Chapter 18
The truth hurts
Soraya had no idea as to what had happened and was at first surrounded by total darkness. Then there was a light and it got brighter until she could see again.
Then with a jump she realised she was seeing through some else's eyes. But who it was she didn't know and just sat there quietly trying to determine who it might be. She looked around to see she was in a brightly lit underground cave of some sort with bright grey walls. She was sitting at a table reading a very strange book which seemed to be alive.
Then someone knocked at an old wooden door beside her.
"Enter!" A Death Eater had entered the room and with a start Soraya realised she was inside Voldermort's mind. He was looking right at the Death Eater with a curious expression on his face. The Death Eater was wearing a mask and his hood covered his head so when he spoke it was muffled. So again Soraya couldn't make out who Voldermort was speaking to.
"What do you want?"
"My lord I may have two new Death Eaters at your disposal. I am related to them...and I feel they will be very useful in the future. They are quite a powerful pair when together. I also feel their child may be even more so and will become very useful to you." Voldermort held up a hand and he stopped the Death Eater talking at once. He whipped out his wand and performed Legilimency on the unsuspecting Death Eater who instantly fell to the floor. A series of memories flashed in Voldermort's mind and Soraya saw it all.
The man fighting with a boy that looked similar to Snape who was no younger then a year or two. Then of one of the boy a lot older leaving his home. Each memory was mostly of anger and hate this man had felt for this boy. But the strongest one was the one of the man catching the boy kissing a girl that he seemed to like. Soraya realised something again as she watched each terrible memory after the next. She was watching the man and her father fighting, cursing and just throwing knives at each other from young boys to adults. Then after the last memory of the kissing it stopped. Voldermort didn't need to read him so much, as he felt what the man's reason for suggesting the boy in the memories and his wife to being followers.
"W-What was that my lord?"
"Legilimency my boy, now from what I saw you weren't lying about their power. Yes and the child that has been born already will be very powerful indeed. But tell me...why do you think they would be a great asset if you hate them so much?"
"..."
"I felt your hate so don't lie to me when I ask you these simple questions. You thought I would give them a little scare? Or you would show them you know great power and be respected for that? Or kill them?" The Death Eater nodded to each question except for the last one.
"Not at all my lord. I just thought that they should be shown which side had the greater power."
"You lie wonderfully. But unfortunately I can always tell who is a liar and who isn't. You are lucky that I find you amusing other wise I would have used the cruciatus curse by now."
The man breathed a sigh of relief and waited for his master's answer to the proposal. Voldermort clasped his hands together and looked like he gave great though to this. But Soraya could hear him hardly even giving any strain when she heard his mind talking. 'Ok then my loyal subject I will see them. I feel in the mood for a good kill right now and Nagini has been so restless these days. Either that or I get two new followers.'
"Ok, I shall come and help myself to the last of your family that you hate so much." The hooded man nodded, turned on his heel and left the cave.
Voldermort and that Death Eater arrived outside a house later that night in the country with cold wind blowing and trees shaking in its wake. Through a window they could see a man and woman staring lovingly at a small baby. Voldermort shuddered at the site of this love scene and felt very sick. The Death Eater on the other hand just stared as though in a sort of trance. Only when Voldermort spoke again did the man snap out of it and look back at his master.
"This place reeks of the power of self-righteousness and well being. They won't want to join and just won't do at all. But I didn't come all the way up here for nothing. Nagini my pet it's time for your feeding, tell me how do you feel about baby food?" The hooded man gave a step back in horror as the snake hissed gratefully and looked longingly at the babbling baby through the window.
"Master...don't you think that's a tad over board?"
"No...Ok Nagini poison the baby first so that I may see it and then eat it."
The snake hissed in a way that seemed to symbolise a sort of yes. The hooded man didn't say anything and stepped back even further when his master took out his wand. Before anyone could breathe the door had been blasted apart. Voldermort came in and killed Soraya's father with a quick killing curse. The hooded man stayed behind for a few seconds before reluctantly coming in. He looked at the now dead man's body that lay in front of him and watched as Voldermort started going up the stairs. He was heading towards the baby's room where the mother was trying to protect Soraya. But Voldermort smiled when he heard the sickening snap of the mother's neck and the baby stopped crying a second later. He came in to see the woman's body on the floor and Nagini poised to strike again, only this time at the baby.
