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MEMORIES
CHAPTER 28: Family Feud #2
Written by ByeByeBirdie
Savannah didn't say anything, mostly because she didn't know what to say and Sirius didn't say anything mostly because he was afraid to say anything.
"I don't want the money," Sirius whispered, putting his head in her lap as she stroked his hair.
"I know."
"No one knew about my mother, Vannie. Not even James. Not even Lily. No one. And now I'm just afraid that…in some way I'll get hurt again."
"By what?"
"He-who-Must-Not-Be-Named."
"You won't."
"How do you know?"
"Because I won't let you. Because Lily and James won't let you. Because Peter and Remus and Kaitlynne and Allie won't let you. Because you have friends who'd do anything for you."
"That's what I'm afraid of."
"What are you afraid of?"
"That one of you will end up getting hurt…and it'd be all my fault."
"It won't be your fault, Si-Si, and we both know it."
"My father claims to have returned to the good side, but I don't trust him any more than I trust Snape. And Shannon claims to be a good person, but she has my father's heart. And my father's heart is what killed me mother."
"But don't' you think it means something that he came here?"
"No."
"And what about your sister? You can't blame this on her just because she lived with the guy!"
"Vannie, it's complicated."
"Yeah, well it's been sixteen years," she pointed out.
"Vannie, I've known you for seventeen years and I've never doubted anything you told me. So please don't doubt me on this."
"I'm not doubting you."
"Yes you are."
"No I'm not, Si-Si. I'm just saying that maybe it meant something when your father and your sister came to seek you out."
"After sixteen years!?" Sirius cried.
"Yes, even after sixteen years!"
"If your father killed your mother, would you forgive him?" Sirius said crossly.
"Your father admits that it was a stupid thing, Si-Si. Now why can't you admit it?"
"Because in my mind he's still the man that abandoned my mother and I and then five years later, came back to get his revenge!!!" Sirius cried.
"It sounds like you blame yourself."
"That's crazy!"
"Is it?"
"Yes."
"Then stop worrying about it!! It's called forgiving and forgetting!"
"No, I will never forget what he did. I'll be seventy years-old rocking in my rocking chair watching the sun set and in the back of my mind, I will still have a vague memory of my pathetic father using Voldemort to kill my mother. I don't have a mother, Savannah. And you want to know why? Because my father as good as killed her."
"I don't have a mother, either, Sirius, but-"
"That's totally different than my situation."
"How? Voldemort killed her also!"
"Yeah, but was your father the death-eater by his side?"
"No, but-"
"Then you'll never know what it's like."
"I don't need to know. I-"
"I know you don't need to know. But obviously, you think you do need to know."
"Stop being so goddamn stubborn, Sirius Black!"
"Only after you stop being so goddamn protective!"
"Oh, so I'm not allowed to be protective over my husband!?"
"I don't need your protection, Savannah!! I need you to stay out of personal business!"
"When it's you're family, it's my personal business, also."
"No…no, it's not."
"Sirius, your father-"
"Was a selfless, cynical villain who I will never forgive," Sirius said venomously.
"But your sister-"
"Is the younger version of him."
"You're being too harsh on yourself, Sirius. You deserve to live a good life. You don't deserve to be in this situation!"
"I was living a good life without them!!" Sirius shouted.
"You don't mean that and you know it! You've always missed the perfect family. It's not fair to you. You don't deserve to live like this…in this kind of situation."
"Yeah, and if I forgive my father, which I won't, I'll still be in the same situation! So what's the difference!?!?"
"The difference has to do with you! You'd feel like a much better person once you forgave him."
"No…you'd feel like a much better person."
"This isn't about me."
"Then why are you acting like it is?"
"Because I love you too much to see you get hurt again!"
"You have a funny way of showing it."
"Are you accusing me of not loving you??"
"No, I'm accusing you of prying into something that you know nothing about!"
"Sirius, your family is-
"JUST SHUT UP!!" Sirius cried way too harshly. "You don't understand, Savannah!!! You don't understand anything!! And you never will!"
Those words hurt Savannah more than she thought they would. Savannah was always the one that Sirius went to in a time of need. She knew what he was always going through and for being told that she didn't understand him just stung her too much.
Savannah pursed her lips together, and turned her back on Sirius with a furious look on her face. She grabbed her jacket, and shoved past Sirius.
"Where are you going?" he asked.
She turned to him, while slipping on her jacket. "Like you'd care," she muttered angrily, heading towards the front door.
"Savannah, wait," he said grabbing her arm.
"Why? So I could be insulted by you again?" Savannah asked harshly, before slamming the door in his face and speed-walking to the end of the walkway.
Sirius knew he should have said he was sorry, but the words just weren't coming to him. He opened the front door and yelled after her, "Fine, run away! See if I care! You can be just like my father and my sister! What happens when a problems occurs?! YOU RUN!!"
"Fuck you, Sirius Black! And I hope you go to hell!" Savannah screamed, not wanting to believe that she could be someone like Mr. Black or Shannon. Her eyes filled with hot tears as she apparated away from her house.
