DISCLAIMER: weeee !!

Okay well if you haven't checked out my bio then you probably don't know why I haven't been here and why this story hasn't been updated. I am really sorry that the updating time has been so long and I have been lacking in length of chapters. Yes, I know many of you are probably seething mad at me for being a lazy bum like I am and not writing. Well… what can I do?  I am only one person you know… I have so much schoolwork and still taking care of my mom even though she is much much better. I still have to work hard around the house though even though she IS after all better… she just makes us do anything anyways. Whoa… my fingers already hurt from just typing this little paragraph… that's sad.

Well I want to thank all of my reviewers and I would LOOVE some more!! The more reviews I see the faster I update. At first I was kind of let down that I got barely any reviews for that last chapter so I was kind of like "…oh forget it" but now I realize that I need to finish this story once and for all and just get over the fact that not every story is especially liked…

I haven't given much thought into this chapter yet really… I guess I will be making some of it up as I go along and just hope that it fits together right… hehe I seem to be having to do that a lot lately unfortunately. 

Is it just me or does FF keep messing around with the paragraph spacing…?

Hopefully this chapter will be better…?

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No More lil School Girl

Chapter 19: A change for the better

"You have got to be joking me…" Miroku said awe-struck. "He's not really back …is he?" He had that "tell me the truth" expression on and was slouched over as if his open hanging mouth was pulling him down like a barbell.

Kagome rolled her eyes. "No I was just lying and telling you that the person who is trying to kill me is alive for kicks" she answered in a sarcastic tone. Miroku's eyes bulged angrily.

"Gees, Kagome! You scared the shit out of me saying that he was back and all…" Kagome stepped on his foot quickly and put on an "it slipped" smile. "Hey! What was that for?!"

"MIROKU… I was being facetious! NARAKU IS BACK" she nearly screamed it but she had spotted a teacher walking down the hall and tried to keep her voice down. Miroku again looked scared shitless, and innocent at the same time as he waved to the passing teacher. But not forgetting to watch her backside as it descended further down the hall.

"Miroku, what are we going to do?! I thought he was dead!" She started playing with a strand of hair nervously and awaited his opinion.

"That teacher has a nice butt…" He said out of the blue, completely ignoring Kagome's question. He then received a well deserved smack across the face and winced in pain from the impact. "You have one good hook there…"

Kagome was flaringly angry. Miroku noticed the "one more word and face my wrath" look on her face and quieted down.

"Where is Sango?" Kagome asked calming down slightly. This had been a long week and she was surprised that she was able to calm down as fast as she did. First she left Inuyasha because of that bitch Kikyo… and then she is rooming with a complete slob named Kouga that has the hotts for her. The minute Kouga had found a minute alone with her; he had basically wrestled her to the ground and started whispering love poems in her ear. Of course naturally she screamed bloody murder and kicked him in the balls for pulling a stunt like that on her, but what really irked her was that he kept calling her "my woman". But not even that… but now Naraku was supposedly back, but how? But where was Sango? Only her brilliant mind could figure out what was going on.

Miroku shrugged. "Sorry, but the last time I saw her she was leaving class with Inuyasha. I wonder why ….AH is she having an affair with Inuyasha behind my back?!" With that Miroku scurried off down the hallway in search of his beloved. Kagome snickered at his wild conclusions. When she had heard Miroku say Inuyasha's name… it was like she was stabbed in the heart. A large pain shot through her chest but left just as soon as I came.

"Has he really affected me that much?" Kagome said to no one in particular. The halls were now empty signaling that Kagome was late for Math. Hey it was just math… who needs math anyways? "Maybe I should try talking to him again…?"

Yes… talk to him again. You know you want to.

"I can not believe I am talking to you of all people… but, I need help"

About time… now, spill.

"It's about Inu-" At that very moment Kagome heard footsteps from around the corner and was thrown out of her thoughts. What if it was a hall monitor? Oh no… if she got caught out of class without a pass she would have detention and get a U* on her record for skipping class. After this week, another bad strike was not something she was looking forward too… so she ran around the corner and ducked behind a trashcan as the voices and footsteps got louder and louder. Two people were silently talking, and by how close they were to her, she was able to pick up everything they were saying.

