CHAPTER FOUR: IT'S GONNA BE!
It's gonna be me, baby. It's gonna be you, babyTime, I've been patient for so long. How can I pretend to be so strong? Looking at you, baby. Feeling it too, baby. If I'm asking you to hold me tight, Then it's gonna be all right
It's gonna be love, It's gonna be great. It's gonna be more than I can take , It's gonna be free, It's gonna be real, It's gonna change everything I feel, It's gonna be sad, It's gonna be true, It's gonna be me, baby. It's gonna be you, baby. It's gonna be..... It's gonna be love
Time in my restless sorrow pool. How can you pretend to be so cruel? Maybe it's me, baby. Maybe it's true, baby. Maybe it's everything we're dreaming of. We've waited long enough
The sooner you let two hearts beat together, The sooner you'll know this love is forever, Love needs time now or never, It's gonna be tough. You gotta believe. It's gonna be strong enough
It's gonna be you're the one to do, It's gonna be hard, It's gonna be tough, It's gonna be more than just enough, It's gonna be love. Oh, it's gonna be love
It's gonna be Love, Mandy Moore.
Surprise! Still Suze's Dream.
Seven months and three weeks after the first kissSuze's P. O. V.
It was a fresh night, the one before my wedding, and I couldn't sleep. I wasn't than nervous, it was more like impatient, I couldn't wait to be Jesse's. Things moved fast after that afternoon and our fist kiss. We kept on our daily routines: he helping his dad to run the ranch; Me hanging around with his sisters, getting to know him and his family better and enjoying the quiet slow life at the Ranch. Afternoons were our time, we would sneak out (helped often by Abuela and his sisters, even Mapi, who wasn't that happy about it at first), and spend our time together.
I learned a lot about him, like, the scar on his eyebrow… a horse made that, it was the first horse he ever had to tame, when he was thirteen; He was named Hector after his father to follow tradition (there had been tons of Hectors in his family) but Abuela started to call him Jesse to avoid mix ups between him and his dad. He enjoyed reading all kinds of books, historical novels were some of his faves. Mapi was his favorite sister, which meant that I spend good time trying to win her over, so she wouldn't freak out when she found out we liked to French kiss.
Jesse always thought about the most random things we could do together, he even tried to make me lose my fear of horses (the farther he got was that I approached his horse when I was with him and he made me). One day he took Mapi, Delia, Tess and me to the town, there was this big ball coming up, and we needed dresses. My mom and Mrs. Catherine were already at the seamstress with Delia and Margarita. I was still staying at the ranch on account of stupid Brad getting himself sick again and dragging Dave and Andy with him this time. That and Abuela brainwashing mom about how good as for me to have other people to play, yes "play", and the wonders of the country life.
Anyway, Jesse and me were out of the seamstress place, his sisters had already gone inside, he was just saying "see you later" because he was going to play cards with his friends, but before going his way, he pulled me close and kissed me in public for the first time.
Flashback, Jesse and his friends"See you later, Querida" Jesse said, Suze just smiled and walked off. Now he realized that his friends were just a few feet away, laughing at him
"Who is that?" Laurence wanted to know "And why did you call her "Querida"? Is our little Jesse In Love?"
"That's Susannah" he answered ignoring the last part "she is the daughter of Andy Ackerman's wife. She has been staying at the ranch"
"And getting to know you better" Terrence teased "Or your tongue, more likely"
"I have never hear you call anyone "querida" before. And you do look stupidly and blissfully happy. I think you got it bad for this girl" Hugo intervened
"I know, I think I love her, you know"
"When did you meet her? we have never seen her around" Laurence asked, for a guy, he liked the gossip quite a bit
"Three weeks" Jesse answered, realizing how little time really was "a bit more if you count when I almost ran over her with my horse"
"Ah, she is horse-girl" Terrence wonder in
"Hey, but aren't you supposed to marry Maria sometime soon" Hugo wanted to know
"I'll not marry Maria. I wouldn't if Susannah had not come around, and I definitely won't now that I have her in my life"
"You got it bad" the three friends said as one.
End of FlashbackBack to Susannah P. O. V.
And three days later, he told me he loved me, on one of our random afternoons spent together. We were at the cliff again, making up the forms of the clouds in the blue sky above us, both of us laying in the grass.
"That looks like rabbit" I said pointing at some fluffy cloud, he had been quiet for a while now "And that looks like a train full of screaming children falling off a cliff"
"Uh huh" he said distracted, then it clicked into his brain "What?"
