A/N Okay, here's the first actually chapter. I have a few reviews to reply to. Thanks to chibie hasaki, you hav been so deadicated to everything I write and that means the world to me. It's so nice to have someone who truly enjoys the work that you do. I would also like to thank Aya_chan your review was so nice. Thanks for the incouragement to continue writing this. I would also like to say thanks to Heavens-angel. Thanks for the constructive critisism. I will try to improve my simelies. It was hard though because this was only the prologue. If you have any examples that would be helpful. Well, I think that's all I have to say for now. I hope you all enjoy this chapter. Plz r/r and any suggestions are wellcome
Chapter 1
It had been about 2 years since that horrible night. Hitomi was now 17 years old. She still lived in the same house with her mother and still had Allen and Yukari by her side. They had noticed a major change in Hitomi though. Something that they were afraid of. She had become cold and depressed. She hardly ever slept and when she did, she would wake screaming sometimes. She would pace the floors wishing that she could change what had happened but she knew it was impossible. Yukari could remember one night when Hitomi came to her house at 3 in the morning. She remembers Hitomi telling her that she was running away and never coming back. Yukari refused to let her do that. She remembered how Hitomi wouldn't talk to her for a while after that incident. Now they were in their senior year of school and Yukari had a plan. She would turn Hitomi back to normal. This year, she would convince her that that night was not her fault.
It was a typical day in October. It was last class in the after noon and it was a Thursday. Hitomi sat in class tapping her fingers on the desk. She couldn't wait to get out of class. She needed to go home, needed to unwind, needed to write. IT was the anniversary of her father's death and, she knew there was only one way for her to deal with the pain.
Ever since the horrible accident, Hitomi had quit Drama. She never stayed after school and usually didn't do things with people. She had gotten highly interested in writing poetry and music. She was also in to finding new music artists and reviewing them. This was a therapeutically way to relieve the pain that was inside her. That day after school, she would go home and she would sing. She would sing to him in heaven.
Finally the bell rang and Hitomi rushed away from the school. She didn't want to see yukari and Allen. She really just wanted to be alone. She reached her house and unlocked the door. She rushed upstairs in to her room and sat on her bed. She began to sing a song she had written. She had written it about her father and how she had longed to take back that nights events. The song made her feel good. She had decided to record it. IF she were to ever become famous, she wanted it to be the first song she ever released.
After she had completed making her song demo, she went downstairs and cooked supper for she and her mother. She knew since her mother had switched shifts that she would be home soon and she wanted to have her supper ready for her as a surprise. She knew that this day would be hard for her mother and she wanted to make things just a little bit easier.
Hitomi heard her mother's car pull in the driveway and the door open quietly.
"Hitomi, are you home?"
"Yeah mom, I'm here. I made you some supper."
"Thanks."
Hitomi's mother sat at the table and ate quietly. Hitomi tried to talk to her.
"So, how was your day?"
"Well Hitomi, how do you think it was?"
"Not good I guess ha?"
"Well yeah! Of course it wasn't good. I guess yours was then ha?"
"No! I didn't say that. I miss him to you know!"
"Well, if you weren't so selfish and you didn't have to go to that stupid God Damn practice, he'd probably still be here! It's your fault Hitomi. He had to speed to his meeting because of you!"
"Mom please, don't do this. You always said…"
Hitomi tried to speak but her mother cut hedr off. As the woman spoke, Hitomi tried to avoid the daggers that were shooting in her directions from her mother's eyes. It was as if her mother had been possessed by someone. She had seemed so calm but now, she was so angry.
"Well, I don't care. If you didn't go Hitomi, he'd still be here. IT hurts you know."
"Fine! I tried to be nice to you today. I tried to be a good daughter. Obviously, nothing I do works does it? I hurt to. I blame myself already. I don't need you to tell me all the damn time that it's my fault. I hate this, I hate you!"
