Disclaimer: I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh.
First of all, I couldn't believe other people had reviewed aside from the others that I expected. It was quite a surprise for me when I saw that there were other people who reviewed, even though they like Seto/Jou more than Honda/Jou. Oh , and yeah, this is where I found out that majority really loves Seto/Jou and there are only few Honda/Jou fics. That's why I'm writing some now. . . I really, really love that pair.
So, I want to give a BIG thank you to the reviewers of my first YGO fic. . . ALL of you. Thanks for the wonderful and inspiring reviews that helped me in doing and finishing this chapter. THANK YOU! ^_^
Second, okay, I owe you an explanation. This is the final chapter and as much as I didn't want to keep you hanging, it took more than a week for me to upload this chapter. Well, one of the reasons is that our phone got disconnected and there was no Internet at all. But the real reason was I had a hard time doing this chapter. See, this is the first time ever that I wrote a love scene (though it was short), especially in yaoi and so it took me awhile to complete that scene. I already wrote the beginning and the end of this chapter, but the love scene wasn't complete yet! But finally, I was bale to do it, and here's the finished product.
I'd like to thank to the Ghost of Jounouchi who unknowingly, somehow let me conclude that I would not complete the love scene, because I couldn't really do this scene fully. Also, I'd like to thank Mooguri Klaine for the giving me the ending of this fic. She was responsible for the last two paragraphs, and I liked it more than my original ending. This is the first fic that I had finished (just look at the two HP fics) and I had fun doing this (even though there were only a few reviews). But even so, it was worth the writing.
Please hold on to me. . . I don't want to lose readers!!!
And third, I'm now doing "Holding Onto You", and yes, it's still a Honda/Jounouchi fic. It is, after all, my favorite pair among the YGO yaoi couples.
Reminders just in case you get confused:
Amber eyes - Jounouchi Katsuya
Hazel eyes - Honda Hiroto
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HESITATIONS AND RESISTANCE
CHAPTER 5
Honda got out of the bathroom, a towel around his waist, to see that it was still raining cats and dogs outside, and was quite disappointed when Jounouchi wasn't sitting on his bed or desk chair. During the shower, he expected that the blond would talk to him before he went to the guest room. It just made the brunette realize that he should never expect such a thing after what happened down there awhile ago.
Drying his hair with another towel, Honda got dressed in white shirt and blue boxers then settled himself on his bed. It was just quarter to nine, so it was still early to go to sleep. But then, no matter how late it would be, he won't be able to sleep peacefully tonight.
He turned around to face the ceiling for the nth time that day and sighed. Honda had been sure that Jou was in love with him because if he was not, then he wouldn't have returned the kiss and they wouldn't be making out. But because Jou had indeed returned the kiss and they made out, Honda was definitely sure that his blond best friend was in love with him. He just didn't want to admit it.
On the other hand, if Jounouchi wasn't in love with me, then how do you explain what happened awhile ago? Teenage hormones? It could be. But a part of Honda told him it wasn't likely so. . . that Jou wanted that to happen after all. That somehow, the blond returned his feelings, one way or another. He just doesn't want to admit it at first. . . that's how Jounouchi is.
The brunette sighed sadly as he glanced at the empty space beside him. Usually, every time Jou spent the night in his house, he would lie down beside Honda and spend the whole night talking, teasing and laughing. And this would be the reason why the next day, both boys were late, and worse slept through their classes. So, basically, this was the first time that Jou wouldn't be sleeping beside him, and Honda felt lonelier that things weren't the same as before.
Honda growled as he turned around, his back facing the bedroom door, and closed his eyes. But no matter what he did, images of Jou and what they both did in the kitchen kept appearing in his mind.
And sleep never came at all.
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The blond got out of the bathroom after a few minutes, dressed in light blue shirt and green boxers that he found in the closet. Though it was raining and a bit cold, he didn't feel wearing pajamas and looked for some spare clothing in the drawers and closet. He settled on the bed as he turned off the bedside lamp, but soon realized he couldn't sleep at all. He kept tossing and turning and felt rather comfortable sleeping on that bed.
Then he remembered every time he had overnights on his best friend's house. Jou always lay beside Honda on the bed and all they did the whole night was talking, teasing and laughing. Those were one of the happy memories that Jou had always cherished. Actually, Jou always cherished everything that he and Honda had shared, whether good or bad.
He and Honda had been best friends ever since they were kids. . . almost more than ten years. And they treated each other like brothers than best friends. . . that was how close they were. Both boys knew each other more than anybody else and knew things that not even Yugi and the others knew.
