Breaking the Habit
Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again
I lay on my bed, tears flowing down my cheeks. I wonder why I'm alone in my bedroom. The one I once shared with you. It's my fault you're dead. It is, it really is, don't you understand? Does no one understand? I'm not safe here. I'm not safe anywhere, not even in my own bed. But they don't think I'll cut again, is that really true? Won't I?
[Bridge:]
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused
I'm tired of always fighting for everything I believe in. I believed in our love, and I fought for that. But you still left me. You died; you died because of a mistake I made. One that cost us all. I guess no one really wants to blame me, but I did kill you in a sense.
[Chorus:]
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight
I'm slowly breaking the habit I made while with you. I stopped asking for forgiveness for every little thing I've done. Even if they do forgive me, I know I'm the one that killed you. Screaming out your name in the wee hours of the morning. I'm dying without you, don't you see? I will die.
Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again
I ran earlier to the kitchen. It's two AM, no one was there. And am I ever thankful. It was easy to grab a knife, some pain killers, not just some. And some alcohol. I'm huffing and puffing, I ran as fast as I could. Tears well in my eyes, this will all end now. I will finally be out of my total and utter pain.
[Bridge:]
I dont want to be the one
Who battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused
I'm tired of fighting for other people who don't even know I'm alive. I realize I'm just confused about my place on Earth, but I feel it would be better if I just left. If I left and let everyone else be free of my presence.
[Chorus:]
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight
I sit on my bedroom floor crying. I scream out your name as loud as I can. No one will pay it any mind, and I am glad. Every bad habit I ever have will now be gone from me.
[Bridge:]
I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends
I cut my wrist. I write my sorry in the crimson coloured blood. 'I'm sorry I had to leave you with this mess to clean up. I've left you with a lot of messes lately, his death was my fault. I love you all'. I won't fight for the people who don't love me anymore. I'm ending this now.
[Chorus:]
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
to show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight
I swallow the pain killers; drink some of the wine I pulled out of the fridge. I begin to sob and cry. I begin to slit my wrists faster and faster. This is the end of my life. I sigh with content as I finally let the darkness consume me.
Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again
I lay on my bed, tears flowing down my cheeks. I wonder why I'm alone in my bedroom. The one I once shared with you. It's my fault you're dead. It is, it really is, don't you understand? Does no one understand? I'm not safe here. I'm not safe anywhere, not even in my own bed. But they don't think I'll cut again, is that really true? Won't I?
[Bridge:]
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused
I'm tired of always fighting for everything I believe in. I believed in our love, and I fought for that. But you still left me. You died; you died because of a mistake I made. One that cost us all. I guess no one really wants to blame me, but I did kill you in a sense.
[Chorus:]
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight
I'm slowly breaking the habit I made while with you. I stopped asking for forgiveness for every little thing I've done. Even if they do forgive me, I know I'm the one that killed you. Screaming out your name in the wee hours of the morning. I'm dying without you, don't you see? I will die.
Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again
I ran earlier to the kitchen. It's two AM, no one was there. And am I ever thankful. It was easy to grab a knife, some pain killers, not just some. And some alcohol. I'm huffing and puffing, I ran as fast as I could. Tears well in my eyes, this will all end now. I will finally be out of my total and utter pain.
[Bridge:]
I dont want to be the one
Who battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused
I'm tired of fighting for other people who don't even know I'm alive. I realize I'm just confused about my place on Earth, but I feel it would be better if I just left. If I left and let everyone else be free of my presence.
[Chorus:]
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight
I sit on my bedroom floor crying. I scream out your name as loud as I can. No one will pay it any mind, and I am glad. Every bad habit I ever have will now be gone from me.
[Bridge:]
I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends
I cut my wrist. I write my sorry in the crimson coloured blood. 'I'm sorry I had to leave you with this mess to clean up. I've left you with a lot of messes lately, his death was my fault. I love you all'. I won't fight for the people who don't love me anymore. I'm ending this now.
[Chorus:]
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
to show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight
I swallow the pain killers; drink some of the wine I pulled out of the fridge. I begin to sob and cry. I begin to slit my wrists faster and faster. This is the end of my life. I sigh with content as I finally let the darkness consume me.
