Author Notes: Fifth chapter
already, not much to say other then read
and enjoy!
Disclaimer: I do not own anything of Final fantasy 8, nor do I own the
Square-enix! My hostile takeover plan failed L they got to me to early _ oh well back to the
drawing board
Chapter V: Painful Revelations
……Time seemed to freeze as he saw her appear from behind a stall in the distance. Strong emotions surfaced just at the sight of her as his lips curved a bit upward into a small smile. She was wearing a black robe which covered her upper body, and a black skirt with golden edges.
Yet something was nagging at him, as he caught a glimpse of her face.. She seemed happy.. without him… his smile faded as darkness clouded his thoughts. What made her so happy he wondered as suddenly time seemed to continue and realisation struck: she wasn't alone, as a matter of fact she was hanging on someone's arm… a figure emerged next to her from behind the stall… he couldn't see the persons face but he noticed a familiar grey coat, and blond hair…
"Seifer ?!" he mumbled. What is Seifer doing with her ? Why is she with him… he watched in plain torment as he witnessed Seifer giving her a red rose… She beamed with joy as she received it...
Her reaction felt like a thousand needles pierce his heart, he wanted to look away, he didn't want to be here, he wanted to be anywhere but here… yet he couldn't do anything as he stood rooted to the spot as if paralyzed. And then something snapped as he saw Seifer bow his head and Selphie standing tiptoed.
"no……no…..no….no…no..noo.. this cant be happening… noooo… please… no….."
He watched the scene in pure horror as he saw their lips meet in a passionate kiss. -crack- . His heart screamed in agony, as he stepped backwards. Not being able to tear his gaze away, tears falling down his face, as his confused thoughts came to painful conclusions.
"I guess she really doesn't want me…" -crack- "guess she doesn't need me…" -crack- "she doesn't… love me……"
He backed into a crockery stall and as the crockery shattered on the ground, so shattered something else. He needed to get away from here, he didn't care where, as he turned and ran into the opposite direction.
Suddenly an arm grabbed his shoulder and pulled him around. He was staring at the coldest pair of blue eyes he had ever seen.
"You needed to get over her" Quistis stated plainly.
His eyes shining with tears and deep pain suddenly turned into a look of pure hatred as he said "You knew ?!"
Shocked by his gaze Quistis let go of his shoulder. He turned and fled away…………………..
~Meanwhile~
On the other side of the street Selphie broke the kiss as she heard something shatter in the distance, as she looked in its direction she couldn't help but feeling that something was wrong about all this. Her eyes fell on Zell who was gaping with wide-eyed confusion at her.
"What is Zell doing here" she wondered "Coincidence…? But what if it's not…".
Now she
caught sight of Squall and Rinoa as well, who were walking towards Zell.
"if they are here as well… that means… he… must be around here somewhere… oh no, what if he saw me and Seifer…" her heart pained at the thought as she looked around and saw a figure running away from the scene, she couldn't see his face. "…no, no that cant be him, he doesn't own a black leather jacket does he… but why cant I shake the feeling that he's here somewhere..."
unable to tear her gaze away from the running figure, she suddenly saw Quistis coming from out the shadows pulling the figure around. And suddenly time stopped as she looked straight at his tear stricken face.
"……no……no…..no….no…no..… why is he here… why now… noooo… please… no….." her heart screamed out at him, but she couldn't seem to be able to find a sound to voice her feelings.
Seifer was trying to shake her out of her 'trance' was all he could make out of it. He didn't understand what was wrong with her.
"Selphie, are you okay ? Selphie, snap out of it, its not her is it ???"
Finally Selphie snapped back to the painful reality that was occurring before her.
"I'm sorry Seifer… I got to do something" she said with barely hidden pain in her voice.
"Fine, I'll come along, I'm your knight after all" Seifer replied.
"This is something I got to do on my own Seifer, please understand" as she started running into the direction Irvine vanished.
Staring after her he finally caught sight of Squall, Rinoa and Zell who were all just looking in his direction. Why are they here he wondered confused. And where's the cowboy he wondered as the pieces to the puzzle finally fell in its place.
"Oh.."
~……….~
Irvine was running as fast as he could, he had to get out of here as he reached the gate of the city, he ran on across the grassy plains, his mind confused, his heart in pain… he didn't want to think anymore, he didn't want to feel anymore. He couldn't take all this, as he reached the edge of a forest, panting for air, he ran through the bushes, the growth growing thicker by the second. He tripped, fell and cut himself on a thorn of a bush, leaving a bloody cut on his left cheek, he quickly got up again, not really feeling the burning pain of the cut as it was overruled by a much deeper pain. He ran and he ran till he reached an open clearing.
He stopped dead in his tracks as a T-rexaur towered in front of him. As if it was a showdown they were staring at each other.
"Great my exeter's still at Garden…… What a great day this is turning out to be" he thought bitterly "Oh fuck this, I don't care if I live or die, Fuck everything, I'd much rather be dead!"