"I knew you would dump that Higurashi tramp sooner or later. She's not good enough for you my love" a female voice said happily. At the sound of Kagome's name, she had the sudden urge to jump out from behind the trash can and strangle whoever had offended her, but thought otherwise. She clamped a hand over her mouth forcefully to prevent any noises being made accidentally.

"Yes I know, she doesn't deserve my loyalty and good looks" a very familiar voice spat out distastefully. "Besides, that bitch had the body of a whale and the brain of a stick. She's no good at all I tell you" he continued on saying.


Kagome was practically near tears the second Inuyasha's voice had reached her ears. 'Am I really like that…?' She sunk down lower behind the trashcan and covered her ears with her hands, making sure not once of the rest of their conversation would come close to her.

"Let's go, Inuyasha" the female voice said eagerly pulling a white haired boy down the hall. "I am late for algebra" she said nearing the sight of Kagome's hiding place. She turned on her heel and kissed Inuyasha full on the mouth. She smiled a satisfied grin and walked away toward her classroom not even noticing the crying little girl behind the trashcan.

Well at least somebody did.

Inuyasha spit his chewing gum into the wrapper and stood from afar to try and make a basket into the waste bin from where he was. He shot gracefully…. And missed. The gum wrapper came flying down behind the trashcan and landed square on the top of Kagome's head. She let out a cry of surprise and reached up on her head to pull the gum out. Good thing it was in a wrapper. Inuyasha sighed, being the good soul he was, went to go get the wrapper to properly throw it away.

Inuyasha swerved around the trashcan to find his gum and wrapper, but instead found a little girl crying. He didn't actually realize it was Kagome who was that little girl until after a double take or two.

His face looked as though it had immediately been drowned in shock. 'Had she heard Kikyo and I…?'

Kagome lifted her head up to look at Inuyasha. As much as she didn't want to, she knew she would have to look sooner or later. Her eyes were sore red and puffy from all of the crying, and her nose was stuffed up beyond belief. Inuyasha stared back at her with a solemn but shocked face. He knew that Kagome had probably heard him and that other girl talking about her. She looked deep into his eyes, searching for an answer, but couldn't find one. God he hid his emotions way too well. The silence was wearing too thick and she couldn't take the silence anymore.

Inuyasha blinked a few more times before finally saying something. "Ka-"

"NO!" Kagome wailed at him through her tears. She got up and started running down the hall as fast as her small tired legs would carry her.

Inuyasha frowned at the sight of her sudden outburst and disappearance. He was ashamed and he knew it. It's not like he really meant those things he had said to Kikyo… right?

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The night before…

"Whoa so she just dumped you like that…?" a small short man said in a shocked tone. Inuyasha threw a shoe at the small person, but he quickly dodged it like he was used the bombardment of hurtful objects.

"Don't remind me, Myouga" Inuyasha grounded out angrily. "Miroku, would you just quit telling him what happened? He is just going to bother me you know"

Miroku ignored Inuyasha anyways and went on telling Myouga about Inuyasha's foul mood. "And well now here he is sulking about it like a beaten puppy" Miroku finished.

Myouga was on the edge of his seat toward the end and was clearly astounded on the sudden break-up. "Whoa that really sucks for you now don't it?"

Inuyasha irritably threw his other shoe at the little man, but this time hitting him right between the eyes. Inuyasha continued to sulk as Myouga and Miroku continued talking.

Myouga rubbed his head painfully and winced at the contact from the shoe. "You know, if you want her back so badly, you should just make her jealous. I know it sounds a little …desperate, but believe me, it is no last resort. The number of couples who use jealousy to get their partners back is every 3 out of 5, and about 6 out of 8 couples succeed in getting their way."

Inuyasha's ears perked up to Myouga's little plan. "…but what happens to the other 2 / 8?" he asked curiously, absolutely open to the idea if it was good enough to work for him.

Myouga frowned. "They end up alone and miserable"

Miroku at the time was lounging upside down in his recliner listening intently to the two. "Why do they end up miserable…?"

"Well you see, not every couple understands enough to realize that they are going out with somebody else for the good of their relationship. If Sally and Timmy here broke up, for example, and Timmy wanted Sally back really badly, but Sally had already found someone else new, he would try the jealousy factor. He would find some hot hooker off of the street and show her off to Sally thinking that she will get jealous and want him back. But that doesn't always happen with every couple. Either that happens, or this… Sally just thinks that he is some desperate player having one night stands with hookers off of the street and never speaks to him again" Myouga wiped his sweaty brow and have Inuyasha a questioning look. "Well… are you going to still do it…?"