"Just checking if you were listening" I said smiling, he turned on his side, popping up in an elbow and started to tickle me "Stop, Stop, Please!"
He stopped, tucked one bit of my hair behind my ear and looked into my eyes as if he could read me like an open book "I love you" he said in a quiet voice, as if was a spell that could be broken by saying the words too loud. He didn't make it sound easy or like if he had said it before a thousand of times. No, instead he sounded secure, confident, sure of what he had just said.
I touched his face with my fingertips, in a soft caress, then ran my hands through his dark hair. "I love you, too" it came out softly but clear… true. I think I had loved him since forever, like it was meant to be. And for that moment, everything was perfect.
Then we proceeded to one of the best snogging sessions we have had…which is saying something because, for me, each kiss is mind blowing.
His proposal came just as unexpected, mere weeks later… I was due to go home with my mother the next day, so he had take me out for a picnic, where he said he would think of me everyday and that he would go to visit me in town practically everyday. And that he was going to miss seeing me at his house everyday. We wanted to stay together. When we were about to get back into the house, Tess and Mapi came out running
"Dad wants to talk to you, Jesse" Mapi said while Tess took me by the arm
"Come Suze, lets make that Chocolate cake you were telling us about the other day" Tess said
"Yes, Suze, lets go" Mapi said taking my hand "Jesse, good luck"
Flashback, The Two Hectors.
"I'm sorry, son, but it's your duty" Mr. Hector said half yelling
"But I don't love her, you can't make me marry Maria, I don't even like her"
"It's your duty, the engagement is going to be announced at the ball next week"
"You said you wouldn't marry us to follow blood lines…"
"I said I would never marry your sisters like that, but you have responsibilities towards this family and our name. You will marry Maria De Silva, it's the way things are, you just have to deal with it"
"Would you have?" Jesse asked yelling "Would you just have dealed with it if someone had told you that you couldn't marry my mom because you had to marry your cousin?" Mr. Hector fell back into his chair, thinking hard "I Love Susannah, I want to marry her"
Mr. Hector opened his desk, pulling out a little box "This is yours" he said "Your grandfather gave it to you, and it's up to you to decide who is going to wear it for the rest of her life. You are right, I wouldn't had just dealed with it if someone told me I couldn't marry Catherine. Marry Susannah, if she takes you"
End of Flashback
Back to Suze's P. O. V.
When he asked me to marry him, I , of course, said "YES!" and 6 months and three weeks later I was getting married, and I couldn't wait. It wasn't easy to get my mom to like this, she said, in a hurt voice, that I hadn't even spent a full day with her at our new house, and already I had a ring on my finger (that at some point belonged to Jesse's great-grandmother) and agreed to marry a man I hardly knew.
"Getting pre-wedding jitters?" my mom asked that fresh night, I was looking out my window, I knew the Pacific was out there, thinking in that first kiss, and that first "I love you", dreaming about tomorrow when I would be his wife.
"Not at all" I said turning around to her voice "I just can't wait"
Mom sat down in my bed "Oh, Susie" she said "I can't believe you're doing this. You're so sure, why? You have all the time in the world, you're barely of age to marry. And I just don't get how you know Jesse is the right one" (A/N When she meets Jesse, in the dream, Suze is 17, at this point she is 18, young but at that time you married very young. Jesse is 20 or 21, haven't done the math yet)
I thought of this, really thought about it "I liked how I felt when he took my hand (the first time), it wasn't like someone just dragging me along, but someone that cared about me. When he holds me in his arms, I feel so secure, so protected, at home. And when he kisses me, I feel like I'm special, like the most special girl in the world, because somehow I know Jesse thinks I'm all that" I came close to mom and took a sit next to her "I love him, mom. I really do, he is the one for me. I know it, I can feel it, I love him"
And sure enough, the next night at the same hour, I was Mrs. Susannah De Silva. Jesse was kissing me and holding me in his arms. Loving me: heart, soul and body! (wink, wink)
The end of Suze's Dream End of Chapter fourNotes:
The end comes in the next chapter. Suze wakes up and other things are clarified.
Sorry if this isn't good, I'm under lots of stress and I wrote this in a hospital room, so inspiration wasn't really easy to find there. Hope it isn't confusing.
Thanks for reading
R/R
Love,
Alex
