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Fourth Chapter
Inu- This chapter is all about Kik's Diary and about how she tried to kill me by shooting arrows at me.
Darkness: (That's the name Kik gives to her Diary)
Naraku almost killed me yesterday. He found out that I wasn't doing what he told me to and that I started to feel something for Inu-Yasha. I asked Sess if he ratted on me, but he said he didn't. I wish I knew who it was so I could kill him/her instead of Inu-Yasha. To be perfectly honest, I don't know how to kill anything besides animals. I've only killed them with my arrows, so it isn't much of a big deal. I don't know what to do. I'm so confused. I feel remorse for what I haven't even done! I know I'll have to do it sooner or later, or I'll have to pay the consequences. I don't even know why I'm Naraku's partner! I really don't need him! Sess is doing fine without Naraku, though I told him that Naraku is very powerful. Sess was right; I shouldn't have become his business partner. He told me "If he's powerful, he has one point against me". I should've followed his advice. Anyone more powerful than me is probably using me for something. I hope Sess is not...He's a lot more powerful than I'll ever be! I'm only 15, but I should start training harder to become powerful. I want to get powerful and defeat Naraku. Wait! I have the perfect plan... I'll go with Naraku's plans and kill Inu-Yasha, even if it hurts me. Then I will be out of harm's way and I can get more powerful to defeat Naraku.
Killing Inu-Yasha will cause a lot of mental pain, which will cause a lot of physical pain because I have to cut myself. My cuts hurt me but I deserve them. I just wish I didn't have to kill Inu-Yasha. Why can't I kill that Kagome instead? I took a picture of her and I never noticed how much she looked like me. It's so strange. I want to kill her even more now because she looks like me, and that's why, just maybe, she likes Inu-Yasha too. We may have mental connections or something.
I am all scarred because of Naraku. He bashed me around and around. I fell unconscious, and when I woke up I was at the hospital with a nurse putting an injection on my arm, which was very painful, but didn't hurt more than my scissor, nail file, and knife cuts. They hurt even more if they get infected. Sometimes I just feel like hanging myself to end it all: the pain, the love, the hope, and the beliefs. I want to end it all.
Here's my poem:
Tears From My Soul
If you can hold me for one last time, Don't let go. Because I'll love you today and tomorrow, Don't let go. Because if you let go, I'll leave forever Tears'll blind me, If we're not together If you love me, Please hold on My hand is yours It now belongs, To the one I love To the one I seek That makes my heart Feel just complete Now that I found you Please don't leave Please don't think That it won't hurt me Because it will It cuts like a knife It protrudes now From the inside This love that perishes Because you're not around If you're not here What good am I? If you're my sun, my everything You're all my life You completed my map You finished my sentence You were the one here When the world just faded So if that's your shadow Far, far away Remember that if you stay, I will stay.
By: Kikyo
This was one of the saddest poems I've ever written. I really like it because it shows my feelings toward Inu-Yasha. I think I love him but I can't tell him! I'm evil. I have to kill him... I won't be able. I wish I'd die and leave this game that some call faith, others may call confusion and pain, like I do. I don't have anything to do in the world but suffer. I guess a more powerful force than me is testing me...
Inu-That's her Diary conclusion, and now, something she called her "Blood Papers". She took papers and wrote something bad or well, but that she thought was bad and put blood on them. Then she'd crumple them up into a little ball and threw them into a box where she kept all her blood papers. That was really sad. This was when she tried to kill me:
I tried to kill Inu-Yasha today, but I couldn't. I took a knife, and, as I kissed him, I tried to stick it into his back, but it was no use, and I used the knife to cut a letter 'I', which I carved into my skin on my leg. I couldn't stop crying from the pain, but I deserved it. I tried to kill the love of my life. I couldn't. I just couldn't.
Inu- This was one of the blood papers. Here's another one:
I love Inu-Yasha with all my heart, and I don't want to lose him to myself. I have to kill him, but I can't. He means so much to me. He is my life, my only feeling of happiness in the world, and I don't want to take it away from myself. Inu-Yasha is too precious. I'll just ask him back for the Shikon no Tama and bring blood of my own...
Inu- Every time I read one of the blood papers with my name on it, I feel guilty...
Next Chapter:
Kik turns into Inu's girlfriend... How will Kag react? Inu tells Kik that he's looking for the Shikon no Tama Tragedy Happens...
Read next Chapter to find out what happens!
rich!