"That didn't go so well," he muttered before slumping on to the couch as tears of anger, frustration, sorrow, and pain started falling down his cheeks.
About two minutes later, he heard a wail from the upstairs, and for some odd reason a smile began to appear on his face. He walked up the stairs and into the first room on the left, which was covered in a nice pink color for the walls and two windows that looked out on to the street. Toys were piled up off to the side and a few stuffed animals were thrown about on the floor.
Sirius walked over to the wooden crib and gently picked up Elizabeth, who immediately died down on the screeching.
"Shhh, baby girl. It's okay. Daddy's here."
"Daddy?" Elizabeth repeated, yawning and stretching out before grabbing his shirt and cuddling into it.
Sirius sat down in the rocking chair and watched Elizabeth close her eyes and begin to fall asleep and he couldn't help but notice that she looked almost exactly like Savannah.
"Aww, Elizabeth. Please don't grow up and end up fighting with your husband too much. Especially if your husband is an idiot who insults you excessively. But let's just hope your father doesn't turn out to be the killer of your mother." Sirius couldn't help but chuckle. "I wish I could tell you your life is going to be perfect…unfortunately, I got to figure out how perfect mine is before I start worrying about anyone else." Sirius kissed her on the forehead. "Good-night, sweetheart," he whispered, placing her back in the crib quietly and gently.
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"Savannah!? What are you doing here?" James cried. He saw her tear strained cheeks. "And what's wrong? What happened?"
Savannah sighed. "Sirius and I got into an argument."
"Oh, no. What happened?"
"I started prying too much into his personal business and…and he told I'd never understand him," Savannah said, choking up.
"Aw, come here, Savannah," James said, pulling her in for a hug.
"Thanks, James."
"No problem."
"I…I just didn't know where else to go. And I didn't want to turn back home."
"No, it's fine. You can be our first guest in the guest bedroom!"
"Oh, how thrilling," Savannah said sarcastically with a grin through her tears.
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Savannah sat staring at the ceiling two nights later still angry with Sirius. She hasn't gone back to her house and Sirius hasn't come looking for her. She was afraid that the outcome of the fight would be disastrous, but she wasn't about to tell anyone that. She knew it was stupid to pry in Sirius' business, but she hated to see him hurt in any way. And she knew Sirius wasn't about to forgive anyone, but she just wanted to see him happy.
There was a knock on the door below her, but she didn't think anything of it. She heard muffled voices and heard footsteps on the stairs. A minute later, a head popped into her room.
"Mommy!!" Elizabeth cried, jumping on the bed and jumping on top of Savannah.
"Oof!" Savannah said with a laugh. "Hey, honey. How'd you get here?"
"Daddy," she replied.
Savannah smiled at her daughter. Savannah had missed her in the past couple of days, she realized. Elizabeth had always cheered her up.
"He sorry," Elizabeth eventually said, sitting on Savannah's stomach.
"What?" Savannah said, taken by surprise.
"He say sorry," Elizabeth replied.
Savannah rolled his eyes, but couldn't help smile. "And to think he's using you to get me to forgive him."
"Did it work?" a voice said from the doorway.
Savannah looked up and sighed. "Almost," Savannah said, cracking a smile.
"She missed you," Sirius said nodding towards Elizabeth. "She kept asking for you."
"And what about you?"
Sirius sighed. "I missed you, too." He walked over and sat on the bed beside her. "I'm sorry, Savannah. I didn't mean to scream at you and imply that you didn't understand me. The truth is, you're the one who understands me the most which is why I knew what you were saying was logical."
"No, it wasn't. I just hate to see you unhappy and I hate to see you get hurt. You were right when you said I was protecting you."
"And you have every right to be. We're all overprotective at times…especially in a marriage."
"You know I love you, Sirius. Nothing's going to change that."
"I know, and I love you, too, Vannie."
"Okay, so our first argument as a married couple wasn't totally horrendous," Savannah said, cracking a smile.
"And hopefully it will be our last," Sirius said, lying back beside her after giving her a quick kiss and Elizabeth climbed in between them.
"Awwww," a voice said from the doorframe. No…make that two voices, for James and Lily were standing in their doorframe.
Both Sirius and Savannah looked up as Elizabeth started jumping up and down on the bed.
"You three make such an adorable family," Lily said.
"Yilly! Yilly!" Elizabeth cried, hopping off the bed and grabbing onto Lily's ('Yilly') leg.
"Awww," Lily said, picking her up. "Can I keep her, please? Pretty please with a cherry on top??"
Savannah laughed. "Sorry, hon, but this cute little girl belongs to me," Savannah said, grabbing Elizabeth and swinging her around before planting a big kiss on her cheek.
"And me," Sirius said with a smile before planting a big kiss on her lips.
"Ick," Elizabeth said with a screwy face, and they all laughed.
