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previously on Buffy The Vampire Slayer.
Buffy told Angel she didn't love him that way he got pissed,They fought a demon ,Giles learnt how to use a computer ( Shock Horror).Buffy found the note Spike left her even though she thinks he's still dead. Buffy wept but didn't realise Willow was still awake listening to her.
The bottle of whiskey was half empty Spike too a long drink and slammed the bottle down on the table, he got up and walked over to the window.
"Bloody woman, god she drives me crazy she loves me I know, she can't love that pillock!"
Spike took another swig of whiskey letting the liquid was his throat out he strode over to the music library where he found a CD on Punk rock. He took the disc out and placed it in the machine. Loud music came blaring from the speakers.
"Yeah The Ramones "Spike started to bang his head to the rhythm. "I wanna be sedated" he stopped he remembered the last time he sang a bit of that song he was in a car with Buffy before he told her he loved her.
Spike sat back down and drank the rest of the bottle. "She loves me you jussssst wait" he slurred and with that he fell into slumber.
The door broke of its hinges and Spike woke up with start. There at the door was Buffy she smiled. Buffy walked over to Spike and faltered half way not sure to carry on. Spike got up and opened up his arms she ran in them, he touched her hair noticing how silky soft it was she could smell the whisky on him such familiar smell to her. She looked up and there lips brushed together and then as the kiss deepened it quickened with such intensity it took them both by surprise. He picked her up in his arms and carried her to the couch and laid her down. "I love you so much Buffy" Spike breathed into her neck.
"I did love you Spike but you left me why should I come back to you now" She spoke so softly. he was startled and jumped back. Buffy got up and walked over to the window.
"You know I said I love you but you didn't believe it so there is nothing left for us" Buffy turned round and started to walk towards the door. " Goodbye William" Buffy turned round slowly and blew him kiss.
Buffy woke up sweating not believing the dream she just had it seemed so real she put her arm over her eyes and sighed. She could smell whiskey and Cigarettes the dream was so vivid. She looked over at the clock it was already 8.45 am.
"God why did they let me sleep so late" she murmured noticing Willow or Dawn wasn't in their beds. Buffy got out of bed and went to take a shower.
She could hear the shower running. " I think Buffy's up, I'll make her something to eat I think she's gonna need it today" Willow got up from the breakfast table.
"Ooh special witch can I have some more pancakes cos Xander ate mine " Andrew said giving a dirty look to Xander across the table.
"Hey nerd boy they were for all of us okay" Xander went to pick his knife up to butter his toast.
"Hey one eyed Willie step away from the knife im warning you I know the Vulcan neck crunch" Andrew stood up from the table with a screech of his chair. "I told you stop calling me that "Xander fumed. Dawn rolled her eyes this was probably the third confrontation in half an hour.
"For pete's sake will you two leave the testosterone outside the door " Willow huffed turning back to her pancake making. "Buffy doesn't need this at the moment" Willow thought when she heard Buffy came in last night she was gonna ask how it went with Angel when she herd her crying. It was the first time she had heard her weep.
They all missed Spike although some people would admit it more than others. Buffy walked into the kitchen and poured herself some juice.
"Good morning everyone "she sat down and looked around. Andrew and Xander had the sulk on.
"Don't tell me you had another argument "Buffy looked at Xander who had his arms crossed.
"Willow told them off cos Andrew called Xander One Eyed Willie" Dawn giggled which received a sulky look from Xander .
"Erm but wasn't want that funny "Dawn took a mouthful of pancake.
The silence went on in the kitchen. They had made arrangements to look for the potentials that morning as they all went in to their rooms to get ready. Willow pulled Buffy aside.
"Buffy are you okay, how did the dinner with Angel go "Buffy looked at her seeing no feelings in her eyes. "It was no big things didn't go as I planned it Angel thought I was going back to him, I fought demon and when I got back I found note from Spike" Buffy blew out the air that was caught in her throat.