"No Nagini remember our agreement. Let me see the child before she dies and then you can eat her." The snake hissed and slithered back out of the room. The hooded man appeared a second later and stood beside Voldermort. He saw the women's limp body beside him and averted his eyes from the dreadful seen. Soraya tried to do the same but she was trapped in Voldermort's mind and he just loved to look at his work. She could see a silent baby falling asleep as the venom took its effect. She was covered in blood as were her bed clothes and the floor.
"My lord at least spare the child...as I said she is very powerful and could prove very useful in the future."
"What? Let her live so she can avenge her parents?" Voldermort said this so shrilly that it almost sounded like a scream of outrage.
"No it's better this way. I'm not a complete monster as she will die painlessly in her sleep for Nagini's venom has quite a soporific effect." They stayed there for a minute or two observing Soraya. The hooded man became agitated and his master point blank refused when he asked to leave. He said things like. 'If you didn't want to see things like this then you shouldn't have become a Death Eater.' Or 'This will make you stronger to grievances like this in the world. Believe me when I say I have seen worse than this.'
Then a bang like a firework sounded downstairs and Voldermort hurried to the door.
"Troublemakers! Stay here and make sure the girl dies!" Voldermort strode out of the room with his wand out looking for the perpetrator downstairs. He checked all the rooms from top to bottom and found no one.
Five minutes later and there was a smash upstairs. So he hurried up to the bedroom again only to find a smashed statue with the crib and baby gone. He looked at his feet to the Death Eater on the floor moaning as if he was just coming round from a stunning spell.
"I can only guess what has happened." Voldermort said tiredly as he looked at his follower getting up off the floor.
"You know how I hate failure Serverus!" The man got up with his hood and mask falling down to reveal his face. There he stood a younger but yes...it was still Serverus Snape. Only with emotion strong in his eyes instead of dark tunnels in his head. She just caught sight of Voldermort about to perform the cruciatus curse on Snape before coming out of this nightmare. She spent hours in nothing but pitch blackness waiting, trying desperately to wake up. Then without warning her eyes suddenly snapped open.
She was covered in cold sweat and it ran down her face to the bed clothes. She saw that it was still nightfall and looked around the room as she sat up. Then rage coursed through her like white hot fire as she saw someone sitting at the end of her bed. He was asleep in a chair with his arms folded and his head down hardly snoring at all. Snape to Soraya looked like something worse than dung at the bottom of one's shoe. She hadn't been changed yet and had a bandage over her scar again to stop the bleeding.
So still in her school clothes she crept down the bed to Snape intent on killing him. She didn't care at that particular moment he had a wand and she did not. All Soraya wanted was to rip Snape apart with her bear hands and throttle the life out of him. All logic and patients forgotten in that instant of the purest hate she had ever felt in her life. She got to the end of her bed and knew this was the time to strike. So like a cat she launched her self at him with incredible force. She didn't know where the strength came from for such a thing and didn't care.
Snape was sent flying backwards and didn't wake until he hit the ground with Soraya on top of him. She started beating him with her fists again and again ignoring the look of complete shock in his face. Then she started yelling and swearing at him at the top of her lungs after she landed each blow.
"YOU STUPID GIT! YOU KILLED THEM! YOU KILLED MY PARENTS! WHAT DID YOU THINK VOLDERMORT WAS GOING TO DO?"
Soraya continued to beat Snape for five minutes straight. She pounded any part of his body with her fists and feet with all her might. Never in her life had she ever felt such rage and only had one objective. To beat the living daylights out of Snape and to make him regret what he did. The thing that surprised her the most was that Snape wasn't putting up much of a fight at all. He was putting up his hands to protect his face and head; but she still managed to get a hit or two in his face though. But he didn't even try to stop her until her five minutes were up. Then he calmly sat up with Soraya still beating him continuously. It didn't occur to Soraya just how strong Snape was until he restrained her with very little effort indeed. He crossed her arms and held Soraya tightly to his chest so she could hardly move. Snape's lip was bleeding and he looked like he was going to have a black eye for a while. Soraya still tried to move so she could continue hitting Snape and resorted to banging his chest with her head.
