~~Sakura P.O.V~~

I am in my room again. I pretend that for one minute I'm a normal teenage girl. Pretend that I'm not pregnant and that my world isnt falling apart.

But then I think about the child growing inside of my body and I think to myself 'I'm not a normal teenage girl I'm fifteen and I AM pregnant and my world IS falling apart.' Then I realize; there is nothing I can do about that.

Now I sit here and I contemplate my decision. I sit here still tainted and shattered like the child that's growing inside of me.

My life is just so fucked up right now I don't know what to do anymore. I have a child growing inside of me and I don't know what I'm gonna do about it. I'm a child having a child.

I have to think about the future and what will happen if I have an abortion, adoption or have this baby.

Deception and lies, jealousy and scandal welcome to my reality.

Here I sit all alone shattered. Shattered and broken into small fragments of pale porcelain.

My heart has broken into a million pieces but they still all belong to him. Sometimes love feels like heaven other times it hurts like hell.

I wish I knew what to do. To kill my child would make me a murderer but what else can I do? I wouldn't be able to go through with an adoption and having the child alone would be much too hard for a fifteen year old girl.

So here I sit broken hearted and I watch as life goes on.

Pitter-patter pitter-patter. The rain falls slowly down my window. I watch it and it seems to calm my nerves.

The rain falls in large splatters on the ground. It's much like life really it keeps going on and on til it reaches the rocky end and no one cares any more.

Why is it that sometimes life is so fleeting yet at other times it seems to take an eternity?

The rain moves torturously slowly down the window.

The rain falls in larger drops now. I sit still for a while contemplating abortion for this child growing inside of me.

So now I sit in a chair contemplating life-changing decisions.

I sit and think about times when the world was right and I was happy.

~*Flashback*~

A girl at the age of thirteen looked up at the sky. It was beginning to rain. Her emerald eyes shone brightly as they always did. At that moment a boy with chestnut hair and amber eyes grabbed her from around the waist. "Ya know; I've always loved the rain. The way that it drops from a cloud...free from all restraints, death always only a drop away." "I know Sakura." He said looking at her eyes for a moment.

The rain started to come down more heavily. "I think we should get going." The boy told the young girl.

From the corner of his eye he saw her spinning around and to his amusement her skirt was flying up giving him a lovely view. "If you don't stop that you'll fall over and crack your head open." He threatened. "I don't care. At least I'll die happy." She said carelessly.

Her pale skin could make the moon envious and her soft, honeyed hair that swung around her waist made gold look like dirt, her eyes were the color of pure emeralds, innocent and fresh, they made the boys swoon.

She had been asked out many times but she didn't like it because she knew every boy that asked her out would end up with a broken heart as she was already taken and wouldn't dare go behind her love's back.

She was happy at this stage of her life. She was thirteen she had a trustworthy, gorgeous and sweet boyfriend who kept her company on those long days when Tomoyo was in Paris with mother and father was on an archaeological dig and I was all alone.

~*End Flashback*~