Disclaimer: I don't own Yu-gi-oh.
Thanks to the Ghost of Jounouchi for the review and for volunteering to help me with my problem in writing a love scene for my favorite couple. Here's the fourth chapter as I've promised so that you may know the thing that happened between Honda and Jou. If you need more questions, email me. And review too.
And the same goes with all of you readers out there. Help me with my situation. . . I need all the help I can get. Plus, review, review, review this.
I have thought of another Honda/Jou fic and I'm dong it after I do my Seto/Yami fic.
Now, on with the story. ^_^
Reminders just in case you get confused:
Amber eyes - Jounouchi
Hazel eyes - Honda
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HESITATIONS AND RESISTANCE
CHAPTER 4
Honda Hiroto and Jounouchi Katsuya were sitting across each other in the dining table of the Honda household. Both were very awkward with that neither wanted to speak. But soon, Jounouchi spoke up when he couldn't take the awkward silence anymore.
"Ok Honda, what do you want to tell me? You said it was something important."
The brunette boy looked at his ex-best friend. Great! I'm getting cowardly again! I need more time. I'll prolong it a little before I tell him. Then he scowled. "Why are you so demanding? Can't you wait?"
"What the---?! You let me come here for nothing! I should be eating dinner now!"
Honda snorted. "What a glutton."
Jou gritted his teeth. "What do you really want, Honda?! Explain yourself!"
"Oh now you're letting me explain something that shouldn't be explained immediately." Honda narrowed his eyes. "When just three hours ago, you wouldn't let me explain that should really be explained to you."
"What do you mean---?!" Then Jounouchi remembered their fight in school awhile ago. "Well. . . it's because there's really no need for explanation. I saw everything with my own eyes that you're all keeping secrets from me."
"You haven't seen everything yet. . . and I have a reason for keeping it from you." Honda muttered. But somehow, Jou heard it.
"I heard that! What do you mean I haven't seen everything yet?!"
"It's true!" Honda covered his mouth when he realized what he had said.
Jounouchi quirked an eyebrow and smirked. "All right then! If I haven't seen everything, then tell me: why didn't you tell me who you're in love with in the first place?" Amber met hazel eyes, but the latter looked away immediately. "Hmm. . . Hiroto?"
"Stop calling me by my first name."
"Tsk, tsk, tsk. Let's not change the subject. Now tell me," The blond stood up, leaned forward and cupped Honda's chin to let him face him. "Who are you in love with?"
Honda's heart was beating faster. This was worse than looking at those beautiful amber eyes (that's why he looked away). The feel of Jounouchi's skin on his skin was making him shudder involuntarily and was fighting the urge to grab the blond by the shoulders, kiss him right then and there, and feel Jou's tongue on his own.
"Honda!"
"What?!"
"You're not answering my question!" Jou said irritably, hand still on his ex-best friend's chin. "Do I have to ask twice?! Who are you in love with?!"
Hazel eyes narrowed. "Why are you in such a hurry to know?! As if you'd care!"
"Damn it, Honda!" Jou tightened his hold. "Don't change the subject!"
Oh god, Jou! Honda's eyes shut tight. You just don't know what you're doing to me! "You really want to know?!"
"Yes, I do!"
Honda opened his eyes and stared intently at Jou's amber eyes. "You."
The blond's jaw dropped, but his hand remained where it is and was still leaning forward. Wha-What?! You're kidding!"
The hazel-eyed teen closed his eyes gain and shook his head. "You want the truth, Jou, and I said it already." He opened his eyes again and faced his ex-best friend. "I'm in love with you."
Jounouchi let go of Honda's chin and staggered backwards, which made his chair fall.
"That was the reason why I didn't want to let you know first. But then, I told you first. . . I didn't break my promise." Honda said, surprised at his behavior now. He didn't know how he was able to remain calm, despite the panic that he's feeling inside now that he's told Jou.
"No! Yugi and the others knew before me!"
Honda sighed. Sometimes, Jou was too much. "I told you I never told them. . . it was Otogi. And I am telling the truth. He was the one who told the gang."