But eventually stopped as pain ran through her scar each time she hit him. All her anger she had suppressed over the year had burst forth by trying to kill Snape with her bare hands. Snape jut sighed when she relented her attack and they just sat there for a while. Soraya was still burning with rage and breathing hard whilst Snape still restrained her without any trouble at all.
The yells and shouts had brought Madam Pomfrey running out of her office with an absurd expression on her face.
"Don't come any closer Poppy this is something we have to sort out." Soraya's rage came right back up again and she struggled to get free. She hated everything about Snape from his black shoes to his greasy hair. Snape put a bit more effort in to holding her down this time as Soraya's patients flew out the window and threatened to not come back.
"US? WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? Right now I don't even want to see you let alone be related to you! GET THE HELL OFF OF ME!!!"
"No! You are going to listen to what I have to say and then you will calm down."
Soraya still struggled to break free and scoffed at Snape's order. She still felt uncontrollable hatred towards her uncle and thought of terrible things happening to him. But her efforts were in vain as she was weakened greatly and Snape was at full strength. Soraya breathed more slowly but continued to struggle through her exhaustion. So Snape spoke again to make her calm down and Poppy kept on chanting that Soraya would make herself ill if she did not get back to sleep soon.
"If...if you don't like what I have to say then...I promise I will never call you Soraya Snape again. Ok? Do we have a deal?" Soraya gave up struggling through pure exhaustion. The demand on her mind, body and spirit was too much to comprehend.
So eventually she gave up and sat quietly but with hate still pounding in her heart.
"No offence sir. But after what I just saw what can you possibly say-"
"Deal?" Soraya sighed and looked at the floor still angry and hateful. But slowly nodded and let Snape continue talking without interruption.
"Your father...my brother was always different to the rest of the family. In my traditional family I was brought up to see different as dangerous. So I feared what he might become in the future and hated him for most of my life. I admit I was a stupid, naive little boy and steered in the wrong direction as I grew older. We kept on fighting until he moved out after Hogwarts. I never saw him again until that day. I was bitter and jealous that he was Rachel's' lover and I was not. He had the talent in sports and more advanced good forms of magic. I on the other hand stuck to my old ways and continued to learn the dark arts and potions. Then you know what happened after that...with the dark lord." Soraya made a sound as if to acknowledge this.
An awkward pause then entered the room for a few minutes before Snape continued.
"I am in a pureblood family and so I acted like a Slytherin pure blood. It's my fault they're dead I can't argue with that. But when I saw you through the window that day I knew you would be the key to a new way of magic forever. But unfortunately my fear for the dark lord did not allow me to at least try and stop him, because I thought that this small child cannot possibly be the guardian for Hogwarts. But you have proved me wrong again tonight by using extreme ancient magic of a very high calibre; I was very foolish to not see what the dark lord was going to do. I do not ask for your forgiveness at all but of your understanding...the way Dumbledore has given me a second chance."
Then he released his grip and Soraya jumped to her feet in front of him. She quickly whirled round to face him with her ears ringing at his every word. She felt sick as she looked at him on the floor with him looking back at her in an imploring kind of way. A deep sadness was etched in to his eyes that she had to look away as she didn't believe what she was seeing at all.
When she spoke it was more like a growl than a human voice that left her mouth.
"Stop beating yourself up! I don't forgive you but you did save my life so I would say we are as near to even as we are going to be."
Soraya's legs then suddenly gave way and she was on all fours and trembled through loss of blood and felt weak. Then she felt someone pick her up and put her back on her bed. She opened her eyes to see it was Snape who did so. But now there was no emotion to speak of in his face and he was back to his old self. She stared at him with a confused look on her face before passing out.
--- Euggghhh!!!!!!!! More lovey Dovey stuff with Snape.
