Hi thank you all soo much for the reviews. I am also very sorry for the long update. I am sorry if some of this is confusing forgive me. Just to let you know there will be random pop up scenes or flashbacks that might confuse you and I am sorry for that. But these flashbacks will hopefully get clear as we get further in the story. Try and be a lil bit of a detective and try 2 figure out how the flashbacks relate to the story.

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LoL. I was actually amused with what people wrote in their reviews well I hope it cleas up a little in this chappie. I may not update in a while cause I've started school and well it's just to hard and I hardly have time on the compute. Sooo... hopefully i can update asap.

hmm..I think i'm starting to have second thoughts about my title after the last couple chapters. I dunno what do you think should I go back to the original title Play Around With Each other or the title it is now. Well I wanna hear what you have to say in your reviews please and thank you.

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I don't think i have anything else to say so let's get on with the story.

Chapter 10 Explanations

*******Flashbacks******

A man in a white coat came inside a room with a waiting couple sitting in chairs. The man sat down behind his desk and folded his hands. He showed a wide smile meaning it was something of a good news.

"Well the results are in and it looks like your going to have a baby." announced the doctor.

Both male and female smiled and hugged one another.. It was a start of something new.

******End of flashback****

"Again? What do you mean by again? You must be joking, that is the silliest thing I have ever heard." asked Tomoyo looking at her best friend bewildered. How could her best friend be pregnant again without her knowing? They were able to share things with each other no matter what. Tomoyo felt a little betrayed and hurt.

"So tell me what happened and why didn't you bother to tell me about this hmm?" asked Tomoyo.

"Look Tomoyo I am really sorry for not telling you.. I meant to tell you honestly since it was the highlight of my life but.." explained Sakura.

"But..But what!?"

"It wasn't what I thought it would be. That's all.."

"It's not all Sakura.... It's a very, very big thing. Who was the father? What happened to the baby? Is the baby with him what?!? And Why only tell me about it now?!? Give me something Sakura?!"

"I only wanted to tell you this now was because it's not as complicated as before-"

"How so Sakura? How so please explain.."

***********Flashbacks**********

"I will always love you no matter what.." said a masculine voice.

"You promise?" asked the young woman.

"Promise and I'll seal it with a promise kiss." said the man as he bent down and gave her a light kiss on the lips.

******End of Flashback******

"..." Sakura couldn't say a word. She didn't want to relive or recall her burning and haunting pass. Something that she promised herself would not happen in a long time.

"Sakura aren't you going to tell me? I could help.." asked Tomoyo. If the situation was explained would she still be able to help?

But to Tomoyo's answer Sakura didn't reply. All she just said was "It's okay something like this should be left alone.. And besides I don't feel like explaining it to anyone at the moment."

****Eriol and Syaoran****

Syaoran and Eriol were both sitting down at a nearby cafe' drinking some drinks. Both were silent and deep in their thoughts.. Well at least one of them were.

Syaoran gave a slight laugh and went back into his thoughts.

"Why did you laugh?" asked Eriol.

"I was just thinking how my life was before everything turned into a nightmare.."

"So how was your life before it turned into a nightmare?"

"I don't know.. It's been a nightmare since I was born. Maybe that's the reason why I laughed."

"C'mon there has to be a little of happiness in this so cold nightmare of yours."

"Yeah there was one.. But it didn't last long they were more like fragments of happiness.."

"So what was it then?"

The only thing that came out of Syaoran's mouth was "Sakura.."

******Flash back****

Months and months later.

"Thank you soo much for helping me.." said a man looking over his paper works. He was really glad he got them done a day early now all he could do is relax.

"It's no problem... I like helping people." said a feminine voice. As she stood up the chair and headed out the office door.

"Wait.. there has to be something I could do to thank you."

"There's no need a thank me its fine.. Now if you excuse me I need to be going."

"Please.. If you don't then I'll just keep on bugging you till you say yes. So what do you say to lunch tomorrow please?"