That's why it had been hard for Jou when he said that their friendship was over. In truth, he didn't want to do such thing, but he didn't want to get hurt more. Well, that was before Jou found out that the person that Honda was in love with was he himself. It had been him all along. . . and that could be the reason why Honda couldn't tell Jou in the first place. So he should be happy because Honda returned his feelings. But then, why did he push the brunette away when they were making out downstairs awhile ago? What we did awhile ago. . . that's what I've always wanted to happen ever since I fell in love with Honda. Why did I push him away?
Jounouchi sat up and shook his head. All the thinking was giving him a headache. He got out of bed and headed towards the bathroom where he splashed water in his face. He wiped his face with a towel and looked at himself in the mirror. What happened down there preoccupied his mind that he really wouldn't be able to sleep tonight.
Then he noticed the red mark on his neck that Honda made when they made out. I've marked you already, Katsuya. Those words echoed through Jou's mind as soon as he saw that hickey. The way Honda said those words seductively. . . it made him shudder involuntarily right there. And those words kept repeating in his mind even though he got out of the bathroom already. "Damn, Honda, what the hell did you do to me?!"
Then Jou decided right then and there that he wanted to settle everything between him and Honda. He didn't care if it was too soon or what the consequences were. All he wanted was to talk. That's all. . . talk. But then, Honda said he just wanted to talk, but both ended up making out. Jou growled. "Damn, I don't care! I want to settle everything now." And with that, he went out of the room before he could change his mind.
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Honda growled as he sat up the sixth time that stormy night. He really couldn't sleep at all, and he was sure that he'd be sleeping through his classes tomorrow. Great! The last thing he needed was a scolding from his sensei. He lied down again, his back facing the bedroom door and stared at the floor. Honda had so many thoughts in his mind and was thinking the whole time that he didn't hear the door open and close.
It was only when he felt the bed sink down did Honda noticed that he wasn't alone in his bedroom and turned around to see Jou sitting on his bed and looking at him. Honda sat up and rubbed his eyes, then faced Jou (if it is him). Suddenly, without warning, the blond pinched him in the arm.
"Ouch! Hey man, what did you do that for?!" Honda asked, rubbing his arm.
"You're not dreaming, dummy! I'm really here."
"Alright, alright, but you didn't have to pinch me."
"Honda, can we talk?" Jou asked, suddenly becoming serious.
The brunette stared at Jou. "You sure you want to talk, coz the last time we did, we ended up making out."
"Please, Honda, I want to settle everything right here, right now. I don't want to prolong this burden any longer."
"Burden? What bur---?!" Honda's words were cut off when a pair of lips captured his own and felt hands at the back of his neck. But before Honda could return Jou's kiss the blond let go and rested his forehead on Honda's.
"You know, this all your fault."
"My fault?! What did I---?!" Again, his words were cut off, but this time by Jou's finger on his lips.
"Let me do the talking for now, okay?" Jou said softly. "Just listen." He pushed his forehead back and sat himself in a cross-legged position. "You know, it's your fault why I'm so confused and don't know what to do now! Because of you, my cheeks get red whenever you're around! Because of you, I broke our long time friendship! And because of you that I stopped our making out and pushed you away just like that! And then I told you that I don't love. . . but it's not the truth.
"Okay. . . and since when did you do everything because of me? And since when did you fall in love with me?"
Jou stared at his feet. "Um. . . since the motorcycle ride."
Honda frowned. "What motorcycle ride?"
"When you fetched me from the beach and brought me to Serenity in the hospital."
"Oh that. . ." Honda's eyes widened. "You mean you started falling in love with me when your arms were on my waist?!"
"Actually," Jou said sheepishly, "It exactly started in that situation. My cheeks started to redden, and I knew that. . . that was it."
Honda looked thoughtful. "I see. But what I want to know is why you broke the friendship and pushed me away awhile ago when you're already in love with me for a long time. Even before I fell in love with you."
"Are you sure you want to hear everything? You might not last long."
Honda grinned. "Try me."
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For half an hour, Jounouchi told Honda everything on why he had broke their friendship. . . starting from when he found out that he was in love with a guy instead of Shizuka to the fact that Jou didn't want to get hurt when he sees Honda and that guy together.
"So," Honda said when Jou stopped talking. "let me get everything straight. You thought you don't have a chance because I liked another guy, and so you broke our friendship because it would hurt you more seeing me being lovey-dovey sweet with the 'guy' I like?" Jou nodded. "So. . . that means you became jealous?"
"Isn't it obvious?!" Jou said irritably.