The truth hurts
Soraya had no idea as to what had happened and was at first surrounded by total darkness. Then there was a light and it got brighter until she could see again.
Then with a jump she realised she was seeing through some else's eyes. But who it was she didn't know and just sat there quietly trying to determine who it might be. She looked around to see she was in a brightly lit underground cave of some sort with bright grey walls. She was sitting at a table reading a very strange book which seemed to be alive.
Then someone knocked at an old wooden door beside her.
"Enter!" A Death Eater had entered the room and with a start Soraya realised she was inside Voldermort's mind. He was looking right at the Death Eater with a curious expression on his face. The Death Eater was wearing a mask and his hood covered his head so when he spoke it was muffled. So again Soraya couldn't make out who Voldermort was speaking to.
"What do you want?"
"My lord I may have two new Death Eaters at your disposal. I am related to them...and I feel they will be very useful in the future. They are quite a powerful pair when together. I also feel their child may be even more so and will become very useful to you." Voldermort held up a hand and he stopped the Death Eater talking at once. He whipped out his wand and performed Legilimency on the unsuspecting Death Eater who instantly fell to the floor. A series of memories flashed in Voldermort's mind and Soraya saw it all.
The man fighting with a boy that looked similar to Snape who was no younger then a year or two. Then of one of the boy a lot older leaving his home. Each memory was mostly of anger and hate this man had felt for this boy. But the strongest one was the one of the man catching the boy kissing a girl that he seemed to like. Soraya realised something again as she watched each terrible memory after the next. She was watching the man and her father fighting, cursing and just throwing knives at each other from young boys to adults. Then after the last memory of the kissing it stopped. Voldermort didn't need to read him so much, as he felt what the man's reason for suggesting the boy in the memories and his wife to being followers.
"W-What was that my lord?"
"Legilimency my boy, now from what I saw you weren't lying about their power. Yes and the child that has been born already will be very powerful indeed. But tell me...why do you think they would be a great asset if you hate them so much?"
"..."
"I felt your hate so don't lie to me when I ask you these simple questions. You thought I would give them a little scare? Or you would show them you know great power and be respected for that? Or kill them?" The Death Eater nodded to each question except for the last one.
"Not at all my lord. I just thought that they should be shown which side had the greater power."
"You lie wonderfully. But unfortunately I can always tell who is a liar and who isn't. You are lucky that I find you amusing other wise I would have used the cruciatus curse by now."
The man breathed a sigh of relief and waited for his master's answer to the proposal. Voldermort clasped his hands together and looked like he gave great though to this. But Soraya could hear him hardly even giving any strain when she heard his mind talking. 'Ok then my loyal subject I will see them. I feel in the mood for a good kill right now and Nagini has been so restless these days. Either that or I get two new followers.'
"Ok, I shall come and help myself to the last of your family that you hate so much." The hooded man nodded, turned on his heel and left the cave.
Voldermort and that Death Eater arrived outside a house later that night in the country with cold wind blowing and trees shaking in its wake. Through a window they could see a man and woman staring lovingly at a small baby. Voldermort shuddered at the site of this love scene and felt very sick. The Death Eater on the other hand just stared as though in a sort of trance. Only when Voldermort spoke again did the man snap out of it and look back at his master.
"This place reeks of the power of self-righteousness and well being. They won't want to join and just won't do at all. But I didn't come all the way up here for nothing. Nagini my pet it's time for your feeding, tell me how do you feel about baby food?" The hooded man gave a step back in horror as the snake hissed gratefully and looked longingly at the babbling baby through the window.
"Master...don't you think that's a tad over board?"
"No...Ok Nagini poison the baby first so that I may see it and then eat it."
The snake hissed in a way that seemed to symbolise a sort of yes. The hooded man didn't say anything and stepped back even further when his master took out his wand. Before anyone could breathe the door had been blasted apart. Voldermort came in and killed Soraya's father with a quick killing curse. The hooded man stayed behind for a few seconds before reluctantly coming in. He looked at the now dead man's body that lay in front of him and watched as Voldermort started going up the stairs. He was heading towards the baby's room where the mother was trying to protect Soraya. But Voldermort smiled when he heard the sickening snap of the mother's neck and the baby stopped crying a second later. He came in to see the woman's body on the floor and Nagini poised to strike again, only this time at the baby.
