Song: Understand by me

Chapter 3: The Truth Hurts

It's hidden somewhere inside your mind,
Lost somewhere deep within,
And you try to calculate what you've misplaced,
But sometimes it's harder than it seems,
This question keeps going trough your brain,
You're heart already knows the answer,
What's lost can sometimes not be discovered,
Try to understand the complexity.

"Sometimes the truth hurts", Weiss told Vaughn

"That bitch. That stupid bitch", Vaughn cursed

They were standing by Eric's desk at the CIA building. Just hours ago Vaughn had called Dixon and informed him of Lauren. It was a surprise to Vaughn that most of the people that worked with him already suspected Lauren. But then after a little while it didn't shock him so much anymore.

"Are you ok?" Marshall asked Vaughn

"No. For once I'm not", Vaughn replied

"What are you going to do?" Weiss asked him

"Kill her. I'll kill her"

"Vau-Vaughn, you can't", Marshall stuttered

Understand nothing is what it seems,
Understand you may never know the truth,
When you try to hard to get a memory back,
It slips away from the atmosphere,
Never to be registered again.

Everyone is staring at Vaughn now. All wondering who the hell he is threatening to kill. Weiss gives them a glare and they all head in different directions. Marshall still looks stunned about what Vaughn said but gets over it in minutes. "I wish I would've waited for Sydney", Vaughn whispers

"You can't change the past", Weiss said

"Yeah, but you can change the future", Vaughn yells before running off

It flashes through your mind like a t.v channel,
Sudddenly you know what is going on,
But know you wish it hadn't come back,
To late now for regrets and remorse,
When you want to know what went on,
At what time and what place,
Afterward you may find it a bit scary,
You must understand the consequences.

Nothing is what it seems,
The truth is somewhere floating in space,
And the sun won't shine till you realize,
That you can't know everything,
It's a lot more complex than it seems,
The truth is nothing but a mirage
A mirage that hides your fantasies,
And the things that you really want to happen,
Cause you're better off knowing nothing.

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"You have to get out of there now", Sark told Lauren over their cellphones

"O-ok", Lauren replied

Lauren up her phone and packed her suitcase quickly. She had to leave for a plane in an hour. Sark had informed a few minutes ago that the CIA knew she was a double agent thanks to her Vaughn's memory. A tear appeared in her eye but she didn't dare cry.

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

"It wasn't supposed to be this way", Lauren yells aloud "I wasn't supposed to fall in love in with him"

Lauren fell onto the bed and sobbed. She couldn't stop. The tears kept coming, coming. They kept pouring down her cheeks and on to her clothes. Life was hell for her.
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

"God damnit!" "Why'd I have to fall for him? Why did Sydney HAVE to come back? Why does my life have to be so screwed up?"

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ooh, And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Lauren made her self stop crying. She couldn't go out like this. Looking like some widow remembering her old life with her beloved husband. No, no, no. Stop. Stop all this bloody nonsense.

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

"I'll write a note to him"

She picked up a piece of paper and wrote everything her heart told her to...

Then she walked out the door and didn't dare look back

The one thing that I tried to hold on to....
The one thing that I tried to hold on to....
The one thing that I tried to hold on to....

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Vaughn rushed to the hospital and went into Sydney's room when he got there. For a few minutes he just sat there and stared.

"We can finally be together", Vaughn whispered

Nothing..

"Wake up. God, please, wake up"

The silence was slowly killing him

"You have to wake up. I love you"

Silence...

"Lauren is out of the picture now. She's a double agent. She's the one that shot you. I'll kill her"

Nothing...

"I love you"

He got up and walked out. Not noticing Sydney move just a tiny bit...

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"What do we do now?"

"Get Sydney"

Lauren and Sark were sitting in a car. Talking about what was to be done next and how it would done.

"How? She's unconscious right now"

"Well, we'll wait until she wakes up"

"Fine"

"Anything wrong, love?"

"No. I'm just peachy"

A/N: Sorry. This chapter was a bit shorter. Can you believe it? The cow has a heart! Lol. I can't believe I made Lauren have a sappy moment. Oh, well. Even super evil boyfriend stealers get sad sometimes. I guess.