"But what about---"
"I never told Otogi. . . directly. He found out by himself and sort of 'investigated' on it. He also knew that it was you." He still looked at Jou calmly. "So, as far as I can see, I never ever broke my promise." At that moment, he stood up and walked towards the blond, who was still standing and just staring at Honda open-mouthed.
"You know, you look like a dog, except the tongue's not out. Maybe I can take care of that." This time, Honda cupped Jounouchi's chin, and captured the blond's lips. Honda didn't know how he did this; he actually didn't plan to do this. But as soon as his tongue touched Jou's, everything was forgotten and all he wanted to do was kiss the blond like he had wanted to all this time.
Jounouchi, on the other hand, wanted to do this but something told him this wasn't the right time yet. But he forgot everything when he felt Honda's tongue on his own and soon returned the kiss that his ex-best friend started. Honda's hand left Jou's chin and was now tracing his back, sending shivers on the blond's spine.
As he not only fell into Honda's kiss but also his embrace as well, a roar of thunder clapped and rain started pouring hard above them. But both boys neither flinched at the sound of it as they were indulged in their own sensations. . . sensations they have never felt before.
Honda, still kissing Jou, turned both of them around and leaned the blond on the dining table, entwining his hands with Jou's and placing them on either side of his head. He pulled back slightly and nipped on Jou's lip before starting to kiss his jaw, then on every part of his neck. Jou moaned when Honda sucked at his skin, and knew that that would leave a red mark on his neck for a few days.
"I've marked you already, Katsuya." Honda whispered seductively on Jou's ear before returning to kissing his neck. Katsuya. . . he called me by my first name. And to tell the truth, this was the first time that Jounouchi had liked being called by his first name because it had sounded so good coming out from Honda's lips, especially when he had said it seductively. Again, it sent shivers on his spine.
But the blond's head snapped up when he felt a hand slide inside his shirt and started caressing his chest. "Honda, what are you---?!" Jou's words were cut off when the brunette kissed him passionately and toyed with his tongue again, a moan escaping from Jou's lips. "Oh Hiroto. . ." Honda smirked through their kiss. . . he never knew his best friend would be calling----no, moaning----his first name. And, in this kind of situation.
But, as they say, good things don't last.
Another roar of thunder, and a hand brush his nipple.
These were the two things that brought Jounouchi to his senses. Well, actually, blame it on the thunder because without it, Honda would've heard another moan come out of Jou's lips as his hand brushed the blond's nipple. Jounouchi pushed Honda away, much to the brunette's surprise.
"What the---?! What's wrong, Jou?" Oh yes, it was back to last name basis.
The said blond just stood up and shook his head. "No, Honda, this is all wrong! This shouldn't be happening!"
"What?! What are you talking about?! It just happened!"
"It shouldn't have!"
The brunette looked at Jounouchi, confused. What had happened to him? A minute ago, he was moaning from his kiss and touch, and then now, he pushed him away. "What do you mean?"
"Honda, we shouldn't be dong this because it's. . . not right and. . . and. . ."
"And what, Jou?"
"And. . ." Jounouchi looked at Honda's hazel eyes, which were full of hurt, confusion and. . . fear? It could be. Oh, I'm sorry Honda, but I'm. . . I'm not ready yet. "And. . . I don't love you."
Honda stared at his best friend----oh yeah, ex-best friend----open-mouthed. Outside, another thunder clapped and the rain poured harder slamming against the roof of the Honda household clapped (A/N: What's with thunder and rain. . . it's summer here in the Philippines ^_^).
Suddenly, all the hurt and confused expressions were replaced by anger and hatred that Jou had never seen through the many years that he and Honda were friends. "So, what we did awhile ago was nothing at all!" Honda roared, just like the thunder.
"Honda, it was just a kiss!"
"Just a kiss?! Jou, we were making out on top of the dining table! And you call that just a kiss!"
"Well. . . it was nothing. . . nothing at all." Jou said calmly, though his heart was beating faster than before that he was having hard time breathing.
"But you returned the kiss, you moaned, and. . .and. . . and, damn, you moaned my first name! You expect me to believe that you did these three things and say that it was nothing!!!"
