[A/N Poor Quistis… Anyway, just a short chapter I made quickly. Tried to show things in Seifer's POV so he doesn't look like such a mean person.
Another day had passed and Quistis still hadn't left her room. She had come out once or twice to go to the cafeteria but then she'd just go back to her room and stay there for hours to come. Seifer noticed this and so did his friends.
"SEIFER." Fujin said, her expression confused.
He just lifted his hands in a sort of shrug, asking her what she wanted to say.
"QUISTIS?" She asked him, half-confused, half-worried.
Dammit. I can't hide it from her can I? Hyne, why did Quistis ask me that? I DON'T WANT TO HURT HER. I don't.
"What about her?" He mumbled.
"Seifer." Fujin's tone became soft, as it did when she was concerned or angry.
He just shook his head. "She... sorta asked me... if I loved her." He said slowly.
"What did you say?" She asked.
"I said, I cared about her..." He muttered.
"And she got hurt?" She already knew. "Seifer, why did you say that? DO you love her?" Fujin voice was firm but gentle.
"I dunno, Fu. I mean, you know me... I'd just end up hurting her... or leaving her, you know me! I have NO commitment! I mean, hello? Ultimecia possessed me! I can be talked into doing anything! I DON'T WANT TO HURT HER!" He was practically yelling.
"You do know... those things shouldn't matter." She looked more serious than usual.
"What the hell...? I don't get you, Fu." He said and walked away, without waiting for a reply.
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Quistis Trepe, what is wrong with you? Why? Why on earth did you ask him that question? Hyne, why?!?
Quistis was still in her room. She wouldn't come out if she didn't have to. She had just stayed inside asking herself why she was so stupid and dumb.
I wonder if this was supposed to happen? If I didn't ask him that, would things be different? Would he have been able to love me later on?
That new question formed in her head but it took only a second for her to think of the answer.
No. I am meant to be alone. Just me.
She sat down on her bed with a tired sigh. She was tired of this. Tired of living a life with no purpose, no meaning. That's it. There was no more for her to do with her life. She loved and was not loved back. And so she is alone again.
I wonder... I still... think...
Quistis stood up and walked to her bathroom slowly. She opened the cabinet next to her mirror. She glanced at her reflection and frowned in disgust at the lost, empty expression she saw.
She took out a bottle and closed the cabinet door. There in her hand was the bottle of pills, that could end her life, end her misery.
It's not like anyone will care if I take this right? What have I got to lose?
She popped open the cap and poured some red pills into her palm. Four tablets were there, right in her hand. She stood in silence preparing herself for what she felt would be her last breath.
Her mind was confusing her. Some of her told her to take it and the rest told her to stop.
Dammit Quistis! TAKE IT! No one cares anyway! It's not like you'll miss out on anything.
Her hands began to shake and her breathing switched to short gasping. She slowly put one of the blood-red pills to her lips.
She opened her mouth and closed her eyes, her heart beating rapidly.
She started to put it to her tongue and prepared herself…
"Quistis...?" A soft voice called her.
Her eyes shot open and she pulled back her hand quickly, taking the pill out as well.
"Quistis...?" The voice called again.
"I'm here..." She said quietly, staring at the things in her hand.
"Quisty, It's Selphie. And Rinoa. Anyway, we were just wondering if you'd want to come to the cafeteria? You must be hungry."
"Um..." She said, deciding what to do," Why don't you go ahead? I might catch up later." She said.
"Alright, Quis. Hope you'll get there soon." Selphie called, footsteps were heard and the sounds slowly faded.
Quistis dropped the pills on her bathroom floor and listened to them clatter against the hard tiles.
She turned away and walked to her bed. She sat down and thought hard about what she was about to do.
Hyne, I'm so confused... I can't believe what I was about to do... And I can. I'm SO confused, damn.
She pounded on the pillow next to her. Quistis stood up and saw the Fairy Tale book on her floor. She bent down and placed it on her desk softly and left to find her friends.
Fairy Tales... In my world, I don't think 'Happily Ever After's' exist...
