Chapter Two

A few Months later.

Phoebe walked slowly up the stairs. The day before she had worked out for hours and today she was getting a new desk. Her other one had broken when Paige sat on it, It was old enough and needed to be replaced anyway. She wasn't ready to lift it. She could ask Paige or Chris to help. But she had a feeling it would be personal gain. Plus she should be able to handle it. Or she could through it out the window. It was close to being in two pieces. But Paige got off before it could completely crack. She opened her door, groaning. She Empty all her drawers on to the bed. Then put the drawers back in the desk. She picked it up and carried it downstairs. The basement, which was her destination, seemed so far away. She set down the desk. Then she opened the door to the basement. She eventually made it down. She grabbed the new desk and she grabbed an antique old lamp, She liked. She carried them with the same amount of speed. And eventually made all the way back to her room. She set it down with a grunt. Against the wall the letter still remains, still unnoticed. She pushed the desk against the wall. She holds up the cord to the lamp then sighs. Phoebe pulls the desk forward and goes to the outlet behind it. Finally she notices the letter. She picks it up while plugging in the Lamp. She sets it on her desk and pushes it against the wall. She subconsciously tries to sit on the bed, which is covered in stuff from her desk. She sets the letter down on her pillow then Quickly shoves all the stuff into drawers. She grabs the letter again. She sits on her bed opens it, Then reads.

Dear Phoebe,
I know your getting on with your life. I don't approve of any of them. Just so you know. Well I guess that's what a Jealous ex usually does. I want you to know I've been alive sense you killed me a while back. Which sounds strange but it's true. You couldn't kill me then, Not because you didn't want to but because I was still invincible. I left because I loved you. And I knew that I could never be the man you wanted. You don't remember it because I went to another dimension. Paige told you I hope. It was sick; I just couldn't deal with losing when I didn't try to do anything wrong. Yeah I bet your rolling your eyes. I don't blame you. I was a demon for countless years and I did so many things that gave me reasons not to deserve you. But want you to know because I never got to tell you. I didn't choose to become the source. I don't think you ever found that out. I couldn't tell you because he wouldn't let me. If I hadn't agreed to take the Hallo to steal the sources powers you would have died. I thought they went into nothingness. That was in till I lost control over my self. I don't know if you'll believe me. But I at least wanted to be able to say I told you. I went insane and I did things, maybe not as bad as before I met you but they were pretty bad. I with that I deserved your forgiveness. But I want you to know that I miss you so badly. I'm an Avatar now. I wish I could take it back. I wish I could have really died. But Wishes don't come true. What I did is done, and I learned already that changing the past doesn't help. That night when Ian attacked you, I was told. I also was told that if I helped you I'd suffer unspeakable torture. But it doesn't matter. He would have killed you. I couldn't let that happen. So good- bye phoebe, I don't want this to bring up those memories you promised to never look back on. I love you and I wish you the best of luck in the future.

Sincerely,
Cole Turner

Phoebe just sat staring. The letter in her hand gave her mixed feeling. What should she feel? Could she believe him? Cole, She hadn't thought about him for along time. She had kept true to the terrible thing she had said to him when he tried to bring the woogy-man out again. But he had gone insane. Tears rolled from her eyes. She didn't notice them. Memory's flooded in. The ones she had tried to forget. The time the Apple shaving had made a C for Cole. It had said that he was her true love's name. She believed in magic. Heck she was a witch. Then the time they had first made love. It was the first time she waited till she loved the guy. The first time she had loved. He had tried to leave her so he wouldn't hurt her. He didn't hurt her, At least on purpose. Then when he had gone with Prue to save Phoebe. He tried so hard to be good why would he want to be the source after trying so hard? (Music: Faith Hill- There you'll be.) When he was the source he tried to give it to the wizard. But she thought it would kill him so she stopped him. They were always there for each other. They saved each other instead just one saving the other all the time. When Krell was going to kill her, Cole had used the last of his energy to save her. Then just to prove to her that he did love her he said to vanquish him. He wasn't scared because it was true he did love her. And he tried so hard to change. Here he wished her luck. He might go through torture just for saving her. He had left for her. Now she mourned what she had lost. The Soul mate she had once embraced on this very bed. She cried so hard, she didn't know if the tears would ever cease. Piper walked in. "Phoebe, Your laundry." Piper stopped, "What's wrong?" She walks over and kneels by her. Phoebe hands her the letter. Piper takes it she reads it. "Oh my god, we really can't kill him," Piper says, "Why are you crying, He says he won't bug you. He wishes you good luck, I promise you won't have to go through hell again," "Piper, he isn't lying about the source thing," Phoebe stated, "He tried so hard to be good. Why would he mess it up? After that he went insane," Piper frowned, "Well you tried, it didn't work," "I wouldn't let it work, it could have piper, he did so much for me and I gave up on him. I told him I'd never look back and I didn't. It's not his fault Piper," Phoebe sobbed. "You can't blame your self Phoebe," Piper said.