A Hundred Years

Disclaimers: Don't own 'em, I'm just a spoony bard.

WARNING!!! This is a yaoi fic. That means boys loving boys in the physical way. Get over it or don't read it. Oh yeah, it also had some shitty language. Yeah, I know, fuck it.

Dedication.

This fic goes out o Kristina Elaine Sarow. Born May 1, 1985 Died September 29 2003. I love you Kristi.

Ch5

18 (after the war)

I pulled away from kissing Rinoa. She smiled up at me and snuggled me. That kiss had been everything she ever wanted.

I'd wanted that kiss to taste like cigarettes and coffee.

Instead it tasted like strawberry lip-gloss and wine.

I was disappointed beyond all belief.

But I smiled for her. It was because of her I was here, she brought me back.

But it was his green eyes that haunted me. And I don't hate Rinoa anymore. I'm proud of her. But she's not Seifer. And I don't want her to get the wrong impression.

"Rinoa?" I pulled completely away from her.

"Squall? Is something wrong?" She pursed her lips and looked confused.

"I can't do this. I leaned over the railing of the balcony, looking at the water below. "There's someone else."

She looked downcast. "Oh."

"I don't even know if he feels the same way."

Her eyes shot up at me. "He? This other person is a guy?"

I looked around. Quistis and Selphie stood with Irvine jus tout of earshot. They were helping him change the batteries in the camcorder.

"Can we talk someplace more private?" She nodded at me and I led her out of the ballroom to the secret area in the Training Center. There were two cadets there making out but they left when they saw who I was.

"So." Rinoa leaned on the rail. "Who is he?"

"You know him." I told her, I wanna see how smart she's gotten.

"Zell?" I laughed at her.

"Hells no. He's my best friend. And I thought you knew he had that thing for Quisty. Guess again."

"Irvine?" I snorted. "Guess not. Then who-?" Then it dawned on her. "Seifer."

I nodded. "Since I was sixteen."

"And you love him." She stated this rather than asking. Looking down over the edge to the ocean she sighed. "So it was you."

"What?" I looked over at her shocked.

"Seifer's boy. He talked about you a lot. Never mentioned your name, but he called me the night you broke up. He spent three hours on the phone with me that night."

"You mean to tell me he still cared?" I had thought Seifer hated me for what I did. But if he didn't then, all the things I've done to him since, he probably does now.

"Yeah. He told me that the fight was his fault and that he should have respected you enough to keep the relationship private. Oh, and that he was lost without you."

"He said that?" My voice was small, and unsure. Our breakup hadn't been sad for me, just angry. And now, for the first time, I wondered how he'd felt.

"Yeah. Look. Squall, I'm glad you realized how you feel. You should tell him." And then she walked away. Leaving me with my thoughts.

A week ago today I stood in the training center, pouring my heart out to Rinoa and finding out that Seifer had still loved me. I have no idea where to find him, or how tot ell him. But we land in Ballamb in ten minutes.

Zell opened my door and walked in. "It's today. You doing it when we land." He grinned at me. It appeared that he hadn't forgotten my promise.

I don't want to, and yet I do. What if he hears me? What if he doesn't feel the same way? What if he doesn't hear me? What if he does feel the same way?

"Hey Squall!!! I can't hear you when you talk inside your head. And there's no getting gout of it. C'mon."

I wasn't given the time to protest. He grabbed me by the arm and hauled me out of my room. People looked at us funny. How often is it that you see Zell Dincht pulling the Commander down the hallway by his arm? He shoved me into the elevator and hit the third floor button.

"We can take the ladder in your office to the roof." And the elevator went up. Zell bounced in the corner.

"Please stop. I 'm nervous enough as it is." I rubbed my eyes, wishing I'd never told him.

"How come? It's not like he's standing at the front gate or anything." Zell snorted.

"This is the first time I'll have said it out loud."

"You have got to be shittin' me. You've been in love with him how long and you never said it?"

"No I haven't now please shut the fuck up!!! Hyne! Why the hell did I even tell you!" I punched the wall as the elevator stopped.

Zell walked out first, still pulling me by the arm.

"I can walk you know."