"No Nagini remember our agreement. Let me see the child before she dies and then you can eat her." The snake hissed and slithered back out of the room. The hooded man appeared a second later and stood beside Voldermort. He saw the women's limp body beside him and averted his eyes from the dreadful seen. Soraya tried to do the same but she was trapped in Voldermort's mind and he just loved to look at his work. She could see a silent baby falling asleep as the venom took its effect. She was covered in blood as were her bed clothes and the floor.
"My lord at least spare the child...as I said she is very powerful and could prove very useful in the future."
"What? Let her live so she can avenge her parents?" Voldermort said this so shrilly that it almost sounded like a scream of outrage.
"No it's better this way. I'm not a complete monster as she will die painlessly in her sleep for Nagini's venom has quite a soporific effect." They stayed there for a minute or two observing Soraya. The hooded man became agitated and his master point blank refused when he asked to leave. He said things like. 'If you didn't want to see things like this then you shouldn't have become a Death Eater.' Or 'This will make you stronger to grievances like this in the world. Believe me when I say I have seen worse than this.'
Then a bang like a firework sounded downstairs and Voldermort hurried to the door.
"Troublemakers! Stay here and make sure the girl dies!" Voldermort strode out of the room with his wand out looking for the perpetrator downstairs. He checked all the rooms from top to bottom and found no one.
Five minutes later and there was a smash upstairs. So he hurried up to the bedroom again only to find a smashed statue with the crib and baby gone. He looked at his feet to the Death Eater on the floor moaning as if he was just coming round from a stunning spell.
"I can only guess what has happened." Voldermort said tiredly as he looked at his follower getting up off the floor.
"You know how I hate failure Serverus!" The man got up with his hood and mask falling down to reveal his face. There he stood a younger but yes...it was still Serverus Snape. Only with emotion strong in his eyes instead of dark tunnels in his head. She just caught sight of Voldermort about to perform the cruciatus curse on Snape before coming out of this nightmare. She spent hours in nothing but pitch blackness waiting, trying desperately to wake up. Then without warning her eyes suddenly snapped open.
She was covered in cold sweat and it ran down her face to the bed clothes. She saw that it was still nightfall and looked around the room as she sat up. Then rage coursed through her like white hot fire as she saw someone sitting at the end of her bed. He was asleep in a chair with his arms folded and his head down hardly snoring at all. Snape to Soraya looked like something worse than dung at the bottom of one's shoe. She hadn't been changed yet and had a bandage over her scar again to stop the bleeding.
So still in her school clothes she crept down the bed to Snape intent on killing him. She didn't care at that particular moment he had a wand and she did not. All Soraya wanted was to rip Snape apart with her bear hands and throttle the life out of him. All logic and patients forgotten in that instant of the purest hate she had ever felt in her life. She got to the end of her bed and knew this was the time to strike. So like a cat she launched her self at him with incredible force. She didn't know where the strength came from for such a thing and didn't care.
Snape was sent flying backwards and didn't wake until he hit the ground with Soraya on top of him. She started beating him with her fists again and again ignoring the look of complete shock in his face. Then she started yelling and swearing at him at the top of her lungs after she landed each blow.
"YOU STUPID GIT! YOU KILLED THEM! YOU KILLED MY PARENTS! WHAT DID YOU THINK VOLDERMORT WAS GOING TO DO?"
Soraya continued to beat Snape for five minutes straight. She pounded any part of his body with her fists and feet with all her might. Never in her life had she ever felt such rage and only had one objective. To beat the living daylights out of Snape and to make him regret what he did. The thing that surprised her the most was that Snape wasn't putting up much of a fight at all. He was putting up his hands to protect his face and head; but she still managed to get a hit or two in his face though. But he didn't even try to stop her until her five minutes were up. Then he calmly sat up with Soraya still beating him continuously. It didn't occur to Soraya just how strong Snape was until he restrained her with very little effort indeed. He crossed her arms and held Soraya tightly to his chest so she could hardly move. Snape's lip was bleeding and he looked like he was going to have a black eye for a while. Soraya still tried to move so she could continue hitting Snape and resorted to banging his chest with her head.
