Chapter 5: two sisters.
I am 16 years old today, a day like the others, or almost. The only thing which changed is that my father speak to me during the meal: "Hinata, you are in age to marry now. You must ensure the survival of our clan and find a husband as fast as possible." And that's all. No gift, no congratulations for my birthday, nothing.
"I will think of it, Father." He seems satisfied by my answer.
Yes, I think of it. I wish only one thing: to live with a man, to remain for always with him. Itachi. I would be only with you soon. But that will not make the happiness of my clan. Father will discover it well rather early.
I go in my room and I take a roller of justu to study it before sleep. I learned much these last years. I understood that my knowledge on Ninjas arts was too weak in Genjutsu and Ninjutsu, and that in technical skills (like spy, camouflage, recognition of the plants, codes secrecy for example) then I involved myself more in these field, by forsaking the taijutsu and the Hyuga techniques a little . I am not good in Genjutsu not more than the average of ninja. On the other hand, in Ninjustu, I learned much, like in medical techniques and spy/infiltration. I would need some for my life with Itachi, I think.
Itachi.. my thought roves. How has he changed for these last years? he's more than 20 years now, he is adult. He must be good-looking.
"older sister, whom do you thinks of ? "
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I jump by discovering that Hanabi entered in my room without I heard her.
"you think of somebody you like, isn't it ? you really will obey our father and will marry?"
her so given glance usually is anxious.
"Yes, perhaps. But not immediately, Hanabi, don't worry "
I try to reassure my sister. But what does she worry ? marry is not a bad thing in general.
"When you marry, you will live in your husband's house, isn't it? you will not be any more a Hyuga ? "
Oh, I had not thought of it. It is the reason that they still didn't drive out me a my statute of heiress, they wait until I marry. They haven't the intention to insert my engaged couple in our family, but they will keep my children. I feel my stomach revolt with the idea that my children are taken to me.
Hanabi sees my feeling of revolt: "Forgive me, older sister, I didn't want make you sorrow! You will be always Hyuga for me! you will be always my sister! "
These words touch me in heart, but Hanabi doesn't stop there and she continues her tirade, delivering all her distress to me: "I don't want that you leave Hinata! You are my only sister, you are the only person who like me!"
Tears start to fall from her cheeks. "You are the only one who really love me, don't abandon me, don't abandon me!"
Hanabi cries, she I had never seen crying. My heart is tightened and I take her in my arms to try to comfort her. That was what worried you. . in fact, intuitively, you must know for a long time that I will leave, but you only have just understannd it. Forgive me, Hanabi.
"Hanabi, you are my little sister and, you will always remain it, do you hear me? I will love you always, little sister, don't forget it. Promise me that you will never forget it."
Hanabi head makes yes. . .
Don't forget me, little sister, even if I become criminal, promise me that I will always be your sister. . perhaps for you, I could explain my decision a little. The words I will say to you now, I am not sure that you will understand them, but keeps them in memory until the day of my departure....
"Hanabi, I would be sad to leave you, but that will arrive one day. One day I will leave with a man whom I love, one day I would not be anymore in this house, in this family. But it is not to obey our Father, or our clan. I will do it for me. To live the life that I would have chosen myself, and where I will be recognized and loved by somebody. I will leave from here to find happiness. Hanabi,do you understand me?"
Hanabi: "Y, yes. . "
Hinata: "You too, I hope you will find happiness. Forgive me, Hanabi, when I will leave, all will be much harder for you. You will be the only Hyuga heiress. You will not have any more right to the weakness, tiredness or the error. You will become the target of our enemies. But you are strong, then you will succeed, I am sure. But don't forget: you too have the right to happiness, and never lets our family prevent you from finding it."
It is done. I bade my farewell with my sister. Now, I am really ready to leave at any moment.. . the lash of the ship are cut, I await only one breath of wind which will inflate the veils and will take me along to far. I await nothing any more but you Itachi.