"Well, no, because if it were obvious, I would have seen it. If I had seen it, I would have told you that I love you. I just thought you broke the friendship because I never told you the 'guy' when the others know." Honda shook his head. "But enough of that. You've been talking for thirty minutes, but you never told me why you pushed me away while we were making out. If you really love me, you wouldn't do that, right?"
Jou nodded, not looking at Honda at all. "Well, in truth I've wanted to happen what we did awhile ago but soon realized that everything was too sudden and I wasn't ready to do it yet. I wasn't prepared for it." Amber met Hazel. "That's why I pushed you away. I'm sorry Honda, but I didn't want to do it for that time."
Honda shook his head. "No, I'm the one who should be sorry. You're right. I did everything so suddenly that I never thought what your reaction will be or what you're thinking. I never thought of you at all. I just want to do what I've always wanted to do. I'm really sorry."
"Actually, we're both at fault in this because we both hesitated to tell our true feelings with each other, it didn't end in a good way. We even ended up fighting."
"Yeah. This is what we get for not telling our own secrets."
"But," Jou said glowering, and pointing at the red mark on his neck. "This is your fault. Because of this, I can't take you away from my mind and what you said after you did this. And how am I going to explain this to Yugi and the others?"
Honda grinned mischievously. "Really? It just shows that I'm irresistible and you belong to me now."
The blond quirked an eyebrow. "Oh, is that so?! What am I?! An object to possess?!"
"No. It just means that you'll be my lover soon."
"Soon?" Jou leaned forward until he and Honda's faces were only inches away. "Why not now?" And with that, the blond kissed the brunette's lips.
"Wait." Honda said, gently pushing Jou away. "Jou, you don't have to do this. I won't force you. And, I can wait."
Jou nipped at Honda's lower lip. "But I can't. I'm ready now." And it was true. This time, he was sure that this was what he wanted. This time, he was prepared for it. Without waiting for him to talk, Jou captured Honda's lips in a deep passionate kiss, which was soon returned by the brunette. As Jou leaned Honda down on the bed, the hazel-eyed teen flicked his tongue on the blond's lips, and without hesitation, slightly opened them to let him in.
As both boys explored each other's mouths, Honda rolled on his side and was now on top of Jou. At the same time, he had reached out to the blond's tongue and kissed him hungrily. They soon released their long kiss, both gasping for air.
"Hey! No fair!" Jou scowled as he breathed. "I was on top awhile ago!"
Honda smirked. "Well, I'll take over for now. Why Jou? Got any complaints?"
"Well, no. . ." Jou pouted. "It's just that---" He was cut off by Honda's finger on his lips.
"Ssshhh. . . you talk too much." Honda claimed Jou's lips in another passionate kiss and reached out for his tongue again. They continued to kiss for a few moments before Honda slowly edged down and started giving kisses on Jou's neck; at the same time, the brunette's hand sliding inside Jou's shirt and began caressing his stomach. His slender fingers raked through Honda's chestnut hair and let out a soft moan when the brunette traced circles on his stomach.
Honda went back up and the two were in another heated kiss again as Honda's tongue darted inside the Jou's mouth, as the hazel-eyed teen continued exploring the blond's chest with his hand.
"Damn it, Honda!" Jou said irritably as he started yanking up the other's shirt. "Just take my shirt off so that it would be easier for you!"
The brunette grinned and did what he was told, and soon, both boys' shirts were strewn on the floors. Now, they were almost flesh on flesh, skin on skin. Their heated bodies pressed together, both boys exploring each other's almost sweaty upper bodies, despite the cold that the stormy night was giving. Honda ran his hands on Jou's chest, taking in the feel of his warm and tanned skin, while the latter kissed the other's dark neck.
He continued kissing him until he stopped in one part of the brunette's neck and started nibbling on it gently. To Jou's surprise the other moaned, his head arched up and eyes closed. He never knew that simple action would have a big effect on the brunette. The blond started trailing his finger down Honda's chest and began taking in the feel of the other's toned and muscled chest.
What happened was one that both boys hadn't expected. Because of the blond's simple gesture, especially when his hands started stoking Honda's sides (which were the part where he was very ticklish), the brunette collapsed on the body beneath him. Due to the brunette's heavy weight crashing on him, Jou ended up biting on Honda's neck harder than it was supposed to be.
"Ah!" Honda yelped as he held on to the pulsing red part of his neck.
On the other hand, Jou groaned when he felt something brush between his legs, and from the pain he was feeling there, he knew what turned him on. And from the looks of Honda's teasing smirk that appeared the moment he groaned, the brunette had no plans of getting up from their *suggestive* position.