Instead of the T-rexaur charging at him, it merely looked bored as it turned around and started trudging away. He was staring at it in wide-eyed amazement as he finally shouted at the beast "Where the fuck are you going huh?" as he picked up a stone from the floor and threw it, hitting it on its back.
The T-rexaur merely stopped and looked around right at him, as he released another stone from his hand and hit it right between the eyes. "Bang" as he blew his finger.
Now the T-rexaur obviously irritated began a head-on charge. As it ran straight at him he merely ducked out of its way as it sped past him.
"Eehm what am I doing ? must have been a reflex" He started to doubt his sudden death wish.
As the T-rexaur made ready for a second charge, he merely stood there. It came running straight at him again as suddenly the air grew thinner and the surroundings began to shift to a deep blackness. He looked around to see what was happening as he saw white orbs circling above the clearing. All of a sudden the white orbs came crashing down on the beast. As the now wounded T-rexaur roared and started it's retreat the air became more breathable and the surroundings got back their original colour.
He looked around and caught sight of the brunette staring at him with concern clearly evident on her face.
"Irvy… eehm can we… talk for a bit…?" Selphie asked hesitantly.
As anger welled up inside him along with the pain, he shrugged at her, and walked to a little pond on the other side of the clearing and sat down. Staring at his reflection in the still surface of the clear blue water, as he saw Selphie's reflection appear beside him. She sat down next to him as she placed a hand on his. He quickly pulled away his hand and sat there with his arms crossed still staring at the water. He couldn't bare looking at her, he could barely conceal his tears behind the streaks of his hair.
"eehm right, how are you doing ? bad I guess… sorry…" Selphie tried to start the conversation "I guess your mad at me an all.."
"Why did you leave me ?" he interrupted.
"You know Irvy I… I didn't want to leave you but… but I had no choice"
"Why ?"
"…" Selphie let out a deep sigh "You were going to die if I stayed with you... and well I cant live with that, sorry…" she too was now staring at his reflection in the calm water as she pulled up her legs and wrapped her arms round them, in a hugging sort of fashion.
"…" he was shocked at the revelation but then again, didn't he already know ? there must have been a reason as to why those tormenting dreams came to him as he finally understood what the reason was. "so let me get this straight, if I'd stay with you, I'd get burned to a crisp by you ?"
Now it was her turn to be shocked. "You knew ???"
"I sorta had a dream or two bout it" he said plainly, hiding the fact that it was a hell of a lot more then just one or two dreams.
"Oh… well actually eehm in the vision your killed by me, but then again it wasn't me… I dunno how to explain this to you, but somewhere in the near future the chance exists that I might be possessed by something, and well I don't think I'm strong enough to withstand that…" tears streaked down her face as she cried "I don't want you to die Irvy… that's why… that's why I had to leave you… I'd rather just hurt you then end your life…"
Her tears and pained voice struck through the deepest depths of his heart as his love for her, and with it, concern for her feelings surfaced. He wanted to just wrap his arms round her and cling her to his chest, he wanted to tell her that everything is alright, he wanted to wipe away her pain and suffering, he wanted to tell her how much he loved her… but as he tried to move an image as well resurfaced.
-Seifer-
Pain returned as well, while he couldn't think straight, he had to know. He could barely get the words out as he asked "Why… are you with Seifer… ?"
"…… I dunno really, Matron told me to go to Deling to meet someone to help me with my powers, I didn't know it was Seifer… and when I got here I was still really sad that I had to leave you… that's when I met him, as he introduced himself as my knight, an well the strange thing was, he comforted me, I dunno why he did that… anyway after a while he even managed to get me happy at moments, he can be really sweet you know… I think bout a week ago I decided it was time to try to forget you, cause your face still haunted my mind daily… an Seifer's been so good to me"
"oh…" his mind kept reminiscing over her words -decided its was time to forget you… forget you……forget-
"So… have you been seeing someone else lately ?" Selphie asked, pulling him immediately out of his dark thoughts.
"Huh ?" it took him a second to register what she had said as he answered "Me ? nah not really, I'm a loner at heart right ?" he couldn't think of anything else to say.
"You always were a bad liar" she giggled "I'm sorry to have made your life so difficult though, I want you to be happy to, I hate seeing you sad you know"
His mind still haunted by her previous words -Seifer's been so good to me… forget you- he felt a sudden pang of jealousy as he wondered how good he has been to her… He couldn't stop himself from asking.
"Selphie ?"
"Yes ?"
"Did you… Did you…" he couldn't get the words out of his throat.
"Did I what ?" Selphie asked worried, now looking straight at him.
He sighed heavily as he looked up at her, gazing into those jaded eyes, still glinstering from spilled tears.
"Did you… sleep with him ?" the question was out before he even realised he had asked it.
"………"
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Author Notes: well that was a bit sudden don't you think ??? ;P oh well dunno what to write here anyway, other then next chap in a few days more or less, depending on school and stuff.
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