Willow stepped back "A letter from Spike what was it doing in your pocket"
"I don't know ive never seen this note before "
"Buffy you know that we can bring him back if you want ive done it before I can do it again"
"No Will but thanks but he would never forgive me if I did that I kinda want to remember him the way he was you know"
Buffy touched her her cheek and wiped her tear away from her cheek. |
"The funny thing is Spike always said I would feel it and when I fell in love him it was too late he didn't believe me"
Willow hugged her friend tightly and sighed.
"He knew you loved him im sure of it and the last thing he saw was you telling him"Willow broke the embrace and rubbed Buffy's shoulders as if to warm them.
"How about we go chasing potentials sound like fun" Willow giggled. The two girls linked arms and walked through the corridor to their bedroom.
The foyer of Wolfram & Harts was busy of the gossip of the slayer due to arrive that afternoon. Harmony was on the phone chatting away when she should be busy." You know the slayer not that special, Ive met her many times and even threatened her life believe me she's no big whoop" She continued to file her nails.
"Harm she would so kick you ass and you know it" Spike smiled as he walked pass her desk .In return she poke her tongue out at him and carried on chatting. Spike walked into the office ignoring Angel's look he sat down in the chair and threw one of his legs over the arm.
"So what did I miss" Spike adjusted himself in the chair and listened.
"Well Spike there will be some potential slayers arriving today we have closed one of the big boardrooms so they have training centre" Angel looked round the group.
"And did you see um Buffy" Spike asked but really wanting to know what was said between the two of them.
"She's good Spike she is not the chosen one anymore "He smiled wistfully. "So that means do not disturb them do you understand" Angel leaned forward making his point across.
Spike raised his scarred eyebrow "Pompous ass afraid she would come back to me "he thought .He stood up and walked over to the door.
"Don't worry Liam I can wait "and with that he stomped out of the door with his duster dragging in the breeze of his departure.
"Erm Angel I don't think that is very fair" Fred abruptly blurted out and then nervously looked around.
"Its obvious he's still in love with her and what if she wants to see him "Fred turned looking for anyone else to help her.
"Yeah Angelcakes I mean look at him he's just sloping around the joint" Lorne spoke up how nyone couldn't notice him with a bright blue suit and bright canary yellow shirt.
Angel rose from his desk and sighed. "No everyone you are not to say anything to Buffy or her friends I know what im doing "Angel looked at each of them making his point known.
"Well I think you're wrong and I cant believe your saying this" Fred said while shaking her head.
Fred started to walk out of the office and slammed the door which she would never do .She had to find Spike.
Angel sat back down and put his hand to his head. "Everyone can I be alone for a while please "Angel strained to keep his voice calm.
Fred wandered upstairs to Spikes office but he used more like an apartment . She lightly tapped the door and walked in.
Spike was sat on the couch he looked up and smirked.
"Hey Fred luv, has poofter give you a message to stay away for me, "Spike asked as Fred started to look uncomfortable.
"The funny thing I do think im in the bad books with Angel, its just I find this situation really confusing I know Angel loves Buffy and I know you like Buffy so is it a territorial thing". Fred went to sit down across from him. "Fred the thing with Buffy and him" he made a finger gesture to the floor.
"they did love each other but then he left her to deal with things. I hated her at first wanted to kill her then I got that soddin chip in my head" Spike sighed.
"I started to help them in there fight and I fell in love with her and I mean in the worse way truly, madly, deeply, I knew she didn't love me baack even though she told me before I died it would be nice for her to tell me back"
"Spike I dint know is that why you don't get along with Angel" Fred inquired. "Nah I just cant stand the git" he laughed. "Anyway im gonna go and vent my frustrations out in that room before they get here. Spike got up and walked up to the door. And looked back and gently waved.
Spike took off his duster and threw it on a set of weight .He turned around started pummelling the punch bag.
Fred descended down the stairs toward the foyer when the elevator door opened out walked a group of people one guy in particular who had a patch on his eye. The other elevator opened and Buffy walked through with another group of girls another girl walked from behind of Buffy who was quiet young.
"Buffy hi how are you?" Fred held out her hand for Buffy to grasp it.
"Aw hey Fred how's things jeez is it always this busy "As Buffy was almost steamrollered by the mail trolley.
"Erm usually yes "Fred giggled
"Do you know where this training centre is I want to take a look t it before I see Angel "Buffy asked as the other members of the group was taking in how large these offices were.