"Alright then.. I'll go with you." was the last thing she said she the door closed behind her.

******End of flashback****

*****Flashback******

"Where are you going?" asked a man who stood near the bathroom door.

"I'm just going to have lunch with a client that's all there's nothing you need to worry about." came the woman's voice.

"What do you both need to do after work hours?"

"I told you don't have to worry it's just lunch. I'll be home before you know it." said the woman as she came out the door and kissed the guy.

******End of flashback***

Chen looked at the picture of Sakura and him taken at one of their dates. He gave a slight laugh at how funny things have changed between them. At first it was his job, now he doesn't know what it is anymore. Are his feelings getting in the way of his mission or is it just his mind fooling him into thinking that, since he did spend a whole lot of time with Sakura. Which one was it? Chen gave a laugh at what he was thinking there was no such way it was leading to anything. Right?

******Flashback****

A young woman at the age of 17 stood leaning over a wooden table crying. "Why are you being like this? Don't you realize she loves you-"

"If she loves me then why is she doing this to me?" asked a tall young man at the age of 20, with black hair and shimmering silver eyes. He stood in the hallway were the two of them were having their fight.

"Maybe it was just a misunderstanding.. Just because of something like that you can't leave. I can't take care of myself at this age. Just stay here please, or at least till next year. Please?" cried the girl looking at him.

"I know I promised them that I would take care of you but, I can't anymore. I can't."

"Why not! Just because of a lousy decision she made your going to make her, you, and everyone else who cares for you miserable! IS that what you want?"

******End of flashback*****

******Syaoran*******

Syaoran looked at the empty house and sighed, things weren't going to be the same anymore right? His life would become depressed and a life without love. Sure when he gets married he would have a wife and a child who loves him. But it wouldn't be right, not having the woman of your dreams in your life. If his life was going to be like this from now on then he might as well get used to it. But something inside Syaoran told him that he doesn't need to have these kinds of feelings. But how is it possible?

Syaoran headed to the kitchen to get something to eat. When he got there he made himself a sandwich on the table. Still thinking about his future without Sakura. How would she end up living her life, and how could she have made this choice for him? He was living his own life no on can make his decisions, if he WANTED to be with Sakura then he could. If only Sakura would just agree with him and they would be forever happy. "ARGH. I HATE THIS!!!" frustrated he slammed his fist on the table and the table shook a little. He wasn't going to live a life without Sakura. He'll find a way to be with her.

***Sakura and Tomoyo***

"Sakura I have a question who's baby is it?"

"Tomoyo promise me again that you wont tell anyone not even Eriol or Syaoran. Promise?" asked Sakura.

"I promise but why can't I tell them?"

"Because..... I don't want them to make a big deal out of it."

"Sakura, it's a big deal whether or not you tell them. Besides your not telling me the whole truth on why you don't want me to tell them."

"Eriol cannot know because when ever he has a secret and he swears he won't tell anyone he starts hinting things to people. Then people tend eventually know what's going on."

"What about Syaoran?" inquired Tomoyo as she lifted an eye brow.

"If he knew about this then I don't know what would happen. He might just go all crazy and think it's his baby-"

"But is it his?" interrupted Tomoyo.

"What are you talking about Tomoyo? Is his who?" asked Sakura.

Tomoyo sighed while giving her head a little shake. "Sakura don't play dumb with me, is Syaoran the father of the baby you are carrying right now? Or is it Chen? Tell me Sakura."

There was a moment of silence in the room. Sakura was showing emotions of anxiety, but the only things that came out of her mouth were "The father of the baby isn't important at the moment, we-"

"What do you mean it's NOT IMPORTANT!!" Yelled Tomoyo, that Sakura and everyone else who was outside and near the room winced. Sakura gave Tomoyo a lifeless look and her voice became hard and cold as she said "Stop with the questions didn't the doctor say that I shouldn't have any stress or else serious injuries could happen to me and the baby. He did and right now your causing me stress. So drop the subject."

