I'm Sorry

One Day. It took one day. Just twenty-four hours for one hundred ninety five years worth of accomplishments to be destroyed.

How I will never forget it. Just writing this wrenches my heart and soul. If you asked me to I could point out five seemingly empty spaces in the night sky, where the colonies used to be.

I visit him every day now. The guard recognizes me and asks no questions. I cry out to him, asking him to forgive himself. My pleas fall upon deaf ears. He won't listen. I watch as he cries and I begin to cry.

It's like this all the time. He barely eats and is becoming frightfully thin. His eyes are slightly sunken, surrounded by dark circles. The guard tells me he rarely goes to sleep. He stays up all night apologizing.

I ask the guard to let me in, let me speak with him face to face. I kneel down embracing him in a hug. I whisper comforting words trying to console him.

He pushes me away saying he doesn't deserve love. He says he doesn't deserve to live. That the only reason he's alive is because he deserves to be punished and must pay for his crimes.

The guard says that my time is up. I turn to gaze at him once more before I leave. Tears begin to flow down his cheeks. I swallow the lump in my throat and walk away.

I still have another stop to make before my day ends though. The Colony Memorial Cemetery.

I think back. They each tried to stop him that day. Fighting him one by one until they all lay defeated before him, dead at his hands.

Unfortunately they were too late. All of the colonies were gone, wiped out in almost an instant. Few people saw it coming. A terrible page of history written.

I look up at the sky. It wasn't his fault. It was just the combination of a forsaken experiment and a saddening loss.

"Why can't you forgive yourself Quatre?"

                                    Signed Relena Peacecraft