Chapter 6
Spike walked into the hospital room and found Buffy sitting up in bed. She looked up at him when he came to sit by her side. Spike looked at her face and she seemed so lost. He touched her hand and whispered to her. "It's okay to cry, love." She then couldn't hold it in anymore and let the tears fall down her face. She put her face in her hands and cried for what seemed like forever. Spike pulled her to him so she could rest her head on his chest. "It's alright, just let it all out. I'm right here." She continued to cry when she finally found her voice.
"They're gone. They're dead and it's all my fault." She said in a hoarse voice.
"I'm sure there was nothing you could have done, Buffy. You can't keep blaming yourself for what happened." Buffy then seemed to stop crying and looked up at him.
"How can you be so nice to me after what I did? What's wrong with me, Spike? I killed people. I could have killed you and I wanted to kill myself. It's just all too much; I don't know what to do anymore. Oh god, I'm so sorry." She said as she started to cry again and Spike just held her. "Please, just kill me. I can't live like this." Spike pulled away and looked at her.
"That's not going to happen. It'll get better, Buffy. You're not being controlled anymore; you can make your own decisions and run your life right. I know you can get better; you're the strongest person I know. You just have to start believing in yourself again." Spike hugged her again and kissed the top of her head. "I'll help you out in anyway that I can. You're not alone anymore." A few hours went by and Angel and Willow walked into the hospital room and saw Buffy lying down with Spike by her side. Buffy sat up when she saw them come in.
"Hey, how are you feeling?" Willow asked her and she managed to give a small smile.
"Okay, it doesn't hurt so much anymore." Willow then went to Buffy's side and took her hand. Buffy looked up at her friend. "Thank you for helping me, Will. I just thank God that I didn't lose you too." Willow then had tears forming in her eyes as she hugged Buffy.
"Yeah, I could say the same thing to you. I'm so glad you're okay." Angel went to Buffy's other side when Willow pulled away and without even thinking about it, he hugged her also. Buffy hugged him back and he whispered in her ear.
"You gave us all quite a scare there." Angel pulled away and looked at her.
"Sorry about that." She told him and he smiled at her.
"Well, I'll be heading back to England later tonight. Are you coming back with me?" Willow asked as she looked at Buffy and she shook her head.
"I can't go back there, Will." Willow nodded in understanding.
"It's okay, will you be staying here?" Buffy shrugged and looked at Angel.
"I talked to Wesley and we agreed that it would be alright if she wanted to stay here. We would be able to help her with her redemption. It seems I'm always doing that for someone." Angel said with a smile to show that he didn't mind it and Buffy smiled back.
"Thank you," she told him. Angel and Willow then left to let Buffy and Spike talk. "So, you don't mind if I stick around for a while?" She asked him and he shook his head.
"I wouldn't mind at all. I missed you, Buffy." Buffy hugged him again.
"I missed you, too." She then pulled away and touched her hair. "Another thing, I was wondering if I could borrow some bleach from you. I can't leave my hair like this." Spike smiled at that, it was good to have his Slayer back.
"I don't know, I kinda like the hair. It's different, but I do miss the blonde. I just have one thing to say though; don't change the wardrobe anytime soon." He told her and she smiled at him.
"Figures you would like the leather look." Spike smiled and hugged her again.
"You have no idea. I love you, Buffy." He whispered in her ear.
"I love you, William." She whispered and then moved over and made room for him on the bed. He lay down next to her with his arm around her and her head on his chest. They both then drifted off to a dreamless sleep.
The End
Well, that's all I came up with. I wasn't going to do much with it. Thanks to the people who actually read this one. I wasn't sure about it at first but ya'll actually seemed to like it. So, I have no complaints. I know everyone is probably sick of me, but I do have another fiction ready. I don't believe I'll be putting it in until next week though so look for that one. It's not as dark, but it might be confusing. Not as much as this one I'm sure. Well, until next time. Happy Easter!
