Loss of Control
Chapter One: Demons in the Cellar
By Serenestorm
PWP fic (and maybe a one-shotter. I'm not sure yet)
THIS FIC SUGGEST RAPE. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!
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Time heals all wounds they say.
Up until now I firmly believed that. It was so human and naïve of me, I know that now. Hiei would laugh; call me a fool if he knew, knew of my completely ningen beliefs.
Hm, Hiei will probably kill me now; kill me when he finds out about this. He always was so protective of you. If I didn't know better, I'd swear he loves you, just like I love you or maybe I should say like I loved you.
I'm sorry.
I just couldn't control myself any longer.
Everyday, seeing you and not being able to have you, listening to you talk about Keiko, listening to you talk about that bitch like she was some kind of goddess or something.
I'm way stronger than her, certainly more beautiful, with my long soft red hair and emerald green eyes.
Much more deserving of your affection, your worship, than she is!
You never noticed me, Yusuke.
Never noticed me, when I loved you more than anyone in this world, more than anyone will ever love you!
I'm so sorry, I really didn't mean to yell, to get so emotional.
It's just that I love you so much.
You see, my demon side took over.
Youko took control of me, making me take what I wanted, what I've needed since I first laid eyes on you. I never denied myself of my wants when I was him, when I was truly Youko Kurama.
Your hair under my fingertips felt like an angel's wing.
Your skin, hot, flexing against my touch felt like the most expensive silk.
I could devour you, even your screams, your screams of pain were music to my ears. Your pleas for me to stop only spurred me onward. If for nothing else but to hear my name whispered from your tortured red lips.
Even now, even now that Youko has let me be, even now the lust remains.
I long for you to open your dark brown eyes, give me your usual smirk.
Even if you could never love me back, even if you never want to be in my presence again, even if you want to kill me, even then I still wish for you back.
Tears fall from my eyes and drop unto your face, still beautiful even in death.
Only the unusual angle of your neck tells that you are not sleeping.
I sense my demise is near though, dear Yusuke.
For Hiei is close by and headed this way. I will soon join you in your eternal sleep.
I want to join you; I can't live in this world without you, knowing what I've done.
The sound of fabric shifting is all I hear as I turn to meet my judge, my jury.
And I find in those blood red eyes, no remorse.
Hiei knows what I've done.
He knows I killed you.
The only thing I see in those eyes are death.
So be it, my Yusuke, I will be with you soon.
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I know I'm going to get a lot of flames for this, so before you get you torches ready let me explain. I know Kurama would never kill Yusuke, or he would never hurt Yusuke. I know Yusuke is stronger than Kurama. So please, if you do criticize me, critique the story not the facts I've ignored. That said I hope you review. I know this story is confusing, it was meant to be that way. If you have any questions that you want answered leave it in your review.