"Hiroto. . ." Jou begged, getting sweaty as the brunette shifted his body. "Please, stop teasing me. . ."
Hiroto quirked an eyebrow, though deep inside, he was beginning to get more turned on as he shifted his body and felt Jou's arousal. "Oh, and why?" He smirked more. "You know, you practically tore my skin when you bit me. You'll pay for that, " Then he leaned down at Jou's ear and nibbled it. "Katsuya. . ." The brunette whispered seductively in his ear the second time that night.
Katsuya knew that he was lost at that moment.
His eyes fluttered close when he felt the brunette's mouth trailed wet kisses down his neck to his chest. "Oh Hiroto. . ." Katsuya moaned deliriously as Hiroto continued planting trails on his chest. The more the brunette continued teasing him like this, the harder it was for the blond to ignore the pain between his legs. When he finally couldn't take it any longer, Katsuya pulled Hiroto up by the shoulders and looked at his hazel eyes, which were already filled with passion. The brunette was taken by surprise with the sudden move from the blond, but the desire that blazed through those amber eyes wasn't left unnoticed by him.
"Hiroto. . ." Katsuya's voice was husky, and the other knew he was keeping his best to control his desire. "Please. . . I'm begging you. . . stop teasing me. . ." Then Hiroto froze when Katsuya hooked his thumb on the waistband of his boxers. The brunette took hold of the blond's hand before he even started pulling the said underwear down.
"Jou, are you---"
"It's Katsuya." Hiroto couldn't help but smile when he said this, but then became serious again.
"Katsuya, are you sure about this? Isn't this a little bit too fast?"
"Damn it, Honda!" Katsuya said irritably, swatting the brunette's hand from his own. "I told you awhile ago, I'm ready now."
"But Katsuya," Hiroto said softly, brushing off some golden bangs from the blond's sweaty brow. "I don't want to hurt you. I'm telling you now that this would be painful, and it's okay if you don't want us doing it now. I told you to awhile ago that I can wait."
The amber-eyed teen shook his head and said shakily. "I told you, Hiroto, I'm ready." He places his hand on the brunette's cheek. "I want to do it now. And I know you'll take away the pain as soon as it comes." Katsuya kissed his lips. "I trust you."
Hiroto searched Katsuya's amber eyes that told him that the blond was changing his mind about his, but found none. It was his turn to place his hand on the blond's cheek and kissed his soon-to-be lover. "Alright, but tell me immediately if you changed your mind."
Katsuya nodded. "Enough talk now." Those were the last words for the night as they kissed passionately again, and soon their boxers joined their shirts on the floor, and both boys were indulged in their own desires and passion.
Nothing stopped them from making love now. Not even when a bolt of lightning followed by a thunder roared above them.
All they thought about was to reach out to each other, with the longing sensation of uniting their souls together as one.
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The storm completely left Domino City the next morning, and a ray of sunlight peeked through the window curtains of Hiroto's bedroom and illuminated the two sleeping forms that were held close to each other on the bed. Hiroto blinked his eyes open and squinted at the sight of the sunlight in front of him. He stretched his arms and was about to get up to get ready for school when he felt something stir on his chest. He looked down to see a mass of blond, and smiled when he remembered last night.
"Jou---Katsuya?" Hiroto leaned down and kissed his now lover's head. Katsuya only stirred in his deep sleep. The brunette chuckled softly. "Katsuya?"
The blond groaned and stretched his arms, blinking as he looked up at Hiroto's face.
"Good morning, love. Time to wake up. We have to go to school, remember?" Speaking of school, he had to get there early to do his homework.
The blond growled as he closed his eyes and snuggled deeper on his lover's chest. "Can we skip school for now? I don't feel like going. . . I'm aching all over."
Hiroto laughed as he ruffled his lover's hair. "And I'm pretty sure you're blaming me?"
"No." Then the blond stirred. "Hmmm. . . maybe."
"Hey! You asked for it!" The brunette slapped Katsuya awake. "And besides, I told you before we did it that it would hurt. You even told me," Hiroto imitated his lover's voice from last night. " 'I want to do it now. And I know you'll take away the pain as soon as it comes.' "
Katsuya sat up to retort back, but cried instead when he felt a sharp pain in his back. All the teasing forgotten, Hiroto too sat up and held his lover worriedly by the shoulders. "Hey, take it easy. Don't force yourself. Why don't you just lie down for awhile." The blond did what his lover said and lay back on the bed as Hiroto leaned on the headboard.
"Damn. . . it really hurts."
"It's my fault. I shouldn't have done it when I knew you weren't ready, Katsuya. It's okay if we skip school for today. . . I don't mind." Hiroto caressed the blond's cheek. "You just lie down here and rest."
