[A/N This one's in Seifer's POV. Kind of short but… I made it a bit of a rush since my last chapter was late.]
Damn, where'd my squad go? Never should've let them out of my sight! I knew that Laine girl and that Samuel would leave me again... Stupid... I'm the Squad Leader! Damn! I might fail because of them.
Seifer kicked the soil angrily and looked around for his teammates once more. They had probably left without him again. He squinted against the sun, looking for them but instead saw a shadowy and dark figure on the ground. He tried to figure out what it was but couldn't tell because he was so far away.
What the hell...? I can see something but what is that? It looks like a person but I can't tell from this far. I'm pretty sure it's a person. Why is he... or she... there of all places? And if that is a person, it looks like he... or she, collapsed.
He blocked the sun from his eyes and tried to get a better look. He moved forward and went closer to the figure.
He walked towards it, moving faster with each step. By the time he reached her, he was practically running. He stopped when he reached Quistis.
Holy... It's Quistis. Of all people. I didn't think it was her... Why is she here? How did she get here?
He didn't bother to answer that question, it just didn't seem to matter. He left it alone and unanswered. He just bent on the ground and touched her cheek softly. He wiped the blood away from the wound. He ran his hand through her soft blonde hair and felt something jump inside of himself despite his worries. He picked her up gently but as fast as he could.
She rested her head against his chest, unaware of what she was doing and what was happening. Still, he felt warmth and something melt inside of him when she did, although he was hoping with everything that she was okay.
I don't know why... But, even if I might not pass now because of this or that I don't know where the hell my squad is...
He quickened his pace and ran past everyone, even the curious and concerned faces. He just ran past everything and everyone. He didn't notice anything but the unconscious girl in his arms.
I don't care. I just don't care. That's it.
Those words didn't even shock himself. He knew they were true despite the fact that he had no idea why. He looked down at the blonde teenager, who was breathing softly against him, and felt his cares all disappear. All of them but the one he felt for her. He still did not understand what he was feeling at the moment and questions kept forming in his head.
Why don't I care?
As he ran to the other Instructors, a thought came back to his head. Something Fujin told him.
"...All of those shouldn't matter..." She had said to him after he explained his reasons for saying that he couldn't love Quistis the way she was asking him to.
Before he had just walked away from Fujin. Those words had not meant anything to him, they were simply a sentence consisting of five words which had no meaning or anything that he had understood, he couldn't figure out what she was really trying to say. But as he held Quistis in his arms, they hit him in his heart like rock. Her words echoed into his soul and told him something he hadn't heard when she said them before. Something about Quistis forced himself to think about her. He knew that those words she said were true, every emotion and feeling he felt right then proved her nothing less than right.
Fujin was right... Some things I still don't get... But she WAS right, I'm sure of that...
All the things that seemed to important... Didn't matter.
Nothing else mattered to him but Quistis at the moment. The girl who was making his heart beat like crazy inside of him with hope and worries. The girl who had helped him understand himself and make him feel like he was important. The girl who had done so much for him and the girl... whose heart was broken because of him. Quistis.
Only one question stood unanswered as he carried the unconscious Quistis all the way back to the other SeeDs.
Why? Why did everything seem so unimportant at the moment?
He walked more slowly to Squall and Zell who were standing just outside the Ragnarok. They spotted him and looked shocked as they saw Quistis.
The question still kept repeating itself inside of Seifer's mind. Why? Why? Why?
He held her tightly again. He felt like he wished to never let her go and just keep her with him forever.
He never once took his eyes off of her and as he handed her to Squall an answer to his question began to form inside his head.
Quistis...
Seifer came back to reality as he went in search of his squad again and then the answer was clear in his head. The simple answer meant so much more than words would ever be able to explain. But still he knew and he understood finally.
...It's because I love her...
