Jackie stopped sitting on Hyde's lap after he made a comment about how bony her but was beginning to feel. He was just kidding but she took it as a snide and insensitive comment. Jackie's obsession with her appearance became worse as she watched her mom get all the hot guys that came her way; she hated that Hyde thought she was hot. Donna even wished she were like her; she knew this for a fact because she read it in her diary.
It was only a few hours until the big game against the Lions and Jackie found her self on her bed crying her eyes out. Why was life so much harder for her? Her mother would make sure to tell her what a looser she was. She had no one to talk; Hyde never talked he just looked at her and pushed aside. He really hated serious discussions.
Jackie went to see what the rest of the gang was doing but when she got to the basement she found it empty; she was ready to leave but before she did she found a huge box sitting on Hyde's chair walked over to his chair and picked the box up. There was a card with her name on it. She opened it up, and found a dozen roses lying inside; the card simply read good luck.
She began to cry; how was she suppose to tell everyone that she was a complete looser. They would probably all make fun of her and that was something that she just couldn't deal with right now. She was about to leave when Eric and Donna came into the basement. They looked so happy together; which was more than she could say for her and Steven. After what seemed like forever to Jackie, they finally acknowledged her.
"So are you ready to show off your bitchy cheerleading performance at tonight's game?" Donna asked her.
"Um...you know what? I've decided I'm not going to the game. I'm just too tired to cheer tonight." Jackie said.
"Jackie you've been talking about how important this game was to you for weeks. Jackie, is everything okay? Did you and Hyde have another fight?" Donna asked her.
"It's hard to fight Donna when I hardly ever see him and when I do he's got some kind of snide comment." Jackie said.
"Jackie I'm sorry I didn't know." Donna said.
"Of course you didn't know; why would you know? You haven't really talked to me either. Why don't you do me a favor and just leave me the hell alone." Jackie said.
"Jackie it's not always about you; and if you're so pissed at me why don't you do my dad and I a favor and just move out with your gold digging mother." Donna said.
"You know what? That's a great idea; I'll go pack my bags right now." Jackie said.
Bob had convinced Jackie to stay; and Donna had apologized to her about what had happened. Jackie laid down on her bed but she couldn't sleep; it had been days since her last binge and she was beginning to finally feel like she would be able to last a complete week without eating a single thing. She was laying on the bed when she heard the door open; not wanting to be bothered by anyone, she closed her eyes and pretended not to be awake.
At first she thought it was just Donna but she soon found out that it was the whole gang checking up on her.
"I'm telling you something weird is going on with Jackie." Kelso said.
"Well she's asleep; so I think everything is alright." Donna said.
"Kelso, why are we over here anyways?" Eric asked.
"I think there's something truly wrong with Jackie." Kelso said.
"I think you're over reacting Kelso." Eric said.
"Hyde what do you think?" Kelso asked him.
"I think Kelso right." Hyde said.
"You're agreeing with Kelso; why?" Eric asked him.
"Well, where should I start? Oh I know, Jackie's feeling too tired to cheer; and not to mention this is suppose to be the biggest game of her cheer career. It's all that she has talked about for weeks; and not to mention the fact that she threw away a bouquet of roses. Jackie likes flowers; especially roses." Hyde said.
"Wait, you actually listen and know what she likes?" Donna asked.
"Yeah; why?" Hyde asked her.
"Jackie said that you guys haven't seen each other in awhile and that you're always making snide remarks." Donna said.
"I've haven't made a snide remark to her ever. I've been sarcastic but that's how I always am." Hyde said.
"Hey is that Jackie's suitcase?" Kelso asked.
"Yeah but she hardly ever uses it other than to keep personnel things in it." Donna said.
"Maybe she put something in there that'll help us figure out what's bothering her." Eric said.
"Well, there's no harm in trying." Hyde said.
Jackie laid on her bed with her eyes closed listening into her friend's conversations. They acted as if they were worried about her but thought it must have been because they wanted to get rid of their guilt. As long as they didn't lift her sleeve up she would be fine; but then she thought about what she left in her case and began to get very worried at what they might find.
Hyde picked her case up from the ground and was surprised to find it so damn heavy. How much personnel stuff could she possibly have in there? He began to open her suitcase but then stopped guilt had taken over him so he told Kelso to do it which he did. Inside her suitcase they found bags of pills, razor, a bag filled with white powder, and a bag of pot.
"Holy crap; she's got more pot then you do Hyde!" Kelso exclaimed.
"Yeah but that's not what I'm worried about. Where did she get these pills?" Hyde asked.
"Well they're probably just some prescribed pills for allergies." Donna said.
