Instrument of Love
By: dream_eater_is_hungry
"Sanzo! Sanzo!" Goku cried, tears streaming down his cheeks. He held the injured monk close to him.
"Baka saru..." Sanzo muttered. He coughed and winced as pain shot through his body.
"It's all, my fault..." Goku thought grimly, "I wasn't able to protect him. If it wasn't for me, he wouldn't be hurt."
It was raining again that night. Unfortunately, Kougaiji chose that night, of all the nights, to attempt to steal Sanzo's sutra, again. It was a heated battle, but Kougaiji wanting to finish the fight as quickly as possible, summoned Engokuki(*). Goku, on the other hand, was dumbfounded and was unable to move. Instinctively, Sanzo ran to shield Goku, leaving him badly injured.
Goku cursed himself. "I won't let you die, Sanzo, never!" he exclaimed.
"Baka, I won't die, especially not like this!" Sanzo muttered. "Damn the rain" he thought as the rain continued to pour. He continued losing blood because of all his wounds. Suddenly, his vision began to blur.
"Sanzo..." Goku panicked as Sanzo began to drift away.
"Shut up saru..." Sanzo whispered in a hoarse voice. Sazno struggled to stay conscious but his body had betrayed his mind.
~ o0o ~
Goku sat by Sanzo's bed, keeping a watchful eye. "Sanzo, please... please wake up..." Goku prayed, "don't die..."
"Don't worry, Goku" a voice came from the door, "he won't die. He's been through worse. You should worry about yourself, Goku you haven't eaten anything since last night"
"Its okay, Hakkai," Goku reassured him, "I'll be fine..."
The green-eyed man took a seat at the stool beside the saru.
"Hakkai," Goku whispered, "do you think Sanzo will forgive me?"
"Forgive you for what?" Hakkai asked, curious to know what was going on the boy's mind
"For being nothing but an idiotic saru, who can't even defend himself..." he replied.
"That's not true, Goku..." Hakkai answered, "you're not idiotic..." But he was cut off by Goku.
"Really?" he asked, "then why wasn't I able to block off Engokuki, why wasn't I able to beat Kougaiji, why wasn't I able to protect the one I love..."
Goku stopped short, realizing that he had said too much. Hakkai didn't know how to react and just stared at the young boy.
"Goku," Hakkai whispered when he finally found his voice. He never knew of Goku's affection for Sanzo. Sure, he would be nice and kind to Sanzo but Hakkai never thought of it as a sign of love. He only thought of it as a gesture of respect to his owner. Goku must have been very careful in hiding his true emotions for he didn't even suspect it, not one bit. Hakkai stole a glance at the chocolate-haired boy a few feet away from him. He was looking down, apparently ashamed of what he had just said. Hakkai stood up and hugged to young boy close to him.
"It's okay, Goku," Hakkai comforted, "you have nothing to be ashamed of. You should never be ashamed of how you really feel. If you love him, Goku, I have nothing against it."
"Sure, you don't," he answered, "but Sanzo does."
"Do you know, or do you only think so?" Hakkai asked.
"I don't need to ask just to know how he really feels about me," Goku answered grimly, "it's obvious that he hates me. Just my mere existence, just the fact that I'm alive is enough for him to hate me. After all, am I not only a saru who can't think for himself? Who can't do anything right? Who is useless except for eating? All I really been, is a nuisance to you guys."
Hakkai was slightly taken aback by all this. He never thought Goku would think like this. He always saw Goku as someone who was cheerful and fun loving. But it looks like he was wrong.
~ o0o ~
Sanzo had finally regained consciousness, just in time to hear the entire conversation between Goku and Hakkai. He had almost choked when he heard Goku say the words: the one I love. He never thought Goku would love him, after all the hardships he had placed the saru through. Although in fact, he also loved Goku. But he didn't want anyone to take the pleasure in knowing he was in love with the kid so he hid it all from the world. He didn't want anyone to think that he, a high respectable monk, would fall for a baka saru. So he denied of ever feeling something special for the kid and substituted the love he wanted to give Goku, with his "tortures".
But whenever he would see those chocolate locks, those lush lips begging to be devoured, and his irresistible golden puppy dog eyes, he would feel warm inside, the same warmth that he loved, and yet, hated. Why? You ask. Maybe because it was the same warmth that he missed, the same warmth that he felt around his Master, except this was different. This was...better.
"Goku, staying here won't help..." He heard Hakkai whisper, "you must be tired, have some rest."
"But what about Sanzo...?" Goku's voice trailed off. Even though he was facing the wall, he can feel Goku's golden eyes intently watching him.
"Don't worry, I'll watch him..."Hakkai assured him, "I'll call you when he's awake."
After Goku had reluctantly left, Hakkai turned his attention back to Sanzo.
Silence.
"You heard everything right?"
"Do you think I wouldn't be bothered by your loud conversation?" Sanzo asked coldly.
"Aren't you at all moved or at least touched or something?" Hakkai asked irritably.
"Ch"
But behind that cold response was a sensitive man, longing to be loved. His heart longing to be touched, longing to be melted from its icy confines.
*Engokuki is a monster/creature summoned from the Infernal Land.