Hitomi's mother stood up and raised her hand to hit the young trembling girl. She was not afraid of her mother. She was trembling because of all of the anger that was taking over her.
"Mom, don't you dare."
"You shut up!"
The woman's hand reached Hitomi's cheek and slapped her hard. The noise echoed through the house. Hitomi couldn't believe what her mother's next words were going to be.
"Hitomi Kanzaki, get the hell out of my house and don't you come back!"
Hitomi didn't bother speaking. She ran upstairs and began to pack some things in a knapsack and a book bag. She took all of her school books. She also took some clothes and the photo album with the pictures of her and her father. She took her demo tapes that she had made as well as her book with her poetry. Now, she would be all alone. She would surely need that book for comfort. She walked down the stairs and left slamming the door behind her. She thought about walking next door to Yukari's but, she didn't bother. She was almost positive that Yukari would have been out with her new boyfriend Amano. He was a really popular guy and ever since they had been dating, Yukari had become popular to. She never left Hitomi out but, Hitomi was shy now and didn't want to be around a huge popular crowd. She also knew that if she went to Yukari's house and she was home that, her mother would ask Hitomi what was wrong and that when her mother found out, she may be angry with Hitomi's mom. She didn't want to come between the two families. It was not worth it. She was not worth it. She was angry and needed to walk it off. She decided to just walk around the block a few times. She now had no where to go and didn't know what to do. She felt like a small child again. She felt neglected and unwanted. She tried to block the painful words from replaying over and over in her head but it was no use.
After 4 or 5 times of walking around the block, Hitomi decided to go and find somewhere to sleep. She sat on a park bench and eventually fell asleep there. She woke up before the sun rose to the chill of the night air making her shiver. The air felt like you feel when you are shaken awake from a nice warm happy dream. A dream that Hitomi wished that she never had to wake up from again. She pulled her legs up closer to her and sat for a minute. After sitting cold for a while she decided to begin her long commute to school all alone. She new that the walk would probably warm her up. Exercise could never hurt her anyway. She reached the building and sat waiting for someone to open it. A janitor spotted the girl and let her inside.
"Ms. Kanzaki, you're here offly early, did something happen?"
"No, I'm fine."
Hitomi just hoped that he didn't see the marks on her face. She walked in too the school and asked him to open the library. On the walk through the hall she made up a story telling him that she had a big project to work on and she needed a computer to use here because her computer was broken. She explained to him that she had stayed with Yukari the night before because her mother was on an important business trip concerning new stock for the store and that was why she had had so much luggage. The Janitor of the school was a friend of Hitomi's uncle so, she sort of new him. He showed her a small closet to keep her things in until the end of the day. He opened the library for her and left her to her work.
Hitomi decided to go on the net on her favorite music site to see if there were any new musicians hitting the music scene. She hadn't been on that site in a long time. She typed in the address www.newmusicartists.com. A picture of a very handsome man appeared on the screen. She stared at him for a minute. She realized something about him. He was Asian just like she was. She remembered her mother telling her stories about how her father had met her when he had visited America and then he moved here to be with her. Her mother had told her that her father fell for her instantly and it was love at first site for both of them. He had gone back to Japan for a short time but the two realized that they couldn't be in a long distance relationship spanning across the world. He called one day and said that he was coming home to live with Hitomi's mother. Shortly after, they had married and Hitomi had been consieved on the first night of their honey moon. Hitomi smiled at the picture. The sight of that guy made her happy for some reason. She decided to read a bit about him
She learned that his name was Van Fannel. The named seemed femilear for some reason but she let it go. She was sure that she had heard of lots of Vans before. HE was 18 years old and was a jpop performer. He was born in Japan but his family moved to the U.S. when he was 6. He had been singing all of his life. HE was also preparing to star in a new teen movie called For Ever Yours. He had been very popular in Japan for 3 years and now, he was doing an American Cd as well. She seen a link to send email. Something was telling her to do it. Something was telling her to tell him her feelings, to tell him her life
To be continued