Tomoyo was taken back by Sakura's coldness just now. She had never imagined how something like a simple question made her turn foul. Truly was the question Tomoyo asked simple for someone who had a child before and a wonderful husband to be kept as a secret? And how she became alone again in this world, but you have to admit she did push the subject hard on Sakura. "Fine then. I'll drop the subject for now Sakura."

*****flashback******

"It's not a choice. It's something I have to do. To get away from all the problems." said a man with black hair and silver eyes.

"But what about me? What about the promise that you made?" asked the 17-year old girl.

"You will be fine. And you should know by now that not all promises are kept especially when I make the promise, to me they're just words... I...I'll send you letters everyday so that we keep in touch. I have to go. Bye." said the male as he kissed her right cheek and left the house they used to live in. The woman just stood there looking at the door with tears streaming down her face rapidly.

"Who ever did this will pay dearly." said the girl aloud.

******End of flashback*****

******The Next morning****

Sakura woke up when she heard noises in her room. When she opened her eyes she saw Tomoyo walking around getting Sakura's things ready to go. Sakura sat up from the bed and asked "Tomoyo what are you doing?"

Tomoyo stopped and said "You can finally get out of the hospital I'm just packing so we can get out of here as soon as we can."

"But you don't have to rush we have the whole day you know."

"Wait I thought you wanted to get out of here as soon as possible but now it almost seems like you want to stay here.. Is it because of Syaoran right am I right?" asked Tomoyo looking sadly at her dear friend. Sakura just sat there not saying anything.

"Sakura don't worry everything will turn out fine." Tomoyo smiled giving Sakura some reassurance. "Now come on let's go."

********Xie Xie****

Xie Xie was up at her balcony overlooking the view that was in front of her. Her plan was working, everything was going her way. She smiled knowing that in a few weeks or months their lives would be ruined forever. But a little something inside her told her not to do this but she ignored it. She had to do this, it was what everyone would want her to do....right?

******Sakura****

Sakura stood there at the front of the door not wanting to open the door to see Syaoran's face. After awhile of arguing in her head she finally opened the door and walked inside. Everything was quiet, as she wondered around the house. She checked the kitchen living and dining room, even the back yard but there was no sign of Syaoran. Sakura gave a little sigh of relief. Though the only place left to look was his room. Sakura's hand was on the handle, should she or should she not open the door? If he was in his room what would she say? What would he say? A lot of questions came into her mind as her hand kept turning and turning the knob. She slowly opened the door and poked her head into the room. He wasn't there either. Now the door was opened wide. She gave out a big sigh she was a tiny bit glad he wasn't here but a part of him was hoping he would be here. Where could he be? Sakura thought that he would be at home waiting for her once she got home but she was wrong. Sakura wandered a little inside Syaoran's room. She knew she shouldn't be doing this but she couldn't help it. Sakura smelled the room which of course had his intoxicating smell all around the room, which made her give out a sad smile. As she made her way to his dressing table she couldn't help but look and touch everything that was on the table. She saw a couple of pictures here and there, of his family and friends. She looked through each and every picture that was out and was able to put her hands on it. (i don't really feel like going into details sorry)

After giving her self a little tour of his room Sakura didn't really notice all of the things he had in his room the last time she came inside. But that was only during the night when she had that nightmare of Xie Xie taking Syaoran away from her. Sakura laughed that little dream she had, since it's actually coming true all because she didn't want to fight for Syaoran's love...... I didn't want to fight.. or is it cause I won't fight for Syaoran's love..... Which one am I leaning towards?

Looking at the room one last time around she closed the door. With nothing to do and Tomoyo being who knows where she was alone in the house. For some strange reason her feet led her to the attic though she didn't know how she got about to being there.

