"I can't do this"

"It's too soon. I'm sorry" He says as he slides off her.  She feels as if a cold win just hit her without the warmth of Travis' body on her.

"It's not just that" she says boosting herself up.

"Then what?"

"You're not my boyfriend.  I barely know you and I mad a commitment to God not to have sex till I'm married."

"What? Why? Wait, -you're a Christian?"

"Yea I am. Why? Are you?"

"No, I'm Buddhist"

"O boy" she says flopping backwards into the couch sighing.

"Sam, I would like to be your boyfriend?"

"Travis how is this going to work?  I like you a lot but I'm not willing to have sex with you. And we have different beliefs!"

"So, look -if you're willing to try so am I?"

"You mean you're ok with not having sex with me possibly ever?"

"Yes.  I like you a lot Sam and it's not all about that" Sam sits up and gives him a hug.

"I'm willing to try too" After that Travis tells her everything.  Stuff he's never shared with anyone not even the gang from RFR.  Coincidently that's the only thing he leaves out -RFR.  She in turn tells him everything too, all about her life, her family and her faith.

"Travis it's late you better go home"

"You're right, but I want to make sure of one thing."

"What?"

"Are we boyfriend and girlfriend or what?"

"Of course" They kiss again; better than the first time.  They end up parallel on the couch again this time with Sam on top. 

"Wait" Travis manages to get out. "I thought you didn't want this?"

"You're right" she says and she gets off of him.  "This is going to be hard you know?  Its easy for me to mess-up again?"

"Again?"

"Well, I wasn't always a Christian.  2 years ago I foolishly gave my virginity to someone I didn't love"

"Wow" sensing her hurt Travis embraces her.  "It's ok" he whispers in her ear.

"He used me. He didn't even like me" she said softly.  She sounded as if she was about to cry and she was but she didn't.  She hates crying in front of people but Travis' embrace made her want to let everything go and bare it all through tears into his shoulder.

"I know -its ok." After awhile he lets go of her and looks into her eyes. "You ok?"

"Yea"

"Ok. I'm going to go home then" she nods and walks him to the door.  "I'll see you in school, ok?"

"Ok." She kisses him lightly on the lips but leaves Travis wanting more. "Bye"

"Bye" he turns and heads down the path and turns and continues down the street, she watches him for a little while and closes the door.

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let me be patient/ let me be kind/ make me unselfish/ without being blind/ .he's all that I got/ and tell him I need him/ tell him I love him/ it will be alright/ and tell him I need him/ tell him I love him/ it will be alright/ Now I may have faith to make mountains fall/ but if I lack love then I have nothing at all/ I can give away everything I possess/ and but live without then I have no happiness/ I know I'm not perfect and not without sin/ and now that I'm older childish things end/ and tell him I need him/ tell him I love him/ it will be alright/ and tell him I need him/ tell him I love him/ it will be alright/ and I'll never be jealous/ and wont be too proud/ because love is not boastful/ and love is not loud/ and tell him I need him/ tell him I love him/ everything is gonna be alright/ Now I may have wisdom/ and knowledge on earth/ but I speak foul/ then what is it worth/ cuz what we now know/ is nothing compared/ to the love that was shown/ when our lives were spared/ and tell him I need him/ tell him I love him/ it will be alright/ and tell him I need him/ tell him I love him/ it will be alright/

From "Sweetest Thing" by Lauryn Hill

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A/N: Sorry about the short Chapter.  Thanks for all the reviews.  How do you all like the songs I picked? For those of you who are waiting for the T/L thing -its coming don't stress.  For those of you that are slow I am Sktzo Stylz.  Everything she says and does reflects me. If you got questions about it I'll open my email address to be viewed again so you can ask just don't start Iming me everyday k?