"Yeah no problem I can take you, the rest of you can go through to that office "Fred pointed to the office to the right. "Angel is just finishing a meeting so he will be with you shortly"
Buffy and Fred took to the elevator.
"I know this is none of my business.... But we were having a discussion the other day and you and Angel were an item not long ago" Fred turned to look at Buffy to catch her reaction." If im being too nosy just tell me "Fred pointed out.
"No that's okay yes me and Angel were together a long time ago I loved him, I still do in a way but not the way he wants me to im in love with someone else who I cant ever be with" Buffy sighed and turned her head so that she couldn't let Fred see her welling up.
"But why cant you have him I mean if he loves you and you love him there shouldn't be no problem "Fred said.
"I can't I told him I loved him and then he died " Buffy turned and Fred could see the sadness in her eyes .
"Im afraid its hazards of being a slayer although I hated him at first and then he was always there haunting me "Buffy smiled.
"And then it just happened I fell in love with him and I think I always will "Buffy rubbed her nose anything to stop from the tears welling up in her eyes yet again.
"Im so sorry Buffy he sounds like a he was good man" Fed put her hand on Buffy's shoulder.
"yeah" Buffy whispered.
"So what was this guys name "Fred wanted to try and get the guys name even though she had a goo idea of who it was.
"His name...oh was Spike" as the elevators door pinged open Fred had the biggest smile on her face.
Spike herd the elevator doors pinged and ran out of the back entrance to the stairs he ran up to the first floor taking two steps at time. He put his hand down to reach for his smokes. "Crap where was his duster" he thought.
Fred opened the door for Buffy and she took in the surroundings and walked round. "This is perfect "Buffy spoke noticing all the equipment. Just then she noticed something black thrown across the weights. She walked quickly over to it and picked it up she inhaled it smelt of Whiskey and smoke. One thought popped into her head SPIKE she turned to Fred.
"Do you know where this came from, its Spikes jacket what the hell is it doing here" Buffy gulped her heart was beating so fast she felt like she was going to be sick.
Buffy told Angel she didn't love him that way he got pissed,They fought a demon ,Giles learnt how to use a computer ( Shock Horror).Buffy found the note Spike left her even though she thinks he's still dead. Buffy wept but didn't realise Willow was still awake listening to her.
The bottle of whiskey was half empty Spike too a long drink and slammed the bottle down on the table, he got up and walked over to the window.
"Bloody woman, god she drives me crazy she loves me I know, she can't love that pillock!"
Spike took another swig of whiskey letting the liquid was his throat out he strode over to the music library where he found a CD on Punk rock. He took the disc out and placed it in the machine. Loud music came blaring from the speakers.
"Yeah The Ramones "Spike started to bang his head to the rhythm. "I wanna be sedated" he stopped he remembered the last time he sang a bit of that song he was in a car with Buffy before he told her he loved her.
Spike sat back down and drank the rest of the bottle. "She loves me you jussssst wait" he slurred and with that he fell into slumber.
The door broke of its hinges and Spike woke up with start. There at the door was Buffy she smiled. Buffy walked over to Spike and faltered half way not sure to carry on. Spike got up and opened up his arms she ran in them, he touched her hair noticing how silky soft it was she could smell the whisky on him such familiar smell to her. She looked up and there lips brushed together and then as the kiss deepened it quickened with such intensity it took them both by surprise. He picked her up in his arms and carried her to the couch and laid her down. "I love you so much Buffy" Spike breathed into her neck.
"I did love you Spike but you left me why should I come back to you now" She spoke so softly. he was startled and jumped back. Buffy got up and walked over to the window.
"You know I said I love you but you didn't believe it so there is nothing left for us" Buffy turned round and started to walk towards the door. " Goodbye William" Buffy turned round slowly and blew him kiss.
Buffy woke up sweating not believing the dream she just had it seemed so real she put her arm over her eyes and sighed. She could smell whiskey and Cigarettes the dream was so vivid. She looked over at the clock it was already 8.45 am.
