AN: OK I'm soooooooooo sorry it's been sooooooo long. I hurt my arm and
couldn't type for a little while and then I moved. I didn't have a
computer for a little while so things got delayed further. I'm set up now
though so if people still want to hear the story I'll go on. This
chapter's short and is just more of the journal but I wanted to just get
back into writing mode.
Disclaimer: I only own the story that I'm applying to the characters that I don't own from the TV show that I also don't own.
Once I was sure everyone was asleep, I snuck back into Jimmy's house. When I started to pack my bags for the second time in three months, I noticed a note from Jimmy.
Jess-
Talked to Sasha, you can take Lily. Good
Luck. Keep in touch.
Jimmy
I was shocked. That was all he had to say? After all that had happened, he only had fourteen words for me? Well I guess I had been lucky that he left a note this time. Wondering if they even told Lily, I snuck into her room. She was still sleeping. She looked so peaceful I didn't want to wake her. Wanting to leave before sunrise I whispered "Lily wake up."
She opened her eyes slowly at first but when she saw it was me she sat up quickly. "I thought you were gone."
I smiled. "Not without you." Her eyes widened. I think that was the first time I really saw her happy.
"You mean it? You're taking me with you?"
"Yep. Now pack whatever you can carry, I want to be gone before the morning."
While she packed I wrote a letter to Jimmy.
Jimmy,
I told Lily to pack only what she can carry since we have to take the bus back. I'll write when we get there if all goes well so you can send the rest of her stuff. You know, I'm not sure why I even came here after you. I don't think that I got what I was looking for, but what I got was perhaps more important. I had a hole in my life because my father abandoned me with my drug-addicted mother. This had become my excuse for everything. When I cut school, when I eventually didn't graduate, when I stole or got arrested, it blamed it all on you guys for not caring enough to be there. The I moved to Stars Hollow and fell in love. Rory may not have had things as bad as me, but her father wasn't always there wither. Now she's starting Yale. It made me wonder if there was another way. I was still to blinded by anger to see that maybe I could live like that too. Coming here changed me. Instead of using my regular excuse for where I am right now, I'm leaving here knowing what is really important. I have found love, even though I had to leave her to come here. I will do anything not to end up like you and Liz. I won't resort to selling drugs. I will make something of myself because I still have hope. I have hope for a future and I have hope that one day I can bring that future back with me to share with Rory. I just pray that she'll have me back, however I could never have been the man she needs had I not come. I have a long way to go and if I fail it will be no ones fault but my own. So you don't have to feel obligated to me any longer, if you ever did. As far as "keeping in touch" I do not yet have the strength or time to talk to you if you're still in this state. I cannot afford to associate myself with drug dealers or users. I have to much to lose. I watched drugs ruin everything around me my entire life. I would suggest you and Sasha use this time to get yourselves help. Despite what you may think, I don't hate you anymore. I wish you both the best of luck and would love to hear from you once you have your life together. Thank you, I am leaving here a better man.
-Jess Mariano
Once we were all packed, we headed for the bus station. Luckily it wasn't long before the bus arrived. I was glad Lily was tired, she had no idea what a long ride it would be.
Disclaimer: I only own the story that I'm applying to the characters that I don't own from the TV show that I also don't own.
Once I was sure everyone was asleep, I snuck back into Jimmy's house. When I started to pack my bags for the second time in three months, I noticed a note from Jimmy.
Jess-
Talked to Sasha, you can take Lily. Good
Luck. Keep in touch.
Jimmy
I was shocked. That was all he had to say? After all that had happened, he only had fourteen words for me? Well I guess I had been lucky that he left a note this time. Wondering if they even told Lily, I snuck into her room. She was still sleeping. She looked so peaceful I didn't want to wake her. Wanting to leave before sunrise I whispered "Lily wake up."
She opened her eyes slowly at first but when she saw it was me she sat up quickly. "I thought you were gone."
I smiled. "Not without you." Her eyes widened. I think that was the first time I really saw her happy.
"You mean it? You're taking me with you?"
"Yep. Now pack whatever you can carry, I want to be gone before the morning."
While she packed I wrote a letter to Jimmy.
Jimmy,
I told Lily to pack only what she can carry since we have to take the bus back. I'll write when we get there if all goes well so you can send the rest of her stuff. You know, I'm not sure why I even came here after you. I don't think that I got what I was looking for, but what I got was perhaps more important. I had a hole in my life because my father abandoned me with my drug-addicted mother. This had become my excuse for everything. When I cut school, when I eventually didn't graduate, when I stole or got arrested, it blamed it all on you guys for not caring enough to be there. The I moved to Stars Hollow and fell in love. Rory may not have had things as bad as me, but her father wasn't always there wither. Now she's starting Yale. It made me wonder if there was another way. I was still to blinded by anger to see that maybe I could live like that too. Coming here changed me. Instead of using my regular excuse for where I am right now, I'm leaving here knowing what is really important. I have found love, even though I had to leave her to come here. I will do anything not to end up like you and Liz. I won't resort to selling drugs. I will make something of myself because I still have hope. I have hope for a future and I have hope that one day I can bring that future back with me to share with Rory. I just pray that she'll have me back, however I could never have been the man she needs had I not come. I have a long way to go and if I fail it will be no ones fault but my own. So you don't have to feel obligated to me any longer, if you ever did. As far as "keeping in touch" I do not yet have the strength or time to talk to you if you're still in this state. I cannot afford to associate myself with drug dealers or users. I have to much to lose. I watched drugs ruin everything around me my entire life. I would suggest you and Sasha use this time to get yourselves help. Despite what you may think, I don't hate you anymore. I wish you both the best of luck and would love to hear from you once you have your life together. Thank you, I am leaving here a better man.
-Jess Mariano
Once we were all packed, we headed for the bus station. Luckily it wasn't long before the bus arrived. I was glad Lily was tired, she had no idea what a long ride it would be.