Inuyasha's lip lowering into an unsure frown, but quickly brightened up. "Yes… and I know the perfect hooker for the job"

Miroku shot a grin toward Myouga and mouthed him 'what is he talking about?' Myouga responded with a shrug of the shoulders. Inuyasha lept out of his chair and reached for the telephone. His fingers dialed the numbers like lightning and he sat waiting as the phone rang over and over…. Until someone picked up of course.

"Hello?" a female voice asked on the other end.

"Hey, Kikyo…."

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Kagome threw open the dorm room door and lunged onto her part time bed sobbing into the pillows with all of her might. She couldn't erase the image of Inuyasha and Kikyo kissing in the hall, and she couldn't forget the look he had in his eyes. He didn't miss her at all, heck, he probably cared more about dirt than her now. She always loved Inuyasha all along, but she threw it all away and now it is too late to get him back. He was already taken by another woman, and of course it was the one she dreaded most. Kikyo.

"What have I done?!" she screamed into her pillow angrily. "What the hell made me think that breaking up with him would fix things?! I just wanted some time to myself… to get away…" her tears stricken face rolled onto its side and stared into 2 yellow pools. Kagome scrambled about, her limbs flailing madly as she tried to calm her racing heart. "KOUGA!"

"Good to see you're back, Kagome" he smiled. "What's up with the drama?"

Kagome huffed and folded her arms across her chest. "Why should I tell you?" she knew she was acting like a 2 year old, but hey she was upset.

"I want to know what bothers my woman so I can make her feel better" he said deviously. "I hate to see my woman when she is sad" He inched closer and closer toward her face with his own, smiling. Kagome pulled up her hand and was about to contact it with his face, until she got an idea. She instead pulled him into a kiss and deepened it for a long while. She stopped for air and smiled.

"You know what? It was nothing, let's just get comfortable, okay?" she patted the spot next to her, and he happily agreed jumping into the bed next to Kagome.

Let's see what he does once jealousy takes over…

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Outside Kouga/ Kagome's dorm window

"You know, Kagome will so kill us if she finds out that we were spying on her" Sango whined as Miroku heaved a heavy ladder around on his back. He placed it against the large dorm building and helped Sango up the first few steps. "And we'll also be dead if the gardener finds out we stole his ladder too…"

Miroku sighed. "Would you stop worrying so much and just get up there?" he said hastily. Sango stuck her tongue out like a child and continued up the ladder. Little did she know that Miroku found this a great opportunity since she was wearing a skirt…

SMACK

Miroku fell backwards onto the ground in a slightly painful looking matter.

"Serves you right you pervert!" she screamed in his face receding down the ladder. "YOU go first this time" she commanded. Miroku got up and went up the ladder before her as ordered. Sango followed up from behind with a triumphant look ok her face. "Oh how I love absolute power…"

Miroku looked down at Sango suspiciously. "What did you say?"

"Nothing, just keep going!" she ordered yet again, and of course Miroku obeyed. "I  SO have him wrapped around my little finger…"

"I could swear I heard you say something"

"Then you better get those ears of yours checked pronto" Sango smirked evilly to herself and gracefully continued climbing the ladder. Once Kagome's room was within reach, Miroku slid over so he could make room for Sango to stand next to him for a share of the view.

Sango's eyes widened. "Oh my gosh… did she just kiss Kouga?"

Miroku stared ahead lifelessly. "umm… I think she did"

Sango smacked him over the head to snap him back into reality and whispered. "Do you know anything about this?"

Miroku shook his head no. "Alls I know is that Inuyasha is playing the jealousy card on Kagome with Kikyo. But I didn't know that Kagome was trying the same thing on Inuyasha with Kouga!"

Sango rolled her eyes. "How can you assume that she doesn't really like him?" she asked curiously. Obviously she didn't believe one word that came out of his perverted mouth.

"Well Kagome honestly hates Kouga more if not as much as Kikyo. There is no way she would ever like him in the way she just expressed now. She is just trying to lure him into her trap so she can use him as bait for Inuyasha" he explained. Miroku shot Sango a victorious look that said 'hah! I'm not as stupid as you think!' and held a hand out. "Shall we?"