"God why did they let me sleep so late" she murmured noticing Willow or Dawn wasn't in their beds. Buffy got out of bed and went to take a shower.
She could hear the shower running. " I think Buffy's up, I'll make her something to eat I think she's gonna need it today" Willow got up from the breakfast table.
"Ooh special witch can I have some more pancakes cos Xander ate mine " Andrew said giving a dirty look to Xander across the table.
"Hey nerd boy they were for all of us okay" Xander went to pick his knife up to butter his toast.
"Hey one eyed Willie step away from the knife im warning you I know the Vulcan neck crunch" Andrew stood up from the table with a screech of his chair. "I told you stop calling me that "Xander fumed. Dawn rolled her eyes this was probably the third confrontation in half an hour.
"For pete's sake will you two leave the testosterone outside the door " Willow huffed turning back to her pancake making. "Buffy doesn't need this at the moment" Willow thought when she heard Buffy came in last night she was gonna ask how it went with Angel when she herd her crying. It was the first time she had heard her weep.
They all missed Spike although some people would admit it more than others. Buffy walked into the kitchen and poured herself some juice.
"Good morning everyone "she sat down and looked around. Andrew and Xander had the sulk on.
"Don't tell me you had another argument "Buffy looked at Xander who had his arms crossed.
"Willow told them off cos Andrew called Xander One Eyed Willie" Dawn giggled which received a sulky look from Xander .
"Erm but wasn't want that funny "Dawn took a mouthful of pancake.
The silence went on in the kitchen. They had made arrangements to look for the potentials that morning as they all went in to their rooms to get ready. Willow pulled Buffy aside.
"Buffy are you okay, how did the dinner with Angel go "Buffy looked at her seeing no feelings in her eyes. "It was no big things didn't go as I planned it Angel thought I was going back to him, I fought demon and when I got back I found note from Spike" Buffy blew out the air that was caught in her throat.
Willow stepped back "A letter from Spike what was it doing in your pocket"
"I don't know ive never seen this note before "
"Buffy you know that we can bring him back if you want ive done it before I can do it again"
"No Will but thanks but he would never forgive me if I did that I kinda want to remember him the way he was you know"
Buffy touched her her cheek and wiped her tear away from her cheek. |
"The funny thing is Spike always said I would feel it and when I fell in love him it was too late he didn't believe me"
Willow hugged her friend tightly and sighed.
"He knew you loved him im sure of it and the last thing he saw was you telling him"Willow broke the embrace and rubbed Buffy's shoulders as if to warm them.
"How about we go chasing potentials sound like fun" Willow giggled. The two girls linked arms and walked through the corridor to their bedroom.
The foyer of Wolfram & Harts was busy of the gossip of the slayer due to arrive that afternoon. Harmony was on the phone chatting away when she should be busy." You know the slayer not that special, Ive met her many times and even threatened her life believe me she's no big whoop" She continued to file her nails.
"Harm she would so kick you ass and you know it" Spike smiled as he walked pass her desk .In return she poke her tongue out at him and carried on chatting. Spike walked into the office ignoring Angel's look he sat down in the chair and threw one of his legs over the arm.
"So what did I miss" Spike adjusted himself in the chair and listened.
"Well Spike there will be some potential slayers arriving today we have closed one of the big boardrooms so they have training centre" Angel looked round the group.
"And did you see um Buffy" Spike asked but really wanting to know what was said between the two of them.
"She's good Spike she is not the chosen one anymore "He smiled wistfully. "So that means do not disturb them do you understand" Angel leaned forward making his point across.
Spike raised his scarred eyebrow "Pompous ass afraid she would come back to me "he thought .He stood up and walked over to the door.
"Don't worry Liam I can wait "and with that he stomped out of the door with his duster dragging in the breeze of his departure.
"Erm Angel I don't think that is very fair" Fred abruptly blurted out and then nervously looked around.
"Its obvious he's still in love with her and what if she wants to see him "Fred turned looking for anyone else to help her.
"Yeah Angelcakes I mean look at him he's just sloping around the joint" Lorne spoke up how nyone couldn't notice him with a bright blue suit and bright canary yellow shirt.