"Sorry. I'm just excited for you is all." Zell grinned at me as we felt the unmistakable shudder of Garden landing.

I reached up, being the taller of the two of us and pulled open the hatch to release the ladder. And briefly wondered why the hell I was doing this.

Oh yeah, I love Seifer.

"Zell?" I turned to him, poised and ready to start climbing.

"What? Are gong or do I have to carry you?"

Impatient little bastard. I shot him a glare and started up. "What if he didn't make it? What if he's dead?"

I heard Zell snort. "Fuck squall, he's Seifer Almasy, asshole extraordinaire, do you really think he's dead?"

Short little fucker had a point. "No, he's way to stubborn to lay down and die." And it's the truth. I doubt Seifer would die if I impaled him with Leonheart.

We reached the roof and I climbed out of the hole, wincing as the bright sunlight hit my eyes. Zell was out two seconds later.

"Wow," he breathed, "it's beautiful up here. We can see all of Balamb!"

It was beautiful. I looked around and almost fell when Zell pushed me at the edge.

"What the fuck was that for?"

"Scream it." And he folded his arms across his chest. "I'm waiting."

I took a deep breath. If I didn't do this now, then I never would. So I took another step forward and with my knees shaking like a little girl's I screamed.

"SEIFER ALAMASY, WHEREVER YOU ARE, I LOVE YOU!!!!"

I hadn't expected it to take my breath away and make me dizzy as hell. If Zell hadn't been pulling me back by the collar I would be falling a long way down right now.

"Shit Squall!! I think they heard you in Deling!" Zell helped me to my feet and over to the ladder. "I better go down first in case you fall. You look a little shaky." And he headed down the hole.

I stopped thinking then. If I hadn't then I would never have been able to make it down the ladder, let alone close the hatch behind me.

"You okay?" Zell looked a little concerned.

"Yeah, I just. Fuck." I rubbed my face.

"You must really love him. I don't thin anyone's aver seen you like this, all shaky and emotional like."

"Seifer has" I answered him absentmindedly.

Zell grinned as my secretary knocked on the door. "Sir? They need you at the front gate. The students are rioting over something.

I sighed. If it wasn't one thing it was another.

When I got there, Quistis had the situation almost under control. She was standing the mid dle of the students next to an achingly familiar man.

"Squall!!' she waved her arms over the student's heads to motion for me to come over.

It was like Moses and the Red fucking Sea. The students parted for me, most of them silent in my presence but a few still whispered.

And the man next to Quistis turned and leaned on the gate. He had Hyperion thrown over one shoulder and his trench coat flared behind him.

Seifer.

My step didn't falter. I'd admitted my feelings, screamed them from the roof loud enough for Hyne to hear. And if he was standing here, then he heard too.

My eyes locked with his. The students closed in behind me, probably thinking I was going to kick his sorry ass out of Garden. Seifer set Hyperion down. Quistis stepped back next to Zell (who I have no idea how he got there). He was grinning like crazy.

Three more steps and I was face to face with him for the first time since the D-district prison. And I kissed him.

This was the kiss I'd wanted when I had kissed Rinoa. It tasted exactly how I wanted it to; it felt exactly how I wanted it to. I lost myself in this kiss. I devoured his mouth and let him devour mine. And when I pulled away, out of breath, one thing came to mind.

(It's not like he's standing at the front gate or anything.)

I straightened myself and looked at the crowd. "Students, please return to your classes, there's nothing else to see." My voice was stoic but I glared at Zell. "You have five seconds before I hunt you down and kick the shit out of you."

Zell's eyes grew wide. He 'eep'ed' and took off. As soon as his feet hit the ground I started counting. "Five, four, three, two, one." And I was off.

I left behind me a smiling Seifer and a very confused Quistis.

I caught up with Zell in the parking lot.

"C'mon Squall!! How else was I gonna get you to tell him?" He backed away.

I find it funny. Zell has been my best friend for over two years and even he can't read me sometimes. So I paused in my pursuit and gave him my 'annoyed' look.

"Damnnit Zell!! You are a dumb fuck. Yeah I'm mad that you set me up. But at the same time, you had to go through a lot of trouble to do so."

Zell's face contorted in the all too familiar "Zelly is confused" look. "Buh? I don't get it. So are you pissed or not?"

