AN: sorry it took so long

"Report your findings soldier" Colonel orders coldly.

"We can't find anything sir it's like he never existed." The soldier replied in a strong voice, but one that still gave away how terrified he was.

"Keep looking."

'Ring Ring'

It was too early in the morning for the phone who the hell was calling now.

"Zack?"

"Maxie.... what is it, what's wrong?" He was awake now he hadn't heard from her since Logan died, but that wasn't what worried him. It was her voice it was completely desperate.

"I need you."

"What is your location?"

"Penthouse."

"I'll be there in three hours."

"Where is she what's wrong what happened." Zack demanded of Cindy as soon as he barged through the door.

"She's in the bedroom, she doesn't come out." Cindy was startled by Zack's appearance at the penthouse, why was he here and why hadn't he been here before? But he left going into the bedroom before she got a chance to ask a single question.

"Hey baby sister." He softly said approaching her noticing her tear stained face and overall hallow appearance. "Thanks for coming" She would have attempted a smile but couldn't remember how.

"Sorry it wasn't sooner, that I didn't come to the funeral."

"It's ok I understand why you weren't there Zack" And she did in her head she knew it wasn't safe, but in her heart she knew she needed her big brother then more then ever and he hadn't been there for her.

"I should have been"

"It wouldn't have changed anything." They both knew that she was trying to convince herself as well as her brother that it was ok for him to have not been at the funeral. So they did what they were good at ignored that fact and moved on.

"So why am I here now?"

"I don't know what to do. He proposed Zack; he didn't even know, and he still wanted to marry me. I wish I could go back and say yes." She was rambling a little but at least she was talking.

"What did you say?" He fallowed her lead not pushing her for answers knowing she was fragile.

"I told him I wasn't ready yet... I was though. I was just scared he would get hurt. I wish I could go back now' I don't know what to do. What am I supposed to do?"

"About what Maxie?"

"About this" Max lowered her hand and touched her stomach "I don't want to raise my child alone. It wasn't supposed to be this way Zack. It wasn't supposed to happen like this."

"Your pregnant?" Zack couldn't believe his own ears.

"Bling said about two months."

"Are you keeping it?" He couldn't help it. He cared about Max and didn't want her to have to raise a child like this.

"I have to Zack I can't kill his child. But it's not just that I want it. I do want to raise this child watch it grow, I just wanted to do it with Logan." She seemed so lost so broken, and he didn't even know that this was a lot better then she had been just one day ago.

"Well I can tell you this you wont be alone I'm here for you and I know your friends are." He sat down next to her wiped the tears from her face and took her hand. "I mean you have been cooped up here for two weeks and Cindy has sat here the entire time ignoring the rest of her life to look after you. No matter how hard you try Maxie you will never be alone."

"Thank you Zack. I know that it should be easy now to be happy. I mean I will have this baby his baby it will be like a part of him alive. And I know I have all of you here with me to support me and take care of me. Honestly though I don't think I have ever felt more alone. All I keep thinking though is I wish Logan was here. I don't want to have to do this without him, it isn't fair."

"I know maxie and I wish I could bring him back for you I really do. But you have to decide for your child now what you are going to do. If you want to keep it then you cant go on like this you will have to take care of it and yourself you have to start eating and sleeping and getting out of bed every once in a while. You have to start living if you want your child."

"I know, and I am going to. I will take good care of my baby and of myself, but Zack when I need some help will you...."

"Then I will be there to take care of you Maxie."

AN: I am looking for a title since it is still I don't know yet if you have any suggestions let me know. And I might have the next chapter up tonight and another up tomorrow night I have a few written but reviewing them so they will make any sense is a bitch since I am a math major who knows nothing of spelling or grammar and has the writing capabilities of a small child anyway... review