Disclaimer: I don't own Yu-Gi-Oh (oh man, how I wish I could) because if I do, it would be a yaoi anime and the dialogue would be totally different.

A/N: Okay, this is my first YGO fanfic, and could be the first one that I would finish as well (my two Harry Potter fics aren't finished yet. . . I'll start it by the start of summer).

I must warn you though: This is a yaoi fanfic, which has the pairing of Honda/Jounouchi. I am a very big fan of this pair, and besides, there are only a few Hon/Jou fics that I have seen out there (and the others are not even finished yet). If you don't like yaoi or Honda/Jounouchi pair, then you might as well leave and read something other than these two things that you don't like. But if you love yaoi, or much better, this pair, then go on and read, enjoy and review!

Review, review, review!!!! ^_^

Other Notes:

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ => This means next scene

~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_ => This means there's a flashback (start and end). Or if the scene is italicized, then it's a flashback as well.

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TITLE: HESITATIONS AND RESISTANCE

CHAPTER 1

Honda shifted his weight from one foot to another uncomfortably. Beside him, Jounouchi was fixing himself by smoothing his pants and shirt.

"Hey Jounouchi, just how long are you going to fix yourself up?" Anzu asked impatiently, camera in hand. "Remember, you still have a battle against Marik in ten minutes."

"Yeah, yeah, I'm finished." The blond faced Anzu. "Ok, let's get on with it!"

"Ok, position yourselves."

"Hey Honda, we haven't had our picture taken for a long time. Good thing Anzu bought her camera here." Jounouchi said as he stood beside his brown-haired best friend. "Though she wouldn't be able to use it anyway. If I didn't know better, she just bought that to take a picture of Yami Yugi."

"Shut up, Jou! Just go and get posing already! We don't have much time. Do you want to lose this duel by default?!"

"Ok, ok." Jounouchi placed his hand on Honda's shoulders, but then took it off and placed it instead at his best friend's back, by the waist.

"Ok," Anzu said. "1, 2, 3, smile!"

Both boys smiled as the flash clicked away.

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Honda traced Jounouchi's face on the picture that was taken in his flashback with his fingers. But the whole time before the picture was taken (when Jou and Anzu were arguing), he was having butterflies in his stomach and was controlling himself from blushing. It was unbearable. Just being around Jounouchi had made him uncomfortable and there's no stopping that blush that tried to escape from his cheeks whenever he was near the blond.

That was because he is in love with Jounouchi Katsuya.

All Honda can say was that it started in Battle City. He wasn't going to explain how it came around, how he reacted to it, blah, blah, blah, blah. The important thins is that he's in love with his one and only best friend.

"And speaking of Battle City," Honda whispered as he continued tracing Jou's face on the picture. He sighed.

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HONDA'S POV

After the picture was taken, Jounouchi hurriedly and confidently started to go up to the stadium where he and Marik (Yami Marik) would duel.

"Hey buddy, you be careful up there. That's no ordinary duelist you're dueling up there. Yami Marik's the worst enemy we've ever had. . . even worse that Pegasus."

Jounouchi smiled confidently. That smile. . . always so confident when you're up for a duel, but I know deep inside you're mixed with emotions like anger, hatred, worry and even fear. That's how much I know you. You may hide your other emotions from everyone, but you can never hide it from me.

"Don't worry, Honda, he's the one who should be careful. He will pay what he did with Mai."

Mai. Even though I know that Jounouchi only treats her as a friend, I can't help but get very jealous of her. She's always the reason why he wanted to fight Yami Marik so badly. If I didn't know better, I would've thought that he was madly in love with her. But good thing that that isn't the case.

"But what if he lets out The Winged Dragon of Ra. You might get struck by lightning again." I said. I don't know why I was so worried about this duel, but the sense of foreboding that I've been having since this day started hasn't disappeared.

"Look, it wasn't Marik who used that fake God card, it was Odion. And take note, it's a fake. That will never happen again." My best friend said.

"But you never know. . ."

"Honda, don't worry about it. What would make me happy now is for you to be there, and watch me fight that crazy Egyptian moron." Jou put his hand on my shoulders that made me blush again for the nth time that day and all because of one person only.

It never occurred to me that the picture that was taken that day could've been Jou's last. Even until now, the mere memory of it----Jounouchi on the bed and wires on his body----still got into my nerves and made me shudder thinking about what could've happened if he hadn't woke up. We almost lost Jounouchi that time. I almost lost him. . . without telling what I feel at all. You can't imagine how much I was so, so, relieved when my best friend woke up while I carried him towards the window to let him show that Yugi was using his Red Eyes Black Dragon. I almost cried a river.