Katsuya shook his head as he looked up. "No, Hiroto." He said softly. "It was never your fault. I don't blame you at all. I really wanted it, and I have no regrets doing it. Especially when I've done it with you."
The brunette smiled down at his lover. "Me too. . . I have no regrets as well." Hiroto kissed the other's head. "I've always wanted to do it with you." The blond snuggled in Hiroto's chest again and closed his eyes. He sighed happily as he started to go in a deep sleep again.
Hiroto was about to say "I love you" when the phone rang beside him.
"Who would be calling at this time, Hiroto?" Katsuya mumbled.
"I don't know, love." The hazel-eyed teen picked up the phone. "Hello?"
"Honda?" It was Yugi. "Well, I just want to know if you're getting ready for school."
"Uhm. . . yeah. Almost." Hiroto said, uneasily. "Why're you asking?"
"Well, there's a blackout in Domino right now due to the storm last night. So, there won't be any classes for today."
"Really?!" Honda's face lit up. "That's great!!!!!!"
Yugi chuckled. Katsuya tapped Hiroto's shoulder. "What happened?" He mouthed.
"Yugi, wait up." The brunette covered the phone with his hand and told his lover the news.
"Really?!" Kastuya sat up and punched the air with his fist, not minding at first the pain in his back. "WHOOOOPIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Hiroto chuckled as he went back to the phone. "Well, that's good news, Yugi. Thanks for telling."
"That's no problem. Well, I have to go and call Jounouchi, though I'm sure he's still asleep."
"Oh, that's no problem Yugi. He's here, so I'll tell him right away." Then Hiroto covered his mouth. In his excitement, he didn't realize what he had told Yugi, and now the secret's out.
"What? Jounouchi's there? What's he doing there? I thought you two are fighting." Yugi asked, curiously, though there was a hint of amusement in his voice. "Honda, did Jou sleep there?"
"Uh. . . look I'll talk to you later Yugi, okay?"
"But Honda---" Yugi was cut off when Hiroto put down the phone. When he looked at Katsuya, he was frowning and gritting his teeth. "Hey, what's wrong?"
"You know well what's wrong!" The blond said irritably.
Hiroto chuckled. "I told you not to force yourself. C'mon." He laid Katsuya's head on his chest. "By the way, I accidentally told Yugi about you being here."
"So, that's the reason you put down the phone when Yugi hadn't finished talking yet."
"Uh. . . yeah. You're not mad?"
"Why would I be mad?" Katsuya touched the tip of Hiroto's nose. "The others would know, one way or another. You might as well give Yugi a hint already." Both boys laughed.
"Well." Hiroto placed a hand around his blond lover and held him close. "Since we don't have any school today, I say we go back to sleep." Katusya nodded, but not before both boys shared their first deep passionate kiss that morning. The brunette was about to say "I love you" to his blond lover, but then he thought. . .
The breathless looks they gave to each other, the way their bodies molded together like an intricate puzzle, the harmony of their thoughts and emotions. . . sometimes, words are simply not enough to describe a feeling such as this. And in this instance, with Katsuya close to Hiroto, words are merely meaningless.
Words are never needed.
~~~THE END~~FIN~~WAKAS~~OWARI~~~
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A/N: Well that's the end. So, how was it? Hmmm. . . I'm expecting some to comment on the couple's making out. . . and I want all of you to be honest, whether good or bad! Obviously, this is the first time that I wrote a making out scene, so I'm still not satisfied with it. . . I need more practice in writing this kind of stuff! XI Please, please review on it, and tell me what's wrong, what's not supposed to be there, what should remain, etc., so that I would know what should be done on the next fics that I will make.
Oh, and another explanation. I'm sorry if I didn't continue the love scene. Well, it's because I still don't know how to write such stuff. And I want to take it slowly and not jump immediately to something I'm still not good at.
Hmmm. . . what else? Oh yeah, I'm doing Chapter 3 of "Holding Onto You", so watch out for it!
And speaking of Mooguri Klaine, go check out her first ever fic called "Merry-Go-Round". It's a Seto/Yami fic, and I'm telling you all, it's a great fic with a witty and funny storyline. One of my favorite Seto/Yami fics already. I'm sure Seto/Yami fans are going to enjoy it as much as I did! ^_~
Well, looks like that's it. YES! MY FIRST FIC EVER TO BE FINISHED!!! I enjoyed doing this though there are few reviews and it took more than three days for me to complete the making out scene.
Again, review, review, review!!!
Byers!!! ^_~
~~silver dragongurl~~
