I am closer now. Everything seems clearer to me than ever before.
I tested the water's edge. It was cold, uninviting. But I waded in, needing
to be cleansed. The further I swam, the warmer it felt. Until I reached the
centre. The heat almost overwhelmed me, stealing my breath. Igniting my
senses. I almost turned back then.
Afraid.
Frightened that the heat would seer through my skin, baring my very soul
for you to see. .
I can feel myself sinking deeper into you, my senses losing control; feel
my breath being taken from me. The last vestiges of the man I was being
ripped from my soul like the last bubble of air from my lungs.
Somewhere inside, the panic vainly attempts to battle through the tumult of
emotions running wild inside my heart. It has to admit defeat. They will
not let it pass. I will not let it pass.
Deeper inside you I dive, until it feels as if I am engulfed by you. There
is not an inch of my body that isn't surrounded by your touch. I feel
heavy, heady, my mind lost to the dizzying effect.
I should come up for air. I raise my face toward the smiling sun. It's
radiance dimmed by the sheer force of you. It cannot penetrate the shield
you surround me with.
It beckons me with reason.
"Come to me", it whispers. "Return to the safety of the life you know. My
territory is familiar, warm. Come back to me before you lose yourself.
Before I lose you forever."
But it is too late. The beauty of your touch, the purity of your being
draws me. I go willingly to the death of the man that was. The man that
never will be.
He will not be missed.
Deeper I go...........faster........I need this.......I crave
this...........I crave you.
You are pulling me down, as eager for my release as I.
Nothing else exists. Nothing else has ever existed until this moment.
I am lost in you.
I never want to be found.
I am drowning in you.
I never want to be saved.
I am close.
The man who was me screams his agony, as the man I have become screams his
joy.
I cannot hide my smile. My elation.
As my sated, satisfied soul drifts upwards toward clarity, I at last feel
free.
When I break the surface, gasping for air, I will not be the same as the
one who dived in.
I will be free of his pain.
I will be free of his insecurities.
I will be free of his faithless thoughts.
I will forever be in your debt.
I will forever be by your side.
I will forever be drowning in you.
I tested the water's edge. It was cold, uninviting. But I waded in, needing
to be cleansed. The further I swam, the warmer it felt. Until I reached the
centre. The heat almost overwhelmed me, stealing my breath. Igniting my
senses. I almost turned back then.
Afraid.
Frightened that the heat would seer through my skin, baring my very soul
for you to see. .
I can feel myself sinking deeper into you, my senses losing control; feel
my breath being taken from me. The last vestiges of the man I was being
ripped from my soul like the last bubble of air from my lungs.
Somewhere inside, the panic vainly attempts to battle through the tumult of
emotions running wild inside my heart. It has to admit defeat. They will
not let it pass. I will not let it pass.
Deeper inside you I dive, until it feels as if I am engulfed by you. There
is not an inch of my body that isn't surrounded by your touch. I feel
heavy, heady, my mind lost to the dizzying effect.
I should come up for air. I raise my face toward the smiling sun. It's
radiance dimmed by the sheer force of you. It cannot penetrate the shield
you surround me with.
It beckons me with reason.
"Come to me", it whispers. "Return to the safety of the life you know. My
territory is familiar, warm. Come back to me before you lose yourself.
Before I lose you forever."
But it is too late. The beauty of your touch, the purity of your being
draws me. I go willingly to the death of the man that was. The man that
never will be.
He will not be missed.
Deeper I go...........faster........I need this.......I crave
this...........I crave you.
You are pulling me down, as eager for my release as I.
Nothing else exists. Nothing else has ever existed until this moment.
I am lost in you.
I never want to be found.
I am drowning in you.
I never want to be saved.
I am close.
The man who was me screams his agony, as the man I have become screams his
joy.
I cannot hide my smile. My elation.
As my sated, satisfied soul drifts upwards toward clarity, I at last feel
free.
When I break the surface, gasping for air, I will not be the same as the
one who dived in.
I will be free of his pain.
I will be free of his insecurities.
I will be free of his faithless thoughts.
I will forever be in your debt.
I will forever be by your side.
I will forever be drowning in you.
