Those three little words....

By Kikuki

Why were those three little words so hard for me to say? I am the second strongest warrior in the universe, yet those words... I feared them. I feared that if I said them, let my guard down, and found that I actually meant them, my life as a strong warrior would end. Love can be a warrior's greatest weakness

Though you, you feared nothing, especially not words. They could hurt you, but you never feared them. Every night you would tell me that you loved me and I could say nothing in return

Then, in the car, during the crash, I knew how much I wanted to say ' I love you '. I realized that I did mean it, and that I didn't care if it made me weak, I wanted you to know that I would become weak for you, I would go to the ends of the universe, for you

Seeing you covered in blood, lying on the road, I felt my heart break. I tried to get you to move, to smile, to speak, anything to let me know you were ok. I wanted you to open your eyes, laugh and tell me to be careful next time. But, looking at you there, I knew there would be no next time

I always forgot that you were human. So fragile. You always seemed so Saiyan it was easy to delude myself. But in the end, you were just human. I told you I would always be there to protect you, and in the end, it was me that killed you. My blind arrogance that caused your death

It has been two years since your death, and I still can't pull myself out of this depression. I find it unbelievable that you could have such an effect on me. I have dealt with pain and death my whole life, and that this would affect me so much confuses and amazes me both at the same time. As I said, love can be a warrior's greatest weakness, it can also be his greatest strength The pain in my heart is unbearable. It feels as though my soul has been split in two. It has. Hell will be nothing compared to this. It will be a release

Every night I speak my love to the sky, and pray that you can hear me. I berate myself, knowing that I let you die, let you die without knowing my true feelings. When I sleep, I dream of everything about you that I loved, and my heart breaks anew

I can't stand this pain any longer. I can't live without you. Maybe death will bring peace...