I shrugged. "Fuck if I know."

"You shoulda seen Seifer's face after that kiss. He was so happy." Zell grinned and we both headed for the door. "And poor Quisty looked like she was gonna die of shock!!"

I smiled "And I bet that kiss and the fact I told you I was gonna kick the shit out of you will be all over garden my Dinner." I laughed.

"So, lets say we grab your boy and Quisty and go get some lunch?"

"Sounds good." And we headed back to the front gate.

As expected, they were still there. Quistis was barricading Seifer with Questions she never finished, but Seifer answered them anyway.

"Wha-?"

"Squall and I are gay."

"When did this-?"

"Squall's sixteenth birthday."

"How the hell didn't anyone-?"

"People are stupid."

And then she did finish one question. "Why?"

He looked up and smiled, realizing then that Zell and I were there. Quisty's gaze followed. "Because it was meant to be."

"I like your answer." I said softly, a small smile creeping to my face.

Two weeks later I was in my office sorting through papers. Seifer was back in garden after a spoof of a trial. The judge panel was the six of us who had defeated Ultemicia, and since no one bore a grudge, he was re-admitted with no contest.

The cadets would be taking their field test tomorrow. Seifer's file came up; or rather suck out like a sore thumb. I've never seen a cadet file this think. The only files that even come close are mine, Quisty's, Zell's and Irvine's. But I have a feeling that this time he'll pass.

There were some bad feelings about Seifer's return to garden. A lot of the students felt threatened by his presence. But he fucking deserves another chance. Ii of al people know that.

I wish I had more time to spend with him. Since lunch with Quistis and Zell we haven't been left lone for more than five minutes. And if we are, both of us are so exhausted that all we can do is lie there and hold each other. Not that I'm complaining. At least he's here.

Zell bounced in With Quistis and Seifer in tow. "Squall, it's break time for you. You're dad's arriving in Balamb in an hour and we have to go meet him.

This took Seifer by surprise. "Your dad? When did this happen?"

"About nineteen yeas ago. He just thought that the middle of the war was a great time tot ell me."

"Well you're obviously not happy with him." Seifer smirked.

"Well you wouldn't be either if you had a moron like that as your father" o frowned and looked at Quistis, debating the issue in my head. My anger won out. "I'm not going. Take Selphie, she'll be thrilled."

Seifer got angry. "Fuck Squall, thanks a lot for throwing me to the wolves. Your gonna let your boyfriend meet your father all by himself?"

Zell quietly coughed to get Quistis's attention and then pointed at the door. It clicked quietly behind them.

I turned my chair to face Seifer. "Is this important to you?"

"Damn right it is!! I want to be there with you when I meet him. Not feel like a worm on a fucking hook. What the hell am I supposed to say to him? 'Hi I'm Seifer Almasy. I'm in love with your son and I like to fuck him silly'?"

The scene played over and over in my mind. Each time with Laguna actually shutting up because he was too shocked to speak.

"You know what? Yeah. Say that. But I have to be there to see it." I stood up and grabbed my jacket off the back of my chair.

"You can't be serious." Seifer looked shocked.

"Oh I am. Now go change into your uniform. My dad's a pretty important guy." And I walked out.

I met the other three in the parking lot about ten minutes later. We all looked ridiculous in our uniforms. Especially Seifer since he was still al cadet. Kinda makes me wish I had a camera.

"Here." Zell handed me one. Out of the blue.

"What?"

"I can usually read you pretty good. Here's I'll show you how to put the timer on so we can all be in the picture."

While Zell helped me with the camera, Seifer stood quietly by and looked nervous. At least he managed to put it together for the picture.

We piled ourselves into a Garden car. Zell was Driving with Quistis riding shotgun. We were halfway there before Seifer spoke.

"HOW important is your dad exactly"

I grinned at Zell who was the only one who could see me. Quistis had taken the wheel from him and was steering from the passenger's seat and Seifer leaned back with his eyes closed. Zell grinned. "Really important." He knew the game. And he changed the subject. "Think he'll embarrass you anything like last time?"

I snorted. "Knowing that moron, yes."

