his arms loosen from their place around him. I slowly stood up and offered him my hand. We walked to the room we both shared and I followed him in and sat down on my bed.
"So you're not going to leave?" I sniffled.
"No. I'm staying."
"Well good," I stated, "I mean cause I......- I mean we need you."
"Nice to know that I'm wanted."
I looked over at him then from my perch on my own bed, "Of course you are wanted Kai. Did I not show you how much I want you, last night?"
"I....I....-" he stuttered.
"But that's right - you didn't want me."
"It's not like that."
"No, of course not. You aren't like me," I mocked him, echoing his words from the night before, "You're not a gay," I eventually bit out.
I almost smirked at the unconscious flinch that passed over his features at my words.
"So Kai, what are you so afraid of?" I repeated my previous question, and with ever word I said I took a step closer, until I was standing right in front of him.
"Um -"
I knelt then, resting my hands lightly on his knees. I looked into his eyes.
"Tell me?"
"I'm afraid...." I nodded in encouragement, "If I don't submit to this then I can still tell myself that I am just like everyone else."
"Oh," I breathed. "So what is this?"
He shrugged.
"Not sure?"
Kai nodded.
"So, is this alright?"
I heard him take the telltale sharp intake in breath as I lightly slid my hands up his thighs.
"Is this alright?" I asked as I manoeuvred myself so I was now situated between his legs. My hands precariously close to his groin. I smirked as I heard his moan. Kai gasped as my fingertips brushed against, the now very obvious bulge in his pants.
I smiled up at him wickedly and pulled away, reminiscent of what I did yesterday. I stood up then and tugged him up with me. I pulled his shirt over his head and tossed it over my right shoulder. I then traced the mark that I gave to me with a cool fingertip. I felt him shiver and I lowered my lips to it. My heart was skipping every second beat I swear and I could feel his jump under my touch. I gently suckled on the already tender skin and revelled in the shiver on pleasure that he granted me.
I traced a feather light path down his torso, finding that my fingers have a taken on a life of their own. But then I came in contact with Kai's belt buckle and I hesitated.
To my surprise, Kai reached down and with his own hand guided me through undoing the buckle, buttons and finally the zip. I looked up at him, to find that his scarlet eyes were hazy and clouded with lust. I asked a silent question and received my answer within a kiss. I smiled against his lips and tugged his pants and underwear down. I pushed him back and he fell upon my bed. I looked down at him and when our eyes made contact I could see not only his lust and obvious desire for me but his hunger too. I saw the change in his disposition and I knew he had seen the answering hunger in my own eyes. It made him smile. I ripped off my own pyjama shirt and slid my boxers down over my hips and stepped out of them; leaving them in a pool on the floor.
I saw him looking at me. I watched as his eyes travelled down my frame and heard the subsequent gasp. I smiled at his innocence but I could not wait any longer so I lowered myself down so that I was hovering just above him. I reached down and cupped his length in my hand. I smiled in pleasure at the weight of it in my grasp and his subsequent hiss at the contact of skin to skin.
"For me?" I asked teasingly.
"Of course," he muttered.
I kissed him then, lowering my body so it was pressed flush against his own. Another hiss escaped his lips but was soon swallowed by my urgent kisses.
~
As the suns rays peek through my curtains and caressed my skin I slowly opened my eyes. I couldn't believe that just two nights ago I had wanted to leave this place. I had actually considered leaving and never once returning. I have been wrong about so many things in my life. I can admit that to myself, to someone else – now that is a totally different thing all together. But I know now that all of the things that I made myself embrace as a child, the things that I carried through up until this very day – all of it was wrong.
There are more things in this world other than power. More important things; like friendship, trust, self respect. I can now forget all of my hard learned lessons. I was taught to believe that I was nothing. I was to feel nothing, express nothing and yet know everything and be impartial to it.
I have grown since the time that I first met Tyson and the other Blade breakers. Then I wanted them to respect me, to obey me and to acknowledge my superiority but I don't want that anymore. I have learned to respect myself and I have a wonderful teacher. A boy, who is almost a man, he has taught me about life's greatest assets and now I have his love.
It is the greatest treasure I could have ever hoped to have. When he holds me I know that I am something and I am precious to him and I can feel my heart swell with pride and warmth.
It is he who I now embrace.
Shall always embrace.
~*~
I finally finished it! Yah^^
I hope that you like the concluding chapter to my first ever attempt at a lemon^^ It wasn't too graphic I know but it was something to help me. Just a bit to dabble in.^^ Hopefully I'll get better – must keep up the practice, right? ^^
A/N: I just realised that in chapter one I made it sound like Kenny lived with the other four but I didn't mean it to be like that. He lives with his parents but stays over sometimes. I hope that that is not to confusing^^;;
Be safe
-BG