Opening the door as she entered the room it seemed to be pitch black. Sakura tried to find something that could lit the room. When she found the light switch she saw all these boxes full of her and Syaoran's things. Making her way around the place looking for something that would catch her eyes. She didn't know what was inside these boxes since her grandmother just gave it to her without saying what was in it. As Sakura opened one small box she saw papers, letters, and a dairy on top of it all. Being curious she took the box in her hands and carried it to her room.

When Sakura got to her room the first things she picked up was the diary. It wasn't that old or new. But it was beautiful. The background was white and in the middle of it had a Nadeshiko flower. Sakura opened the inside and saw the name Nadeshiko Kinamoto. It belonged to her mothers. She then looked at the entry. It says:

Dear Diary,

Today was the most wonderful day ever. Everything was perfect. The sun was shining and it was my birthday. Well as I was walking down through town I accidentally bumped into this handsome gentleman. I would love to say what he looks like but I would never stop writing about him. He offered me to lunch and I accepted. We went to this nice cafe' and talked about the things we like and dislike. I have noticed that we had a lot in common. After lunch we decided to walk around together. Most of the time he would be smiling. Not once did I see him not smile. If only the could have lasted forever. As it was getting dark he offered to take me home. Without hesitation I accepted. When we got to my house we stood in front of the door and talked again for a little while. He asked me how was my day and I told him that It was a perfect day since it was my birthday and met him. When he heard that it was my birthday he gave me a soft kiss and said happy birthday to me, and started to walk away. It was the happiest day of my life. I'm not sure if I'll see him again but I really hope I do... cause I think he the man I will spend the rest of my life with...Fujitaka...

That was the end of her first entry. Sakura's emerald eyes slowly turned watery. She actually knew how her parents met, not in detailed or vivid words but at least she knew how they met. It was just that little twist of fate that happens to everyone when they least expect it. She was happy for her mother to find the man of her dreams on a special day. Sakura kept reading more and more into the diary. As she got through several of the entries it seemed that her mother had nothing but happiness in her life. To know that her mother was happy it made Sakura forget all about her troubles. It made Sakura happy to know that she was finally getting to know what her father was like. Since she only heard stories about her mother and father from her grandmother. After reading one or two more entries Sakura drifted herself to sleep.

***********

A woman around her 40's stepped out of her car and looked at the hotel building that stood in front of her. She took a deep breath and looked at it once more. Is it a good idea to come back here after a long time?... Heheh I'm a fool for breaking my promise of not setting foot here in this town. Well I hope everything will be fine during my stay...

Thought the lady as she entered the hotel.

********

A young lady sat in her office and looked down at all the paper works she still had to look over.

I hate my stupid guilt and stupid conciseness if I didn't have my neck on the line I would have been out of here years ago. Everything seems so strange and so different because of that one day, that made some of us live in hell right now. It was all because of -.

There was a knock at the door and the lady said "Come in." The door opened widely and the thing that came inside the room was another young lady but with a wide smile plastered on her face.

"What are you so happy about asked the woman who was sitting on the chair while she looked up at the other woman who was standing up, not bothering to sit down at all.

"Aren't you happy?" asked the lady standing up.

"No and why should I? I'm still living in hell aren't I?"

"Tsk. Tsk. You should know that within this year that will all change.."

"How?! How will it change, someone who we both deeply care about is gone and to make it worse were doing these so called assignments for what! NOTHING! It's not like it's going to bring him back!" yelled the woman who was sitting down.

There was a little silence in the room.. Everything seemed so still inside the room as well as the people who were in it. Until the woman standing up spoke clenching her fist. " You think I don't know that?! You think I'm doing this to bring 'em back.? huh? Part of me think it was but no. This is payback. Were not living happy lives so why should everyone else? They brought this upon themselves, not us. Besides it was her fault that we ended up like this. She brought it upon herself."

The woman who was sitting down gave her head a little shake and said "To me it seems like your being selfish at the moment.."

"If I didn't know any better it seems like you're having second thoughts about all of this." on the other side of the room the other lady was laughing.

"Well guess what I am. What are you going to do about it?"

