"I'll say goodbye for the two of us: when the truth breaks the silence"

Disclaimer: This is so stupid, no one reads them anyway!!*sighs and shakes head dramatically* Ok: Card Captor Sakura and anything related do not belong to me I am just borrowing them for some time. Happy??

Author's Notes: As much as I enjoy writing this for you it takes a lot of time so I apologize if I make you wait too long or if it sucks (most likely!)

Feedback of any kind is welcome, please do review!!

The words in italics are a poem. It was based on the poem "The Field where I Died" by Robert Browing. I am using it unauthorized (OHHH SURPRISE) but I really like and I think it applies.

Dedicatory: This is, of course, for everybody who has reviewed my story. You guys are the best, I wouldn't be writing if it wasn't for you. THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! Keep doing it or better write to me (mili2004@hotmail.com)

"I'll say goodbye for the two of us: when the truth breaks the silence"

by cherry blossom

mili2004@hotmail.com

Part Two

Sakura´s POV

Darkness.

That is all there is these days.

A wise man once said that through all darkness there is light. Well, he certainly hasn't been where I am now. Not in any mind can be a vague idea of what it is like. As I try to describe the first word that comes into my mind is…cold. Freezing cold.

I struggle helplessly to the invisible binding around me. The worst feeling ever comes like a splash of icy water. Vulnerability. Knowing there is nothing I can do, that you are suffering for my faults and I can't be there to help you, to heal you.

It didn't take long enough to realize that my choice was wrong. I am so stupid!! Anger, resentment, and the familiar feeling of guilt rush through me like lightning. Towards who has done this to you, to us. And towards myself, for being the brainless shit I am.

I have nothing left to do. I can only hope for you to realize what has happened and to hate me, instead of the self-blame you are surely going through.

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It was a cool night, a light breeze rumbled through the trees. The moon shone brightly and stars sparkled like diamonds.

A lonely figure stood in the terrace of an apartment. He had a picture in his hand and was looking at it absorbedly, as though nothing else mattered. Where are you? he thought for the millionth time.

Li Syaoran checked his watch. 4:30 AM. He sighed, thinking of how little he slept this days. As tired as he was, his consciousness refused to give in, making him feel like a living corpse full-time. But not easing his pain…

Nights were long. Time seemed determined to draw out his suffering, as if wanting to kill him. I wish I would he thought I wish it would end Suddenly he felt angry with himself. Great, Syaoran. Here you are drowning in self-compassion while your girl could be suffering somewhere else. You're doing nothing to help her, nothing at all. And you call yourself a warrior!! Yeah, some warrior you are, never around while needed…

He shuddered at the selfish person he was. His eyes filled with tears and he let them flow through his cheek. He couldn't believe how much he had cried these days. But he didn't really care. Pride had been lost a long time ago…

All of a sudden the phone rung, startling him.

"Hello?" he said

"Li? This is Tomoyo". Her voice sounded scratchy, as if she were about to cry

"What's wrong?" he asked worriedly

"Sorry to call this late, I would have waited till morning but…"

"But?"

"Uh, it's a bit long and, um, I'd feel better talking face to face. Could you come over please?" She sounded desperate.

"I'll be right there"

Daidouji Tomoyo shed a tear that was rolling down her cheeks. It seemed to her it was all she did later, crying. She had never felt so sad. And if I'm sad it's nothing compared to what Li must be feeling she thought worriedly.

"What did he say" asked Kero in a low voice.

"He is coming now" she replied

Syaoran wondered what had happened now. Tomoyo had sounded really upset and, even though they had never been close friends, he still remembered how she had helped him with Sakura back when they were all 10 and he didn't know how to tell Sakura his feelings. A half-smile appeared on his face as he remembered the happy times. I wish I could go back to those timeshe thought sadly.

He noticed he was in front of Tomoyo´s house. Even before he knocked Tomoyo opened the door.

"Come in" she said softly and closed the door behind him. She led him to the living room and asked him to sit down.

"What is this all about?" he asked.

"I've been wanting to see you" said Kero

"Kero!!! Have you-

"I know and the reason I called you here is that" Kero replied

"Kero-chan has an idea to find her" Tomoyo said, her voice barely above a whisper.

"You do? What?? What can I do?? Tell me!!!" he demanded.

"It's not a simple spell and it requires a bit of powerful magic behind for it to work"

"I told him I thought you were the best person for this" said Tomoyo unsuccessfully trying to give him a smile. Her eyes filled with tears and she looked away.

Syaoran went to her side and took her hand.

"We'll find her. I promise" he said and let his voice catch on.

"Oh, Li" said Tomoyo as she cried on his shoulder.

Syaoran patted her back, soothing her as an old poem jumped to his mind…

`At times I almost dream.

I too, have spend a time the sages' way

and tread once more familiar paths.

Perchance I perished in arrogant self-reliance

an age ago.

And in that act, a prayer for one more chance

went up so earnest, so… instinct with bether

light let in by death that life was blotted out not

so completely… but scattered wrecks of it enough

to remain dim memories. As now…

when seems…once more…the goal is in sight

again.´

Maybe it'll be all righthe thought allowing himself to hope after all that time.

Maybe…

The dark figure that had been watching the whole scene was shaking with anger The stupid Guardian of the cards could ruin it allhe thought furiously I'll have to take care of him as well

Having one last look he disappeared into the night…

Notes: OK, I have absolutely no idea on how to continue so please mail me your ideas and comments to mili2004@hotmail.com

Sayonara!!!!!!!!!!!