"Wow, I wish someone would prescribe me speed Donna." Hyde said.
"Well, that would explain why she's always happy and alert one moment and then totally depressed and paranoid the next; kind of like you Hyde." Eric said with a smile.
"Why does she have a razor in her suitcase?" Donna asked.
"Maybe she's a spy and she had to steal all those drugs and then she had to use the razor to kill her enemies." Kelso said.
"No you moron that's not it; I don't know why she a razor in her suitcase just like I don't know what she's doing with all these pills." Hyde said.
"Maybe we should wake her up and find out what's going on." Eric chimed in.
"No let's let her sleep; she's obviously really tired." Hyde said.
"Yeah besides Batman is coming on soon and I've got to see what kind of torture the Joker is going to come up with next." Eric said.
They were finally gone; how was she going to explain all these pills? Well maybe it wouldn't be hard because Steven does drugs all the time and she did steal the cocaine off of him. At least they hadn't found out what the razor was for. Jackie got out of her bed; she was feeling weak and tired. She opened up the suitcase and took out the razor and went into Donna's bedroom. She pulled up her pant leg and punctured her skin with the razor; it didn't matter now whether or not her legs were cut up; she wasn't a cheerleader anymore. She felt the pain shoot up her body and felt as if she deserved it. She pulled the razor out of her skin and made another gash on her other leg. The one gash for because she was kicked out of cheer and the other was just because she deserved it.
"You know what Hyde I forgot my brush in my room." Donna said outside her door room.
"Can't you get it later?" He asked.
"No I need it now. I have to brush my hair out after Kelso touched it. Who knows where his hands have been." Donna said.
"Well maybe you should take a shower instead." Hyde said.
"Yeah you're right. So do you want to wait for me until I'm done?" She asked him.
"Yeah sure; whatever." He replied.
"Oh look Jackie's up; she must be in the bathroom." Donna said.
"I'm glad she's up cause we need to talk." Hyde said.
"Well, I'm going to go in there and tell her that I'm going to use the shower. You can sit on my bed and wait for her to come out." Donna said.
"Shouldn't you knock?" Hyde asked.
"If the door's locked then it means she wants privacy but if it's unlocked it's alright." Donna said.
Jackie couldn't believe that she forgot to lock the bathroom door. She tried to cover up but it was too late. Donna stared at her and called Hyde over who was shocked to see a frail Jackie standing there with deep cuts in her legs.
Donna stood outside in the cold weather remembering that fateful day when she found Jackie; that was the beginning of hell for them all; and now it was a year later.
It was only a few hours until the big game against the Lions and Jackie found her self on her bed crying her eyes out. Why was life so much harder for her? Her mother would make sure to tell her what a looser she was. She had no one to talk; Hyde never talked he just looked at her and pushed aside. He really hated serious discussions.
Jackie went to see what the rest of the gang was doing but when she got to the basement she found it empty; she was ready to leave but before she did she found a huge box sitting on Hyde's chair walked over to his chair and picked the box up. There was a card with her name on it. She opened it up, and found a dozen roses lying inside; the card simply read good luck.
She began to cry; how was she suppose to tell everyone that she was a complete looser. They would probably all make fun of her and that was something that she just couldn't deal with right now. She was about to leave when Eric and Donna came into the basement. They looked so happy together; which was more than she could say for her and Steven. After what seemed like forever to Jackie, they finally acknowledged her.
"So are you ready to show off your bitchy cheerleading performance at tonight's game?" Donna asked her.
"Um...you know what? I've decided I'm not going to the game. I'm just too tired to cheer tonight." Jackie said.
"Jackie you've been talking about how important this game was to you for weeks. Jackie, is everything okay? Did you and Hyde have another fight?" Donna asked her.
"It's hard to fight Donna when I hardly ever see him and when I do he's got some kind of snide comment." Jackie said.
"Jackie I'm sorry I didn't know." Donna said.
"Of course you didn't know; why would you know? You haven't really talked to me either. Why don't you do me a favor and just leave me the hell alone." Jackie said.
"Jackie it's not always about you; and if you're so pissed at me why don't you do my dad and I a favor and just move out with your gold digging mother." Donna said.
"You know what? That's a great idea; I'll go pack my bags right now." Jackie said.
Bob had convinced Jackie to stay; and Donna had apologized to her about what had happened. Jackie laid down on her bed but she couldn't sleep; it had been days since her last binge and she was beginning to finally feel like she would be able to last a complete week without eating a single thing. She was laying on the bed when she heard the door open; not wanting to be bothered by anyone, she closed her eyes and pretended not to be awake.
At first she thought it was just Donna but she soon found out that it was the whole gang checking up on her.