Jou balled his fists and narrowed his amber eyes. "Look, believe what you want to believe, but I'm telling you that it was nothing! I. . . I was not. . . myself that time."
"Liar!" Honda pointed a finger at him. "You liked it!!! I can tell! And I know you want more!"
"No! I didn't like it and I don't want it again because I don't love you, okay?!"
That did it. Honda grabbed Jou's shirt and held his fist up. "Go ahead." Jou said. "Go and punch me! After all, I've been a jerk all this time." Honda gritted his teeth as he got ready to beat the hell out of Jou. But then, he thought. . . it would do nothing. He stared at Jounouchi's amber eyes, glinting with tears ready to come down. Even though he was so damn angry because his best friend was lying of not loving him, he can't force him into something he doesn't want. If Jou's not ready to love me yet (or doesn't really love me), then so be it. Honda didn't want to hurt his love interest again. The brunette put down his fist and let go of Jou.
"Huh?" Jounouchi asked, confused. "Honda?"
But Honda was not in front of him anymore. He looked around to find him getting something from a big white cabinet beside the TV. It was the cabinet where the Honda and his family kept some spare things for guests who stay over the house (one of them is Jounouchi) like towels, clothes, slippers, toiletries, etc. The next thing Jou knew, he was presented with a green towel, white pajamas and a pair of slippers.
"It's already eight 'o clock. . . funny that we've been *talking* for two hours only. Felt like more." Honda said, his back turned from Jou. "It's raining cats and dogs out there and I doubt that it will slow down tonight. I advise that you spend the night here. Now, if you don't want to, then that's up to you. I won't stop you."
"Honda. . ."
"Onesan is with her husband in Europe and she won't be back until next month."
"Honda, I. . . " Jou looked down at the things that the brunette gave him, then outside the window where it was evident that it was indeed raining cats and dogs. He really had no choice and he didn't feel like running home under the pouring rain. The blond sighed. "I guess I'll stay. I don't feel getting wet now. But---"
Honda held his hand, facing Jou, and somehow, he couldn't read his hazel eyes. "Well, since you decided to stay, you can sleep in the guest room beside onesan's. There's already a toothbrush, toothpaste, shampoo, soap. . . everything's there. Unless you'd like to get the ones in my bathroom and bring it there." Due to Jounouchi's frequent visits and stays in the Honda household, there were spare shampoos, soaps, toothpaste and toothbrush in Honda's bathroom.
"Uh. . . no. The ones in the guest room would be fine."
"Okay. Then, you can go home immediately tomorrow morning if you want to. If so, you don't need to wake me up. Then. . . it's okay if you don't want to talk to me anymore, too." He turned around and headed towards the stairs. "Oh yeah. . . thanks for bringing my bag here."
"Uh. . . sure. You're. . . welcome. But, wait Honda. . ."
"There's spaghetti beside the oven. . . I cooked it before you came. You can eat dinner without me. I'm. . . I'm not hungry." And with that, Honda ran up the stairs and soon, Jou heard the door slam close.
The blond looked at the spaghetti beside the oven, and even though it looked tasty and hat he wanted to eat awhile ago, Jou wasn't in the mood to eat now.
"Damn! How the hell am I going to eat when what I'm feeling now is guilt and not hunger!" Jou muttered as he strode upstairs. The guest room was across Honda's bedroom, so Jou couldn't help but glance sadly at the door, debating whether to knock on his ex-best friend's bedroom door and talk to him. With a sigh, the blond reluctantly went inside his room.
"It's going to be a long night."
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A/N: I've finished Chapter 4 at last. I had a hard time with the foreplay scene that's why it took a long time for me to update. Anyway, I can see there are only a few readers and reviewers of my fic (or maybe, just a guess, people like Seto/Jou more than Honda/Jou). Well, sorry, but I really don't like Seto/Jou(as you can see in my profile) and I like Honda/Jou more.
Well, I'm doing Chapter 3 of "Holding Onto You" already, and I might be posting the first chapter anytime this week. Watch out for it 'coz that chapter is sort of violent.
Again, review!
Bye! ^_^
