"I'll say goodbye for the two of us: when the truth breaks the silence"

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Authors Notes: here it goes

This is a sequel to "I'll say goodbye for the two of us"

Since I hadn't intended to write one you'll have to forgive me if this one sucks

The words in italics are fragments of the song "Ain´t no sunshine" by Bill Withers. It is of course used unauthorized (surprise). No infragment intended, though. I don't think this is really a songfic, but the song just jumped into my mind while writing and I decided to include it.

Some parts are written in Syaoran´s POV and some in… let's call it 3º person. I did this because it was easier to write this way

  means thoughts

  ` ´  makes references to past statements or sayings

___  means a change of scene or POV

Feedback of any kind is welcome.

And last but not least…

DEDICATORY: this is dedicated to the people who reviewed my story and made such nice comments. Eternal fire, Vegeta´sHotBabe13, Fuusaki, favoured kid, obiwankatie, Digi Star, SoulSister, Aramoon, Lil Blossom, fireblaze, Realla Nights, fallen_angel :   this is for you. I just thought it was the best way to pay back your support, I can't thank you enough.

Enjoy!!!

Special dedicatory to Sakura491: I'm sorry you didn't like it!! I know it's sad but it will have a nice ending, I promise!!

"I'll say goodbye for the two of us: when the truth breaks the silence"

      by cherry blossom

"Ain't no sunshine when she's gone

It's not warm when she's away

Ain't no sunshine when she's gone

She's gone much too long

Anytime she goes away…

Darkness.

That's all there is these days. For me at least, because the world seems to go on at ease.

Just to show contradiction, it seems, days have been the most beautiful Tomoeda has ever seen. According to others, but not for me. Without my cherry blossom there's nothing. No sunshine, no bloom, not a single thing seems other than sad.

And if days are bad, nights are worse.

Just to be in my room without her brings a pain in my chest I wouldn't have thought possible. Heart-ache. And it's not just that. What is, to love someone so much it physically hurts not to have near? I don't believe there's a name, but it certainly is what's happening to me…

My Sakura, where are you?

…Ain't no sunshine when she's gone

Wonder if she's gone to stay

Ain´t no sunshine when she's gone

And this house just ain´t no home

Anytime she goes away"

Days have passed and still not a sign from her. Though I suppose I shouldn't expect one, she said so. I remember her final words clearly. Sneaky way to say goodbye, she made sure I'd listen but I wouldn't be able to hold her back. One would think she'd at least give me the reason, but nooo just the `you'll understand someday´ crap. Shit!! I'm doing it again. I try to transform my sadness in to anger so I won't miss her so much. But I can't. I love her too much. 

Come back, my love.

I can't take it anymore

Li Syaoran sat in the bench beside the Sakura tree. The bench which had been witness of many of their encounters. He closed his eyes and pictured his cherry blossom. Her auburn hair, shinning to the light and silky to his touch. Her evergreen eyes,  those eyes   which had stole his heart. Her face, her body, everything. He ached to touch her, to kiss her, to make sure she would always be there. But he couldn't, for reasons he didn't even  know. How could this happen? he thought. Was I so blind I couldn't see it coming?She knows how much I love her!! What could have possibly forced her to leave me??

Then something came to his mind. The dream? No, he had made sure she was okay after that. It had taken weeks for her to sleep again, but it had ended fine. Unless, unless it hadn't. Something else had happened and she hadn't told him. Something really big, if it had made her leave. But why hadn't she told him? Why?? Didn't she trust him? God, with all that had happened in their he thought she would always trust him.

Then it struck him. Her final words `you wouldn't understand´ What does she mean I wouldn't understand?! I'd do anything to keep her by my side!! he thought angrily Anything…

Syaoran gasped realizing what he had just thought. And the horrible pool of feelings came down on him again, this time with one he knew so well: guilt.

She was right. As always I'm just a selfish bastard who would do anything to have her. Even at her own risk. I haven't changed at all since I first arrived here. I still out myself before others

Exhausted, he put his head in his hands and cried once again.

A dark figure watched the usually strong boy lose composure helplessly. Just the way I planned it he thought and smiled with self-satisfaction. It had all been way easier than he had thought. He had heard the reputation of the cardcaptors and they had sounded invincible. But they weren't. If there was something he had learned in all his years of training was that nothing was unshakable. You just had to find the weak spot… Many thought that the cardcaptors love was their strength. But as true  as that was he knew he could manipulate them with it. The girl would have never let her love die, that was clear. She would have chosen to die over that. And how close she was to her wish…

On the other hand, the boy had the worst self-blaming case he had ever seen. It would destroy him to know his love was suffering because of him. And that's exactly what I have in my mind…

Notes: Okay, I was going to write a one-shot sequel but I want to make it right and it does take time. Since I don't want you to get impatient I'll be posting it by parts. Thanks and sorry for the wait!!