By: dream_eater_is_hungry
"Sanzo! Sanzo!" Goku cried, tears streaming down his cheeks. He held the injured monk close to him.
"Baka saru..." Sanzo muttered. He coughed and winced as pain shot through his body.
"It's all, my fault..." Goku thought grimly, "I wasn't able to protect him. If it wasn't for me, he wouldn't be hurt."
It was raining again that night. Unfortunately, Kougaiji chose that night, of all the nights, to attempt to steal Sanzo's sutra, again. It was a heated battle, but Kougaiji wanting to finish the fight as quickly as possible, summoned Engokuki(*). Goku, on the other hand, was dumbfounded and was unable to move. Instinctively, Sanzo ran to shield Goku, leaving him badly injured.
Goku cursed himself. "I won't let you die, Sanzo, never!" he exclaimed.
"Baka, I won't die, especially not like this!" Sanzo muttered. "Damn the rain" he thought as the rain continued to pour. He continued losing blood because of all his wounds. Suddenly, his vision began to blur.
"Sanzo..." Goku panicked as Sanzo began to drift away.
"Shut up saru..." Sanzo whispered in a hoarse voice. Sazno struggled to stay conscious but his body had betrayed his mind.
~ o0o ~
Goku sat by Sanzo's bed, keeping a watchful eye. "Sanzo, please... please wake up..." Goku prayed, "don't die..."
"Don't worry, Goku" a voice came from the door, "he won't die. He's been through worse. You should worry about yourself, Goku you haven't eaten anything since last night"
"Its okay, Hakkai," Goku reassured him, "I'll be fine..."
The green-eyed man took a seat at the stool beside the saru.
"Hakkai," Goku whispered, "do you think Sanzo will forgive me?"
"Forgive you for what?" Hakkai asked, curious to know what was going on the boy's mind
"For being nothing but an idiotic saru, who can't even defend himself..." he replied.
"That's not true, Goku..." Hakkai answered, "you're not idiotic..." But he was cut off by Goku.
"Really?" he asked, "then why wasn't I able to block off Engokuki, why wasn't I able to beat Kougaiji, why wasn't I able to protect the one I love..."
Goku stopped short, realizing that he had said too much. Hakkai didn't know how to react and just stared at the young boy.
"Goku," Hakkai whispered when he finally found his voice. He never knew of Goku's affection for Sanzo. Sure, he would be nice and kind to Sanzo but Hakkai never thought of it as a sign of love. He only thought of it as a gesture of respect to his owner. Goku must have been very careful in hiding his true emotions for he didn't even suspect it, not one bit. Hakkai stole a glance at the chocolate-haired boy a few feet away from him. He was looking down, apparently ashamed of what he had just said. Hakkai stood up and hugged to young boy close to him.
"It's okay, Goku," Hakkai comforted, "you have nothing to be ashamed of. You should never be ashamed of how you really feel. If you love him, Goku, I have nothing against it."
"Sure, you don't," he answered, "but Sanzo does."
"Do you know, or do you only think so?" Hakkai asked.
"I don't need to ask just to know how he really feels about me," Goku answered grimly, "it's obvious that he hates me. Just my mere existence, just the fact that I'm alive is enough for him to hate me. After all, am I not only a saru who can't think for himself? Who can't do anything right? Who is useless except for eating? All I really been, is a nuisance to you guys."
Hakkai was slightly taken aback by all this. He never thought Goku would think like this. He always saw Goku as someone who was cheerful and fun loving. But it looks like he was wrong.
~ o0o ~
Sanzo had finally regained consciousness, just in time to hear the entire conversation between Goku and Hakkai. He had almost choked when he heard Goku say the words: the one I love. He never thought Goku would love him, after all the hardships he had placed the saru through. Although in fact, he also loved Goku. But he didn't want anyone to take the pleasure in knowing he was in love with the kid so he hid it all from the world. He didn't want anyone to think that he, a high respectable monk, would fall for a baka saru. So he denied of ever feeling something special for the kid and substituted the love he wanted to give Goku, with his "tortures".
But whenever he would see those chocolate locks, those lush lips begging to be devoured, and his irresistible golden puppy dog eyes, he would feel warm inside, the same warmth that he loved, and yet, hated. Why? You ask. Maybe because it was the same warmth that he missed, the same warmth that he felt around his Master, except this was different. This was...better.
"Goku, staying here won't help..." He heard Hakkai whisper, "you must be tired, have some rest."
"But what about Sanzo...?" Goku's voice trailed off. Even though he was facing the wall, he can feel Goku's golden eyes intently watching him.
"Don't worry, I'll watch him..."Hakkai assured him, "I'll call you when he's awake."
After Goku had reluctantly left, Hakkai turned his attention back to Sanzo.
Silence.
"You heard everything right?"
"Do you think I wouldn't be bothered by your loud conversation?" Sanzo asked coldly.
"Aren't you at all moved or at least touched or something?" Hakkai asked irritably.
"Ch"
But behind that cold response was a sensitive man, longing to be loved. His heart longing to be touched, longing to be melted from its icy confines.
*Engokuki is a monster/creature summoned from the Infernal Land.
