Goodnight

Every night I lie awake on my bed,
Staring at the ceiling through a film of pale blue.
And realize just how alone I really am.

As I cower amidst the shadows,
Covered by sheets but frozen still
I feel the urge to just let go.

I live my life during the day,
Protected by a wall of secrets.
But the battlements go down at night.

I can never escape the lies,
That come and go with the sun.
Leaving me, every night, numb and cold..

I dream about ending it all.
Severing the ties that anchor my world together.
To feel the warmth of pain one last time.

Every night I lie awake on my bed,
Dark red stains contrasting with pale blue.
And realize just how alone I really am.