Disclaimer- I don't own the yyh cast but I do own Katana and Arisu and any origanal characters that you might find.

Kuro- This is a story, kind of a presequal I think thats what I can call it. This is the story how Hiei met Kimi's mother. Her mother is a made up character, not anyone from the show.

---- It'll awser everyones questions I guess, and its a whole different adventure. This way people will get to understand the backround before they read my other story 'walking in shadows of what he used to be'. Or if you already have been reading it, this is a treat. I wasn't even going to put this up but I am. So flame me, I dare you.------------

ps. This is all in her point of veiw, and some of it is in Hiei's. Other parts are outside perspective.



Before I forget, let me know if I should fix this chap or just discard the whole thing in general.

Later people........

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Shattered dreams

chapter 1: my darkness

Wondering through the darkness of my backyard, I sought comfort. In which I turned to a giant oak tree. As I stood, with my fist raised. Simply I cursed almost all I knew, simply muttering that someone had to die.

As I stood there, I felt tears swell inside. But I continually forced them away. They wouldn't make me cry, they wouldn't, I simply said to myself.

With all the pain I barred, it was all a waste. But I always had an escape. That always kept me sane, my escape. I call it, though to others it was destructive to myself. This I knew, but I never told them about this.

Tonight was especially dark, but only in my mind. Depression fulled my anger and still I refused to cry. Starring off, I raised my head to the clear sky.. "why am I always the center of your damned mockery," I scoffed angrilly as I shot an icy glare at the sky." FUCK YOU!" I yelled out, disturbing the silence around me. That made me feel a bit better, but I was still angry.

I was upset for the most part, it felt nothing could fill the void I felt. And no one was there, they were all out to get me.

Continuing to curse I turned my back to the large oak and slowly slid down the trunk, sighing heavily. As a cool breeze brushed past me, making my long dress dance apon my bare legs. Turning my head to my right side, with my left hand I rumaged through my dress pocket.

pulling out a sliver of a broken mirror. My mirror... my mother shattered it on my bedroom floor, she remembered sadly. Gripping it tightly, her hand began to bleed. As the blood ran down her hand, she smiled softly. The sliver was about three inches long, and half an inch wide.

Slowly, she rolled up her right sleeve so she wouldn't have noticable bloodstains. Taking the sliver she gently ran it across her arm just below her elbow. Clossing her eyes she smiled embracing the crimson stream that had begun to run down her arm.

This warmth she felt last for merly moments, ubruptly stopping. Raising her hand she began to slice her arm, letting more and more blood run.With this warm feeling she felt she could escape everything.

Repeatedly she continued down to her wrist. But stopped. This was her escape from the world, but she didn't want it to end this way. She would eventually kill herself but it wouldn't be this that would end her suffering.

Around her neck was a large peice of black fabric, which was wrapped around her long pale neck like a scarf; drapping down just above her breasts. Sheilding her neck from the bitter cold. Her dress itself was long, as well as its sleeves. The dress was a solid black velvet as well as the material around her neck.

Katana had long aburn purple hair, which was tied in a loose ponytail that cascaded down her back. Removing a few loose dark strains of hair she slipped the broken glass back into her pocket.

Crossing her arms, she rested them on her chest, leaning back farther onto the tree, before pulling out a cigarette and a lighter out of her pocket.

Carefully she lit the cigarette, and gave it a deep puff. Making her relax slightly.

Deeper into the forest, someone sat his glowing red eyes standing out in the darkness. Sitting in a tree, he continued to watch the young girl in his sightes.

Koenma sent him on a mission, to investigate this girl. Little did Hiei know, the girl was suicidal.

But he was told that the girl was special. But special how? Hiei had questioned the toddler. He hadn't gotten his awnser. which pissed him off even more.

Taking another puff of her cigarette she smiled softly as she exhaled the smoke from her mouth.

Watching from a distantce, Hiei sat high in a tree, in indian style with his arms crossed. Sitting there, he watched the girl with mild interest.Like he had since this morning. His gut feeling kept him from rushing into this mission. Knowing that he had to get to know her a bit before he talked to her.

Hiei continued to watch her, like a hawk as he had been all day. Her behavier was beginning to make more and more sense to him as time went on. She actually reminded him of himself when he was just a boy, he thought to himself with a deep smirk. After starring at her for a while, he noticed her getting up and putting her cigarette out.

"Hiei, shouldn't you be talking to that girl right now instead of watching her like a hawk?" Kurama asked, appearing out of nowhere beside him.

"Baka, fuckin' kitsune!", Hiei growled as he raised his head to Kurama who was smiling. He wanted to rip the kitsunes tail and hair out but didn't.

"As I've said before, stop calling me stupid. I am a fox but I'm not stupid. Quit being such a jackass Hiei." Kurama said calmly, getting serious.

Getting to his feet," Why are you here? Arn't you suposed to be with you girlfriend?" Hiei said, emphasizing the word with as he got to his feet. " Yes I am, but I thought you might need some more information on her", Kurama yawned sleepily as he motioned towards the girl.

"well?" Hiei said rasing a brow. "Koenma said to me to tell you that you should be quite careful. She's very fiesty and she's a um , can't remember the rest I'm afraid.." Kurama said scratching his head.

"hn." Hiei huffed crossing his arms across his chest and sitting back down on the branch once more. "I should have had you take this one, kitsune." Hiei grumbled.

"why? so she could burn me? Ah hell NO!!" Kurama yelled in Hiei's ears.

"Ack! Go away!" Hiei growled, pushing Kurama off the tree branch, and watched him fall into a bush.

"Leave me be, I will talk with the stupid ningin in the morning", he smirked, holding back his laughter. As he watched Kurama play with his tail, trying to get out all the twigs and bugs. He contuned to watch his friend untill he disappeared into the forest muttering something about revenge.

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Kuro- Okay, um this is my first YYH fic, so try and be nice... ' walking in shadows of what he used to be' its the second story. A sequal I guess.

Oh, and to all the flammers, I say this. Flame me if you will, but as I've said many a time before. Be constructive with your critizm. I hate having to have to figure out your strange reviews.

thank you and good night.

For the first time ever I have a quote- " Tears are battle scars, that can't be erased. But something that will go away in time.." its partially from my other story, but I changed it a bit.

Kuro- okay that was bad..(nervous laugh)

Hiei- hn. you can say that again.* scoff*

Kuro- (opens mouth to say it again)

Hiei- Don't, or I will have roast dog for dinner.. Okay, humans, please contribute quotes of your own choice. Which ever wins, it will be posted on the next chapter...

Kuro- Hiei your rambling. (Clears throat) Ahem, Please read and reivew. Thanks, every reivew thats sent will be apreciated thank you.