Title: Always the Same
Rating: PG-13
Author: Kage Kashu
Archive: FF.N. Anywhere else, ask me.
Summary: Watari's Watari, no matter how bad things get.
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the YnM crew, but this bizarre idea is totally mine.
Author's notes: I've been thinking that I needed to write some simple little one shots, and this is what I came up with... If you want to see more of this kind of thing... well, I'll be surprised. ^^
Warnings: Weirdness. Kinda bizarre.
Timeline: After Kyoto, but other than that...
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It's not like it really matters. Watari is Watari, no matter how un-Watari Watari feels. I can't act sad or anything... so I don't. Because Watari is always happy, always... Even when I'm not. Sometimes... But it doesn't matter. Being dead, being with the _same_ people for so long... I'm not allowed to change. So I don't. No matter how much I want to.
But that's okay. It doesn't matter, right? I'm seeing, all around me... Tsuzuki has found _his_ happiness. And really, I'm happy for him. He's been so off kilter lately... Everyone noticed. Of course, everyone notices Tsuzuki. He couldn't hide if he wanted to. Neither can I, so I know how he must feel, from time to time... but... Tsuzuki is _expected_ to be depressed occasionally. Everyone _knows_ that he's hiding, that he's wearing a mask. But Watari?
Watari's Watari. Even when... I don't want to be Watari. Maybe today... I want to be Tatsumi. Quiet, and undisturbed in my office. Working. But Watari doesn't do that, does he? Or maybe... Maybe I want to be Hisoka. Taciturn, quiet, and generally annoyed with the world around me. But I have to be Watari. Always happy, always obsessed with my little projects... That gender changing potion... Heh. I know that nobody knows why I want that.
Watari's always Watari... But if I were female... I wouldn't be expected to act the same, right? I could be Watari... and be a different Watari. But... I'm not even sure if it's possible. Maybe... Maybe I just want a reason to be happy, if I have to act happy.
Maybe... Maybe I hate Watari. That annoyingly cheerful façade. Maybe... If they thought I was pretending? But even then... Watari's Watari. I'm surprised that Hisoka hasn't noticed... After all, he's an empath. But... Maybe... No, no. At least 003 doesn't always expect me to act cheerful.
My best friend, and closest companion... A bird. A smart bird, but still a bird. I wonder... Does Tatsumi ever get sick of being Tatsumi? Maybe... Maybe I can convince Tatsumi... to switch places with me. Wouldn't that be a stir. I doubt he'd go for it, but it's an amusing thought. Tatsumi being Watari, and me being Tatsumi. I wonder... Would he?
That... I'll have to ask. I doubt he will... but... Tatsumi's always Tatsumi too. Just a day... and I wouldn't have to be Watari, and he wouldn't have to be Tatsumi. If he hates being Tatsumi. Well, one can always dream.
We both stick to the roles we're given, never to leave, always to be... Watari is always Watari, just as Tatsumi is always Tatsumi. Oh what a day, if Watari was Tatsumi and Tatsumi was Watari. I really have to ask him, especially now...
A chance to switch our roles in life... Maybe even make it unnoticeable, if I can find that potion I put in the chocolates last Valentine's Day. Mou, Tatsumi-san, will you be my Valentine?
Ah, there it is. If he says yes... I'll make a new batch... if not... Watari is always Watari, and Tatsumi is always Tatsumi.
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Ending A/N: If I get enough reviews, I may actually make this into more than a one shot. (All my works can be found on fanfiction.net under the SN: Kage Kashu.) Thank you all for any/all support. ^^
Rating: PG-13
Author: Kage Kashu
Archive: FF.N. Anywhere else, ask me.
Summary: Watari's Watari, no matter how bad things get.
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the YnM crew, but this bizarre idea is totally mine.
Author's notes: I've been thinking that I needed to write some simple little one shots, and this is what I came up with... If you want to see more of this kind of thing... well, I'll be surprised. ^^
Warnings: Weirdness. Kinda bizarre.
Timeline: After Kyoto, but other than that...
~*~*~*~*~*~
It's not like it really matters. Watari is Watari, no matter how un-Watari Watari feels. I can't act sad or anything... so I don't. Because Watari is always happy, always... Even when I'm not. Sometimes... But it doesn't matter. Being dead, being with the _same_ people for so long... I'm not allowed to change. So I don't. No matter how much I want to.
But that's okay. It doesn't matter, right? I'm seeing, all around me... Tsuzuki has found _his_ happiness. And really, I'm happy for him. He's been so off kilter lately... Everyone noticed. Of course, everyone notices Tsuzuki. He couldn't hide if he wanted to. Neither can I, so I know how he must feel, from time to time... but... Tsuzuki is _expected_ to be depressed occasionally. Everyone _knows_ that he's hiding, that he's wearing a mask. But Watari?
Watari's Watari. Even when... I don't want to be Watari. Maybe today... I want to be Tatsumi. Quiet, and undisturbed in my office. Working. But Watari doesn't do that, does he? Or maybe... Maybe I want to be Hisoka. Taciturn, quiet, and generally annoyed with the world around me. But I have to be Watari. Always happy, always obsessed with my little projects... That gender changing potion... Heh. I know that nobody knows why I want that.
Watari's always Watari... But if I were female... I wouldn't be expected to act the same, right? I could be Watari... and be a different Watari. But... I'm not even sure if it's possible. Maybe... Maybe I just want a reason to be happy, if I have to act happy.
Maybe... Maybe I hate Watari. That annoyingly cheerful façade. Maybe... If they thought I was pretending? But even then... Watari's Watari. I'm surprised that Hisoka hasn't noticed... After all, he's an empath. But... Maybe... No, no. At least 003 doesn't always expect me to act cheerful.
My best friend, and closest companion... A bird. A smart bird, but still a bird. I wonder... Does Tatsumi ever get sick of being Tatsumi? Maybe... Maybe I can convince Tatsumi... to switch places with me. Wouldn't that be a stir. I doubt he'd go for it, but it's an amusing thought. Tatsumi being Watari, and me being Tatsumi. I wonder... Would he?
That... I'll have to ask. I doubt he will... but... Tatsumi's always Tatsumi too. Just a day... and I wouldn't have to be Watari, and he wouldn't have to be Tatsumi. If he hates being Tatsumi. Well, one can always dream.
We both stick to the roles we're given, never to leave, always to be... Watari is always Watari, just as Tatsumi is always Tatsumi. Oh what a day, if Watari was Tatsumi and Tatsumi was Watari. I really have to ask him, especially now...
A chance to switch our roles in life... Maybe even make it unnoticeable, if I can find that potion I put in the chocolates last Valentine's Day. Mou, Tatsumi-san, will you be my Valentine?
Ah, there it is. If he says yes... I'll make a new batch... if not... Watari is always Watari, and Tatsumi is always Tatsumi.
~*~*~*~*~*~
Ending A/N: If I get enough reviews, I may actually make this into more than a one shot. (All my works can be found on fanfiction.net under the SN: Kage Kashu.) Thank you all for any/all support. ^^