Sango sighed. She lowered herself down the ladder enough rungs so that she was within jumping height. Once she way, she catapulted off and landed on the ground smooth as a cat. Miroku watched in shock as she landed with ease from such a height. Sango closed the space between her and the ladder, and with one swift motion, knocked the ladder over to the ground and taking Miroku with it.

"Bye Miroku"

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Inuyasha's dorm

Miroku limped into the dorm room in agonizing pain. Inuyasha, who was occupying the cozy couch watching ESPN, laughed at the sight of his friend who had large amount of leaves and dirt in his hair.

"What happened to you?" he questioned his disoriented friend. "Looks like you fell off a ladder into a pile of leaves and dirt" he burst out laughing and returned his attention back toward the television screen.

"You'd be surprised"

Okay… well here is my ending note for this chapter… it is an excerpt from my xanga…

Sunday, March 28, 2004

I just got back from my soccer game today. I am really upset and a little down right now. I dont care that we didnt win or anything like that, I always just have fun and wait for the next game. But for many many years now alls I seem to be hearing from my teammates is harassment. Instead of a few words of encouragement or ways to help me with mistakes, I get put-downs and mean remarks about my playing. I have had a problem with this for a very long time. I spoke to my mom, my my dad, and even the coach, but I dont think any of them care except my mom. SHe thinks that I shouldn't play for Hope anymore. I mean.. 6 years is definitely 5 too many for someone like her. I think that she doesnt believe in me and just puts me wherever she wants to, not caring if I could do it or not. I am always on the sidelines now a days, unlike a while ago when coach Lyndsay was there. SHE believed in me and new my limits and expertise. She knew what I could do and what I couldnt, and always gave me encouragement and pointers. But Hope, no... that cant be asked from her. I am very upset that this has started up again too. During indoor this winter, it had stopped altogether. But the second Katie Rimpfel comes back it just hits me like a sack of potatoes. I have a feeling that she is the main cause of all of the remarks and sneering I have been getting. Me and her have never gotten along.. ever. period. And well that has been some sort of problem with me because we always fight. When I do something wrong she yells at me, puts me down and starts making me feel discouraged. When I feel discouraged and upset while I am playing, I cant play at all so she is just making matters worse. I dont think I had ever gotten into a fight with anyone when katie Rimpfel was gone. Actually, everyone was starting to become my friend and we would talk more and more as each game progressed. But now I am just so far down and I dont think I can recover and jump back to where I once was when I began playing so very long ago. I am scarred now and my self confidence has dropped, I am just so unsure of myself.... I think I always have been for the last couple of years, it just hasnt made itself present until now. The only thing keeping me sane on the soccer field is Amber Bowman. I like Amber bunches, she is the funniest and nicest person I have ever been friends with. She always has something positive to say and encourages everyone. Instead of discuragement, she gives pointers, and cheers us on when we attack or are playing. She knows that I am having trouble with the team and tries to help me as much as possible. I have never gotten into a fight with her, nor has she said anything bad about my playing and unlike everyone else. I am just thinking of quitting Hopes team. I have been taking these years of harassment for long enough and well I dont think I can handle it anymore emotionally. One of these days I am just going to have a mental breakdown, and I just wont be the same anymore. Nothing has been right for a while. Today was a bad day for me, and everything seems to just be getting worse. Maybe I should knock on wood more often, but I have a feeling that wont help me any more than breaking a mirror would. I miss Dave right now and I really want to talk to someone about my problems so bad. No one in my family cares or listens to my problems because they have heard this paticular one so many times before and just dont care anymore. Its not like they have done anything to help anyways. ...The only person I think I can turn to right now is Dave, but I dont want to drag him into my problem or annoy him, so I think I will keep to myself. There is nothing my guidance counselor can do, because I mean, hello, he is the school guidance counselor, not the soccer guidance counselor. He couldnt do much right now for me so I dont even want to consider it. I would turn to my best friend Brittany, but it is hard to speak to her without her mother breathing down her neck. She really does hate me you know (what else is new) and well I dont think I will ever in the rest of my lifetime be able to do something out of school with her. I can usually go to her for advice, but it seems that that lifeline has been cut off by the monster of her mom who despises me for no reason whatsoever. I dont think I have anyone left to talk to, unless of course I just go spill my guts out to some complete stranger.... but no, I wouldnt do that. I guess I will never be heard. These words could never express how I feel right now, and well...its not a good feeling.