"Hahaha don't you forget who I am to you as well as everything I did for you. You do know what happens if I go to the police right now, you'll end up in jail for the rest of your life. I don't think you would want that now do you."

"Well right now it seems like a better choice than this. At least a few people will be happy. Isn't that what he taught us. Try to make as much people happy as you can for it will bring joy to you? I guess you don't remember that's why your doing this."

"No I haven't forgot that saying and it's something I live by-"

"How can you live by that if their not happy?"

"I'm making the people I care about happy."

"Well right now I'm not happy.."

"I don't have to take anymore of this for today. I will see you tomorrow at the meeting. I hope you be there." said the woman standing as she turned around and left the office.

The woman who was sitting down looked at the door for a few moments, then all of the sudden tears started to fall down. Oh, how she wished she could turn back time and change some of the things so that everyone will be happy. But then again doesn't that make her selfish? Does she want this bad side of her? Guilt came flooding all over her like a giant wave washing all the things she used to have in her. She didn't know what to do anymore? She didn't want to go to jail but then again as days go by things got worse and harder for her to live her life. What was she going to do?

**********

Sitting at his desk looking at all the work that was left for him in the fast few days he took off just were piled all over his desk. He just sat there looking at the papers in front of him not bothering to get started on one of them even though he had deadlines to meet. Syaoran would just pick up one of the folders or papers in his hand and put them back down on his desk. He couldn't focus on this, oh no he couldn't. The only thing Syaoran could focus on was Sakura.

*******

"I have got to help but how?" asked Eriol aloud as he looked over the sleeping Tomoyo. Tomoyo doesn't seem to be getting information and if she is she's not telling me anything and when I try to get something out of Syaoran he would always change the subject or not say anything at all. Which is highly like him. Thought Eriol. He really wants his best friends to be happy but how is it possible. How? Eriol paced back and forth behind the couch and the sleeping Tomoyo. Even though it wasn't his business there was no way he was going to stand back and see everything go wrong. He looked around the house trying to get an idea until his eyes laid upon the outside window. Gazing at the night's presence. He gave a slyest smile and nodded. He found a plan and when his darling wakes up all the fun will begin, hoping that all will go well.

*******

The door gave a loud bang as Syaoran closed the door. He didn't get any work done when he came into work and nothing is being done with his life but be ruined. He was surely having a bad time and mood. He looked at the answering machine and saw that he there were five messages which all came from Xie Xie ranting on and on about the wedding plans and when at what time he should be at certain places for their appointments. Syaoran didn't bother to listen to anymore after the second one. And headed towards his room.

As Syaoran came into the hallways he stopped as he saw Sakura's door open which was odd. As he came closer to the door it came pretty clear to him why it was open. As he saw her sleeping in her bed with a book in her hand his mood slowly softened . He went inside her room and took the book out not even bothering to take a look at it and laid the book near the table, he also placed a blanket over her. Syaoran looked at Sakura and sat by her looking at her face. He gently touched her cheek and saw her gave a small little smile. He missed that little smile she used to give him. Syaoran slowly leaned towards her his head growing closer and closer. When their heads were about an inch apart the door bell rang. Syaoran stood up straight and cursed at who ever was at the door. As Syaoran headed out the door he gently closed the door behind him.

Syaoran stomped his way to the door and opened it only to find that the person who was behind the door was none other than Xie Xie. What the hell! What could she want now. Especially at this time. Thought Syaoran as he forced himself to keep his voice down when he said "Xie Xie what are you doing here? I'm a little bit under the weather."

"Heh. What do you mean 'what am I doing here?' A left a message on your answering machine telling you that I'll be here at 8 sharp. Didn't you get the message?"

"Huh. Oh, well not really something must be wrong with the machine," lied Syaoran, "But anyways what was the reason you came here at 8 sharp?"

"I told you silly. Remember that all weddings have receptions right well I know this great place and when I told them about it they said that if we eat here tonight and fill out everything we will need for the reception we get half of on our dinner tonight. Doesn't that sound great?"