But eventually stopped as pain ran through her scar each time she hit him. All her anger she had suppressed over the year had burst forth by trying to kill Snape with her bare hands. Snape jut sighed when she relented her attack and they just sat there for a while. Soraya was still burning with rage and breathing hard whilst Snape still restrained her without any trouble at all.
The yells and shouts had brought Madam Pomfrey running out of her office with an absurd expression on her face.
"Don't come any closer Poppy this is something we have to sort out." Soraya's rage came right back up again and she struggled to get free. She hated everything about Snape from his black shoes to his greasy hair. Snape put a bit more effort in to holding her down this time as Soraya's patients flew out the window and threatened to not come back.
"US? WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? Right now I don't even want to see you let alone be related to you! GET THE HELL OFF OF ME!!!"
"No! You are going to listen to what I have to say and then you will calm down."
Soraya still struggled to break free and scoffed at Snape's order. She still felt uncontrollable hatred towards her uncle and thought of terrible things happening to him. But her efforts were in vain as she was weakened greatly and Snape was at full strength. Soraya breathed more slowly but continued to struggle through her exhaustion. So Snape spoke again to make her calm down and Poppy kept on chanting that Soraya would make herself ill if she did not get back to sleep soon.
"If...if you don't like what I have to say then...I promise I will never call you Soraya Snape again. Ok? Do we have a deal?" Soraya gave up struggling through pure exhaustion. The demand on her mind, body and spirit was too much to comprehend.
So eventually she gave up and sat quietly but with hate still pounding in her heart.
"No offence sir. But after what I just saw what can you possibly say-"
"Deal?" Soraya sighed and looked at the floor still angry and hateful. But slowly nodded and let Snape continue talking without interruption.
"Your father...my brother was always different to the rest of the family. In my traditional family I was brought up to see different as dangerous. So I feared what he might become in the future and hated him for most of my life. I admit I was a stupid, naive little boy and steered in the wrong direction as I grew older. We kept on fighting until he moved out after Hogwarts. I never saw him again until that day. I was bitter and jealous that he was Rachel's' lover and I was not. He had the talent in sports and more advanced good forms of magic. I on the other hand stuck to my old ways and continued to learn the dark arts and potions. Then you know what happened after that...with the dark lord." Soraya made a sound as if to acknowledge this.
An awkward pause then entered the room for a few minutes before Snape continued.
"I am in a pureblood family and so I acted like a Slytherin pure blood. It's my fault they're dead I can't argue with that. But when I saw you through the window that day I knew you would be the key to a new way of magic forever. But unfortunately my fear for the dark lord did not allow me to at least try and stop him, because I thought that this small child cannot possibly be the guardian for Hogwarts. But you have proved me wrong again tonight by using extreme ancient magic of a very high calibre; I was very foolish to not see what the dark lord was going to do. I do not ask for your forgiveness at all but of your understanding...the way Dumbledore has given me a second chance."
Then he released his grip and Soraya jumped to her feet in front of him. She quickly whirled round to face him with her ears ringing at his every word. She felt sick as she looked at him on the floor with him looking back at her in an imploring kind of way. A deep sadness was etched in to his eyes that she had to look away as she didn't believe what she was seeing at all.
When she spoke it was more like a growl than a human voice that left her mouth.
"Stop beating yourself up! I don't forgive you but you did save my life so I would say we are as near to even as we are going to be."
Soraya's legs then suddenly gave way and she was on all fours and trembled through loss of blood and felt weak. Then she felt someone pick her up and put her back on her bed. She opened her eyes to see it was Snape who did so. But now there was no emotion to speak of in his face and he was back to his old self. She stared at him with a confused look on her face before passing out.
--- Euggghhh!!!!!!!! More lovey Dovey stuff with Snape.
