Jack Psyche Work-Up - (Mark 2)
"Look Jack, I need to know how you feel" "About what?" "About anything, how do you feel in general" "A little annoyed" "Really?, why is that" "Because you think you have to build up to the big question, like I'm some kind of child" "No jack, that's not what I think" "Oh really, so why don't you just ask me?" "Ask you what?" "Oh, please doc, give me some credit, you wanna know about how I feel about my wife's death, so that you can tick your boxes and tell chappelle what a nut case I am" Rae looked, slightly embarrassed at the paper filled with boxes that sat in his lap. "You know, your right jack, but that still doesn't change anything, I still wanna know..." Jack jumped up, just on the cusp of Rae finishing his sentence, knocking a pile of papers to the floor in the process. "You wanna know, fine, I'll tell you, but it's sure as hell not gonna change anything either....I feel damn pissed off, with Nina, with everybody at CTU who didn't keep my wife safe, but most of all....with myself, for missing all the signs, and the one opportunity I had of killing her, you know if George and Tony didn't turn up when they did, I would of you know...." "Even though it wouldn't have undone all the stuff she had done?" Jack sat down slowly and replied flatly "Yeah, because then she would be as dead as my wife" "Teri, Jack...you can say her name" Rae said softly. Jack said nothing and Rae went on "Jack you have to work past this, and you can't do it alone, and neither can Kim, you need to do this together, Jack. Being apart from each other is no good for either of you." "Don't you think I want to be there for Kim?, I've tried, but it's just to hard, she blames me and I....I feel guilty, it gets us nowhere." Jack paused and then "that's why I'm not here at CTU. I want to be left alone, not picked apart like some curious specimen." "We're her to help Jack" Rae replied "Ever thought that I don't want help, that I just want to deal with it in my own time..." there was no response Rae could give, so he stayed silent, as Jack continued. "....and that maybe, I didn't even want to work for CTU anymore", with that Jack got up and walked out of Rae's office, with no appeal from Rae, he had heard all he needed.
Turning again to the paper sitting in his lap, he ignored the boxes and went straight to the bottom section labeled "recommendation" under which he wrote, 'Agent Bauer need more time, Inactive Status should be maintained'
Jack walked out of Rae's office, and down a corridor of CTU, it had once been like a second home, he groaned at the thought, there were many occasions it had been a sanctuary, and escape from his troubled marriage. He felt ashamed of something which he couldn't change. His mind lingered on these thoughts, a luxury he didn't often have. For so many years his life had been non-stop, lingering had not been an option, perhaps he should make up for that fact. That's all he wanted to do, to linger and to think things over....
"Look Jack, I need to know how you feel" "About what?" "About anything, how do you feel in general" "A little annoyed" "Really?, why is that" "Because you think you have to build up to the big question, like I'm some kind of child" "No jack, that's not what I think" "Oh really, so why don't you just ask me?" "Ask you what?" "Oh, please doc, give me some credit, you wanna know about how I feel about my wife's death, so that you can tick your boxes and tell chappelle what a nut case I am" Rae looked, slightly embarrassed at the paper filled with boxes that sat in his lap. "You know, your right jack, but that still doesn't change anything, I still wanna know..." Jack jumped up, just on the cusp of Rae finishing his sentence, knocking a pile of papers to the floor in the process. "You wanna know, fine, I'll tell you, but it's sure as hell not gonna change anything either....I feel damn pissed off, with Nina, with everybody at CTU who didn't keep my wife safe, but most of all....with myself, for missing all the signs, and the one opportunity I had of killing her, you know if George and Tony didn't turn up when they did, I would of you know...." "Even though it wouldn't have undone all the stuff she had done?" Jack sat down slowly and replied flatly "Yeah, because then she would be as dead as my wife" "Teri, Jack...you can say her name" Rae said softly. Jack said nothing and Rae went on "Jack you have to work past this, and you can't do it alone, and neither can Kim, you need to do this together, Jack. Being apart from each other is no good for either of you." "Don't you think I want to be there for Kim?, I've tried, but it's just to hard, she blames me and I....I feel guilty, it gets us nowhere." Jack paused and then "that's why I'm not here at CTU. I want to be left alone, not picked apart like some curious specimen." "We're her to help Jack" Rae replied "Ever thought that I don't want help, that I just want to deal with it in my own time..." there was no response Rae could give, so he stayed silent, as Jack continued. "....and that maybe, I didn't even want to work for CTU anymore", with that Jack got up and walked out of Rae's office, with no appeal from Rae, he had heard all he needed.
Turning again to the paper sitting in his lap, he ignored the boxes and went straight to the bottom section labeled "recommendation" under which he wrote, 'Agent Bauer need more time, Inactive Status should be maintained'
Jack walked out of Rae's office, and down a corridor of CTU, it had once been like a second home, he groaned at the thought, there were many occasions it had been a sanctuary, and escape from his troubled marriage. He felt ashamed of something which he couldn't change. His mind lingered on these thoughts, a luxury he didn't often have. For so many years his life had been non-stop, lingering had not been an option, perhaps he should make up for that fact. That's all he wanted to do, to linger and to think things over....