We arrived at Balamb. The next minute was a jumble of getting out of the car, making Seifer get out and heading for the station.

"Remember ho you promised to introduce yourself." I whispered to Seifer.

Typical Laguna, he fell getting off the train. We all laughed, including him. What a moron. He walked over to us and smiled.

"Hi Zell, Quisty, Squally. Who's this?" he pointed at Seifer.

"Laguna, don't call me Squally unless you want me to punch you in the face." I turned to Seifer. "That's him."

For about two seconds I didn't think he was gonna do it. Then with all the arrogance he possessed, he stuck out his hand. "Hi. I'm Seifer Almasy. I'm in love with your son and I like to fuck him silly."

Laguna started to shake his hand and introduce himself. He got as far as "I'm la-"before what Seifer had said struck him. Then he was silent. I started timing. Two minutes and seventeen seconds passed before Laguna blinked.

"I'm Laguna Loire, President of Esthar. It's nice to meet you." He said tit slowly, as if he thought the whole thing was a joke.

Zell bust out laughing. "Fuck!! That was the funniest thing I have ever heard!!" Even Quistis was laughing.

Seifer looked at me. "Hmmm... president of Esthar huh? You weren't kidding when you told me your dad was important."

I smiled at Seifer. The five of us headed back to Garden. I guess Seifer really got Laguna good; he was quiet the whole way.

By the time we got back it was dinnertime. Laguna opted to eat wit us in the caf.

"So Seifer, you really said that to Sir Laguna?" Selphie was a happy little bubble tonight. Laguna was sitting by her. Personally if she thinks he's so great hen she can have him as a father. I don't need one.

"Well, there's no point in asking him when he's on internal monologue mode." Seifer's voice permeated my thoughts.

"Ask me what?" I looked up, confused.

"If you would be Seifer's date to the SeeD graduation ball. Assuming he makes it of course." Irvine drawled. Rinoa laughed.

"Of course he'll make it. He's Seifer Almasy." She smiled.

"Not necessarily. People are more apt to fuck with me now. Many students would rather give up being SeeD than see me as one."

Even though the conversation had changed I answered him anyway. "Of course I will. And even if he doesn't, he can still be my date."

"Don't worry." All of Seifer's nerves were gone now and he was all arrogance and pride again. "I'll pass and you'll be my date, not the other way around." The comment had double meaning. In all our times together, I had never been allowed to fuck Seifer. He had to be tops. Not that I mind. Hells, I love the feel of Seifer pounding into my ass. It's a feeling I miss, a feeling I want. Soon, now. Fuck.

"Okay Zell, you're his best friend, what does that mean?"

Zell blushed. So he could tell what that meant. He mumbled and 'I don't know' and got up to get something to drink.

"I know what that look means." Seifer smiled slowly.

"What?" Rinoa asked innocently. Everyone else except her and my moron of a father had understood.

"It means." Seifer stood up and picked me up. "That we are going to my bedroom and you are not going to see your commander for the rest of the night." And I allowed him to carry me out of the Cafeteria. I didn't care if the students talked. Let them. And let it be known that I love this man.

The last thing I saw was my friends' shocked faces. In reality I had forgotten to tell Selphie and Irvine that this wasn't a joke and that I really was gay. I guess they know now.

As soon as the door to Seifer's room closed behind us we were in motion. I didn't even bother with the zipper on Seifer's vest. I tore it open to expose the flesh I wanted beneath. Like mine it was scattered with scars of war.

Our mouths met. No time for words I wanted him. The man I loved so much here in my arms at last.

Boots were kicked off, coats and gloved thrown on a desk. His vest hung open by the ripped zipper and I pushed it off his shoulders and tasted the pink flesh of his nipples as they presented themselves to me. My shirt was pulled off over my head and tossed to the side.

I wanted every inch of him to touch me. I pulled away long enough to take off Seifer's pants and socks so he stood naked in front of me.

Hyne what a sight. My beautiful blonde angel, before me in all his glory.

He picked me up and put me on the bed. I lay back as he unbuttoned my pants and slid them off over my hips. Then he covered me with his body. My skin was electrified by his touch.