Fourth Chapter
Inu- This chapter is all about Kik's Diary and about how she tried to kill me by shooting arrows at me.
Darkness: (That's the name Kik gives to her Diary)
Naraku almost killed me yesterday. He found out that I wasn't doing what he told me to and that I started to feel something for Inu-Yasha. I asked Sess if he ratted on me, but he said he didn't. I wish I knew who it was so I could kill him/her instead of Inu-Yasha. To be perfectly honest, I don't know how to kill anything besides animals. I've only killed them with my arrows, so it isn't much of a big deal. I don't know what to do. I'm so confused. I feel remorse for what I haven't even done! I know I'll have to do it sooner or later, or I'll have to pay the consequences. I don't even know why I'm Naraku's partner! I really don't need him! Sess is doing fine without Naraku, though I told him that Naraku is very powerful. Sess was right; I shouldn't have become his business partner. He told me "If he's powerful, he has one point against me". I should've followed his advice. Anyone more powerful than me is probably using me for something. I hope Sess is not...He's a lot more powerful than I'll ever be! I'm only 15, but I should start training harder to become powerful. I want to get powerful and defeat Naraku. Wait! I have the perfect plan... I'll go with Naraku's plans and kill Inu-Yasha, even if it hurts me. Then I will be out of harm's way and I can get more powerful to defeat Naraku.
Killing Inu-Yasha will cause a lot of mental pain, which will cause a lot of physical pain because I have to cut myself. My cuts hurt me but I deserve them. I just wish I didn't have to kill Inu-Yasha. Why can't I kill that Kagome instead? I took a picture of her and I never noticed how much she looked like me. It's so strange. I want to kill her even more now because she looks like me, and that's why, just maybe, she likes Inu-Yasha too. We may have mental connections or something.
I am all scarred because of Naraku. He bashed me around and around. I fell unconscious, and when I woke up I was at the hospital with a nurse putting an injection on my arm, which was very painful, but didn't hurt more than my scissor, nail file, and knife cuts. They hurt even more if they get infected. Sometimes I just feel like hanging myself to end it all: the pain, the love, the hope, and the beliefs. I want to end it all.
Here's my poem:
Tears From My Soul
If you can hold me for one last time, Don't let go. Because I'll love you today and tomorrow, Don't let go. Because if you let go, I'll leave forever Tears'll blind me, If we're not together If you love me, Please hold on My hand is yours It now belongs, To the one I love To the one I seek That makes my heart Feel just complete Now that I found you Please don't leave Please don't think That it won't hurt me Because it will It cuts like a knife It protrudes now From the inside This love that perishes Because you're not around If you're not here What good am I? If you're my sun, my everything You're all my life You completed my map You finished my sentence You were the one here When the world just faded So if that's your shadow Far, far away Remember that if you stay, I will stay.
By: Kikyo
This was one of the saddest poems I've ever written. I really like it because it shows my feelings toward Inu-Yasha. I think I love him but I can't tell him! I'm evil. I have to kill him... I won't be able. I wish I'd die and leave this game that some call faith, others may call confusion and pain, like I do. I don't have anything to do in the world but suffer. I guess a more powerful force than me is testing me...
Inu-That's her Diary conclusion, and now, something she called her "Blood Papers". She took papers and wrote something bad or well, but that she thought was bad and put blood on them. Then she'd crumple them up into a little ball and threw them into a box where she kept all her blood papers. That was really sad. This was when she tried to kill me:
I tried to kill Inu-Yasha today, but I couldn't. I took a knife, and, as I kissed him, I tried to stick it into his back, but it was no use, and I used the knife to cut a letter 'I', which I carved into my skin on my leg. I couldn't stop crying from the pain, but I deserved it. I tried to kill the love of my life. I couldn't. I just couldn't.
Inu- This was one of the blood papers. Here's another one:
I love Inu-Yasha with all my heart, and I don't want to lose him to myself. I have to kill him, but I can't. He means so much to me. He is my life, my only feeling of happiness in the world, and I don't want to take it away from myself. Inu-Yasha is too precious. I'll just ask him back for the Shikon no Tama and bring blood of my own...
Inu- Every time I read one of the blood papers with my name on it, I feel guilty...
Next Chapter:
Kik turns into Inu's girlfriend... How will Kag react? Inu tells Kik that he's looking for the Shikon no Tama Tragedy Happens...
Read next Chapter to find out what happens!
