Warning:  Yaoi, a bit of implications, and serious musings.

Disclaimer:  I wish.

Why?

'Why?  Why are we here?  Why do we live?'

A grunt.  A sigh.

'Nobody knows why, Carrot.'

Chains shaken desolately.

'But…do we not grow wiser, as we age?  Surely, someone can finally find out.  About why we are here.  It seems rather pointless to me to continue on living.  It is always a neverending cycle of hate and war.'

Tears form.

'…I suppose, it's not for entertainment?'

'Fuck, no.  I'd kill the bastard who would though.'

'If it's not for entertainment, what else is there? A collaborate plot to achieve something?  Or is it all a big theater, like that black box the parsoners keep harping on about…'

Irritated sigh.

'What brought this?'

'You know why.  The lilies are in bloom again.'

A depressed sigh.

'Oh…the anniversary?'

'…'

'You have to face it sooner, Carrot.  Maybe one day, you'll meet them again.  Resurrected.'

'But what will they think of me?  What will they think of this?'

A kiss.  Cool and tender.

'Does it matter?'

'…No.  I just wish that they would understand and accept you.'

A sneer.

'They shall never accept me after what I have done to them and to their world.'

A brief gasp.  Surging memories.  A silence.

Then, arms, comforting.

'I apologize.'

'You are forgiven.'  For everything, he added silently.

Kisses.  Soft and yielding.

'But do you know why?'

'…I am not sure…But maybe it is to feel.'

'To feel?'

'Yes, to feel.  To feel the warm rays of the sun on your arms while you embrace your children and beloved.  To feel the cool drops of the rain as you stood with me watching the sky.  To feel warmth in our bed after our night.  To feel being loved and loving in return.  Maybe it's just all about that.  Just to be able to be given a chance to feel life.'

An amused chuckle.

'I never thought you would be a romantic fool, Zaha.'

'You thought wrong.'

'…'

'I…I am sorry.'

'It's alright.'

'Let us just return to our previous activities, ne?'

A giggle.  Blushes and later on moans.

Happily Ever After…As much as they could in the world.