I was ready, had been for the longest time Seifer wasted no time in finding the tube of lube in his bedside drawer and coating himself. And in one swift thrust, I was his again. Our bodies moving slowly, our eyes locked, his green eyes clouded with passion. He pushed into me again and again, waves of pleasure engulfed me.

I pushed up against him, urging him faster. Soon we pounded into each other, my lover silent as always as he forced moans from me. All I could do was throw my head back in ecstasy as he impaled me over and over. The bed squeaked and banged against the wall. My dick ached with the coil of release threatening to snap. But I wanted to come with him, holding it back until I felt the unmistakable rush into me, felt the last trust hit deep again. And as I came, I looked right into his eyes. As the last of our orgasm dies away Seifer collapsed on top of me.

My heart slowly came back to normal speed. Seifer still lay on my, his weight not unwelcome.

"I love you." He whispered.

"I love you too." I smiled against his neck and kissed it. We slept like that.

Seifer was up at 0500 hours. He showered and changed. I was supposed to watch today but I didn't have to be ready until 0800. Neither did he. Nerves I suppose. So we had breakfast. I wasn't surprised to see Quistis there, but I was surprised to see her with Zell this early. He was helping her go over some of the paperwork.

Seifer and I sat down.

"Have fun last night?" Zell teased. "Thought you'd rip his clothes off at dinner."

Seifer and Zell still don't really get along. Seifer has this weird notion that Zell has a crush on me even though everyone (except Quistis) knew that he was in love with her. "You wish just so you could have watched." Seifer smirked.

"Nah, no one should ever have to see that. Squall sure, but you? Yuck." Spikey haired little fucker was on a roll this morning.

"Looks like ickle Zelly finally found his balls." Seifer smirked again, but nor for long.

"Yeah, they seemed to have been in your mouth." Zells eyes sparkled so I knew he was joking. Seifer however, found that funny shit. He cracked up laughing and went to get his coffee. He was still laughing when he go back.

He sat down and lit a cigarette. He lit it and inhaled sharply. "Damn Zell, you have gotten some balls on you. Two years ago you would never have said that. Too bad you can't get some balls on the girl department."

Zell grinned. "I've got someone in mind. Give me time."

As if she'd had enough about balls and boy talk Quistis turned to Seifer. "You ready for today?"

"Yes. No. Yes. One of the three." And he smiled.

By 0800 he was a nervous wreck, pacing and chain smoking in the parking lot. When the transport came he was the first on it. I wouldn't see him for the rest of the day.

I had my secretary read the names to the waiting crowd. I didn't want to be there if Seifer's name wasn't on the list. But it was and I had 17 new SeeDs at my disposal. Not a bad turnout since there was only four in my graduating class. Looks like I was Seifer's date for tonight.

Selphie had a new idea for the ball this year. Instead of a formal affair she was going for a club feeling, and we were supposed to dress accordingly. I wasn't sure what she meant by club. But all my club clothes were, well, provocative.

Seifer and I were gonna turn some heads

I dressed accordingly. I wore my navy blue patent leather pants with a grey spandex shirt. I topped it off with smokey grey eyeliner and cold steel spikes. I looked damn good.

Seifer wore his red leathers with a black fishnet. He hated eyeliner and the only jewelry he ever wore was his choker.

The ball was exactly like the clubs I was used to. People were in various states of undress. Even Quistis.

Somewhere she had found a miniskirt with a tank top and thigh high boots with Fuck-me heels. She had Zell on her arm and he wore black leathers and a cobalt vest. His hair was down for once and falling in his face.

"Damn Squall." Quistis circled me. "You look... hot." If she was calling me hot then I must have done this right.

'Not bad Chicken. Can tell you actually have an ass in those."

"Blow me."

I grinned. "Only if I can watch."

"The fuck? Squall, your warped." Zell stepped away.

"Kidding." I patted Zells shoulder before making my way to the dance floor. This was going to be a night to remember.

A/N Sorry it took so long. My computer doesn't hook up to the internet and the only time I can use this one is when there are no people on it. Anyway. I promise you I'll try not to take so long with the next chapter. I know a few people from home already got to read this but they better leave me a review anyway THAT MEANS YOU LEOS!!! Anywho... I love reviews because I'm a poor college student who needs feedback