Mistake

By: dream_eater_is_hungry

"Goku..." Sanzo thought as he lay awake, that night, unable to sleep.

/ "Aren't you at all moved or at least touched or something?"/

Hakkai's words earlier that day came back to him. Sanzo sighed. Right at that moment, he wanted to tell Hakkai, that more than anything in the world; he would want the saru right by his side. He wanted to feel the loving warmth that always seems to soothe away his pain, his troubles away; the warmth that he feels when he is around the boy. It's weird. He is a high-respectable monk, who is worshiped and admired by all. He can have anything he wants with just a snap of his fingers, yet, no one was able to really give him what he wanted the most. Love.

Sanzo closed his eyes. "Only Goku was able to make me feel like this, "he thought, "loved and cared for..."

Having nothing else to do, Sanzo got up from the bed and headed out the door. He quietly crept up Goku's room and entered the sleeping boy's room. Goku looked peaceful and innocent in his sleep, curled up like a cat, with the moon shining through the window, highlighting the boy's delicate features.

"So much like an angel..." Sanzo murmured. He silently walked towards the unmoving figure and sat by his bed. He lightly traced his hand, brushing away some stray locks that covered his face.

"Sanzo..." the young boy murmured in his slumber.

"If only...," Sanzo whispered, "if only have the courage to tell you...then I would have told you by now... that I loved you..."

Slowly, Sanzo leaned towards the boy, using his hands on either side of Goku for support. Sanzo brushed his lips against Goku's, sending a cold shiver down his spine. Yielding to temptation, he brought his lips to Goku's and devoured the young boy into his mouth. The kiss was soft and sweet yet, passionate and filled with desire. Sanzo pulled away, savoring their kiss, rather, his kiss. "I'm sorry Goku..." he whispered, "I know that you might have not wanted that. Trust me, I didn't want it to be this way either, but that may have been the only chance I had...

~ o0o ~

Sunlight streamed through the window, waking Sanzo up from his peaceful slumber. He opened his eyes, cursing the sun for being too bright.

"Sanzo..." a voice beside him groaned.

"What am I doing here...in Goku's room?" Sanzo asked himself. "Oh yeah..." he recalled, "I went here to check on Goku last night...I must've fallen asleep..."

He groggily walked out the boy's room and headed to his room. After a nice refreshing shower, he then headed to the restaurant in the inn. When he got there, he was surprised to find Hakkai and Gojyo already there. Usually, he would be the first one to wake up as he was trained to be up at the crack of dawn. But what was really usually was that both of them were wearing lopsided, not to mention, foolish grins.

Sanzo narrowed his eyes, as he took a seat at the table.

"Hey Sanzo," Gojyo greeted, "so I heard you were doing better..."

"What do you care about my health, ero kappa" Sanzo merely replied.

"So anyway, Sanzo," Hakkai replied, changing the subject, "Congratulations!"

Sanzo raised his eyebrow in suspicion. "Congratulations for what?" he replied.

Both of them blinked. Didn't Sanzo know what they were talking about?

"Congratulations for getting laid, of course!" Gojyo exclaimed.

"La...laid?" Sanzo gritted in response, his vein twitching in annoyance.

"Yeah, when Hakkai went to check on you this morning, you weren't in your bedroom," Gojyo explained cheerfully, "then when Hakkai went to check on Goku, he saw you sleeping with the saru! Man, Sanzo, I never thought you were into the saru!"

Sanzo blushed upon this realization. He didn't know what to say. He had been found out. What should he do? What would his cold, fake self do?

"I do not..." he whispered, his voice getting louder with each word, "I do NOT, I repeat, I do NOT love that stupid saru who thinks about nothing but food!" Sanzo panted, trying to catch his breath.

"There! That should teach them..." he thought triumphantly.

Suddenly, the threesome heard a gasp from behind them; an all too familiar gasp. Goku was standing there behind them, dumbstruck, tears welling up in his golden eyes.

"Goku, I..." Sazo started as he got up to comfort the saru. Just as he was about to place his hand onto the saru's head, Goku suddenly pushed it away and ran back upstairs, leaving Sanzo and the others.

TBC