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"Savannah, are you almost ready!?" Sirius cried up the stairs. They were going to a formal New Year's Party at a country club down the road from them.
"Just be patient!!" Savannah cried.
"I've been patient for the past twenty minutes!!" Sirius joked. "If you're not down here in-"
He stopped at the sight of Savannah slowly venturing down the stairs. She was in a long, satiny, shimmery sequined black cocktail dress with a huge smile planted on her face.
"You look…beautiful," Sirius said, amazed.
"Don't sound so surprised," Savannah teased, giving him a kiss on the cheek.
"Oh, I'm definitely not," he replied, kissing her a quick kiss on the lips. He couldn't help but notice that around Savannah's neck was the necklace that he gave her…the one she didn't know who gave her.
Savannah caught him staring at the necklace, and she rubbed her hand over it and smiled at him. "Isn't it gorgeous?"
"It's even more gorgeous on you," he whispered. He took a deep breath in and exhaled it out. "Vannie…I don't think I've ever told you this, but…" he trailed off.
"What? What's wrong?"
"Oh, nothing. It's just that…well, I was the one who gave you that necklace," he said quietly.
Savannah froze and looked up at him with a shocked expression. "Y-You did??"
Sirius nodded guiltily.
"But…we weren't going out then. We were hardly friends. And why didn't you ever tell me? And why didn't you leave a card on the box?"
"If I had left a card on the box you would've marched right up to me and handed me the box back telling me that I shouldn't have done it. This way, we both could be happy."
"No, I probably would have realized how much you still cared for me."
"No you wouldn't have."
Savannah was silent.
"And I never told you because I didn't think it was that important. It was five years ago, Vannie. Who cares anyway?"
"I do. I…you…I mean, why'd you do it?"
"Don't you know?"
"No."
He sighed. "Because you deserved it. Because I have always loved you and you deserved the best. And even though the best wasn't me…that necklace was. I bought it about ten years ago and I had been waiting for the perfect moment to give it to you. And I knew if I hadn't have given it to you by the time I did…then there may not have been another time I would've had the guts to give it to you.
Savannah stared at him for a few seconds. "Why are you so perfect?"
Sirius was taken aback by her reply. "I-I'm not."
"Maybe not to everyone else…but I'm the only one that matters."
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About six months later, on July 16, Allie unexpectedly showed up at Sirius' and Savannah's house, which was about two weeks before Savannah was due to have her baby, carrying Cole in her arms and holding Jenna's hand.
"Hey, Savannah," Allie said, when she answered the door. "I'm sorry to bother you but is Sirius' here?"
Savannah shook her head. "No, he's in Diagon Alley with Peter. Why?"
"Well, actually, I was hoping to leave Cole and Jenna with you and Sirius for the time being. You see, I need to go up to Norway to visit my grandfather in the hospital, who has cancer now, and because Kaitlynne hasn't been feeling that well I didn't want to leave them with her and Remus so I was hoping Sirius and you could take care of them for the time being."
"Oh, Allie, I'm so sorry about your grandfather."
Allie smiled and shook her head. "It's okay. We weren't that close anyway."
"Oh…well I'm still sorry."
Allie smiled. "Hm…maybe I'll just leave Cole and Jenna with James and Lily or something," she thought out loud.
Savannah shook her head. "No, keep them here with me. I know, I know. You're wondering if I could handle them being almost nine months pregnant and all, but I'm taking care of Elizabeth fine now and I'll get James and Lily to get their butts down here to help."
"Oh, really? That would be so great of you!"
"It's no problem, I promise."
"Great! Thanks so much, Savannah. I really appreciate it. And I owe you."
"You don't owe me anything, Allie. Just go up to Norway and I hope your grandfather feels better."
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About three hours later, around five o'clock in the afternoon, Sirius and Peter were leisurely sitting in Butterbeer Throne, a nice coffee shop in Diagon Alley.
"I just can't believe that in less than a month, I'm going to be a father. It amazes me," Sirius said. "And I know I have Elizabeth, but it's different. The new baby will be Savannah's and mine. Not just anybody's, but it's her and me. I've always dreamed of this. This is what I've wanted for as long as I could remember and now my dream will become reality," Sirius said with a dreamy smile on his face.
"Everything seems so perfect nowadays for you, doesn't it?" Peter stated.
"It's true. Everything that-"
"Sirius!" a voice cried from behind them.
They all turned around and saw James running towards their table, panting heavily.
"James? What's wrong? What are you doing here? Is everything okay?" Sirius asked.
James shook his head, as he tried to catch his breath. "I hope so. God, where have you guys been!?!? I've been searching Diagon Alley for about an hour now trying to find you guys!!!!" James shouted.
"Whoa, calm down. What's wrong?"
"Nothing's wrong…that is, if we hurry," James panted.
"Slow down, James, and tell us what's going on." Sirius asked full of concern.
James slowly turned his frown into a smile and fixed his eyes on Sirius, realizing he hadn't told him yet. "Well…you're about to become a father…"
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