"Yeah. It, it sounds great but the wedding won't be till later months, it won't even be this year!"

"That's what you think. But we need to get married before this baby comes out and before it makes me look fat. So-we'll have the wedding in two or three months. Maybe earlier."

"But why plan now?"

"The reception place needs at least a month ahead before the date so they can do all their things that needs to be done. It's required for the guess. So shall we get going we don't want to be late.. C'mon grab your coat."

All during that night nothing but talking went on about the wedding even though they weren't truly engaged or even had a set date the both of them could agree on.

Syaoran looked at Xie Xie as she kept on ranting over and over. Sure Xie Xie was beautiful, smart and he used to have feelings for her, but that feeling he had for her all changed completely.

*******

Tomoyo awoke by the gentle shakes of Eriol who seemed to be elated. She was confused on why he was so happy when their friends are having a little bit of trouble in their life right now. "Eriol dear, why are you happy right now. At night. Are you feeling alright?"

"Tomoyo I'm fine and happy when I tell you what's on my mind you'll be happy as well." replied Eriol.

"Well then what's on your mind?" Tomoyo had this feel of enthusiasm in her since she felt that Eriol had good news to tell her or something. Five minutes later Eriol told Tomoyo everything, and Tomoyo was smiling.

"Are you sure this is going to work?" asked Tomoyo as her mighty smile slowly turned into a frown.

"It has to work. They just need that extra push and where going to give it to them. It will also be a great Christmas present since it's not that far away." replied Eriol.

"Okay but when and where is this going to happen?"

"Where going to take a weekend at the mountains. So you take care of Sakura and I'll take care of Syaoran. Just make sure they don't bring anyone else but themselves. They also can't know that the other one is coming."

"Alright."

*******

The next morning, Sakura awoke by a ray of sunlight hitting her face. As she arose from her bed she gave a puzzled look; she didn't remember having a blanket on her while she was reading. Sakura's eyes shot up when she realized it wasn't in her hands. She searched all the places on her bed as she stood up.

"I don't remember putting it here.." said Sakura as she picked it up from her mini drawer that was next to her bed and putted it back . Coming out of her room as if it was on cue there was a loud knock on the door. Sakura came up to the door and opened it, only to find her face to face with none other than Xie Xie.

"Xie Xie what a surprise to see you. What are you doing here at this time? Wait let me call Syaoran if his even here..." said Sakura in a low and grouchy voice.

"There's no need for that Sakura. I came here to talk to you." replied Xie Xie.

"Me? Why me?"

"Heheheh. remember your my maid of honor and well, right now you need to help me. So come on and get dress." said Xie Xie as she took hold of Sakura's right arm and headed to Sakura's room.

"I want you to get dress cause I have a lot of things for you to get done with today." said Xie Xie with a smile.

"Can't this wait till later?" asked Sakura as she came out of her room.

"Nope it can't. It has to be now if not then everything will be ruined." whined Xie Xie. "So for the first half of the day your coming with me. Then the other half you will have to do everything that's on the list. Alright?"

"Wait, there is also a best man to do this why can't you give him some of the work." asked Sakura looking over the list.

"I would do that if Syaoran and I could agree on the best man. We've wasted too much time here come on let's go." replied Xie Xie dragging Sakura out of the house and into the car.

*******Flashback****

"W-Why, did he leave me? What did I do wrong?" cried the woman as she sat on her couch. She screamed in pain as her stomach started to hurt. She began to get up with tears still streaming in her eyes but couldn't get up instead she laid down. Weak and sore from the pain, holding herself tightly she cried hoping someone would come. She gave one more scream, all she could say was "Someone.. help me.. and.. the baby.." before the darkness covered her eyes.

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How was it? as you can see i tried a different style of writing but anyways i hope you enjoyed it and forgive me for not updating earlier. Just to let you know more so called "Flashbacks" will continue on in the future chapters. That will be out of order like this last one. Just to let ya know. :)