Angel rose from his desk and sighed. "No everyone you are not to say anything to Buffy or her friends I know what im doing "Angel looked at each of them making his point known.
"Well I think you're wrong and I cant believe your saying this" Fred said while shaking her head.
Fred started to walk out of the office and slammed the door which she would never do .She had to find Spike.
Angel sat back down and put his hand to his head. "Everyone can I be alone for a while please "Angel strained to keep his voice calm.
Fred wandered upstairs to Spikes office but he used more like an apartment . She lightly tapped the door and walked in.
Spike was sat on the couch he looked up and smirked.
"Hey Fred luv, has poofter give you a message to stay away for me, "Spike asked as Fred started to look uncomfortable.
"The funny thing I do think im in the bad books with Angel, its just I find this situation really confusing I know Angel loves Buffy and I know you like Buffy so is it a territorial thing". Fred went to sit down across from him. "Fred the thing with Buffy and him" he made a finger gesture to the floor.
"they did love each other but then he left her to deal with things. I hated her at first wanted to kill her then I got that soddin chip in my head" Spike sighed.
"I started to help them in there fight and I fell in love with her and I mean in the worse way truly, madly, deeply, I knew she didn't love me baack even though she told me before I died it would be nice for her to tell me back"
"Spike I dint know is that why you don't get along with Angel" Fred inquired. "Nah I just cant stand the git" he laughed. "Anyway im gonna go and vent my frustrations out in that room before they get here. Spike got up and walked up to the door. And looked back and gently waved.
Spike took off his duster and threw it on a set of weight .He turned around started pummelling the punch bag.
Fred descended down the stairs toward the foyer when the elevator door opened out walked a group of people one guy in particular who had a patch on his eye. The other elevator opened and Buffy walked through with another group of girls another girl walked from behind of Buffy who was quiet young.
"Buffy hi how are you?" Fred held out her hand for Buffy to grasp it.
"Aw hey Fred how's things jeez is it always this busy "As Buffy was almost steamrollered by the mail trolley.
"Erm usually yes "Fred giggled
"Do you know where this training centre is I want to take a look t it before I see Angel "Buffy asked as the other members of the group was taking in how large these offices were.
"Yeah no problem I can take you, the rest of you can go through to that office "Fred pointed to the office to the right. "Angel is just finishing a meeting so he will be with you shortly"
Buffy and Fred took to the elevator.
"I know this is none of my business.... But we were having a discussion the other day and you and Angel were an item not long ago" Fred turned to look at Buffy to catch her reaction." If im being too nosy just tell me "Fred pointed out.
"No that's okay yes me and Angel were together a long time ago I loved him, I still do in a way but not the way he wants me to im in love with someone else who I cant ever be with" Buffy sighed and turned her head so that she couldn't let Fred see her welling up.
"But why cant you have him I mean if he loves you and you love him there shouldn't be no problem "Fred said.
"I can't I told him I loved him and then he died " Buffy turned and Fred could see the sadness in her eyes .
"Im afraid its hazards of being a slayer although I hated him at first and then he was always there haunting me "Buffy smiled.
"And then it just happened I fell in love with him and I think I always will "Buffy rubbed her nose anything to stop from the tears welling up in her eyes yet again.
"Im so sorry Buffy he sounds like a he was good man" Fed put her hand on Buffy's shoulder.
"yeah" Buffy whispered.
"So what was this guys name "Fred wanted to try and get the guys name even though she had a goo idea of who it was.
"His name...oh was Spike" as the elevators door pinged open Fred had the biggest smile on her face.
Spike herd the elevator doors pinged and ran out of the back entrance to the stairs he ran up to the first floor taking two steps at time. He put his hand down to reach for his smokes. "Crap where was his duster" he thought.
Fred opened the door for Buffy and she took in the surroundings and walked round. "This is perfect "Buffy spoke noticing all the equipment. Just then she noticed something black thrown across the weights. She walked quickly over to it and picked it up she inhaled it smelt of Whiskey and smoke. One thought popped into her head SPIKE she turned to Fred.
"Do you know where this came from, its Spikes jacket what the hell is it doing here" Buffy gulped her heart was beating so fast she felt like she was going to be sick.
