Disclaimer:
This is so stupid, no one reads them anyway!!*sighs and shakes head
dramatically* Ok: Card Captor Sakura and anything related do not belong to me I
am just borrowing them for some time. Happy??
Author's
Notes: As much as I enjoy writing this for you it takes a lot of time so I
apologize if I make you wait too long or if it sucks (most likely!)
Feedback of
any kind is welcome, please do review!!
The words
in italics are a poem. It was based on the poem "The Field where I Died" by
Robert Browing. I am using it unauthorized (OHHH SURPRISE) but I really like
and I think it applies.
Dedicatory:
This is, of course, for everybody who has reviewed my story. You guys are the
best, I wouldn't be writing if it wasn't for you. THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! Keep doing
it or better write to me (mili2004@hotmail.com)
"I'll say
goodbye for the two of us: when the truth breaks the silence"
by cherry blossom
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Part Two
Sakura´s POV
Darkness.
That is all
there is these days.
A wise man
once said that through all darkness there is light. Well, he certainly hasn't
been where I am now. Not in any mind can be a vague idea of what it is like. As
I try to describe the first word that comes into my mind is…cold. Freezing
cold.
I struggle
helplessly to the invisible binding around me. The worst feeling ever comes
like a splash of icy water. Vulnerability. Knowing there is nothing I can do,
that you are suffering for my faults and I can't be there to help you, to heal
you.
It didn't
take long enough to realize that my choice was wrong. I am so stupid!! Anger,
resentment, and the familiar feeling of guilt rush through me like lightning.
Towards who has done this to you, to us. And towards myself, for being the
brainless shit I am.
I have
nothing left to do. I can only hope for you to realize what has happened and to
hate me, instead of the self-blame you are surely going through.
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It was a
cool night, a light breeze rumbled through the trees. The moon shone brightly
and stars sparkled like diamonds.
A lonely
figure stood in the terrace of an apartment. He had a picture in his hand and
was looking at it absorbedly, as though nothing else mattered. Where are
you? he thought for the millionth time.
Li Syaoran
checked his watch. 4:30 AM. He sighed, thinking of how little he slept this
days. As tired as he was, his consciousness refused to give in, making him feel
like a living corpse full-time. But not easing his pain…
Nights were
long. Time seemed determined to draw out his suffering, as if wanting to kill
him. I wish I would he thought I wish it would end Suddenly he
felt angry with himself. Great, Syaoran. Here you are drowning in
self-compassion while your girl could be suffering somewhere else. You're doing
nothing to help her, nothing at all. And you call yourself a warrior!! Yeah,
some warrior you are, never around while needed…
He
shuddered at the selfish person he was. His eyes filled with tears and he let
them flow through his cheek. He couldn't believe how much he had cried these
days. But he didn't really care. Pride had been lost a long time ago…
All of a
sudden the phone rung, startling him.
"Hello?" he
said
"Li? This
is Tomoyo". Her voice sounded scratchy, as if she were about to cry
"What's
wrong?" he asked worriedly
"Sorry to
call this late, I would have waited till morning but…"
"But?"
"Uh, it's a
bit long and, um, I'd feel better talking face to face. Could you come over
please?" She sounded desperate.
"I'll be
right there"
Daidouji
Tomoyo shed a tear that was rolling down her cheeks. It seemed to her it was
all she did later, crying. She had
never felt so sad. And if I'm sad it's nothing compared to what Li must be
feeling she thought worriedly.
"What did
he say" asked Kero in a low voice.
"He is
coming now" she replied
Syaoran
wondered what had happened now. Tomoyo had sounded really upset and, even
though they had never been close friends, he still remembered how she had
helped him with Sakura back when they were all 10 and he didn't know how to
tell Sakura his feelings. A half-smile appeared on his face as he remembered
the happy times. I wish I could go back to those timeshe thought sadly.
He noticed
he was in front of Tomoyo´s house. Even before he knocked Tomoyo opened the
door.
"Come in"
she said softly and closed the door behind him. She led him to the living room
and asked him to sit down.
"What is
this all about?" he asked.
"I've been
wanting to see you" said Kero
"Kero!!!
Have you-
"I know and
the reason I called you here is that" Kero replied
"Kero-chan
has an idea to find her" Tomoyo said, her voice barely above a whisper.
"You do?
What?? What can I do?? Tell me!!!" he demanded.
"It's not a
simple spell and it requires a bit of powerful magic behind for it to work"
"I told him
I thought you were the best person for this" said Tomoyo unsuccessfully trying
to give him a smile. Her eyes filled with tears and she looked away.
Syaoran
went to her side and took her hand.
"We'll find
her. I promise" he said and let his voice catch on.
"Oh, Li"
said Tomoyo as she cried on his shoulder.
Syaoran
patted her back, soothing her as an old poem jumped to his mind…
`At
times I almost dream.
I too, have spend a time the sages' way
and
tread once more familiar paths.
Perchance
I perished in arrogant self-reliance
an age ago.
And in
that act, a prayer for one more chance
went up
so earnest, so… instinct with bether
light
let in by death that life was blotted out not
so
completely… but scattered wrecks of it enough
to
remain dim memories. As now…
when
seems…once more…the goal is in sight
again.´
Maybe it'll be all righthe
thought allowing himself to hope after all that time.
Maybe…
The dark figure that had been
watching the whole scene was shaking with anger The stupid Guardian of the
cards could ruin it allhe thought furiously I'll have to take care of
him as well
Having one last look he disappeared
into the night…
Notes: OK, I have absolutely no idea
on how to continue so please mail me your ideas and comments to mili2004@hotmail.com
Sayonara!!!!!!!!!!!