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NORMAL POV

As Honda continued looking at the picture, he remembered the time when Otogi, his rival for Shizuka----oh yeah, former rival-----suddenly, as in out of the blue, found out about his love for his blond best friend.

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"How about you, Honda?" Otogi whispered, elbowing his former rival."Have you told him yet about your true feelings yet?

"Huh?" Honda was caught off guard by the sudden question, that he almost lost his balance, as he was sitting on the convertible's side doors. He didn't know how it came to him, as they were talking about Ryou and Marik.

"You know what I'm talking about?" The dice king nodded towards Jounouchi, who was laughing along with Yami Yugi.

"Otogi! He might see you!"

"So it's true! You're in love with him!" Because of his excitement on finding about Honda's secret, Otogi had said this aloud, making all the people in the convertible stare at him.

"Huh? Who's in love?" Shizuka asked.

"I am. . . with you." Otogi said, smiling brightly at her that he didn't notice Jounouchi glaring at him. Shizuka blushed. Then the dice king laughed. "It's Honda who's in love. And take note, it's a him."

If Honda could just kill Otogi right then and there with his glare, he'd be lying dead on the road now.

"What?! How come you never told me?! I know you were in love with my sister, but I never knew you loved somebody else now! And it's a guy!" Jounouchi's amber eyes were showed that he was a bit hurt. "You never told me you were gay!"

"I swear I'll kill you!" Honda mouthed towards Otogi, who just smirked, before turning back to the others. "Look! Enough about it! Why did it come to me anyway?!" This is all Otogi's fault! I swear I will really kill that damn dice king! "We're talking about Ryou here! You'll know that guy soon." Then he faced his best friend. "And you'll be the first to know, I promise, Jou." This made the blond's hurt expression disappear and was replaced by a big smile.

"Finally, a smile from you. I'm really sorry, buddy."

"It's okay. But you promise I'll be the first to know who it is, okay?"

"Sure." It was a good thing that the others didn't question him anymore as they got back from their talks with each other.

"Fuck you!" Then presented the dice king with a dirty finger.

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HONDA'S POV

And because of that, I found another reason to hate Otogi more; the fact that he told the gang, except Jounouchi, of my love interest for my best friend! It was all that I could take when the endless teasing began, especially from Shizuka.

Oh yeah, for your information, Otogi and Shizuka are already a couple, much to Jounouchi's horror. You should've seen his face when he heard it from Shizuka herself; he looked like the whole earth dropped on him. Anyway, I have a theory that Shizuka was the first to know. . . after all, not only was she Jounocuhi's younger sis, but she was Otogi's girlfriend now.

So there, thanks to dice king, endless teasing began and there were times when the gang almost slipped (though purposely, I think) by saying who it was.

Of course, it was usually done when Jounouchi was either not present or out of earshot. Man, if he found out, I wouldn't know what to do because (1) I promised that he would be the first one to know so I'm sure he'll get mad when he finds out that he's not the first one, and (2) it's possible that he won't return my feelings and I am not yet ready to accept that. So, by the looks of it, he would really be the last one to know whom I love. And I feel guilty about it. I broke a promise without intentionally doing it. . . and I have never done that to Jou. I would never do that. I would just hate when he finds out about it and gets angry with me. Of course, he would see it as I have told the others first before him. I really don't want him to get angry with me.

That's the last thing I want to happen.

But somehow, fate has something else in store for me.

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A/N: I know it's short, but if I continue more, it would take longer and you might get bored. So I decided that the first two chapters will be short, but the last three will be longer than the two.

My two Harry Potter fics are still on hold as YGO is in my mind right now. Writer's block as well.

Now, as this is my first fic, I really need some reviews. Questions, comments, suggestions, wrong grammars, etc. are welcome in the reviews section. Anything concerning my writing are a okay. If you want to ask some private matters about the fic or anything, email me at malfoy_gurl09@yahoo.com.

By the way, I need some help: I am not good in doing/writing a love scene (take note: love, as in making love and not just any bed scene), especially with Honda/Jounouchi. I may have read many R fics, but it's not enough. So, I need your help: if any of you are willing to help in my situation by giving tips or something, please feel free to do so. It would be much better if you email me, so as to be private, in malfoy_gurl09@yahoo.com. Please, I really need some help. . . it's for my next fic as well as in this fic. I would really appreciate it and even acknowledge you.

Thanks very much! ^_^

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