Spike walked into the hospital room and found Buffy sitting up in bed. She looked up at him when he came to sit by her side. Spike looked at her face and she seemed so lost. He touched her hand and whispered to her. "It's okay to cry, love." She then couldn't hold it in anymore and let the tears fall down her face. She put her face in her hands and cried for what seemed like forever. Spike pulled her to him so she could rest her head on his chest. "It's alright, just let it all out. I'm right here." She continued to cry when she finally found her voice.
"They're gone. They're dead and it's all my fault." She said in a hoarse voice.
"I'm sure there was nothing you could have done, Buffy. You can't keep blaming yourself for what happened." Buffy then seemed to stop crying and looked up at him.
"How can you be so nice to me after what I did? What's wrong with me, Spike? I killed people. I could have killed you and I wanted to kill myself. It's just all too much; I don't know what to do anymore. Oh god, I'm so sorry." She said as she started to cry again and Spike just held her. "Please, just kill me. I can't live like this." Spike pulled away and looked at her.
"That's not going to happen. It'll get better, Buffy. You're not being controlled anymore; you can make your own decisions and run your life right. I know you can get better; you're the strongest person I know. You just have to start believing in yourself again." Spike hugged her again and kissed the top of her head. "I'll help you out in anyway that I can. You're not alone anymore." A few hours went by and Angel and Willow walked into the hospital room and saw Buffy lying down with Spike by her side. Buffy sat up when she saw them come in.
"Hey, how are you feeling?" Willow asked her and she managed to give a small smile.
"Okay, it doesn't hurt so much anymore." Willow then went to Buffy's side and took her hand. Buffy looked up at her friend. "Thank you for helping me, Will. I just thank God that I didn't lose you too." Willow then had tears forming in her eyes as she hugged Buffy.
"Yeah, I could say the same thing to you. I'm so glad you're okay." Angel went to Buffy's other side when Willow pulled away and without even thinking about it, he hugged her also. Buffy hugged him back and he whispered in her ear.
"You gave us all quite a scare there." Angel pulled away and looked at her.
"Sorry about that." She told him and he smiled at her.
"Well, I'll be heading back to England later tonight. Are you coming back with me?" Willow asked as she looked at Buffy and she shook her head.
"I can't go back there, Will." Willow nodded in understanding.
"It's okay, will you be staying here?" Buffy shrugged and looked at Angel.
"I talked to Wesley and we agreed that it would be alright if she wanted to stay here. We would be able to help her with her redemption. It seems I'm always doing that for someone." Angel said with a smile to show that he didn't mind it and Buffy smiled back.
"Thank you," she told him. Angel and Willow then left to let Buffy and Spike talk. "So, you don't mind if I stick around for a while?" She asked him and he shook his head.
"I wouldn't mind at all. I missed you, Buffy." Buffy hugged him again.
"I missed you, too." She then pulled away and touched her hair. "Another thing, I was wondering if I could borrow some bleach from you. I can't leave my hair like this." Spike smiled at that, it was good to have his Slayer back.
"I don't know, I kinda like the hair. It's different, but I do miss the blonde. I just have one thing to say though; don't change the wardrobe anytime soon." He told her and she smiled at him.
"Figures you would like the leather look." Spike smiled and hugged her again.
"You have no idea. I love you, Buffy." He whispered in her ear.
"I love you, William." She whispered and then moved over and made room for him on the bed. He lay down next to her with his arm around her and her head on his chest. They both then drifted off to a dreamless sleep.
The End
Well, that's all I came up with. I wasn't going to do much with it. Thanks to the people who actually read this one. I wasn't sure about it at first but ya'll actually seemed to like it. So, I have no complaints. I know everyone is probably sick of me, but I do have another fiction ready. I don't believe I'll be putting it in until next week though so look for that one. It's not as dark, but it might be confusing. Not as much as this one I'm sure. Well, until next time. Happy Easter!