"I'm telling you something weird is going on with Jackie." Kelso said.
"Well she's asleep; so I think everything is alright." Donna said.
"Kelso, why are we over here anyways?" Eric asked.
"I think there's something truly wrong with Jackie." Kelso said.
"I think you're over reacting Kelso." Eric said.
"Hyde what do you think?" Kelso asked him.
"I think Kelso right." Hyde said.
"You're agreeing with Kelso; why?" Eric asked him.
"Well, where should I start? Oh I know, Jackie's feeling too tired to cheer; and not to mention this is suppose to be the biggest game of her cheer career. It's all that she has talked about for weeks; and not to mention the fact that she threw away a bouquet of roses. Jackie likes flowers; especially roses." Hyde said.
"Wait, you actually listen and know what she likes?" Donna asked.
"Yeah; why?" Hyde asked her.
"Jackie said that you guys haven't seen each other in awhile and that you're always making snide remarks." Donna said.
"I've haven't made a snide remark to her ever. I've been sarcastic but that's how I always am." Hyde said.
"Hey is that Jackie's suitcase?" Kelso asked.
"Yeah but she hardly ever uses it other than to keep personnel things in it." Donna said.
"Maybe she put something in there that'll help us figure out what's bothering her." Eric said.
"Well, there's no harm in trying." Hyde said.
Jackie laid on her bed with her eyes closed listening into her friend's conversations. They acted as if they were worried about her but thought it must have been because they wanted to get rid of their guilt. As long as they didn't lift her sleeve up she would be fine; but then she thought about what she left in her case and began to get very worried at what they might find.
Hyde picked her case up from the ground and was surprised to find it so damn heavy. How much personnel stuff could she possibly have in there? He began to open her suitcase but then stopped guilt had taken over him so he told Kelso to do it which he did. Inside her suitcase they found bags of pills, razor, a bag filled with white powder, and a bag of pot.
"Holy crap; she's got more pot then you do Hyde!" Kelso exclaimed.
"Yeah but that's not what I'm worried about. Where did she get these pills?" Hyde asked.
"Well they're probably just some prescribed pills for allergies." Donna said.
"Wow, I wish someone would prescribe me speed Donna." Hyde said.
"Well, that would explain why she's always happy and alert one moment and then totally depressed and paranoid the next; kind of like you Hyde." Eric said with a smile.
"Why does she have a razor in her suitcase?" Donna asked.
"Maybe she's a spy and she had to steal all those drugs and then she had to use the razor to kill her enemies." Kelso said.
"No you moron that's not it; I don't know why she a razor in her suitcase just like I don't know what she's doing with all these pills." Hyde said.
"Maybe we should wake her up and find out what's going on." Eric chimed in.
"No let's let her sleep; she's obviously really tired." Hyde said.
"Yeah besides Batman is coming on soon and I've got to see what kind of torture the Joker is going to come up with next." Eric said.
They were finally gone; how was she going to explain all these pills? Well maybe it wouldn't be hard because Steven does drugs all the time and she did steal the cocaine off of him. At least they hadn't found out what the razor was for. Jackie got out of her bed; she was feeling weak and tired. She opened up the suitcase and took out the razor and went into Donna's bedroom. She pulled up her pant leg and punctured her skin with the razor; it didn't matter now whether or not her legs were cut up; she wasn't a cheerleader anymore. She felt the pain shoot up her body and felt as if she deserved it. She pulled the razor out of her skin and made another gash on her other leg. The one gash for because she was kicked out of cheer and the other was just because she deserved it.
"You know what Hyde I forgot my brush in my room." Donna said outside her door room.
"Can't you get it later?" He asked.
"No I need it now. I have to brush my hair out after Kelso touched it. Who knows where his hands have been." Donna said.
"Well maybe you should take a shower instead." Hyde said.
"Yeah you're right. So do you want to wait for me until I'm done?" She asked him.
"Yeah sure; whatever." He replied.
"Oh look Jackie's up; she must be in the bathroom." Donna said.
"I'm glad she's up cause we need to talk." Hyde said.
"Well, I'm going to go in there and tell her that I'm going to use the shower. You can sit on my bed and wait for her to come out." Donna said.
"Shouldn't you knock?" Hyde asked.
"If the door's locked then it means she wants privacy but if it's unlocked it's alright." Donna said.
Jackie couldn't believe that she forgot to lock the bathroom door. She tried to cover up but it was too late. Donna stared at her and called Hyde over who was shocked to see a frail Jackie standing there with deep cuts in her legs.
Donna stood outside in the cold weather remembering that fateful day when she found Jackie; that was the beginning of hell for them all; and now it was a year later.
