Third chapter: waiting, thought of Hinata
---Hinata POV---
The days, the months and the years will pass for me. All a little similar. When will I be rather old to he takes me with him? When will he return to seek me? I don't know. I can only wait patiently. I am patient. I wait, I live only waiting, I took up time while waiting for the day of our reunion. And I look at, I look at people around me, with new eyes, the eyes of somebody who doesn't even already form part of the village in myself.
Hanabi
Dojo escape the familiar noises of my sister training with my father. She works hard, to please our Father and our family. But I see that she put an important question to herself.
Yes, you also ,little sister, you put The Question.
The same question that I put to myself at your age.
But you will never know the answer. I know it.
Does Father like me, like me as me, as her daughter?
I, at your age, I knew the answer: Not. He didn't like me. I knew it because at this time he saw that you were better than me and he completely forsook me. If he had liked me, he wouldn't have given up me as much, he would have continue to care of me, to ask me what I had done in class, to take me along to walk with me, to tell me stories. But he gave up me. He liked me only as future heiress.
And you put the question but you will never know, except if somebody come to take your place of future heiress. But it will never arrive.
Will you find somebody who love you as you? It will be hard. You have a large handicap: the girl the most skilful in one of the most powerful family of the village. And you aren't even pretty. Your face is too hard for a girl, your glance is aggressive. You are warlike.
I have somebody... and I will not exchange him for nothing in the world.
My Father and my Mother.
Hyuga. This name means nothing any more for me, now. Now that I know I will leave with Itachi in a few years. Gradually, I became completely indifferent to my family. With my Father, my Mother, all mien... except my little sister. The honor of my name, the pride of the clan, the family... all that means nothing for me.
My father understood, one day. He spoke to me about our clan by overpowering me of reproaches, and suddenly, he was keep silent in the medium of a sentence and he looked at me. And he didn't say anything any more... He was almost disabled by my indifference. Since he doesn't speak to me any more.
Neji
I learned what had arrived at Neji. And I wondered: Did Itachi do that?
Time corresponds. he would have done that... for me? This question will remain unanswered until our reunion. I am sad for you, Neji. Our eyes, they are really our pride, our reason of living. What will you become, now that you became weak, like me, more than me? Will you succeed in supporting yourself?
Me
I do not live any more but for me, for my future life with Itachi.
I train, I learn, I progress. But I don't train too hard, I live quietly. I know that he don't ask me to be strong. I want to be strong for me.
Kurenai
Return quickly, Itachi. I don't know if I could hold a long time. Gradually, my heart joined you in the night. Nobody realizes, nobody does not see it... except Kurenai. She sees that something occurs, she sees that I change very slowly in a manner that nobody could suspect. She asks me question, discreetly. I manage to answer without give true answer. She still don't understand... but she will understand one day . then, quickly come to seek me, Itachi, before she discover the night in my heart.
The Hyuga clan.
I am afraid... I am afraid for you, Hanabi. I am afraid of the impatience of our family. I know that soon I will leave with Itachi. I will become a traitor, I would not be more Ninja. Then my father will be able to officially proclaim you heiress.
But today nobody knows it and I am always a quite cumbersome Heiress.
But if our family loses patience and decides to make of you the heiress before I leave?
Will they kill me? will they affix me the seal of confinement to make me a member of the branch house?
And what will make Itachi when he will learn it on his return?
If I died, undoubtedly he will massacre all our family, the two branches together.
If I were sealed, will he kill you. you, my dear little sister, because of who all my misfortunes are? I know, it is not your fault, it is a little mine, I am not strong enough. But I am like that. It is not my fault if my family don't accept me like that. But I don't think that Itachi reasons like that.
See what arrived at Neji.
Then I am afraid for you, little sister. Then if one proposes to you to become the heiress, please, say No . the reason doesn't matter, because you like me a little, because you are too young to take the responsibility for it, because it is more careful than the true heiress is hidden... all than you will find. You must gain time. a just little time.
